I happily ran to her car. Who would have ever thought that I would find solitude in seeing Donna. Maybe my mom was right all along, maybe I did need more girl friends. Then again I never really have had the personality to have female friends. Since that fateful day at Lena's, my life had mostly been cars, motorcycles and getting dirty. I was everything you would imagine a tomboy to be and even though I wouldn't change it, I had to figure out the girly things on my own or by watching videos. My mom helped with the make up but styles had changed a lot since she learned how so that meant endlessly watching videos on how to be a girl. I laughed a little to myself. I still wouldn't change it but for once hanging out with another female felt right. Don't get me wrong, I used to have the two bestest friends I could ever ask for and I never could imagine being without them. I felt a hard pang in my chest. I wish things were different right now.
We drove to the local diner, aimlessly chattering about absolutely nothing of importance. My mind was still spinning from the conversation, I scoffed, well screaming I did at Jax. Don't get me wrong I have seen him in asshole form plenty of times but it was never directed at me. Hell I've seen him come to blows with the finest and it was me who pulled him away from it all. But what was I supposed to do now that I was the target of his hate? That's exactly what I feel it is too, today when he completely ignored me I felt the intent of it. He wanted me to hurt. That alone caused the ache to pulse. How did things get this bad? Why oh why did he have to kiss me barely a month ago? That's where my whole life went to shit. Actually it started with Opie and Donna's announcement, but hey the same night. Why did Opie come and drag me out of my comfort cocoon of a home. If he wanted to be friends still we could have fixed that at my home, but it was as plain to me as the nose on my face that Jax wasn't even trying to be my friend and that alone devastated me. Open could have saved me a world of hurt by just fixing our relationship and keeping me away from Jax. I snorted to myself. When has Opie ever saved me from hurting? Physically, yes he was always making sure I was out of harm's way, but emotionally that man had wrecked my soul for well over seven years and until recently he didn't have the slightest idea. The realization that we were no longer moving brought me out of my thoughts. I turned to Donna and she was staring at me with concern etching her face. I started to smile, to cast on fake emotions like I was used too but I was surprised when the single tear ran down my right pulled me into a hug and I just started to bawl. She rubbed my back as I let it out.
"I could see it in your expression, that you had a lot on your mind. Maybe I should have interrupted your thoughts." I shook my head and pulled back from her while rubbing my eyes. I stared ahead at the local diner.
"Nah, I just have to sort some shit out. Let's go in. I imagine you're starving" it didn't take much to get her out of the truck and inside, for that I was thankful. A few more moments and I would have been baring my soul.
I glanced through the menu, torn between what I normally get; the open faced roast beef, or a good old fashioned cheeseburger. Our waitress walked up. She's been here since I was a little girl. Not much has changed about her though, her white blonde hair was short and combed back with her bangs laying caked with hairspray against her forehead. Her bright blue eyeshadow was put on very dark , along with her red lipstick. She brightened when she realized it was me.
"Luanne girl look at you! I haven't seen you in awhile." I laughed and patted her back as she engulfed me in a half leaned down hug. She smelled strongly of white diamonds, Elizabeth Taylor's perfume.
"I come in here from time to time. You're never here though." She smiled at me and I could tell she was envisioning me as a little girl.
"Yeah I normally work early mornings. 3 am- 11am. I'm surprised, last I heard you were never seen without Jackson Teller and Harry Winston." I did what I managed to do best, I laughed even though I felt like crying.
"Yeah they're working at the shop right now. This is Donna, my other best friend. She's actually Harry's fiance." She pursed her lips bit gave me a quick smile.
"Is that so? How's your mama? I sure miss her. She don't get out much."
"Yeah she works overnights at the hospital. You know how it is, it drains ya." She just nodded in response and took our orders. Donna ordered a triple decker cheeseburger. I slightly raised my eyebrow and decided fuck it. I'm ordering the same thing. Where she skimmed on the onions and mustard. I ordered mine with every thing. It was time for something different, might as well start with small changes.
"So I'm seriously bursting to show someone this. I was hoping it would be Ope but we're really good friends so I'm going to show you first." She reached into her bag and pulled out a small card. She opens it up and sat it in front of me. My stomach turned to knots as I stated at the picture. You couldn't see features but it was definitely a baby. My eyes started to water as I stated blankly at this little creature who had thrown the wrench in my life but surprisingly I smiled. I made a vow then and there that since Opie would never be mine, I was going to be the best aunt ever. This kid was going to want for nothing. My eyes threatened to spill over but I quickly shook it away. My love story was closing and I was going to be okay with that, because this little guy or girl needed both of their parents and there was no way I was going to ruin that.
"Judging from the picture, they're estimating I'm about ten week, which puts my due date at around April 25th. This is just so surreal. This picture seems to put it all in perspective for me. He or she is here! I can't believe I'm going to be a mom." I sighed and placed my hand over hers.
"I need you to do something for me. It's kind of odd to ask but Open struggles a lot with thinking he's like Piney. I imagine this little guy or gal is really stirring that up for him. Remind him, hell remind him every day if you have too, that he's nothing like Piney. He needs that. He needs to hear that from you." I pulled my hand back as our waitress came with our food. She didn't respond to me as I dug into my massive cheeseburger. To my credit, I ate half of it and all of my fries before I sat back and rubbed my belly.
"Girl I don't know if I could handle being pregnant. I eat a lot as is. Hanging out with you is going to be bad for my waist line." She smiled but it didn't reach her eyes. She looked at me with the most serious expression
"You really love him don't you?" I sighed.
"How I feel isn't a concern here. You two are happy and in love and going to be bringing a beautiful child into this world. One that let's hope and pray has your hair and not their fathers because let's face it he's a curly mess. We're friends Donna, at least I hope we are. Regardless of the circumstances I'm never going to come between yours and Opies happy ever after " she placed her hand on mine and stared at me as if she were looking into my soul. I actually swallowed my next words because of the stare and the sickness in my belly.
"Thank you for that. I know it's at a great personal cost. You're a good friend to us both. I hope not to lose that." I smiled genuinely.
"You won't. I promise."
a/n: so hiatus again. I told myself last time I wasn't updating until just a former old lady got updated as we know I like to update each of my stories. But for the life of me I can't get it going. I stare at a blank page endlessly. So sorry for the wait. Here's a new chapter of this one instead, it on the other hand has been nonstop bothering me. The cats out of the bag and Donna now knows Faiths true feelings. What do we think? I hope Jax pulls his head out of his ass soon on my part but as much as I try to force it the story has to go on its own accord. Let me know what u think