To Eddie
By imafeckingstarr
Summary: After the final events with Pennywise, The Loser's Club leave Derry for the last time. Instead of losing their memory of what happened, however, everyone remembers what they had to do to rid Derry of Pennywise for good. Looking for new ways to deal with all his trauma, Richie goes to therapy. It's there where his therapist suggests writing a letter with all his feelings inside. So, he writes a letter to Eddie…
A/N: These films have become my favourite things to watch. Especially during lockdown – I hope everyone is doing okay, despite the circumstances. This idea came to me as I finished watching IT: Chapter 2 the other day and couldn't get it out of my mind. Hoping I've done this idea justice. Oh, TW for swearing and potential spoilers!
'To Eddie'
Eddie –
Man, I don't even know where to start. Things are so… fucked. Yeah, they're fucked without you. My therapist said this would be a good idea, but I just feel fucking stupid. Ha, yeah, I'm in therapy. Never saw that one coming, did you? Neither did I, but here we are. I'm supposed to be writing down how I feel, and I'm just deflecting. Same old me, right Eddie?
But, fuck, whatever, here goes.
I'm sorry, man. Sorry I couldn't save you. Sorry I forgot you. Forgot us. You were my best friend, man. Behind all the jokes and all the sarcasm, I still… I still cared for you. You were my best friend, and I let you down. I tried, and I failed.
I never thought I'd echo the words I said to Ben when we were kids, but I'm glad I met you… before you died. Eddie, man, I wish you were still here, so I could tell you all this in person. Instead of a stupid fucking letter that you'll never get to read because you're fucking dead and it's all my fault. I should have had the courage to tell you sooner, instead of hiding behind jokes about your mom.
Eddie, I care about you man. No, more than that. Fuck, I'm in love with you. And I will regret never fucking telling you this until the day I die.
R + E, just like the bridge, man. Not that you've seen that. Fuck.
So now this is all down on paper, I guess all I have to do is burn it.
I miss you, Eddie. I love you. And I think I always will.
Fuck that stupid fucking clown.
- Richie
So, there you have it. My first IT fan fiction. I know it's been a while since I've posted anything. Life has gotten in the way. Things have spiralled and to be quite honest, I've lost the motivation to do anything. I'm hoping this will get me out of the rut I've found myself in.
Hope you guys liked it.
muchlove,
imafeckingstarr xxx