It didn't take me long to realize that he wasn't exaggerating. The minute the bike started the throbbing increased between my legs causing me to lean forward trying to lessen the ache. Woah! It was like a drum going boom boom boom. Crazy how I went from the girl with no sexual experiences other than making out with her best friend to this; 2, possibly 3 encounters in just over 12 hours. I looked down at the front of my jeans, silently praying that the wetness that I felt on the inside didn't transfer to the outside. I would be so mortified to have to walk past my mom looking like I peed myself. Speaking of peeing myself, I can't believe I let him finger me in the park. Who does things like that? Oh god does that make me easy??? No no he's mine so does that add up to the same thing I mean I just let MY man finger me in a crowded park where anyone could have walked up. I felt the blush creep up from my chest until my entire face and neck were cherry red. I caught his grin when I glanced forward and I rolled my eyes. Of course he would catch me thinking dirty as he calls it. I wrapped my arms tighter around him to pull closer to him.

As usual he grabbed my right hand and lifted it to his lips. Despite the ache, his kiss never failed to make me realize just how lucky I am. This man is nothing like I've ever experienced in my entire life and the best part is that he is mine. I'm glad I waited to experience this with him. I know things wouldn't have been this easy with either of my other two choices. I leaned into his back and planted my cheek next to the reaper's head. I took a deep inhale of the smell of leather, cologne, and cigarette. I opened my eyes long enough to realize that we passed the turnoff towards my street. I lifted my head in confusion. He sensed my thoughts and squeezed my hand, trying to let me know that everything is okay. Didn't he just say that if we hurried we would still have time for him to stick his tongue in his new favorite place? So what is he doing and why am I pouting like a toddler over it? I guess he wasn't joking when he said it was all I would want to do once it happened.

He pulled into one of the only diners in Charming. It's actually the one my mom worked at when we first moved here. I smile with nostalgia at just how much I spent here during my mom's shifts. She always felt terrible, especially after the whole Trent ordeal. She said she hated that I was cooped up at her work when I was used to being outside running around, ya know being the hellion I usually was *insert winky face here.

I went to work with her every day for almost three months until she finally got comfortable enough with Gemma to leave me with them. Despite what she thought, I loved sitting at the diner. After awhile everyone knew who I was and would stop to talk to me. I had my coloring books, my favorite stuffed monster and if mom's manager thought I looked too bored, she would let me go into her office and watch movies on the tv/vcr combo she had. After talking to mom at the wedding, I realized that the incident, as I call it, with Trent affected her just as much as it had me. She risked her job and her sanity to insure that I was okay. Also she had a better insight on it than I did. For instance: I didn't even noticed I got depressed after everything happened. I just remembered it happening and then meeting Jax and Opie. She remembered every night terror, every false smile and that I didn't seem as happy. Honestly until she brought it up I didn't even remember spending months at her job because she was so afraid it would happen again or more would happen this time. I often took her for granted, not that I meant too but I did. I don't know how I would have grown up if my dad hadn't left and she gave us a complete new start. Or how i would have grown up if she would have ignored me about Trent. My mom was the biggest superhero of any fairy tale because she was just that, my mom.

I looked around the familiar place and couldn't help my smile. Over ten years later and the place still looked the same. The yellow walls needed a paint job years ago, if I was being honest they probably needed to be painted badly a decade ago as well but it definitely showed more now. The paint chipped quite a bit and there were think greasy stains on the walls from the grill discoloring the walls. Most of the tables had a black vinyl top and I bet if I looked hard enough I could find my name under one of the tables.

I traced circles into the table we were currently sitting at. I think the last time I was here was with Donna when she showed me her ultrasound. It seems like a lifetime ago but in reality it's only been months. Josh's hands came over mine and stopped my constant tracing. He had the softest smile on his face that he always wore when he was looking at me. I bet we looked a sight. Everything about him was rough. He had just a hard look to him from his intimidating stare, the beard, the build, those rough calloused hands that felt amazing when they touched me. He had the typical bad boy look and paired with his kutte he was one. No one messed with the sons and everyone knew that. Meanwhile I looked like the girl next door, soft and sweet.

"Whatcha thinking about sunshine?" I blushed as he brought my hands up to his lips and planted a kiss on the backs of them.

"Just how different we look, do you think anyone in their right mind would think we go together?" He shrugged like 'it is what it is'.

"Are you kidding? We're the poster child for a lot of romance novels. Good girl meets bad boy and thinks ah he looks like trouble but fuck I like how warm I feel when he stares at me. He thinks god she's gorgeous and her ass sits just right in those pants but her smile is infectious. They have a lot of trials and tribulations but they make it though get married and have three babies." I shake my head in disbelief.

"I'll never get over how you can just think of stuff like that off the top of your head."

"It's a gift baby doll," whatever he's about to say next is cut off by the waitress arriving. She's young, I'd say early twenties. She looks like her feet hurt, at least that's my guess by how she's standing. Other than the tired look in her eyes, she's stunning. She has a deep chestnut mane and a perfect heart shaped face. Her eyes are a crystal blue and much to my pleasure she doesn't give Josh the normal googoo eyes that woman normally do.

We place our orders. He gets a triple decker bacon cheeseburger with loaded cheese fries and a coke and I get an open faced beef sandwich and a Dr Pepper. She had those placed in front of us before our orders were put in so thats good. I turn my attention back to Josh's hands. I traced the chunky rings that adored his fingers. I loved the way the cool metal felt against my skin. You would think it would be hot due to his skin temperature but it always feels nice.

"I always hate this part. The part where it's almost time for you to leave and I don't know when I'm gonna see you again." The lie burned my tongue but I dealt with it. It's not a surprise if you spill the guts beforehand. Everything was set expect for if I was borrowing mom's car or if Donna was gonna drive me. Hell i hoped mom let me use the car then I wouldn't be stranded when it was time to go home. I could fly but that risk getting my name picked up by Samtac's tech guy. I imagine my name is flagged since I'm their v.p's girlfriend. Josh takes his hat off and runs a hand through his hair. His eyes turn soft as his smile.

"I know baby but it's just how it's gotta be. We will be together again soon. May be another two months before I get down here again but it will fly by with you helping Donna and Ope get ready for their babies." Yeah that part was true but my trip to Washington was schedule for just under four weeks away and I couldn't wait to see him in his home and meet his mom hopefully. Lee told me that his mom asks about me often, more than anything I want to show her I'm not a harlot or anything. The idea didn't even form fully in my head before it was out of my mouth about bringing up his mom. It felt like it spilled out like word vomit but it was a lot better than that I think.

"Yeah I know babe just gotta get there. I am excited about the babies coming. So Lee did mention your mom to me the other day." Josh takes a long pull of his drink.

"How come? I just seen her last weekend and she was good. Heather was working my nerves but that's usual. Trust me sunshine, be glad you don't have siblings it's more people who think they're your boss." I laughed and rolled my eyes at the same time.

"You love your sisters more than anything and you know it. He said your mom called him and was asking about me."

"Not sure why when you're all she talks about at dinner on Sundays anyway. 'How's your girlfriend baby?' 'When am I gonna meet her?' 'Are you looking to settle down?' ' I can't wait to meet her.' Trust me sunshine it's a lot longer than that I'm just giving you the cliff notes." I hold off my next statement because our food is set in front of us. We both say thank you as she sets our food down and she says to make sure to let her know if we need anything else. My mouth instantly starts to water at the site in front of me. I unravel my silverware by the time I have my fork, Josh has the massive burger in his hands taking a bite and I lose it. I start to laugh or maybe giggle I don't even know. A mixture of condiments cover his fingers and mayonnaise gets in his beard but I don't think he's ever been more gorgeous to me.

" I know I'm attractive and all baby doll but your food is gonna get cold if you keep staring at me like that." I blush deeply and start to cut up my meat.

"Do you think your mom won't like me Josh? It's not like you have to worry mine is in love with you already." He sets his enormous burger down and wipes his fingers off with the napkin. I grab mine and stand up to clean the mayo out of his beard.

"I think she's gonna love you and if she don't I don't care because I do and that's all that should matter. You're it for me sunshine. That's all there is." I wasn't quite sure how I felt about that answer but I nodded anyway. I'd never come between him and his mother. I'd rather break both of our hearts than destroy his family and the thought of that brought me to tears.

We ate mostly the rest of our late lunch in silence. Mainly because I was just lost in my thoughts. Gemma was already giving me shit about taking off for a few days so I know it's not gonna be long before she pulls a typical Gemma stunt. I definitely don't think it could get worse than her wedding stunt but best believe you never underestimate Mother Gemma. You never know what she's gonna come up with and I just know it's gonna be diabolical.

Much to my dismay, our time was up and I had to let him go. We left the diner, and a nice tip too because my mom was a server I always left a decent one. Those men and women depended on their tips to survive. We walked out to his bike and he grabbed my face with both of his hands and I felt like I was floating. Each goodbye kiss he left with a piece of me and I think left some of him behind. Even though I knew it wasn't gonna be super long until I seen him it still sucked. I wanted him around me every day. I wanted him to be best friends with Ope and show Jax just how wrong he was about him. I want him to ask Clay's blessing for my hand when the time came and all in all i wanted to wake up every day and he was there. Things have gotten pretty serious fast, while I wouldn't change it, I missed him more because of it. I felt the tears start to fall not long after we left the diner. It won't be like this for long, I told myself.

The ride back to my house was shorter than I wanted but I knew we were on borrowed time anyway. He pulled into my driveway within minutes of leaving the diner and my heart ached. Just 4 weeks Faith, that's not long at all. You guys will be on the phone every day and video chatting as well. Don't make this harder than it has to be. I kept chanting it won't be like this for long over and over in my head. Hopefully soon it stuck and I believed it.

"You want to come in and say bye to mom?" Yeah it was a shameless attempt at a few more minutes but I tried not to be disappointed with his head shake.

"I gotta get on the road to make it home before morning. I'm so sorry baby doll." I shook my head and gave him the best smile I can.

"It won't be like this for long right?" He gave me that full smile I loved.

"That's right baby, not much longer. I'll move here if I have too." I shook my head again but this time to shake away the tears that begged to let lose. I patted his v.p patch.

"When the time comes, we will figure it out. There's a lot of things to consider. Don't make rash decisions without talking to me about it. We're a team right?" His smile lit up his face as he pulled me into him.

"Always sunshine, I love you." I grabbed his face and kissed him softly. Not hard and passionate like his kiss at the diner but slow and lingering so he would remember how much I cared.

"I love you too go ahead and get going babe let me know when you make it." I pulled back and watched as he put his glasses on. I stood leaning against mom's car as I watched him get ready to pull out. Before he started to back out, he pulled out his phone and shot a quick text out. If I wasn't watching him closely I would have missed the way his eyebrows furrowed. Hmm I wonder what that was about?

*Josh's p.o.v

I got ready to leave my sunshine and decided to shoot a quick text to Lee. He left earlier today so he should be home now. I know he would want me to text, hell he wanted me to leave earlier with him but I blew it off because I wanted to spend more time with her. I know he worries especially because I'm riding by myself. You can never be too careful. I backed out of my text message that I sent to Lee and was surprised to see an unread text from earlier from a number i didn't have saved. Well most of my numbers aren't saved other than my family's just in case someone gets ahold of my phone.

Before you leave town I need to see you at the table

I stared weirdly at my screen because who the fuck could that be? Jax wanting to take our drama to the table? His mama probably brought it up to Clay first, I had never had a problem with Gemma before Faith. It's fucking crazy that I have one now. I can't see another reason I'd be called to the table before I left, matter of fact, that's the only thing that made sense to me. I wanted to roll my eyes but I know Faith is watching me so I just started backing out instead. I can't tell her who texted because I honestly don't know and no point in worrying her for no reason.

Sunshine's house isn't far from "Samcro valley" the little subdivision that most of Samcro lived. I mean other than a handful of members like Tig. Who knows where that guy lives I thought with a small chuckle. Anyway her house isn't far from the valley which meant it wasn't far from the clubhouse. I was there in under five minutes. I eased off of my bike, adjusted myself and stretched my legs. I caught Gemma peaking out of the office blinds, yeah I'm probably being set up here. The garage was closing up for the night and the guys were cleaning up to go home. I held my hand up in a finger salute and kept walking. The clubhouse was just up ahead. Same as the garage, there were a few people not too many. The clubhouse filled up more as it got dark. I made my way to the chapel and wrapped my knuckles against the door. I barely heard the "enter" so I couldn't make out who's voice it was. Still I wasn't a bitch so I pushed the doors open and entered. I tried to school my features but surprise was definitely on my face.

Only one chair was occupied and it was the president spot. Clay say in his chair and had a cigar lit up. He gestured for me to sit and I sat towards the end of the table. Just because I sat in the v.p spot at home didn't mean I had the right to here. Clay took a deep hit of his cigar and pulled it out to look at it.

"You know Gemma hates my cigars but I love them." I nodded at him, wondering where this is going.

"I've never been a big cigar smoker myself." He doesn't acknowledge that I even spoke. That's typical Clay though.

"Nothing quite like the taste though. It's unique, exotic, nothing like I've ever had before." That's when it hit me...this is about Faith. She told me she was like his daughter, i guess I didn't think too much into it.

"Do you think it's worth the trouble with my wife that I get into for smoking them?" I stood up straighter.

"If you're happy what does it matter what anyone else thinks? Why should you have to change something that brings you peace because it pisses off someone else?" He nods as if in thought then takes another long drag.

"Let's cut to the chase, you know what this is about." I nod in response. "You ready to tell me why my wife has a burr up her ass with your name on it?" I take my time pulling out my pack of reds and pulling a cigarette. Even take my time lighting it. Apparently Gemma has been bitching to Clay. I hid my smirk by taking a drag on my cigarette.

"Because she's got it in her head that Jax and Faith are supposed to be together and I fucked up her plans. I'm not apologizing either so if that's what you're looking for it ain't happening. Faith is the best fucking thing that happened to me and I'm not giving her up without a fight." He doesn't say anything but puts his cigar out.

"You think that's the right thing to say to me? That girl is my fucking daughter. I've watched her grow from that freckle faced little kid to the woman she is now. You think I want to give that up to anyone?" I took another drag off of my cigarette.

"No I don't but I do know one thing Clay, you know I'm a damned good v.p. And I wouldn't mess up my status with the club by messing with your daughter to hurt her feelings. She means a lot to me."

"Listen here you little shit, you're not taking her from me." This time I actually smiled.

"Calm down pops. I'm not trying to steal Cinderella. I love her and want her happy." He puts his head in his hands and I notice the way they lightly shake.

"She's all I got you know..." he said it so quietly, anyone else would have missed it. I stood up and walked over to him. He stood as I made my way near him.

"I put it on my kutte, I won't hurt her...at least intentionally." He stares in my eyes as if looking for the truth. Finally he waves me off towards the door.

"Get the hell outta here! Go home!" He didn't say it with menance but as a man that is afraid of losing his daughter. It's a conversation for another day but I'm gonna show him I'm worthy of her, even if it kills me.

A/n: so this isn't the best chapter but trying to get back in the swing of things as always let me know what u think