Leah POV

Sam had been pretty relaxed about what patrols I had to run, he usually paired me up with Seth patrolling La Push. It was nice of him to separate me from the other guys as much as possible, but I'd never admitted it to him and never will. Seth was excited to get to patrol more but he still wasn't out there as often as me. Which was a huge bummer for both of us. Sam wanted Seth to keep a good school-work balance which meant I was stuck with one of the other pack members for patrol. Usually, I was paired with Jared because he had his own little imprint to keep his mind off mine but it didn't completely stop him from getting bits and pieces from me. I think Sam also paired me with Jared so I'd see how over the moon excited he was about his imprint. Which only further nauseated me and made me hate imprinting that much more. I couldn't complain though because I got out of Bella babysitting duty. I was never asked to patrol around her house in Forks and for that, I was eternally grateful.

Seth and I were done our patrol and he ran ahead of me, wanting me to race him. I just wasn't in the mood lately. My stomach grumbled loudly and I grit my teeth a bit at that. If this whole stupid imprint thing hadn't happened I would still be able to show my face at Emily's to grab food. Now all I got when I went there was the boys staring and trying to convince me to give in to the imprint. I'm entirely sure it's only for their benefit, they just want their own immersive, on-demand porn. Plus how did they know Bella would even want me as her girlfriend. She was so head over heels for her bloodsucker, I'd just end up as her forever single third wheel. Oh yeah, sounds like a great deal, it's amazing I haven't snatched it up as soon as I had the chance. I slowly walked through the forest as a wolf, letting my mind wander to Bella. My heart had been pulling me towards Forks almost constantly but tonight I finally got a break from the constant annoyance that was this shit imprint. This isn't hard at all, Sam is such an idiot. As soon as a woman is bound to him by magic he drops everything he had. I growled to myself and shook my large head as if to shake the thoughts out. My mind went back to Bella without my noticing. I was thinking about what she looked like before I had imprinted on her and what she looked like now. I couldn't really remember what she looked like before, we were young but I had seen pictures recently when Charlie would come to see Harry. When I compared what she used to look like and what she looked like now there was no comparison. Before she looked pale and kind of sickly, with a shy hunched in posture. But now when I saw her she looked beautifully pale, almost like a marble statue with the cutest blush. And her figure was much more...appealing, she was still shy but kind of in a sexy way. I started to wonder about what she would look like under her baggy raincoat when my train of thought was suddenly interrupted.

'Oh yeah Leah! See you just need to give in to it' Paul cheered.

I snarled, angry at him for being so quiet that I hadn't noticed his presence but more enraged at myself for letting the imprint run wild in my thoughts. I don't want to be having those thoughts about Bella, I snarled again at myself.

'Just give in already, it'll be so much easier.' Paul coaxed.

I couldn't take any more of his thoughts because they just brought me back to Bella thoughts. I was almost home anyway so I phased and pulled on my soaking wet clothes. As I walked to the back door I heard Seth ask: "So what brings you around?". I noted that someone was at the house but didn't really care who, I just had to get inside. My body was screaming to get in the house. I must be hungrier than I thought.

As soon as I stepped through the back door my eyes snapped to the deep chocolate brown ones that haunted my dreams. They were so pretty I could stare at them all night-NO! Bella took a second of looking at my face before she took a step backward, her face so distraught it hurt me slightly. I went to take a step forward, my heart telling me to run to her and wrap her in my arms and comfort her. But I caught myself and stood my ground. My anger boiled up, why can't I just keep her out of my head? I'm not going to continue the wolf bloodline so why bother with all this imprint bullshit?

"What are you doing here?" I managed to get out between a clenched jaw.

She didn't respond and just stared at me with the most hurt eyes I have ever seen. And then she wrapped her arms around her torso as if she were physically in pain. That's all I could take, I shook so violently the rain flew from my body but I couldn't leave her. She was hurting and I needed to help-no I didn't need to help she could go to her bloodsucker or Jacob for that.

"Leah" Seth said quietly, his voice full of understanding.

I looked at my younger brother. He is the only one I could trust with my full emotion. I had let him fully into my head the last week and he struggled along with me through this imprint. He knew what internal battle my body was having right now. He knew how much I didn't want to put up with it anymore. I turned on my heels and threw myself out the door, not wanting to hurt anyone if I couldn't contain myself. It was a good thing I had left too because I phased maybe a foot or two from the bottom steps of the back door.

'Don't even try to fuck with me right now Paul. I would welcome a good fight right now.'

Paul busied himself with counting the trees that had weird growths on them that looked like boobs.

I heard Seth offer to drive Bella home but I didn't hear her response. I stayed in the backyard, just standing in the rain for a long time. I only snapped out of it when I heard Seth in my head.

'Leah, you're ripping her apart…'

I paced back and forth.

'I don't fucking care let her bloodsucker glue the pieces back together.'

But Seth knew me and suddenly he was running patrol around Bella's house.

'What are you doing pup?' Paul asked, obviously confused by the change in schedule. He wasn't due to be rotated until sunrise. Plus Seth and I never ran around Bella's house.

'I want a change of scenery.' Seth said matter of factly.

'Well shit if you want my shift you can have it! Saturday night off, hell yeah.' Paul barked a laugh and suddenly he was gone.

'Thanks, I don't think I could phase back yet and I definitely wouldn't be able to if Paul was still here.' I knew Seth didn't need the praise but I would give it to him anyway because he was the only one in my corner.

'Don't thank me yet, you're taking over. I have to study for my trig test.' He said somewhat displeased.

'You're supposed to be on my side.' I huffed but ran towards Bella's house anyway.

He ran back home and I was alone again. I was thankful for being alone but I was devastated that I had to run the Bella patrol. It was nice however to have the tugging in my chest gone for once. I slowly ran my perimeter around the house trying to distract myself with mundane things. I somehow ended up listening to her breathing, it was slow and deep. She must be asleep. I wasn't sure what time it was but it was dark out. When was the last time I slept?

While trying to figure out my fucked up sleep schedule I heard the softest little "mmm" come from Bella's room. It sounded like a sigh of contentment but I hadn't smelt her bloodsucker come back yet. What was she doing up there? I looked up and down the street to make sure no one was around and then I crept out of the woods, closer to her bedroom window. I could still hear her deep even breathing so she must be dreaming. And then she mumbled: "No, Leah come back." butterflies electrocuted my body. They shot up into my throat causing an anxious lump to form, then down into the lowest pit of my stomach, and then they traveled even lower igniting a blazing fire between my legs for a quick moment. I stood there for a long time, stuck between outrage, amazement, and longing. I was pulled out of my pause when the scent of leech hit me.

I turned to the direction it was coming from just as the short, motherly one came out of the woods.
"Oh I was expecting Paul, you must be...Seth." She smiled at me, I just continued to glare at her.

"No wait, you're Leah. It's nice to finally meet you, or I guess see you." She laughed lightly. I just huffed and turned back to the woods, the tug on my heart digging in again as I did. Stupid fucking imprint.