Chapter 13: I Don't Love You

(A/N: OMFG! This Chapt3r was s0 sad!!! It mad3 me cri!!! :((( while wr0ting et. Inspir3d by da s0ng "I don't love u" by MCR (in case you can't tell) nO fLaMmIng prepz!)

I was so shocked! I suddenly kissed Onmind because of my ardrenalen rush from fighting the dragon earlier and almost died. But this time, he didn't push me away or pull back. He didn't say sorry or awkwardly and platonically pat me in the back like we were just friends. He actually kissed me back! OMFFG!

I put my arms around his neck and kissed him passionately against the wall in my room. He put his hands around my waste, but I helped him put them against the corset lace things on my back so he could loosen them. Then we started making out even tho he was really bad and awkward at it, but I didn't care. He ran his fingers down my long raven black hair passionately and I robbed my body against him. I wanted him to put his thing into my you know what so we could do it for the first time. But then he let me go and pulled away fro a second to breathe. But then he looked terrified.

"By Dibella, what have I done?" He asked himself. His blue eyes were full of fear and regret.

"What's wrong?" I said.

"I... I'm so sorry, Raven. I shouldn't have done that. What in Oblivion was I thinking?" He facepalmed himself and gently pushed me an armslength away.

F@#%! I was so amgery!!! There was the usual Onion I know! Always apologizing, always saying sorry and patting me in the back awkwardly like I'm just a friend! I thot I got out off the frendzon but I was wrong! I started to cry and my eyeliner ran down my cheeks like shadowy black rivers of despair.

"WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU, ONMIND?!" I shooted at him. "You think you can just play with my felings like that, you basterd! You fcking prep!!!"

"Raven, wait. That's not what I wanted to—" he pleaded and put his hand on my shoulder like a friend.

"FCUK OFF!!!1" I yelled really loudly at him. And then I stomped out of my room while crying bitter tears of anguish.

I saw Enthrir and Nirna staring at me along with some other preppy high elfs, so I stuck my middle finger up at them. And then I continued crying and ran up the spiral stairs and into the rooftop crying.

I sat in a corner in the rooftop and sobbed. It was freezing up there but I didn't care. My heart was already cold anyway because of what stupid Onion did. And then I heard footsteps. I locked up and it was Barleyna.

"Raven..." she spoke concernedly. "Are you alright? What happened?"

"OMFG BARLEYNA! I just wanna be alone!" I shooted emotionally. But Brenana just sat next to me and gave me her handkerchief which I used to wipe my black stained tears.

"Onmund didn't mean to hurt you, you know. He can be a bit dense sometimes... especially around women." She said. I scoofed at it.

"He's such a stupid basterd, Barleyna. I don't know what I ever saw in him," I cried.

Brenana put her arm around my shoulder and comforted me.

"Come on, we shouldn't be up here. We'll freeze to death!" She said gently. "Would you rather talk about it inside?"

I nodded in between my sobbing and followed her back into the hall of Attunetemt where we hung out in her room. I just really wanted to eat a tub of ice cream and listen to some sad songs like MCR or evansence but ipods and ice cream didn't exist in Tamriel. Instead of ice cream, Barleyna brought some sweetrolls from the dining hall, but it made sadder because those were Onmind's favorite. I ate them anyway as I complained to Brenana all night.