We ended up going back to Opie's dorm to talk and gossip, and in Donna's case: eat. To be so small she was really putting away half of a pizza by herself. I definitely did not need to let myself eat like that; she has a baby growing inside of her I do not. Still despite myself I ate three pieces, compared to her four plus an order of bread sticks.

We both crashed out in the bed together after what seemed to be endless conversation. She talked about Opie, well griped about some of the things that got on her nerves, which some I agreed others I tried to make her understand why he is the way he is. We talked about Jax and his shit headedness and of course we talked about how amazingly hot Josh was. It's weird to say that I'm really glad that Ope had met her, even if right now it was only because I have an actual female friend! One I can talk about guys, food and my idiot best friends with. I genuinely enjoyed her company, it helped that we're a lot alike. I still think it's ironic that Opie's choice in her may have been initially caused by the fact that we are so much alike. I need to thank the guy not only for giving me a new found best friend but also for going to bat with Jax over me . I know how much he hates fighting with him, so the fact that he's willing to do so just so some guy can flirt with me said a lot.

I woke up fully relaxed without even a slight hangover. I didn't drink all that much so I wasn't really expecting one but with the way my luck goes I wasn't sure. I looked to my left and saw Donna curled up in a ball under the blanket that I'm guessing Ope laid on her. It's the little things, like the fact that he worried about her being cold, that separates him from Piney. He doesn't see it but really we all know Piney would not have covered up his fiance/ child's mother when she fell asleep. I wish he realized just how much that he wasn't his dad. I shook my head, well one day he will realize, even if it's not until this baby is born. I know he's going to be a much better dad than his own. I will make sure of it.

I don't even remember falling asleep last night just talking then nothing. I looked around the room for the fiercest friendly giant and stiffled a giggle at the sight of him sprawled out next to the bed, his samcro hoodie under his head as a pillow and a throw blanket laid over him, barely covering his big form I should add. Well more like covering his torso and the tops of his thighs, the only thing he had to warm his feet were his socks. I eased myself up and walked over to him. I squatted down so I was close to his head and lightly tapped his shoulder. He awoke with a start, almost knocking me to the floor. He looked almost relieved to see me.

"Oh it's you. I thought I overslept."

"Eh it's about five a.m. I'm not sure when you guys were leaving. I figured you could get at least an hour's worth of sleep in your own bed. Thanks for letting me crash in it by the way." He rubbed the back of his head and I could tell he was stiff all over.

"No problem Lu, you know I try to look out for you. I'm actually glad you and Donna get along so well. Oh man am I sore. You're right an hour in my own bed...Wait where are you going to sleep?" I stood up and rolled my shoulders.

"I'm wide awake, figured I'd make some breakfast. Get some sleep Ope." He stood up as I walked towards the door, I instantly walked back and gave him a good squeeze. He squeezed me back.

"Thanks for being a good friend Ope. Thanks for going to bat for me and thanks for giving me a new friend that I never imagined I would have." He rubbed my head. When he pulled back he almost looked confused, but still he replied. He'd probably ask me more about it when he got up, if he remembers.

"Anytime squirt."

I walked out into the clubhouse and I wasn't surprised to find bodies laying everywhere. There's nothing like a samcro party that's for sure. I'm not going to lie, each body I stepped over or passed by I looked for Josh. In a way I think I was praying not to find him with some croweater. I finally spotted him, crashed out on the couch that Jax and Wendy were on last night by himself. He had his hoodie on, with the hood up and a snapback over his face. I quickly walked back to Ope's dorm and grabbed the blanket he left on the floor. I took a moment to glance at the two of them and couldn't help but smile. He had placed her under the blanket and she was now wrapped up in his arms. I felt the familiar pang hit my chest but this time it was because of how much I wanted that. I wanted someone to love me more than they loved themselves, enough to worry about if I'm happy or sad. I sighed and closed the door, just to bump into captain shithead himself.

"Sorry," I mumbled as I tried to walk past him. He grabbed my arm and made me face him, which at the moment was the last thing I wanted.

"Wait Faith, let me talk to you." I pulled my arm out of his grasp. I crossed both of my arms against my chest.

"What Jackson I have things to do." .

He sighed and rubbed the back of his head.

"I'm sorry for being a dick lately. It just seemed like the better option then letting you get wrapped up in to my shit. You deserve better than that and we both know how much better you are than me. I'm sorry I hurt you." I felt my eyes water and I quickly shook them off. There was no way in hell I was letting him see me cry. I turned my head to face the wall and we sat in silence. I wasn't sure what to say. I didn't want to tell him it was okay, because it wasn't. To be honest, I think it was what he was waiting on. Too bad I'm not catering to his feelings anymore.

"What you did to me was really screwed up. I don't think I've ever been so hurt in my life. You were supposed to be my best friend, the one I turn to for everything. You turned your back on me at the worst possible time but that's okay it made me have to fix my shit myself. Believe it or not it actually made Opie step up and we're better friends than we have ever been."

He reached out to touch me I think and I took a step back.

"I'm sorry Luanne, more than you'll ever know." Realization hit me like a ton of bricks. He wasn't apologizing because he actually felt he was wrong.

He was doing it because of Josh and he was worried that I was actually going to be into someone else.

"You know what Jax, this is low even for you. I bet if Josh hadnt talked to me last night, you wouldn't be here with your sorry's today." The guilt flashed on his face as he looked to the ground. Ugh I could punch him!

"He's not good for you." That caused me to laugh. I'm so damn tired of him telling me who was and wasn't good enough for me.

"Oh really? He's not either huh? The way it's looking then all the men around me should take a fucking number because no one is good enough for me. News flash asshole, my life, my choice!" I turned to walk away and he grabbed my arm

"I'm serious Lu."

"Oh and why not?"

"Because, he's ..."

"Too much like you Jax? Is that what you're trying to say? Well I don't know if anything is going to come of it but he's nice and I kind of like him. So if you excuse me, I'm going to start breakfast." I stormed out of that hallway as fast as I could. That man has some nerve! Who does he think he is? I swear I should have punched him. Why does he think he has control over who I talk too? Was he really that dense? I practically stomped through the pile of bodies this time and walked straight to the couch. I gently laid the blanket over him, like Opie it was a little short. I didn't realize how tall he was till this moment.I knew that it would keep him warmer than just his hoodie. I slowly started to walk towards the kitchen when his voice stopped me.

"I told you that you were different." I rolled my eyes .

"Then maybe you should change the females you hang around." He sat up and stretched. I caught a slight glance at his stomach and I quickly turned my head to hide the redness creeping up in my cheeks.

"Nah sunshine, you are just different. No one else bothered to get me a blanket, yet you notice and guess what? I got a blanket." I rolled my eyes.

"It's called being a decent person.I'm going to make breakfast, if you want this conversation to continue you need to follow me."

"Maybe that's the problem, I hang out with savages." Without another word he was up off of the couch and following me into the kitchen.

He walked straight to the fridge and pulled out all the stuff I needed without me asking him. I just sat back and admired him, god he was almost turning me into Kyle. I feel like I'm stalking him, watching him like this so I quickly turned my head.

"I'm not used to this." He turned around confused. I motioned around the kitchen but he didn't catch on. I'm not used to having someone help me with womanly things. God if he did have an old lady she was a lucky soul.

"Used to what?" He asked as he started going through all of the cabinets , I'm guessing trying to find all of the things we needed .

"A man willing to help me make breakfast." He winked at me as he found a skillet for the bacon.

"Then maybe you don't hang around the right kind of men." I couldn't help but smile. He damn near used my own words against me.

We worked, laughed and somehow managed to get breakfast done. He was right, being around him felt easy, natural and I was really sad he was leaving. Just as we got done all of the men seemed to venture out of wherever they slept and Clay walked in the front door.

"Alright shitheads we should be already on the road!" I slowly walked around the counter with a steaming plate in my hand.

"But Clay, we made breakfast." He looked down at the plate and a grin formed as he took off his sunglasses.

"Baby you always find a way to hit me right in the heart." I grinned as I handed him the plate

"Or your stomach." He nodded as he walked to the bar to sit and eat.

I walked back to the kitchen to fix up two more plates. I handed Josh his and told him I'd be right back.

I lightly knocked on Ope's door and then opened it. He was putting on his beanie as I walked in. I sat the plate down on his dresser and I motioned towards Donna. He shook his head quietly.

"Nah let her sleep, she needs it."

"Yeah making a baby is hard work. Clay's ready to go after everyone gets some food in them."

"Thanks Lu."

I quickly made my way back to Josh . He was just about finished with his plate and the sadness hit home like lead. This was probably going to be the last time I saw him, well unless the guys needed help again. It's strange that I almost feel as though I've known him a lot longer than a day, hell we talked not even 12 hours ago. Yet I wanted to cry.

"You look like the sun just went out. What's the matter?" I eased myself into the seat beside his. Silently soaking up his warmth and the subtle smell of his cologne left from last night.

"Just bummed you're leaving." He nodded as he took a bite of his eggs.

"Don't be sad. We'll see each other sometime. I'll talk Happy into bringing you to see me or something and like I said we help these guys out a lot. I'll make sure I'm on the crew. Wouldn't want to miss a chance to see that smile." He said with a smile, my stomach started to flip. I looked down at the counter and started to pick at it.

"Yeah I know, I was just enjoying your company." He reached over and grabbed my face. I felt my breath catch.

"Hey, don't be sad, Not for a minute. I hate seeing the light come out of your eyes." I snorted.

"You should be glad that you haven't seen me lately. I have had a hard month. Honestly talking to you has been a nice distraction from that." He looked like he was in thought again.

"If it's meant to be, it'll sweat it, I like talking to you so I'm sure I'll see you again. Looks like we have to get going." He stood up and my eyes started to water. He pulled me into a hug and I let them out.

"I gotta go sunshine, don't cry. I'll be back." I nodded and watched him walk towards the door. He turned to look at me before he walked out. He stood there for a moment so I gave him a small wave. Not even two seconds later he was walking towards me. I barely heard the "Clay's going to kill me." As he grabbed my face and kissed me. I literally lost my breath. He pulled back and grinned that full smile that I had grown so fond of.

"It was worth it. There's that smile again. See ya soon sunshine." I sat back with my fingers pressed to my lips as he ran towards the door. I didn't even see Kyle lurking behind. He walked up and ran his dirty fingers along my shoulder.

"Well we recovered from the loss of Teller fast. Now onto new far away meat, you sure like to bounce from member to member huh. Don't get confused honey, you're still mine." I jerked out of his grasp and smacked him as hard as I could across his face.

"Did Happy's lesson not hit hard enough? Or do you need a refresher? Leave me alone Kyle, last warning." He chuckled and ran his finger down my cheek.

"I'm just getting started baby."

The door swung open and in walked none other than Happy. He looked between the two of us and I seen the anger on his face. He didn't like Kyle anywhere near me, how cute.

"Clay said let's go now." I flashed Happy a smile and grabbed a marker off of the bar. I kissed him on the cheek. Kyle walked by and sneered and I flipped him off. Judging by Happy's face, Kyle was going to have his hands full when they got where they were going. I ran out of the door and quickly scanned the bikes around me. I found Josh's and took off in a light jog, don't want to seen desperate. I made it to his bike just as he was about to put on his helmet. The gravel kicked up, alerting him to my presence. I grabbed his hand quickly before he had a chance to react.

"I don't want to leave anything to chance. Call me." I scribbled my number down really fast. I backed away from his bike, he gave me a quick smile that I found myself looking forward to. He put on his helmet and one by one they each started pulling out of their places. I backed up further out of the way and gave him a small wave before he drove off.

a/n: so new chapter I couldn't contain it any longer. Let me know what u think