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Sam was sitting on the couch, his long legs stretched out in front of him, kicked up on the coffee table.
The TV was on, but the volume was down.
For a moment, all I could do, was stare at him, as my stomach fluttered madly and dangerously.
I could get used to seeing him sitting on my couch, waiting for me to get off work. Or me waiting for him...preferably naked.
"Um..." He looked up, brows raised. "Is there something you want to tell me?" he asked.
I stiffened.
"What?"
A slow grin crossed his face.
"Your toilet seat lid was up."
"What?" I repeated.
"When I went into your bathroom, the toilet seat was up. I was wondering if there was something you weren't telling me. Like, if you were trying a new method or something," he teased.
'What in the world?'
The only time I'd ever accidentally left the toilet seat up, was when I cleaned it.
My mind raced to find a plausible explanation, to how the seat lifted up by itself.
Poltergeist. It was official. The Victorian was built on an old Indian burial ground. We all were screwed.
Could I call Ghost Hunters? Or The Dead Files people?
"Sit with me," Sam said, stretching his arm along the back of the couch.
He had easily dismissed the toilet-seat thing, and I almost blurted out my 'Haunting in Plymouth Meeting' suspicion, but decided against sounding like a lunatic, for the time being.
I prefer to talk to my mom or San about that.
Sam probably wouldn't believe me, and think I was being kooky Mercy.
Making my way over to him, I sat down, with what I considered, was appropriate space between us.
When I pulled my legs up and crossed them, there was at least an inch. And if I leaned back, it would be against his arm.
Why was I even thinking about this?
"What are you watching?" I asked, picking at the hem of my pants.
One shoulder rose in a shrug.
"Looks like an infomercial for music of the eighties. I'm thinking about buying it."
I snorted.
"Okay. I couldn't...I don't even own a CD player."
He sent me a sideways glance.
"You don't own a DVD player either," he stated.
When I'd been in his apartment, he'd had an impressive collection of DVDs.
Not that I got a chance to scope them out, but I bet he had every movie from the last two decades.
"Why would I, when I have On Demand?"
Shaking his head, he picked up his glass.
"You don't have a DVD collection and you still got your momma making tea for you. What am I doing here?" he asked, his tone playful.
"Whatever!" I smacked his thigh...his extremely hard thigh. Wow! My fingers tingled, when I drew my hand back. "How do you know I didn't make that tea?"
"It tastes just like your mom's tea," he countered, green eyes twinkling. "Plus, last I remember, your sweet tea tastes like watered-down engine fuel."
A laugh burst out of me.
"It does not."
He arched a brow.
"Okay. Fine. The ratio of tea to sugar, always throws me off," I admitted.
Sam chuckled.
"You know, I was being serious about learning how to shoot a gun earlier. It's just a smart thing to do," he said.
"I don't know. Guns...I don't have a problem with them, but they scare me," I admitted. "It's having the power to end a life in your hands. All you have to do, is pull a trigger." I shook my head. "That's just...that's just too much power."
"Babe, you damn well know a rock in the hands of the wrong person can change lives, end them even. A gun is no different."
Unsettled, I had to admit that he was right.
But guns were also a part of his life and they weren't a part of mine.
Growing up, Dad had hunting rifles, but I rarely ever saw them. He kept them locked up, and never once did it cross my mind to get one for myself.
"You just have to be responsible," he continued. "Just think about it. For me?"
"I'll think about it."
Smiling, I looked at the TV. Some dude with a Mohawk was waving a CD around.
"So, what were you doing at your dad's house?" I asked.
Sam took a long drink and as he sat the glass down, the ice clinked around.
A moment passed, and I wanted to kick myself. He was never a fan of talking about his dad.
Shock rippled through me, as he looked over at me and answered, a second before I tried to change the subject.
"Divorce Number Three."
I gaped at him.
"What? When did this happen?"
That was kind of a stupid question, because, I hadn't exactly been friendly with him for the last eleven months.
"You know, I really don't know. Everything was fine at the beginning of summer. He and Eileen were going on vacation in Florida..."
He tipped his head back against the cushion, flipping his gaze to the ceiling and barked out a short laugh.
"...then again, Dad doesn't know how to be up front about anything. So, him telling me or Stevie things were good, doesn't mean shit. The man's nothing but a liar."
I pressed my lips together for a moment.
"Did he say what happened?" I asked.
Sam's gaze returned to me.
"What do you think?"
A sigh rose.
"Did he cheat on her?"
"Yep."
A second passed and then I felt his hand in my hair, causing me to suck in a short breath.
The touch was light, as if he was just running his fingers over it, but every cell in my body became hyper-aware.
"With a younger woman he met on a business trip. He had the gall to tell me, it was only a one-night thing and that Eileen was overreacting."
"Overreacting to being cheated on? How does one overreact to that?" I asked.
"You know my dad. The man knows no wrong," he said, shaking his head. "While I was there, he left his cell phone on the hood of his car. The thing rang and a woman's name was on the screen. I've never heard of her before, but I'd bet my savings account, it was the 'one night stand' chick. I'm not surprised his marriage is ending that way. By the time my mom wised up and left his ass, he'd been with five other women. And not a 'wham, bam, thank ya ma'am' kind of thing either. Five other relationships."
"That's so sad," I murmured, lowering my chin.
His father was a habitual cheater. At least, that's what I had heard his mom saying once.
"I'm sorry. I know you're older now, so is Stevie, and maybe it doesn't hurt as much as it did, when you were younger, but it still sucks."
Instead of denying it, Sam smiled softly.
"Yeah, it does."
His fingers had left my hair, but his arm was still there, warm and beckoning me to lean back.
"I didn't get too close to Eileen, but she seemed like a good woman. She didn't deserve that. No one does," he said.
Taking a deep breath, I leaned back.
His arm was right behind my neck and not a second seemed to pass, before his hand found its way to my shoulder.
"Do you think he'll marry again?" I asked.
"Probably."
Sam grabbed his glass, taking another drink. I'd completely forgotten about mine.
"I think the worst thing, though, isn't the fact that he'd stick his dick in anything that walked, but that he constantly lies about it, even when he's caught. I don't get that. Never will. Anyway," he said, drawing out the word with a grin, that didn't quite reach the beautiful eyes, I had such a hard time capturing. "What have you painted lately?"
Holy shit, was he a mind reader?
Heat flooded my cheeks, as I searched in my head for something that didn't include his face.
"Um, well I've been doing a lot of landscapes. Beaches. Gettysburg. That kind of stuff."
'Good answer, girl!'
His gaze tracked over my face, almost like a physical caress.
"You still painting for Kurt?"
Of course, he'd remember that. Nodding, I wasn't surprised when the familiar sadness washed over me, as I thought of all those paintings hanging on his wall.
The hand on my shoulder tightened.
"So, when are you going to paint something for me?"
"When you become my official pool boy," I retorted.
He stared at me.
"You don't have a pool."
"I know. So it's when I get a pool and you become my official pool boy." I grinned. "You think I'm kidding."
Tipping his head back, he laughed deeply, as he used the hand on my shoulder to tug me over to him.
One second I was leaning into him, and the next I was on my back, my head resting in his lap, and all I could think, as I stared up at him, was, that was one hell of a smooth move.
"Did you learn that move while training to be a cop?" I asked, breathless.
"Yeah, they teach that special kind of take-down in the academy."
His thick, lashes lowered, as he settled a large hand on the curve of my hip farthest from him.
"I couldn't wait to use it on you."
I smiled up at him and my heart started jumping around in my chest. I sensed the hand on my hip, seemed like a natural thing to him.
"I feel honored," I said.
"You should."
Using his other hand, he carefully brushed a strand of hair out of my face. It seemed like an absent-minded touch, but it sent my heart careening.
When his lashes lifted, all I could see were brilliant green eyes. And I knew in that moment, that being satisfied with just a hookup here and there, was going to be really hard.
Before I could really dwell on that realization, he spoke.
"Can I ask you a question?"
"Sure."
I wished he'd ask if he could kiss me. That would've been a resounding yes.
The hand on my hip shifted and his thumb smoothed over the hem of my cami, and I shivered.
"What were you thinking when you threw that book, Mercy?"
Whoa. Total change of subject I wasn't prepared for.
Here I was, thinking about him kissing me and he totally blindsided me with that question.
I opened my mouth, but it took me a few seconds to answer.
"I really...really wasn't thinking," I said.
He picked up a strand of my hair, twisting it around his fingers.
"Babe, I don't think there's ever truly a moment, when we're not thinking."
I averted my gaze as I chewed on my lower lip.
Thinking back to the moment Karofsky had grabbed my arm, there was a lot in my head. So much, that it felt like there was nothing and my chest tightened.
Sam dropped my hair and ran his finger over my lower lip, startling a gasp out of me...and a response.
"I hate him," I blurted out, feeling the words swell inside me like a blood promise. "I seriously hate him, Sam. I never really hated someone before, but when I see him, I want to...I want him to hurt like Kurt hurt. That's what I was thinking when I threw the book."
The lines of Sam's face softened.
"Mercy..."
"I know it's wrong." I closed my eyes, exhaling slowly. "I know what I did wasn't that much different, than what he did."
"No," Sam argued, and when I opened my eyes, he was staring at me intently. "What you did, was throw a book at a windshield, not at him. Patrick picked up a rock and threw it at the back of Kurt's head, when you two walked away."
I flinched.
"You never had any intentions of harming Patrick Karofsky," he went on, as he kept swiping his thumb along the hem of my cami. "And if he really didn't mean to do the kind of damage he did to Kurt, he still made the conscious decision to throw that rock at him. Not at the ground or a nearby car...he threw it at another living being. You'd never do that."
Cold air whirled its way down my chest, and into my stomach.
The thing was, I wasn't too sure of that. When I had tasted that anger, that red-hot bitter anger, I knew I was capable of doing something heinous.
Everyone was capable of it.
Some moral compass ingrained in me, had prevented it, but would it always stop me?
If I saw Karofsky again, there was a good chance I'd lose my cool once more, and really, how did that make me any better than him?
"Deep thoughts," I murmured, edgy from where my thoughts were heading.
Sam's lips quirked up at the corners, as his thumb brushed against the thin sliver of skin, exposed under the hem now.
The touch was like an electric shot.
"Yeah, too deep for four in the morning," he said.
Sam's tone was light, but everything in me was heavy.
It was like a door being unlocked inside my head and painful memories of the night with Kurt and Karofsky, were unleashed.
They stacked up inside me, like a tower about to topple over. They started with what I had done, the verbal rock I had thrown, that had started it all.
And here I was, lying in the lap of the man I'd...well, I'd been lying to for eleven months. A man who hated lying, more than anything. This wasn't right.
Pushing myself up, I started to roll onto my side, so I could pretend to go to the bathroom, to give myself time to clear my head, but I didn't make it.
Sam curved his hand behind my neck and the hand on my hip slid up my waist, stopping just below my breast.
My eyes popped wide, as he held me there, with my shoulder pressed against his chest.
"Don't," he said, voice rough.
That one word was like a lightning bolt. Sometimes, I forgot how well he knew me.
Even though we hadn't spoken for almost a year, he still knew when I was getting cagey.
He recognized that my mood could flip, as quickly as a coin spinning through the air.
Our eyes locked, as I placed my hand on his shoulder.
I started to push off, but then he lowered his head and just as i looked up, his lips brushed mine.
It was a slow sweep. He made the pass with his lips once and then twice.
I couldn't breathe, as I felt the heat of his mouth increasing. It was the most gentle pressure, as he held me in place.
There was an almost questioning feel, to how his lips moved over mine, as if it were for the very first time.
But it wasn't.
And that night at his place, he hadn't kissed me like this...not as tender, and not so sweet, that a ball of stupid emotion formed in the back of my throat.
This kiss was different. It was like he cherished me.
My fingers curled into his shoulder, bunching the thin cotton of his shirt, as my heart raced.
When I thought about him kissing me, I didn't think it would be like this. No guy has ever kissed me like I was a treasure.
"Sam," I whispered against his mouth.
And it seemed, something about hearing his name, snapped a part of him.
The hand along the back of my neck tightened, as did the one at my waist, and the kiss...oh wow, the kiss deepened.
He nipped at my lower lip, wringing out a soft moan, that went straight to my core. Then, he parted my lips, tasting me.
The kiss was like touching fire, igniting a deep-seated desire.
I remembered this kind of kissing, it was different, stronger and deeper.
And there wasn't a hint of liquor on his tongue, just sugar and tea and one hundred percent male.
I no longer needed the space to clear my thoughts. My head was an empty road with one destination in mind...him.
Sitting up, I wiggled around, until I managed to get a knee on either side of Sam's legs. And he watched me with heavy hooded eyes.
"I like where this is going," he said, grasping my hips. "I really fucking do, but I want..."
Done with talking and deep thoughts and well intentions, I cupped his cheeks and got down to business.
I kissed him...kissed him just as deeply and as hotly, as he'd kissed me.
A deep growl rumbled up and I felt it vibrate in his chest, as the grip on my hips tightened, sending a wave of hot shivers through me.
His mouth opened immediately, and I tilted my head, tasting him.
Next, my fingers made their way into the soft brush of hair, clipped closer to the sides and then into the longer strands. And he made another sound, that sparked a fresh wave of desire through me.
His hands slid up my back, following the line of my spine, before tangling in my hair for a few precious moments.
There wasn't a second, that we stopped devouring one another with long, wet kisses and shorter ones, that sent heat flooding my body.
Sam glided those hands back down, over the small of my back, and then, he cupped my rear, squeezing, until I was gasping for breath.
Right at that moment, the kiss turned hungry, as he guided me down on his lap. And another wave of lust slammed into me, at the feel of him, straining against his denim jeans.
From the brief moments spent together before, I knew he was long and thick, but I had forgotten just how good he felt.
I rocked my hips, pressing myself down on Sam, and was immediately rewarded with a blast of sensual pleasure.
Resting my forehead against his, I moaned, as I tugged on the short strands of hair.
"God, you're going to drive me insane..."
His voice was thick and raw.
He pulled my hips down harder, as he ground up, hitting the right spot, through my thin yoga pants.
"...and I don't think you're going to be happy, until you do." he finished.
Panting, I let my hands slip down the sides of his neck, to his shoulders.
"I want you insane for me," I admitted, biting down on my lip, as he brought our hips together again.
"Baby, I'm already insane for you..."
He captured my lips in another scorching kiss, before breaking away, trailing a hot, shivery stream up along my jaw.
"...I think you know that."
Tipping my head back, I held on tight and mumbled,
"Nuh-uh."
He moved those kisses down my throat, stopping to nip above my pulse, then soothed the erotic burn with a soft kiss.
"Every time I saw you this past year, I wanted you here. Right here," he said.
To punctuate what he said, he rolled his hips, pressing the bulge in his jeans against my core.
"And every time you turned and walked away from me, I wanted to give chase."
I shook, as he brought his hot mouth to the line of my collarbone.
He drew his hands up, letting them roam over my stomach and then farther up, over the swell of my breasts.
My back arched, as exquisite sensations rippled through me.
"You have no idea, how many times I thought about throwing you over my shoulder and taking you back to the stockroom," Sam said.
His thumbs swept over the tips of my breasts, which were already hard and aching.
"I'm thinking, I should've just done that. Then we could've left all this bullshit behind us earlier," he ended.
My head was swimming, lost in the pleasure he was drawing out of me.
"Sounds like..." I gasped, as his tongue flicked over my pulse. "Sounds like it would've been a good plan," I said.
Sam lifted his head, as he brought his hands to my shoulders, slipping his fingers under the straps. His eyes snared mine.
"May I?"
God, he could be asking for anything at this point and I'd hand it over. I nodded, beyond words.
One side of his mouth curved up, and again, there was a pang deep in my chest, as he grinned at me, all boyish charm and sensuality.
And I knew I'd fallen for him all those years ago.
There was no changing that.
Even though I knew he hadn't fallen with me, and maybe never would, it didn't undo, that he was already under my skin...a part of me.
With his burning gaze locked with mine, Sam slid the straps of my cami down to my elbows.
And I didn't hesitate. I dropped my arms, and I slipped them out, allowing the material to settle around my waist.
Sam kissed me softly and then he pulled back.
His lashes lowered and I knew he was staring at me, and a bit of the haze lifted from my thoughts.
Did he remember what I looked like from the alcohol-filled night?
Vulnerability slipped over my skin like an itchy sweater.
But he shuddered, as he wrapped his hands around my bare breasts, touching me almost reverently.
I looked down, breathless, as he held me, my brown skin standing out against the pale pinkness of his.
"You're so beautiful," he growled, grazing the pads of his thumbs over the hard nubs of my breasts.
I jerked, as his lips kicked back into that grin.
"You like that?"
"Yeah," I whispered, and then nodded, just in case he didn't get the message.
"I don't remember what makes you move," he said, catching my tip between agile fingers. "I don't remember what drives you crazy."
He tugged gently, and I cried out. His lashes lifted, eyes full of hunger.
"You're sensitive."
I was and had always been sensitive there.
San, stripper extraordinaire, once told me, I was lucky, because, most women she knew, really weren't too big on foreplay of the busty kind.
Unable to look away, I watched Sam touch me.
There was something highly erotic about this.
Never before, had I ever done this.
Then again, most guys hadn't really taken this much time, and when he lowered his hands to my hips, I thought he was moving on.
I was wrong.
He lifted me up, so I was stretching above him and as I steadied myself, by placing my hands on the back of the couch, he closed his mouth over the tip of my breast.
"Oh my God," I cried out, as he drew the puckered nipple into his mouth. "Sam...oh God..."
One hand flattened between my shoulders, pulling on my hair, and a series of sharp, sensual tingles radiated across my scalp, as he savored me.
I was trapped, but there was nowhere else I wanted to be as he moved from one breast to the other.
My fingers dug into the cushions, as he suckled deep, causing the muscles inside me to coil tightly, until I couldn't take it anymore and tried to pull away.
"No," he groaned. "I'm not done with you yet."
I gasped, as he caught the tip between his teeth and the tiny nip sent molten lava through my blood.
I trembled against him, my body hot.
"I can't...I need you. Please," I begged.
Sam released me, and I went wild.
Clenching his shoulders, I pressed myself back down against him, finding his mouth blindly.
His hands went back to my hips, as I rocked against him.
The soft material of his shirt teased the tips of my breasts, and the friction between my legs against the hardness, was too much.
I couldn't remember the last time I felt like this, but I could feel my release building inside me, as I ground down on him, and he pushed up, the thrusts of his hips matching that of his tongue.
Release spun through me, exploding from my core and rippling through every part of my clothed body.
Sam's mouth muffled my moan, but he knew what had happened, because, a purely masculine sound rumbled out of him.
When the last of the pleasure ebbed through my veins, I was flushed and trembling.
"Look at you," he said into my ear, his voice harsh. "Nothing hotter, baby."
It took me a couple of moments to come to my senses, enough to realize, that he'd seriously gotten me off.
I pulled back a little and pressed a tiny kiss against the corner of his lips.
"What do you want me to do?" I asked.
His eyes were full of green fire.
"Baby, watching you come, made my night."
I shuddered, thinking he was being kind of perfect, but I glanced down and there was no mistaking the bulge in his pants.
Hands still shaking as I rocked back, I reached between us, half expecting him to stop me.
But he didn't.
A lazy, sated smile pulled at my lips, as I ran my fingers over the covered length of him, feeling my insides clench all over, when his hips popped up in response.
I glanced up at him, breathing deeply.
"Sam, you didn't get off."
He shook his head, jaw locked down and my hands moved, as if they had a mind of their own.
My heart was racing all over again, as I undid his button and carefully tugged down the zipper.
The material parted, revealing black boxer briefs.
Without saying a word, he lifted his ass and me right off the couch, in a silent demand.
I wasted no time, tugging down his jeans and boxers.
I stared, as he sprung free, thick and heavy. Truthfully, this part of a guy's body isn't always the most attractive thing in the word, but Sam...oh yeah, it was just as yummy as the rest of him.
Speaking of the rest of him.
As he settled back down, I tugged up the hem of his shirt and he lifted his arms, letting me pull it off.
I tossed it somewhere, I hoped he never found it, and got a huge eyeful of what it looked like, when a man was no longer a boy and worked his body hard, to stay in shape.
Golden skin stretched smooth and tight over his pecs and then down a chiseled, rock-hard stomach, that was tightly rolled.
A trail of light hair ran under his navel, down to where he waited.
I dragged my gaze from his perfect manhood, my eyes going to a scar, just to the left of his navel.
The skin was puckered in an irregular circle and there was another above that. And I knew if I got his pants off, there'd be a third.
My breath caught, as I thought about how close I came...how close all of us came to losing him.
Leaning forward, I kissed him, wishing I could take back eleven months of being stupid, because, time is short and never promised.
"What do you want me to do?" I asked Sam again.
His eyes searched mine.
"There's a lot I want you to do, baby."
"Pick one." 'Or two. Or three. I'd do them all.'
Sam reached down, wrapping his fingers around his length. Holy smokes, I felt the need to fan myself, as his grip tightened.
My lips parted, as he slowly brought his hand up to the head and then back down.
"This is what I want you to do."
Blood was pounding in my ears and I barely heard myself say,
"You are so freaking hot, Sam."
He groaned, as his hand swept up again and his back bowed, and I couldn't help it...I moaned.
His gaze flew back to mine, a different kind of fire burning in their depths.
"I think I know what you want."
"What?" I breathed.
He reached out with his other hand, curling it around the base of my neck, as he stroked himself again.
Liquid beaded on the tip.
"You want to watch me," he said.
Every part of my body burned. Not out of shame, but because it was true.
"I've never watched a guy..." I started.
"That's all I need to hear," he said, moving his hand.
My breath shortened in my chest, as I watched Sam, his grip getting stronger and stronger.
I couldn't believe that I was doing this...couldn't believe how arousing it was...or that I was still in his lap, my cami forgotten around my waist, my skin heated.
I started to look up.
"No. Watch me," he ordered, and I shivered at the demand in his voice.
So I watched him, as his hand pumped and his hips moved more furiously. And I had to place my hands back on his shoulders to hold on.
I didn't look away, not until his hand around my neck yanked me forward.
Sam kissed me, as he found his release.
And he didn't just kiss me...he devoured me, as he rocked into his hand.
"Fuck!"
He drew the word out, as his one arm closed around me, gathering me close to his bare chest and holding tight.
And I buried my head in the space between his neck and shoulder, breathing in the crisp scent of his aftershave, as I felt his heart start to slow.
Neither of us spoke for a long moment and then he laughed softly, the sound bringing a smile to my lips.
"Damn, baby." He cleared his throat. "You're going to make me want to keep you."
My heart was tugged in two opposite directions, as my befuddled head tried to make sense of what that meant.
Already, I was beginning to apply a crazy amount of meaning to what he said.
Did it mean that he wasn't planning on it?
That this was just for fun?
But he'd said he wanted to be more than friends.
Did it even matter?
No, it didn't, because, there was no lying to myself.
I wanted him to keep me.
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