He took me home after all of his crude comments which weren't so bad. I wouldn't tell him that part of me kind of liked his dirty talk. Sure it embarrassed me but it turned me on too. Probably because no one had ever talked to me that way before. Hell if anyone looked at me sideways whether it be Jax, Opie, or Clay one of them put a stop to it. Listen to him make comments about begging for his tongue made me realize just how sheltered I was. Had I ever imagined a man doing that to me? Jax, that time we were fooling around, other than that it had never crossed my mind. What would it be like? Would I even like it? He was confident that I would but lots of men are overconfident and their women fake orgasms. What if I had to fake one? Could I? My face heated at the mention of his face being between my thighs as I thought about what he said again. I couldn't imagine that. Not while I'm pressed up against him on his bike, my thighs were wrapped around him. I had to stop thinking about him like that or I may take him up his offer.

We had just pulled up into my driveway and I seen my mom's light turn on upstairs, I guess to give us privacy. With what felt like a heartbeat going off between my thighs, the last thing I needed was privacy with this man. The vibration of the bike hadn't helped the feeling at all. He cut the engine and helped me off of his bike first then got off himself. He stared at me for what felt like ever, in reality it was only two minutes, not saying anything. I wonder if he could read the dirty thoughts flowing through my head right now. If he could, he made no indication thank God. My facial expressions always give me away, whether I'm mad or even have a secret those closest to me could always tell. Maybe he and I aren't there yet. For once I was thankful for that.

His right hand cupped my cheek and I leaned into it. It's funny because it was small contact that I had begged for and dreamed about from Ope but with Josh he did it without thinking about it. He just had to touch me. I think. I wasn't complaining though, I missed his constant touch when he wasn't around. I was surprised by the sadness that had taken over when I was just about to burst from lust. Sadness creeped into my heart and hurt so much I refrained from grabbing it. He was going to be headed out soon and I wouldn't see him until my surprise visit next month.

"This is getting harder to do." My words broke his trance. I didn't mean for them to come out but they had and I couldnt take them back.

"What is?" Sadly he removed his hands from my face and leaned on his bike seat. He reached into his Samtac hoodie and pulled out his cigarettes. No matter what he does, the man is a vision. Before I could stop it, the mental vision of him naked came in. My eyebrow raised as I looked him up and down causing him to give me that wicked grin. I blushed intensively and looked at my feet. Well so much for it not being all over my face. I quickly brought my self back into conversation.

"You leaving, hell even saying goodnight when I know I won't see you tomorrow sucks." Just bringing up him leaving had cooled my hormones. My gaze went to my feet so he didn't see the tears that filled my eyes. He tilted my chin to look up at him as the tears escaped. God had I ever seen anything this gorgeous before? The thought went through my mind before I had time to process it. Josh had a cigarette hanging from his lips, towering over me while holding my chin up to look at him. I hated Jax smoking, but on Josh I found it to be the sexiest thing.

"I'm sorry I spent most of our time together fighting with you. I don't leave until tomorrow afternoon so I will see you before I go. I'm not going to lie to you, I hate being away from you but this is how it is right now. I'd rather have you when I can than not at all. I'm sorry because I know it's selfish but I wasn't lying earlier when I said I can't seem to leave you alone. You're ingrained in my brain. Everything I do, you're there. Your voice, your smell, your smile all of it is constantly going through my head." I had started to sniffle by the time he stopped talking. I was trying to stop crying, at least until after he left but the talk with Lee really put things into perspective. One of us was going to have to leave behind everything we knew if this was going to work. I couldn't see either of us moving and that felt like an anvil on my heart. Josh's home is Tacoma. His uncle was one of the founding members of sons of anarchy and that's where he landed. It was his legacy to continue. Lee was like his father and not to mention random friends throughout the club. Then there was his actual blood, his mother and his sister's. How could I have him give all of that up for me? I couldn't. I couldnt ask that of him. That tore me up even more because I knew in order to move forward with us, one of us had to give and I wasn't sure who would.

On the other hand, I couldn't imagine myself away from Charming. This has been my home since I was seven years old. Even if my relationships with my best friends were awkward sometimes. They were all I knew. This was my mother's home. This is where she made her life after my sperm donor shit all over her. Her house would always be my safe haven. The clubhouse was my home away from home in a way I couldnt describe to anyone who wasn't club affiliated. Despite all of that things were changing. Had anyone ever looked at me the way he was right now? Had I ever felt safer than I do when he has me wrapped up in his arms? Other than my mom, I've never truly had anyone who would not give up on me and I knew that he wouldn't. Have I ever had anyone who put me first? He drew me out of my thoughts when he flicked his cigarette into the road.

"I know, I'm sorry I sound like I'm being selfish. It's different having you here in my hands rather than having to deal with over the phone. Hell I can't see your face or that smile that I love so much and it hurts. I never expected to care so strongly for you, especially with you living now so far away. Lee said some things that have been on my mind before but hearing it from someone else it makes me realize that I've been selfish. How long am I going to be able to keep you before the distance gets too much? How long until you give into one of the club girls because we haven't been able to see each other in a few months? The distance is rough on a relationship. I feel like it's going to cause the end of ours."

"What did he say to you? I fucking trusted him to get you away from all that shit in the hall not to make you feel like shit. I hate seeing this hurt on your face. Did he threaten you? I'll fucking kill him substitute father or not." It sounded like a joke but the anger that was in his eyes, I knew was serious. I reached up to touch his cheek. His loyalty to me is what I loved most I think. He was willing to go to war with his president because of him upsetting me. But that's not the kind of woman I was raised to be. I would never put him at odds with his brothers because of me.

"Nothing like that calm down killer. He asked me things about where we were going and about the distance between us going to eat us up. Things I have thought about before but never realized how much our relationship affects those around us. Where are we going Josh? Do you think we have something? How is it going to work? Are we on the road to me becoming your old lady? You have a lovely life in Tacoma. I have a life here. You have family there as I do here." He brushed my hair from my face. I love the roughness of his hands on my skin so feeling that rough pad of his thumb skimming across my forehead, I sighed.

"You're not getting away from me Luanne. Stop trying to find a reason to break it off. Yeah so what I have a life in Tacoma. Nothing in that life has made me laugh or smile as much as you have in the short time that I've known you. Hell or as happy or crazy for that matter either. It's something about you that I can't get enough of, even if I wanted too. You know what we talk about every week at family dinner? You, when I change the subject mom brings you back up. So when do I get to meet this girl who obviously has you wrapped around her finger? Seriously my mother has never been so happy seeing me so happy. I want you to meet her Faith, I've never wanted a girl to meet my family before. I can't wait for you to meet my sister's. They're bitches but all sisters are I think and I can't help but imagine how you would get along with them . My sisters talk shit but thats what sisters do. To be completely honest with you, even if they hated you I wouldn't be able to stay away. So the options are either you come there or I come here either way I don't give a shit. From where I'm standing, it don't matter as long as we're together. My home will be wherever you are. As for where we are going, you're mine. You've been mine since you walked out of Gemma's office. You know it, I know it, hell everyone knows it. A big fuck you to all the idiots before me because I can't fathom a reason as to how the hell anyone was ever able to leave you alone much less untouched. The future as never been something I've looked too. Since my dad left, I did everything I could to cause shit or be in trouble. I never looked towards tomorrow. But now, I see you Faith, tomorrow, two years from now, ten years from now. I know that I want to see your smile every day of my goddamn life. I want to see you with my ring on your finger, your belly swollen with my child. I've never felt this way about anyone I want you to know that. What can I do to reassure you that I'm not going anywhere no matter how far apart we live?" The tears ran down my face in rivers now. I held on to him as I cried enough for both of us. He rubbed my back and held me tighter. I've never had anyone lay themselves bare for me like this. I wanted to confess that I was crazy about him too but I didn't want to embarrass him. I didn't realize just how much he thought about us. I know that sounds silly but men usually don't say everything that they feel or think. I couldn't help the smile that came to my face because of it. He wants a future with me, not just a future but he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. We've been together now four months and he already realizes that I'm the one. He wants to marry me and have children with me. My cheeks start to hurt from smiling so hard but I don't care. I jump into his arms and let out a squeal.

"That was, wow. Did you have that already planned out or did you think of that on the spot?" I asked with a shaky laugh. I could see what Lee meant, the man glowed with love for me. How had I not seen that? I was used to men letting me down, even the ones who loved me.

"All in my head babydoll, distance is never going to get too much that I would rather not have you. I haven't even had your pussy yet but I know it's enough to wait for. I love how innocent you are, your cheeks redden whenever I say anything sexual. Don't cover them up, it's cute. As for the club girls you have nothing to worry about. I'd never touch any of them, it's not like they don't try already but I don't notice them. And uh just so there's no surprises when you do come to see me or if you do. Full disclosure, they hate you so..." My jaw dropped.

"Hate me? They don't even know me!" I smacked his chest and his chest rumbled with a chuckle.

"Obviously, you stole their hot, eligible, vice president. Why wouldn't they hate you? Its even worse because they haven't seen you to see how you look You know how those girls are. They try to nab a guy in position so they have status but they should know by now that I have no interest in claiming something that has had all of my friends dicks in it." Um ew, I get where he's coming from but it's weird.

"Well I would apologize but ya know, then you wouldn't be mine anymore. So they can eat someone else's dick." He laughed and pulled me into a hug. My head rested on his chest and I heard his heartbeat. He leaned his chin down on my head and I could hear his deep inhale.

"You're my fresh breath of air Faith. I never want to be without you. We're definitely on the way of you becoming mine in the eyes of everyone. I hate to say it but It's getting late though, I should get back to the clubhouse." I pulled out of his arms but held on to them. I could tell he didn't want to go and I wasn't ready for him to go either.

"You should stay."

"I don't think your mom would be happy about that." I rolled my eyes. It's nice that he cares about how my mother feels but right now it's annoying.

"You worry too much. She trusts me, I've never given her a reason not to. She loves you and knows this is the happiest I've ever been. She wont come in and kick you out. Is that what you're worried about?"

"She's going to be my damned mother in law. I have to worry about her liking me. I really shouldn't stay. It's going to be tempting as fuck sleeping next to you. I'm sorry that makes me an asshole but up until now I've been pretty good I think." My heart soared at him talking nonchalantly about marriage. I sent a silent thank you to the man above for sending him to me.

"So because we aren't having sex you won't stay?" I started to pout and my feelings were kind of hurt. He quickly shook his head.

"No no no! That's not what I meant. If you want me to stay I will but I'm not promising that I'm going to be able to keep my hands to myself. I will try like hell though because I don't want to rush you but I've seen the clothes you sleep in and I think you're trying to kill me." I laughed and pulled him behind me towards the house.

"I was thinking of sleeping naked tonight."

"She's trying to kill me isn't she God? I'll die a happy motherfucker that's for sure." Our laughter followed us into the house.

I led him upstairs to my room and told him to get comfortable. I was going to talk to my mom so I gave him the run down of where the shower was if he wanted to take one. I was surprised at how nervous he was. If I wasn't so nervous myself it would be comical. It crossed my mind for a split second about only having girly smelling soaps but I shrugged it off. He wasn't going to care about not smelling like a man when he was going to be snuggling with me all night. I went to the cabinet in the hallway and grabbed two towels and a wash cloth for him. I looked down at the stuff in my hand and I smiled. I haven't had anyone stay at my house in years. Even when it was people I've known my whole life. My first real boyfriend was staying the night with me. He went to his bike and got his clothes and took me up on taking the shower. Poor guy, I wonder how many girls he's had sleepovers with. No Faith, you'll drive yourself crazy thinking that way. I sat the towels on the bathroom counter while he was outside. I stood outside my mother's door and took a deep breath and knocked.

"Mom?" I called to her as I pushed open the door. She was sitting in her bed with a book and she patted the bed with a smile.

"I wanted to tell you and hope you don't get upset. Josh is staying the night. We're not having sex or anything I just wanted him to stay." She leaned her head back and laughed. I swallowed the lump in my throat that still didn't go away. I feel so awkward about this while she's laughing. I mean I doubt she will make a big deal like I told him outside but it's just her and me right now so I know I'm about to hear it.

"You don't have to explain to me baby. If you two have decided to have sex, I ask that you're careful. Always use a condom. I know I'm embarrassing you but you're nineteen Faith. I'm proud of you for waiting until you found someone who genuinely loves you." My cheeks flushed with embarrassment as she gave me the sex talk. It made it even worse because Josh has invaded my hormones with all of his dirty talk earlier.

"You see that he loves me too?" She slid her glasses down her nose, giving me a 'are you shitting me?' expression.

"You don't?"

"I didn't until Lee pointed it out to me today. Josh is everything I ever wanted mom. He's everything I ever wanted from Opie and the way he makes me feel ...gah I can't even describe it. I miss him so much when he's not around. I don't know what we're going to do about the distance. One us of is going to have to move if we want it to work. It's not fair to either of us to have too. We both have lives where we live. "

"You love him too sweetheart. I'm glad. I'm glad you didn't settle for Jax or Opie because I doubt either of them would treat you the way you deserve. That man in the other room looks at you as if you're the only one in the room hell the only one in the world. Don't let anyone mess that up for you. As for the moving, when it's time, the decision will be made. The right decision for both of you. Regardless of what you decide, I don't think that man is going to let you go."

"We had our first fight today. Gemma told him that she caught me and Jax in the back of her caddy right before he sang to me." Anger rolled off my mother's face before she covered it up.

"Gemma's an unhappy person baby, she wants everyone else to be unhappy too. I'm glad you two worked it out. He reminds me a lot of Lee and that makes me happy too."

"He was going to forgive me if I did. He asked me if it was out of my system. It hurt him but he said he can't shake me. I'm not sure how I feel about it. Like I couldn't be okay if she cheated like that. Why would he be? Speaking of Lee, he told me he wasn't letting you go again you stone cold fox. " She blushed then picked her book back up.

"Well you should go spend time with your man. You know he's leaving soon." My laughter followed me out of her bedroom into the hallway until I stopped dead at the site in front of me. Josh walking out of my room in nothing but my pink towel. His hair was dripping wet and had fallen into his forehead. Trails of water ran from it and down his face. His beard was raggedy looking with clumps of water coming from it. I swallowed hard as I took in his body. His body was so toned. Even the cut of his collar bone was sexy as hell. His chest was smooth and his stomach was...wow. he has a six pack and a trail of hair that led from his belly button down . He had a reaper on his upper right shoulder holding something in his hand. Other than that his arms were free of tattoos. He had a jester clown that started on his lower stomach and disappeared into the towel. My mouth watered and I felt hot all over.

"I um forgot my clothes in your room. I'm going to get dressed now." I couldnt speak so I nodded. After the bathroom shut I leaned up against the wall and let out a sigh. Maybe I should have let him go back to the clubhouse because this was going to be harder than I thought.

I went into my room and found my clothes to take a shower. I picked out my black and white plaid booty shorts that stopped just under the curve of my ass. Yeah it was devious but after that little show in the hallway, he deserved one too. I pulled one of my silk pink camisoles out of the top drawer. I dug through my underwear drawer to find the perfect pair even though he wasnt going to see them. I settled on a black, blue and white pair of lace cheeky panties that I loved. Just as I finished with my clothes, my door opened. Josh was wearing a white wifebeater and some black and grey basketball shorts. I looked him up and down again and bit my bottom lip hard.

"You gotta stop looking at me like that before you get yourself in trouble." I shook my head to snap out of the trance I was in.

"Like what?" I ask as innocently as I could. I knew I was caught scoping him out, he was mine I was allowed to notice how gorgeous he is.

"Like you've been denied steak for years and someone just gave you a porterhouse." Blush creeped up my neck and landed on my cheeks.

"I'll try to stop I'm sorry. I'm going to shower." He grabbed my arm before I could walk out of the door.

"I'm not complaining Faith but a man only has so much self control."

I practically ran out of the room. It was going to be a long night.

A/n: so I only got one response to my question. As for myself, I like them together idk what it is but I find them so cute. Well I hope you enjoyed this chapter and review