Hey babes you have almost reached the end of this story! This is an emotional chapter/smut chapter I hope you like it!

The Letters

"Dear Olivia,

If you're reading this letter it means one thing I am no longer here. I was tired of fighting for my mind and heart to be on one accord. My heart wanted to keep on pushing but my mind was drained it couldn't take being in this world anymore. I hope you're not blaming yourself for the choice I made. None of this is your fault. My demons started long before you entered my life. I was never given the help I cried out for so many times and as a result I went down a path of self-destruction. Everyone thought football was the cure. My parents, my family, my coaches and friends didn't want to deal with my bisexuality. As a Black man that was taboo to them. No one felt comfortable talking about sexuality with me, they ignored me, they forced me to bury it into football and I did. I will forever regret not living in my truth. The drugs soon followed and they gave me a feeling that was indescribable. I didn't have to think about who I was pretending to me or who I actually was. For so long I never thought I would find someone that I could truly love, someone that I could see a future with until I met you. I didn't think you would give me a chance Liv. You was and still are way out of my league. I honestly didn't even want you to give me a chance. I didn't want to mess up your image. The world knew me as Hothead Lance and you are America's Princess. But I fell in love with you quick. You made it so easy. I tried pushing you away. I tried closing myself off to you. I tried sabotaging our relationship so many times. Your crazy ass still stuck around. You was the only person that ever listened to me. Whether it was me whining about a loss or losing in 2k you never complained. I knew then that I had to marry you. Your heart is so pure and I hope I didn't damage it too much. I never meant to keep you in the dark about my sexuality. I wanted to tell you so many times. I was just afraid of seeing the judgment in your eyes that I saw in others in my life that knew. I was afraid of losing you and never getting a chance to experience that kind of love again. Liv you was the best thing that ever happened to me. You made me want to be a better man, you pushed me in ways you can never imagine and you made me almost believe that life was actually worth living. I am sorry from the bottom of my heart that I continued to hurt you over and over again. I manipulated you because of my own insecurities and fears. I played with your heart as if it was a toy. I had it in the palm of my hands and I fumbled it. I am sorry that I could not be the man you wanted me to be. I wanted nothing more than to be your husband and give you babies. I guess in another lifetime. Liv don't let my fuck ups keep you from finding love again. I saw the way that principal looked at you and he had that same look in his eyes the day I met you. I want you to know that I am at peace. I am finally free. I left this earth with a smile. I remembered the good times we had. The principal is lucky but I am sure he knows that already. All I ask is that you never let another man or soul put you through the shit I did. Until we meet again, thank you for loving me unconditionally. Please forgive me for my transgressions and failures."

"Oh my God," Olivia whispered feeling dizzy. Thank God Fitz was there to catch her before she hit the floor. He wrapped his strong arms around her giving her the comfort she desperately needed.

"You did it and you did amazing." Fitz kissed the top of her head repeatedly. It was hard hearing her read that letter from Lance. He even suggested she read it alone or maybe with Angela, Harrison hell even Julian. Fitz didn't think he could handle hearing Lance's last words to Olivia. Of course Olivia asked Fitz to be in the room with her when she read the letter.

Olivia gripped Fitz tighter as a heap of emotions coursed through her body. She didn't think she would find the courage to read Lance's letter before leaving for her tour. She wanted to push it off and immerse herself into Fitz and her tour. He wouldn't allow it and she's glad he helped her find the strength to push through and read the letter. The hard part was over. Now she has to write her letter and finally put Lance and their relationship behind her.

"I'm gonna run you a bath." Fitz kissed the top of Olivia's head before leaving her to her thoughts.

She sighed and placed the letter back into its envelope. After sitting the letter on her nightstand, she joined Fitz in her bathroom. He was sitting on the edge of the tub pouring Olivia's favorite lavender body oil into the steaming water.

"You didn't have to do this babe." Olivia walked over to Fitz and sat sideways on his lap.

"I know but I want to. You needed this and as your man it is my job to take away your stress." Fitz rubbed her thigh in a circular motion. Just his touch was turning her on and radiating this fire only he can start in her body. Olivia usually have more self-control however ever since she began dating Fitz all self-control has left her body.

"What would I do without you." Olivia placed her forehead against Fitz's and kissed his lips. Damn the bath, she wanted her man.

"Stand up," Fitz whispers against her lips.

Olivia does as she was told and watches her man strip her out of her clothes until she is in her birthday suit. Olivia could have melted under Fitz's gaze.

"You're so beautiful," Fitz looked up at Olivia before kissing her stomach with his hands on her small waist.

Olivia looked down at him and bashfully smiled. The simplest compliment from him still makes her blush.

Fitz helped Olivia into the bath and she couldn't hold the moan that escaped her lips. She sat there for a few minutes allowing the water and oil to work its magic. Fitz got up and left her to her thoughts for a few moments. He returned shortly after with her favorite bottle of wine and a wine glass. Yeah, she has to marry this man.

"What…why are you staring at me like this?" Fitz laughed handing Olivia her glass of wine.

"Because my man is so sexy and he's so perfect." Olivia winked.

"Lance had one thing right."

"And what is that?"

"You make it easy to fall in love with you." Fitz returned the wink.

"Take off your clothes." She needed to feel him.

Fitz bit his bottom lip and nodded. He stood up and gave Olivia a strip tease. She whistled and clapped the entire time. He joined her in the bath spooning her from behind. Olivia turned around and straddled his lap making some of the water swoosh onto the floor. Olivia's bathtub can fit at least 3 people it was huge and they had more than enough space.

"I love you." Olivia lifted up and inserted Fitz's hard cock inside of her. She could've came as soon as he entered her. He fits her like a glove inside of her is where he belongs.

"I love you more." Fitz caressed the back of Olivia's neck.

"Ooouu," Olivia whimpers as she rode Fitz at a lethargic pace so she could feel every inch of him. This is it for her. He is it for her.

"Say my name," Fitz urged gripping the back of her neck tighter. He was fucking her back too and she was losing control.

"Mmmm…babe…" Olivia moans as she bit on her bottom lip. She didn't want to cum but she couldn't quite fight it off either. She can never last with him.

"My name is not babe." Fitz cockily smirked.

"Fitz I'm cummin'." Olivia cried out. She collapsed into his chest breath hitched body completely flushed.

Fitz held her and continued grinding into her until he came. They stayed in each other's arms for a few minutes before finding the strength to get out of the bathtub. Fitz walked them over to her walk-in shower and set the water to Olivia's preferred setting which was steaming hot.

Olivia leaned on her tiptoes and kissed Fitz lips. He gripped a handful of her ass and tried lifting her into his arms. She resisted and broke the kiss. Fitz cocked his brow wondering why she wouldn't let him pick her up. He needed to be back inside of her. He craves her as much as she craves him.

"Babe…?" Fitz asked as he attempted to lift her again.

Olivia instead trails kisses from Fitz's chest and works her lips down until she reaches his happy trail. She looked up at Fitz and mouthed 'I love you' to him as she stroked his throbbing dick in her manicured hands.

Fitz bites his bottom lip and mouthed 'I love you more' back to her. Olivia took him into her mouth and sucked him until he was coming down her throat. He wanted to get down on his own knees and propose to Olivia. Pulling her back up to her feet they took turns washing one another and then retired to her bedroom. The both of them were in rare from as they continued their love making session for another three rounds until they literally passed out from exhaustion.

Olivia woke up the next morning feeling like a new woman. Fitz was still knocked out, so she used that time to write her letter to Lance. She leaves for her tour in two days and the plan is to visit Lance's grave and read her letter. She asked Fitz to accompany her before he leaves to go back to Oakland. Fitz will not be accompanying her while on the first leg of her tour which is happening oversees. Though she selfishly wants him with her, she isn't selfish enough to pull him from his job that he loves. His students need him more and Olivia wouldn't feel right pulling him from them for the next three months. The second leg of the tour will be back in the States and school will be out by then which means Fitz will have the extra time to accompany her. It's all about comprising and their relationship is worth it.

X

Fitz and Olivia rode in the back of the SUV heading towards Lance's grave hand in hand soaking in their last few hours together. In a perfect world he would follow Olivia oversees for the first leg of her tour, but this is reality and he has a demanding job where he is needed.

"Stop thinking about it please…let's just enjoy the time we have left." Olivia snuggled next to Fitz releasing a heavy sigh.

"You're right," he loves how in tune they are with one another.

As the SUV pulled up to Forest Lawn Memorial Park, they noticed the paparazzi scattered outside of the gates which meant Harrison alerted someone that Olivia was coming. Fitz and Harrison still don't care for one another and it's reasons like this why they never will. Fitz doesn't like how Harrison exploits Olivia, though Harrison may think it's all in her best interest, Fitz sees right through Harrison's bullshit.

With an arm draped around Olivia, they walked to Lance's tombstone with Julian not too far behind. There were fresh flowers laid in front of Lance's tombstone. Fitz took his arm from around Olivia and gave her space so she could read the letter.

Olivia pulled the letter from her purse, took a deep breath and cleared her throat.

Dear Lance,

The day I met you I thought I had found the one. Everyone rooted against us and I went so hard trying to prove to everyone that this was real…that our love was real…and that we were gonna make it. In doing so I lost myself Lance. I become what I told myself I never would. You made me question every essence that makes me a woman. I ignored every red flag because I thought I could change you. I desperately wanted you to be the man that I always dreamed about marrying and starting a family with. Lance you became my challenge and I hate losing. I didn't want to quit on you on us. I didn't want the world to say, 'I told you so'. We both stayed with each other for our own personal reasons. Our love may not have made sense to anyone else, but it was a beautifully strange thing we tried holding onto. We became each other comfort zones. When the news broke of your death, I instantly regretted our last conversation. I wish we could have sat down and put everything on the table. I didn't hate you Lance and I still don't. I am sorry that you could not live in your truth. I am sorry that those around you forced you to hide who you really was. I wish you would have trusted me enough and told me. I would not have judged you. I would have continued to love and help you work through it. I hope truly hope that you are happy and free now. I wish your story could have ended differently. Don't worry I haven't given up on love yet. The principal as you calls him is turning out to be the man I tried turning you into. He loves me Lance and I wish you could have experienced a love like this, then maybe you would still be among us. It comforts me knowing that you are watching over me, your siblings, teammates and friends. We all miss you Lance and we will never forget that infectious smile and your presence. I love you. I forgive you. I thank you. Until we meet again."

Olivia finished reading her letter and placed it back into her purse. It felt like a weight was lifted off her shoulders. Dr. George was right reading Lance's letters and then reading her own was exactly what she needed. Now she can officially put their relationship behind her. She will never forget him, he will always live in her heart, but their relationship is what she doesn't have to carry in her heart. Most importantly she doesn't have to carry around the guilt that his suicide was her fault.

"I can move on now." Olivia turned and walked into Fitz's awaiting arms.

Fitz held her for as long as she needed to be held, while the paparazzi snapped away.

"Liv the cameras." Fitz whispered as if the paparazzi could hear him.

Olivia lifted her head from his chest and looked him square in the eyes. "I don't care." She pulled Fitz down into a kiss. She knew they were going to be all over the blogs. She meant what she said she doesn't care. Fitz is her man she can't hide him from the world forever and she quite honestly doesn't want to hide him.

As soon as they got back into the SUV, Harrison was blowing up Olivia's cell phone with calls and text messages. He wanted her to know that she and Fitz indeed were all over the blogs. Her fans and the world was trying to figure out who was the mysterious man with Olivia at her ex-boyfriend's gravesite. Tiffany who is Olivia's social media publicists sent her text messages regarding her social media accounts and how bananas each account was going. Fitz pulled up Olivia's social media accounts and showed her what Tiffany meant. She was trending on Twitter, Tiffany had to turn her comments and off on Instagram and Facebook she was being mentioned almost every minute. Tiffany eventually had to turn off all notifications pertaining to Olivia's social media accounts.

"Are you ready for all of this?" She asked Fitz. He was now officially in her world. They are no longer in a bubble. People will figure out who he is and before he knows it paparazzi will be following him as well.

"I knew what I was getting myself into Liv when I declared my feelings for you." Fitz assured.

"Aren't you glad you gave this prissy girl a chance?" Olivia teased.

"You're never gonna let me live that down are you?" Fitz laughed throwing his head back against the headrest.

"Probably not," Olivia straddled his lap. There was a partition that gave them the privacy they needed.

"Well it looks like I have some making up to do." Fitz kissed her lips.

Before dropping Fitz off at the airport the couple shared another passionate love making session.

"I'll see you during spring break." Fitz promised.

"Okay babe, have a safe flight I love you."

"I love you more."

They hugged and kissed and Olivia watched Fitz head onto the private jet he flew in on.

"He'll be back before you know it." Julian wrapped a protective arm around Olivia trying to cheer her up.

"I know Ju. I know."

AN: How did you like their letters? How great is Fitz? I am definitely going to end this story with the next chapter and I already know how I am going to wrap this up. I wanted to keep this story short and fluffy. I know I could dive more into their careers and add drama, but that was not the goal for this story. As always leave your thoughts.