I'm not quite sure how it happened but we ended up back in Donna's car after our lunch. We didn't even make it out of the parking lot, we just kind of looked at each other and smiled then it ended up with me in his lap; kissing like our life depended on it. Granted, I dont have much experience with kissing, I knew that i would never get enough of him. His smell, his taste, his lips were all intoxicating. I was really going to miss this when he was gone. I was finally starting to understand what he meant when he said that he was going to take every available opportunity to kiss me because it wouldn't happen as often as it should with other couples. I was going to have to get a car that's for sure because I doubt he would be able to come down and stay that often. I knew that v.p patch was a heavy responsibility and I wasn't mad at him for it, though it made me question the future. He caught my bottom lip between his teeth my mind went blank. God I had really been missing out this whole time! I felt like my body was on fire yet at the same time i felt a strong heat spread between my legs. I felt his hands grip my butt, and as weird as it is i felt hard metal against my jean pockets. I quickly turned to face my humongous booty and noticed that Josh had big almost block like rings that could pass for brass knuckles. It was on both of his hands. Had he had these on the whole day and I hadn't noticed? No thats not possible because I held his hand at the hospital and felt nothing. Did he put them on at lunch? He had to of but how didn't i notice them? They're so bulky! He noticed me looking and moved his hands so they were in my view. They were onyx and silver and on the right hand read, 'SAM' the left hand read, 'TAC'. I cautiously ran my fingers over the rings, tracing the details. I wanted to imprint the feel of them under my fingers. The thoughts of the future came creeping back but I shook them off. Right now I just wanted to enjoy him while I had him. I leaned down and planted a kiss on each side and looked up at him fron under my lashes. The look on his face was hot but full of something else entirely.
"How long have you had them?" I couldn't help but admire the pride that he had for his club. Granted it was the same pride that I was raised around but seeing another charter so dedicated to the patch made me realize just how much of a brotherhood it was. They were all connected whether it was redwood or samtac. They would put their life on the line for the guy next to them without question and it was that kind of loyalty that always made me proud to be in their circle with them. My friendship with Ope and Jax has been crazy lately but I know hands down I could call them to handle a problem. Not even just them either; I knew any of the guys would be there in a heart beat. I wished the rest of the community knew them the way the women of the club did. Maybe they would realize they're not such bad took my hands in his and kissed the palms of them.
"Since I became a full patched in member. It was one of the first purchases I made. Honestly, they go with me everywhere. It makes me feel closer to my Uncle Tommy too. He was the president of Samtac before he went to prison then eventually died. He's the reason I am who I am. I went through a rough patch for awhile. At 15, I was getting suspended from school left and right for fighting and I was not heading down a good path. My dad left us when I was nine for some gash that worked with him. He just up and left town and went on and started a whole new life. I hated him for it, I hated him for making my mom cry when she thought we were all asleep. At first, i tried to be good in school and make my mom proud and even ignore all the shit those punk kids had to say about him. Finally i got to where I didn't give a fuck and that's where Uncle Tommy came in. He'd come pick me up and take me to the clubhouse or just spend time with me and he filled a void i didn't know I had in me. I knew right away that I wanted to prospect and eventually become a member because my Uncle Tommy saved my life. I'm glad he got to see my patched in before he went to prison. I do what I do to make him proud, to make my mom proud of her son, and to be nothing like that piece of shit who left three kids and a wife who never understood why she wasn't good enough. This club is so much more to me than just a club. After Tommy died, Lee took me under his wing to make sure I didn't go bad again. I owe him a lot to him too." I didn't even realize I was crying until he reached up and wiped the tears from my face.
"Don't cry sunshine, if it wasn't for all the bullshit I went through; i wouldn't be here right now with you. And trust me this right now is worth every punch I have thrown, every tear I've cried and every bad thing thats happened to me." I nodded but got off his lap.
"So what do you want to do now babydoll? We've got a few hours before we have to have dinner with your mom." I smacked my forehead.
"Shit I forgot about dinner at Gemma's again. Maybe I can call Gem and tell her mom's coming too. She won't care. I still have to make the pudding for the pies, thankfully the crust isn't that complicated. So we need to go to my house."
"You sure you wanna go to dinner at Gems? I think she will understand " I gave him a 'you've got to be kidding me' look. He gave me a smile. He must not know that Gemma is a my way or the highway kind of woman. It made me want to laugh. You catch hell for not attending of of Gemma's dinners.
"Are you sure you've met Gemma Teller-Morrow before? Cause I think we may be talking about seperate people?" He laughed and started the car; reached over and grabbed my hand and kissed it.
I called both my mom and Gemma on the way to the house and both of them were completely fine with it. My mom and Gemma had been friends since I first appeared at her house because of the Trent situation. Though I don't recall my mom even attending parties, her and Gemma woupd hang out at either one of their houses while I played with the boys. Maybe it wouldn't be a bad idea to get my mom out of the house, even drag her to a party. All the woman ever does is work. I smiled, quite smug with myself. I even talked my mom into starting the crusts so they can get soft in the fridge. The whole ride there I couldn't help but feel that regardless of my fears; this thing with Josh was going to work. I just hoped I wasn't over idealizing it. We had a long road ahead of us but I know the obstacles ahead of us would be worth it i just hoped he felt that way.
We got to my house and went in. My mom was in the kitchen, placing the pie crusts in the fridge. She stood up and brushed her hands on her apron then made her way over fridge. She pulled him into a hug and he squeezed her back.
"Its good to see you again sweetheart. I finally cleared out that zoo in the living room. Hopefully you didn't bring anything else." He laughed as she pulled back from the hug.
"No we didn't have time for much after the hospital so we went out to eat." Her features turned intp curiousity.
"Why were you at the hospital?"
"Donna started bleeding and I rushed her in. I called Josh to get ahold of Opie and he just came with him." My mom started fanning her face as the tears welled up in her eyes.
"Oh no she had a miscarriage? Thats one of the worst thing that can happen to a woman. I had one right after we got to Charming and I never quite got over it." WHAT?! My mom just said she had a miscarriage after we got here. How is that possible? I never knew anything about another pregnancy.
"Uhhmmm excuse me?" She turned toward me and smiled through her tears .
"Yeah I was pregnant when we moved here and I lost it at 16 weeks. I was waiting until we got settled to tell you because you had already been through so much. It was a girl Luanne, you would have had a sister." I felt as if the wind had been knocked out of me. How much about this woman did I not know? I thought she was one of my closest friends and yet what really do I know about her?
"Look at me reminiscing. How is Donna holding up?"
"Actually she didn't miscarry, she is pregnant with twins." Mom's face dropped in shock.
"Phew! Thats going to be a handful." I could tell she wanted to say more but I think she wasn't sure of what all Josh knew about my past with Opie. I was glad she kept her mouth shut, I was atill trying to figure out how to explain the whole thing. Should I wait until we're more serious or now that we're together just tell him? I'll ask my mom about it when he's out of earshot. I got a weird queasy feeling in my stomach about going to Gemma's all of a sudden. Knowing how much she wanted me and Jax together would she try to sabotage this thing with Josh? Who was I kidding hell yeah she would. Maybe I should talk to him before we go.
Unfortunately we didn't have time to talk about it. I made my pies then he left to go shower and change. I couldn't help the feeling that this was going to be bad. I tried to ignore it as I showered and got dressed. I decided and some snug jeans and a tshirt that said, "you know what's cheaper than therapy? Admitting you're bat shit crazy and running with it.' I had juat got my make up done when Josh knocked on the door. Oh boy here goes nothing!
A/n: heyyyy guys! So i know mia again! I dont try to it just happens though this chapter wouldn't get out of my head for the last few days i love it! Hope u guys do too review as always!
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