It's been two weeks since Ope kissed me and to be honest I found myself avoiding him. Yeah it was wrong because I know he was so wrapped up in his feelings that he didn't truly want to kiss me,at least that's what I thought. Let's be honest, I don't have the best judgement. I just couldn't face him. I laughed to myself because my whole life all I wanted was for him to kiss me and tell me how much he loved me. He'll it used to control my every thought wondering if today would be the day he burst out of the friend zone. now that he had all I could think of was Donna. I genuinely liked her and didn't want to lose her friendship. Sad, I know right? I know the irony of the situation and to be it was not worst part is, after Ope kissing me I knew we could possibly have a chance. A chance to be everything I ever wanted with him but I couldn't follow through with it. I couldn't make him be with me no matter how much I wanted it, and I knew it was because of Donna. Shockingly it didn't make me hate her though, she was still everything I wanted to be but it wasn't right for me to ruin her life. And if I pushed hard enough, I knew that I would. Or well knew that I could. Why are things so complicated? Why couldn't this be like a Disney story...Okay maybe not that cheesy. I tilted my head to the side. Though I doubt they would ever make a Disney movie about two best friends being in love without the others knowledge and the first best friend finds someone else proposes and gets her pregnant. Only to find one that the girl was lying. I laughed at myself, yeah definitely not a Disney movie. I thought back to my movie script of a life and found out that deep down I still wished that Donna was all a dream...Or ya know lying about her pregnancy bit that clearly wasn't the case. Her thin stomach was already starting to show and I was happy for her, even though I wished it was me.

I walked out of the office and stretched. My shirt lifted to reveal a little bit of my stomach but I honestly didn't care. Gem had asked if I would help out in the office, only she decided not to show which was very unlike Gemma. But oh well I wasn't complaining. It just meant I didn't have to look into her accusing eyes or answer any questions about her had also been two weeks since I talked to Jax, who seemed to be avoiding me. I wasn't happy about the arrangement but maybe it was for the better. Any time I did happen to catch a glimpse of him he had his lips all over Wendy and I wasn't mentally prepared for that. I guess he was right all along, he wasn't good enough for me. If he did care about me there's no reason he would put me through this anguish. I was finally coming to terms with my feelings for him then he does this. What a douchebag.

I glanced around the buzzing parking lot of TM and a couple of bikes pulled up. I shielded my eyes so I could attempt to see who it was and a grin broke out on my face. I surprised myself by jogging over to them. My smile was genuine and I pulled him into a hug, which he surprised me but hugging me back.

"Hey killer," he grinned back at me, obviously liking the nickname.

"Hey Leanne, it's been awhile."

"You really should consider switching charters Hap, I don't see you enough." He shrugged.

"I go where they need me." I smiled. Since the issue with Kyle, Happy and I had a sort of weird kinship. I looked forward to seeing him and I think he enjoyed my company. Bobby slapped his shoulder, interrupting our staring contest.

"Come on Happ, should be about church time. See you in a bit Faith." Hap smiled then followed Bobby and I found myself smiling back. How could someone so hardcore be such a nice guy?

Gem's Cadillac pulled up and drew me out of my trance. She slowly got out of her truck and tilted her shades down at me with interest.

"Aren't I paying you to be working?" I rolled my eyes. Yeah and she was probably being paid for not even being here this morning.

"Took a break, I am allowed those remember?" I said with a shrug. She smiled back, regardless of her being the Queen I think she liked that I didn't take her shit most of the time. Not many of the girls give it back to her, mind you I was afraid of her and her opinion of me.

"You seen my kid by chance?" I shrugged. She already knew that answer, she just wanted to hear it from me. I don't know if she knew exactly what was going on with me and Jax but she had an idea.

"I don't know what's gotten into you two. You guys used to be attached at the hip, now you guys go weeks without seeing each other." I didn't respond as I followed her into the office.

"Well let's see what you managed to get accomplished."

We worked in a peaceful silence for a few hours when we were interrupted by the door opened. My breath hitched and my start started to pound. It was Jax. He had a streak of oil down his cheek but that didn't diminish his good looks. He smiled at his mother but didn't acknowledge my presence. I looked down at my files and tried to stay invisible.

"The keys to beamer ma. it's done." He leaned over and kissed her cheek and she patted him on his, oblivious to the oil streak.

"Thanks baby, don't forget about dinner tonight. You bringing that thing?" He chuckled and sat on the edge of her desk with his back towards me deliberately.

"She has a name ma and probably. I still haven't told her yet." She pursed her lips but didn't say anything.

"You already know how I feel but I love you." He stood up and kissed her cheek again and went to the office door.

"Love you too."

She cut her eyes at me but I pretended not to notice. The last thing I wanted was a conversation with Gemma while I struggled with the hard lump that formed in my throat. This was the first time he made his message clear that he was purposely avoiding me and trying to hurt me. Fuck it. I was done letting him hurt me. I tossed the file on the table and walked out the door and into the garage and yelled for the whole garage to hear.

"You know Jackson Teller you're a real piece of work. We've been friends our whole lives and now you're gonna treat me like this. Fuck you and your goddamn community dick having, acting like your God's gift to women but really you're really just afraid of commitment! " I turned on my heel and stormed back into the office.

a/n: new chapter what do u think? How do we feel about happy? How do we feel about Jax I love your opinions

-chelle