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'Hey kiddo, how's it going?' I looked up from my food and saw Finnick standing above me. 'Can I sit with you?'
'Do you even have to ask?' he smiled and slid into the seat next to me.
'I heard you tried to kill Gale. Do you need me to go and finish the job.'
'He was just being an ass I'm over it.' He laughed and gave me a squeeze.

'I wanted to ask you something.'
'You know you can ask me anything.'
'I want to ask Annie to marry me and since you're our only family I'd like your permission.' I choked on my chicken and Finnick thumped me on the back until I spit my food onto my plate.
'Oh my god, Finnick.' I wrapped my arms around his neck and squeezed him tight. 'Of course I give you my blessing; she's basically my sister already.'

'Hey, Katniss is taking Annie to District 12 to get a dress, do you want to go?' The wedding was in a few days and I was excited for Annie but there was no way in hell I was letting her go anywhere with Katniss.
'Of course it would be my pleasure.' I smiled and Finnick raised his eyebrows.
'Don't do anything stupid okay, she's my friend and I know you don't like her.'
'I won't unless she does something first.' He sighed,
'They're waiting in the carrier.' I faked a smile and flounced past him down the hallway.

'Hey Annie.' I wrapped my arms around her and glared at Katniss over her shoulder. 'Katniss.'
'Jay.' She looks at me with as much distaste as I look at her. Plutarch walks up behind her,
'Are we all ready to go?'
'Come on Annie.' I slip my hand into hers and lead her onto the hovercraft. She sits next to me for the whole trip with her head on my shoulder. She talks with Katniss and her prep team but I remain silent. I can see Katniss watching her out of the corner of her eyes. I know Annie can act strange at times like when she tries to block out the world by covering her ears with her hands but what Katniss doesn't understand is that she's trying to come back to us, to focus on what's real and what isn't. I hate Katniss even more for looking at her like that.

The stylists pull clothes out and have Annie try them on; I sit in the corner occasionally voicing my opinion on a dress. If I don't like it Annie refuses to wear it, it makes me smile to know she still values my opinion so much. After a while we decide on a silk, green dress that matches her eyes perfectly.
'Okay, one down, one to go. Odair it's your turn.' My head snaps up instantly and I see that everyone is staring at me.
'You're not serious?' I raise my eyebrows and he nods.
'Everyone in the wedding party must look the part; you're the only bridesmaid so get up and get dressed.'

There is nothing I hate more than people staring at me, especially the way that stylists stare. With that look like everything about you could be so much better and they're disappointed that they have so little. I get dizzy from spinning round and round in fancy dresses for all of them. Katniss looks like she's suppressing a laugh at my pain but it makes Annie smile and I'll do anything to keep her happy. Eventually they decide on a strapless light, pink dress that flows to the floor like a waterfall.
'Pink isn't really my colour.'
'I think it suits you.' Katniss smirks as she says it; everyone nods in agreement not knowing she's only doing it to torment me.
'I think you look beautiful.' Annie smiled at me and I sighed.
'Only for you Annie.' She laughs and jumps up and down clapping her hands together.

'It's pink.' I sit on the edge of Peeta's bed as he creates delicate little flowers out of frosting.
'I'm sorry but I'm having trouble picturing you in anything pink.'
'You know I told them that but they wouldn't listen.' I sighed and fell backwards onto the pillows as he laughed.
'Because that's always stopped you before.'
'Annie likes it, she's the bride so it's her decision.'
'I wish I could go, I'd love to see that dress.' I pull the pillow out from behind my head and chuck it at his face. He dodges laughing.
'I am trying to create something here, besides without this cake the wedding can't happen. I mean what's a wedding without cake.'
'If I ever get married I won't have a cake, what's the point of getting something so big and expensive if you can't even eat it?'
'Making others happy.'
'My wedding, they can just deal with it.'

He's silent for a while but then he looks up at me, 'Do you think you'll ever find someone else?' I sigh and look away from him.
'I thought I had but then... Thresh and... He was in love with someone else.'
'I know how that feels.' I sat bolt upright and stared at him.
'Did you...? Did you just remember?' He scrunched up his face and looked like he was concentrating hard.
'I think, she... she loved him and I... It's gone.' He sighed and looked like he was about to cry.
'This is great Peeta, sure it wasn't much but it was a major memory. You're getting better.' I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around his neck. He smiled bigger than I'd ever seen him before.

I sat in the chair as the stylists pull my head up into a loose bun; Annie sat next to me whilst the other two did her make-up. She was humming to herself and looked happier than I'd ever seen her. When they were finished we stood together outside the door holding hands.
'You look amazing Annie.'
'So do you Jay.' She hugged me quickly before the doors opened and we walked out into a room full of people. It was decorated with leaves, children stood near the front singing whilst a man played the fiddle. As we walked down the aisle Finnick was gazing at Annie and beaming and I couldn't have been happier.

The wedding was the same as the one back home, using all of our old traditions and it made me feel as though nothing had ever happened and that we were back where we started. When the ceremony was over music started and everyone began to dance. I skirted around the dance floor and made my way over to Finnick and Annie.
'I'm so happy for you guys.' Finnick pulled the two of us in for a hug.
'My two girls together and we're all safe. I think this is definitely the best day of my life.' Annie laughed and he kissed her on the head.
'Go dance you two.' I shoved the two of them towards the dance floor.
'Okay but you're next.' I smile as they move towards the centre of the dance floor. As I'm watching them someone comes up behind me.
'Dance with me.' I spin around and come face to face with Gale.
'Not tonight Gale, please I can't deal.'
'Just one dance, please I promise nothing else.' I sigh and not wanting to make a scene I follow him out onto the dance floor. He teaches me the steps and pulls me around the dance floor with him. I can see Finnick looking at us over Annie's shoulder and I try to act as though I don't hate him.

The music slows down and Gale pulls me closer to him wrapping his arms around my waist. I put my on his shoulders and refuse to make eye contact.
'Why aren't you dancing with Katniss?'
'You knew I still had feelings for her when this started, just like you still loved Thresh.'
'It isn't the same thing and you know it.'
'I thought you didn't want to do this tonight.'
'Well I'm sorry, I just can't think of anything else to say to you.'
'Well how's your training going?'
'Fine, they think I'll be ready soon.'
'Well that's good isn't it?' I sigh and look him in the eye.
'Gale I can't just talk to you like nothing happened, you made your decision and it wasn't me. Please just let me get on with my life, I don't want to be your safety net.' He opened his mouth to say something else when Finnick tapped him on the shoulder.
'Can I borrow my sister for a second; I believe she owes me a dance.' He held out his hand and did a little bow. Despite my anger it made me giggle. Gale let me go and I walked off with Finnick.

'You two looked like you were getting cosy.'
'We're just friends, not even that. Coin has him watch me so I don't try to kill everyone, he's just doing his job.'
'Is that so?' I shook my head and looked away. 'You know I always thought you and Toby would be the ones getting married first.'
'So did I, I never saw myself with anyone else, he was my only friend and the only person I could talk to besides you. I guess you never know what's going to happen.' Our conversation is cut short as Peeta's cake is wheeled into the room. Finnick's face lit up.
'Surprise, I helped Peeta make it.'
'It's just like the ones at home.'
'I wanted your wedding to perfect so when they said they were making a cake I told them how it was done.' He walked over to Annie and they began to cut the cake, I saw Haymitch lead Katniss out of the room from the corner of my eye and he gestured for me to follow.

I walked outside whilst they were in mid conversation. Haymitch looked up and nodded at me.
'Peeta wants to see Katniss, we need you there if anything goes wrong.'
'Can't it wait, they just got married.' He shook his head and I sighed, I looked back into the room and saw Gale watching me, not wanting to deal with him again I nodded and Haymitch lead the two of us down the corridor.

I lean against the wall watching Katniss through the glass, Haymitch talks to her through an earpiece.
'You're not very big, are you? Or particularly pretty?' I let out a snort of laughter and Haymitch glares at me. I hold my hands up in surrender and he shakes his head turning back to the screen.
'Well, you've looked better.' Haymitch tells her to back off and I scowl offended that she would even say that after all he'd been through.
'And not even remotely nice. To say that to me after all I've been through.' He says laughing and I sigh in relief, the fact that he's laughing with her shows how much better he's getting.
'Yeah. We've all been through a lot. And you're the one who was known for being nice. Not me. Look, I don't feel so well. Maybe I'll drop by tomorrow.' I rise to my feet getting ready to slap her as she retreats to the door but then Peeta says something that makes the two of us freeze.
'Katniss. I remember about the bread.'
They showed you the tape of me talking about it,' I shake my head recalling everything he was ever shown.
'No. Is there a tape of you talking about it? Why didn't the Capitol use it against me?'
'I made it the day you were rescued, so what do you remember?'

I stand there holding my breath hoping that he'll say the right thing. That he'll finally remember something on his own.
'You. In the rain,' he says softly. 'Digging in our trash bins. Burning the bread. My mother hitting me. Taking the bread out for the pig but then giving it to you instead.'
'That's it. That's what happened, the next day, after school I wanted to thank you. But I didn't know how.' A smile spreads across my face, Haymitch's too; everyone else seems shocked since he'd never remembered so much on his own.
'We were outside at the end of the day. I tried to catch your eye. You looked away. And then…for some reason, I think you picked a dandelion. I must have loved you a lot.'
'You did.'
'And did you love me?' he asks, his face looks so full of sadness I just want to hold him in my arms.
'Everyone says I did. Everyone says that's why Snow had you tortured. To break me.'
'That's not an answer; I don't know what to think when they show me some of the tapes. In that first arena, it looked like you tried to kill me with those tracker jackers.'
'I was trying to kill all of you,'
'Later, there's a lot of kissing. Didn't seem very genuine on your part. Did you like kissing me?'
'Sometimes, you know people are watching us now?'
'I know. What about Gale?' I let out an involuntary squeak and clamped my hands over my mouth as everyone in the room turned to look at me; I sunk to the ground and hugged my knees to my chest. All I could think was, please say you don't love him back, please say you don't love him back.

'He's not a bad kisser either,' it took all I had to not run into that room and tackle her to the floor and rip her to shreds. I buried my head in my knees to hide my tears.
'And it was okay with both of us? You kissing the other?'
'No. It wasn't okay with either of you. But I wasn't asking your permission,' for the first time I wanted Peeta to have a break down, to knock her to the ground and kill her. It made me feel sick thinking about it but she was just standing there all high and mighty stomping on both of our hearts. But all he did was laugh coldly.
'Well, you're a piece of work, aren't you?' She storms out of the room past us and I rise slowly to my feet trying to compose myself before I enter.

'Well that was dramatic.' A smile crosses his face and he raises one eyebrow.
'I was wrong, pink is your colour.' I look down and realise I'm still dressed for the wedding.
'I think I look like a marshmallow.'
'A very pretty marshmallow.'
'Are you okay.'
'She's kind of a bitch isn't she.'
'I'm really not the best person to be asking if you want someone to deny it.'
'Are you okay; your eyes are red and puffy?' He walked forward and lifted my face so that it lined up with his. 'Have you been crying?' I pulled my face away and he moved closer so that his face was inches away from mine. 'What happened?'
'Remember before when you said you know how I felt?' He nods and raises his eyebrows. 'You know in more ways than one, and to hear her just brush it off like that...' He pulled me really close and tilted his head down next to mine and whispered in my ear,
'It's him isn't it, he chose her.' I nod and purse my lips trying to hold back the tears. 'Do you love him?'
'I thought maybe I did, but now. I don't know.'

Wow this a long chapter, but you guys deserve it since it's been forever since I've updated. Sorry about that but I just finished my exams YAY so I haven't had much time to write. Umm... So this is just showing some more events from Jay's POV and more Gale/Jay relationship stuff. Please Review and Favourite it means a lot :)