Chapter 15-Big Mistake
"Before I make a mistake, I don't make that mistake.~ Johan Cryuff
2 months later
Italy
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These past two months, after little Allison was born, my depressing thoughts came back. But this time, I was disappointed in myself. I ran away like a coward from Duncan. I never gave him a chance to explain at all. I came to Italy and now I was alone. All I needed was somebody. Somebody to accompany me. But I felt so alone and trapped on the inside, and on the outside.
I felt so alone. Now all I want is to scream and let out all my thoughts out. I just want to cofor me out of hiding and live with Duncan. But as much as I want to, I can't. I feel so trapped I feel like I can never go back. I somehow hoped Duncan would call me. But he doesn't have my number. I try to let my thoughts and feelings out to Bridgette but she been too busy with Allison. I don't want to bother her. I just feel so lonely. Wanting to let it all out. I kept on getting frustrated that I want to throw everything, and anything in this room.!
I just couldn't take it anymore. I faked my death to escape everything but instead, all I ever needed was somebody, maybe even a therapist!
Maybe if I come out of hiding, I'll live my normal life and maybe even have a start with Duncan? NO! What's done is done and I was THAT stupid enough to fake my death and hide! Just then I felt sick. I didn't eat anything. I was feeling nauseous that I ran to the bathroom.
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That was strange...why did I throw up? I hadn't eaten anything today... Maybe I'm sick? I shook off the thought and started making myself some soup. I then realized I hadn't had my period in two months! Could it be? NAH! That'd be silly me pregnant? Nope probably won't happen. I always loved kids but I couldn't right now.
As I put the soup in a bowl, those thoughts kept on coming back. Is it possible, that I was?
Once I got done eating my soup, I grabbed my jacket and walked to the nearest grocery shop which was 3 miles away. It was kind of chilly out. The shop was owned by the nicest couple. Of course they haven't watched the show and don't have a TV. They recognize me as "Chabela's granddaughter". As I entered the shop, I was greeted by Mrs. Russi. Mr.Russi and her, are the couple.
"Hi dear take what you need, it's on me today" Mrs Russi smiled warmly and said with an accent. She didn't speak much English because she lived in Italy all her life. Mrs. Russi has big brown eyes, and she is 79 years old!
I smiled warmly at her, "Thanks Mrs. Russi. Where's Mr. Russi?" I asked warmly. Mrs and Mr. Russi liked to give me something's for free because they knew my grandmother.
"Oh he's just going to into town for no reason. Our 60th year anniversary is coming up I want to buy him some flowers." Mrs.Russi added excitedly.
"Woah that's great, Congratulations! Also all I needed was this tiny test." I said warmly, hoping she wouldn't ask what test it was. Mr and Mrs. Russi were like my second grandparents. Except they don't know my true identity.
"Congratulations dear, I just know it'll come out positive please come again!" Mrs. Russi said happily as she waved.
I was confused but I walked back to my house. I felt nauseous again but nothing much. I hoped. Now if I were to be pregnant, what will I do.
I chuckled at the idea. I'm certain that'll probably not happen. Right? I mean my periods could be irregular for something else, and I could be nauseous because I probably ate something?
As I finally arrived home, I ran to the bathroom. I locked the door behind me, even though I was completely alone. I was more comfortable that way. I read the instructions on the box, and quickly followed them.
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Canada 1:00 am
I stayed up again. But this time I was questioning everything. Was Courtney really alive? Where could she be ? Did she really love me back?
My mind was full of questions. I should've stopped her when she left. Maybe I could've convinced her to expose herself, to not fake her death anymore. Maybe we could've worked out? It had been 2 months and I'm still wondering to this day... maybe she'd return? I'm positive Bridgette knows about this. Why else would a "stranger" be staying at her house. Geoff probably dosen't know. He's bad at keeping secrets. I doubt he knows. But I need to find her. I won't give up on her. I loved her and I'll do anything for her...
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I was walking back and forth. Nervously I grabbed the test. I closed one eye, nervously looked at the result. I almost fainted. It read positive?! ME PREGNANT?! This couldn't be happening??!!!! This had to be a joke. I looked at the test and it had a 99.99 percent accuracy. Maybe it wasn't accurate?
Oh my gosh! I really tried to tell myself that? I am pregnant and scared! What makes me think this test is inaccurate?
I started sobbing.
What am I going to do? What will I tell Duncan? I looked at the test sign hoping, somehow, that little pink plus sign, was not there.
But it was.
More tears came out. I felt bad, for myself, for Duncan and most importantly, for this baby. My breath became more shallow. This baby won't have its father in its life. But I somehow had to tell Duncan. I texted Bridgette the news hoping she'd respond. I needed to go back to Canada. When I'm ready though. I looked at my stomach and rubbed it gently. Knowing somebody is moving inside of me. I smiled at the fact that there is probably a mini me, or a mini Duncan in there. But my smile quickly faded. That child will probably be hidden for the rest of its life. I didn't want that.
I have to go back to Canada! I have too! I need to tell Duncan and leave!
One thing is for certain though, I'll be the best mom this baby will ever have. I have to at least try. This baby is going to be my companion too for the rest of my life. This baby will be here and we will get through this! I will try hard for this baby to have the life I couldn't! One thing is for sure though, wether or not Duncan is there, I will...
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Next morning
I had a text from Bridgette which was strange.. the text caught my eye. She said Courtney wanted to meet up by a cafe near a hotel... which means... SHE'S COMING!!!!! Holy shit! She would be here by tomorrow night! I needed to fix my appearance. I needed to get ready! Maybe a good outfit can impress her? I was for sure not letting this chance go!
But why would she meet me? Was she considering my offer? But I would need to find out...
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I texted Buddy and asked if I could go back to Canada in a few months. Surprisingly he was in Italy right now and I could go back to Canada. We would be there by tomorrow night! I needed to make a reservation at a hotel because, I didn't want to bother Bridgette especially since she just had Alisson. Who was her newborn. I decided to call Bridgette to at least let her know the news.
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"Hello, Bridgette?" Courtney shyly said. Unsure of why she was shy, Courtney decided to stop that and be confident.
"Hi Courtney you wouldn't believe how much Alisson cries at night!" Bridgette tiredly exclaimed. Bridgette was still getting used to this whole new situation.
Courtney giggled. But she got nervous. She started sweating a lot. Her palms became hot, and slippery.
"Bridgette I'm pregnant-" was all Courtney managed to say before she started crying.
There was a gasp on the other side of the phone.
"OH MY GOSH COURTNEY!" Bridgette exclaimed loudly.
"Don't cry Court I'm here for you. Who's the father? You need to tell him, Courtney! We will get through this believe me! " Bridgette tried to sound like she was there for her. It was because she was. She understood what Courtney was going through. It was tough especially in Courtney's situation.
"Well it's Duncan, Duncan's the father. I can't tell him he will hate me and my child! My baby will not go through that!" Courtney said sobbing and crying louder, while holding her stomach as if trying to protect her baby.
Even though this was all a surprise for Courtney, she still loved her baby. It was the only person she had.
"Look I got a plan" Bridgette said. With that, Courtney started listening even more...
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Author's Note: Courtney what!!!!! Also Bridgette's baby's name is Alison. Stay tuned for next chapter! I am writing a new story right now because, I love writing FanFiction about Courtney and Duncan! Review please! I love reading all of the reviews!
Love you all see you next chapter ~Maria