Chapter 12 - Baby Shower
"Realize that If a door was closed, it's because what was behind you wasn't meant for you."~Mandy Hale
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Courtney POV
As I got out of Buddy's private jet, I was once again in Canada. I thanked Buddy, and looked for Bridgette. She was going to pick me up. Her baby shower was today. Her baby was going to be a girl.
I suddenly grabbed the sleeve of my jacket, to cover my cuts and bruises that I left on my wrist.
When I faked my own death, I was trying to escape depression. But somehow I was headed towards depression either way.
In fact, I still have those suicidal thoughts too. I still think about Duncan, and I think about how bad my life is. Now, I think of my grandmother too. I will have to die lonely too right?
I just think that life is selfish for not killing me already.
I climbed down the steps and hugged Bridgette.
"Courtney! Oh my gosh I thought you weren't coming! How are you!" Bridgette said excitedly.
It's like I was happy again. I had to put on a happy tone, but I'm dying inside.
"Hi Bridgette! Awww I see your baby bump." I said calmly. I really could see her baby bump. I'm glad she's happy. Who wouldn't?
"How about we catch up? We could go eat at your favorite coffee place, remember?" She said excitedly.
"Yeah" was how I replied. I really probably was bieng a bum. But I just didn't care anymore...
Bridgette POV
I noticed that Courtney was a little bit off. Her eyes had bags under her eyes. Her eyes were also red, I could also tell that she was hurt. She was wearing a cardigan that fit her big, from the sleeves. She had a black shirt and jeans. Also knee-high boots. She also wore a cap too.
When we walked in the cafe, she immediately put on her sunglasses to look unrecognizable.
We ordered 2 donuts, and coffee. As we walked over to a seat in the far end, corner.
"Courtney are you okay? " I asked that question concerningly. I was concerned for her. I really wish she'd say something.
...
"Courtney?" "Are you okay? I'm concerned for y-" I was cut off
"Of course I am." She said but I knew she wasn't. There was something she wasn't telling me.
On the car ride to my house, I decided to ask again. I didn't know why she isn't telling me anything.
"Hey. Where's the Courtney I know and love? There's something you're not telling me. You know I'll always be here for you right?"
After I said that I looked over to see her reaction. She shrugged and placed her head on the car window.
"That's because the Courtney you know and love dosen't exist anymore. I also don't she's ever coming back." Courtney said in a whisper.
I could barely hear her.
"Well when is she coming back I miss her." I said, trying to cheat her up.
"Don't You Get It! I doubt she's ever coming back! I'M NOT ME ANYMORE BRIDGETTE! I don't know anymore! Courtney said yelling.
I was shocked! Was that how she really felt? I looked over and saw tears forming in her eyes.
As we arrived at my house, I got Courtney settled in the guest room. I sat down next to her on the bed.
"I'm sorry Bridgette... Things have been bothering lately." She said softly.
"Do you want to talk about it?" I said hoping she'd say yes... I was going to finally help her.
Courtney nodded
Just as she was going to say things, Geoff interrupted.
"Hey babe... Who's this? Geoff said curiously
No POV
"Oh this... this is my friend... um ... Clare"Bridgette responded.
It suddenly turned into an awkward situation.
"Well I'll see you around Clare?" Geoff asked
Courtney nodded
Afterwards they went to set up decorations..
Geoff was the best party planner. Party was probably his middle name.
Courtney POV
Bridgette and Geoff's pool was filled with balloons all over. Who knew a baby shower could be a pool party too?
I put on my spandex shorts, and my black bikini bra. I put on a kimono-type floral cardigan.
I put on my sunglasses and my hair in a low bun. Hoping I'd look unrecognizable.
People started to arrive. Mostly the Total Drama cast.
I started to relax for the first time in, forever on a lounging - chair.
When someone took a seat next to me on the other lounging chair. It was Izzy.
The only thing different about her was her short hair.
"Hey I haven't seen you around. Are you new?" She asked curiously. Maybe Izzy has changed?...
"No"... I said slowly
That was a mistake. After she started telling me about her stories. After what seemed like forever someone caught my eye. It was Duncan.
But he was more muscular and had abs!? My heart started racing. My cheeks became red and it was suddenly hot. He also had a tattoo of a rose on his chest. He had no shirt and had black shorts on.
Then I saw someone next to him, it was Gwen.
Immediately, my eyes became watery. There was a lump in my throat. I was speechless! Luckily I had my sunglasses on so nobody could see my watery eyes.
I looked over at Bridgette and forrowed my eyebrows. She looked over confused as well.
I quickly ran to the nearest room.
All of my thoughts started to come back. My world had collapsed. He... he deserves something better anyways I thought.
I couldn't erase my memory of him and Gwen. I want to take that memory. Maybe they were meant to be together. Maybe I'm just in the way again. I'm supposed to be outside cheering for my best friend. Not thinking about some boy.
Gwen took away the person I wanted the most.
I tried calming myself down by counting to ten. It didn't work... I broke down. I sat in the forest corner of that room. My face on my knees and I started crying.
Maybe I was being selfish... Duncan deserved to live his life the way he wants.
I heard the door open and saw it was Bridgette.
She came over and hugged.
"Courtney you know they aren't anything. She's just his date because she didn't want to go alone. You know it's not what it looks like." She said in a calm, motherly voice.
Whoever that baby inside of Bridgette's stomach, is luck to have her as a mother.
I eventually went outside where the rest of the guests were. I saw almost everyone.
As I sat down I heard someone yell "Watch OUT!"
Before I knew it I got splashed on by Duncan.
"Ugh you idiot" I cried out.
"Hey chill it's a pool party." Duncan said as he got close to me. He had certainly grown taller.
I turned around and walked alway. Before I knew it he tried following me but he didn't.
Duncan POV
The girl who I just splashed looked a lot like Courtney. I just couldn't see her eyes. I tried following her but I stopped myself. It was stupid. Courtney is gone and I had to accept that...
I suddenly felt a poke. I turned around, it was Gwen. The only reason I decided to go with her today was because I had no date as well. Also I needed to escape from my thoughts about Courtney.
"Want to get a drink?" Gwen asked.
Just as I was about to answer it was time to open the gifts.
Then, the same girl from before, handed Bridgette a gift. Inside there were clothes. Bridgette started crying of joy and hugging her.
That girl has the same features as Courtney. What if Courtney faked her death? ...
As the party ended I walked up to the girl.
"Say what was your name again?" I asked
"Co... Clare" she said instantly. I noticed her cheeks go red. I smirked, she was pretty hot.
"I'm Duncan" I said while smirking.
Just then we were interrupted by Gwen.
"Duncan lets go" she said.
"Bye Clare see you around?" I asked hoping she'd give me an answer.
But she suddenly disappeared...
That girl sure is strange...
Courtney POV
"Bridgette thank you for letting me stay for two months in your house." I said
Bridgette let me stay so I could help her until the baby comes and afterwards for a week. I truly am excited to see the baby.
"Thank you for agreeing to help me" Bridgette responded.
Maybe someday I'll have a child of my own?...
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Author's Note: OMG! Maybe you will Courtney... I don't know but stay tuned! My mom is taking my phone away so I'm sorry if I don't update.. Don't worry I have that under control :). Also I have fans im sooo happy. These reviews make my day.. also review if you see this :) Until next chapter !!! I'll try to make them longer I promise!!! Also no worries Duncan will not be depressed in the end and neither will Courtney but I can't spoil the book!
Love you all- Maria