AN: Ok, we're almost done with Bella's story so hang in there, one more chapter after this one. So, just to warn you this chapter is long and dark towards the end of it. Towards the end Bella is OOC. Try to keep an open mind.

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BPV

Edward stood up and started to pace back and forth behind his chair running his hand roughly through his hair tugging on the roots.

So, he was the one who had interrupted me. I couldn't wrap my head around why he was acting this way.

Carlisle's calming voice was directed at Edward. "Sit down son, you're being rude to our guest."

Edward still paced ignoring Carlisle completely, "Bella, what were you thinking? How could you be so reckless? You gambled with your life, Bella!

I couldn't process his words quickly enough, I started to say something, anything to defend myself, but he cut me off.

"He tells you he's a VAMPIRE, Bella. A VAMPIRE! Then tells you he struggles not to kill you, that he hungers for your blood and you, you jump into bed with him…….."

He stopped pacing and stared directly at me. "Did you have a death wish?" What were you thinking? He repeated, "Or were you thinking at all?"

The room went eerily quiet. The Cullen's stared at him with wide eyes, Jasper and Emment exchanged looks and shook they're heads.

"Oh, Edward", Esme breathed out disappointingly.

I broke from my frozen stupor and anger flooded me. I met his eyes and cocked my head to the side standing up.

"EXCUSE ME?" I seethed.

I was about to go off on him. Ask him what his problem was and where'd he get off. But Carlisle stepped in between us with his palms facing out towards the both of us and addressed Edward first.

"That's enough!" he said in a threatening voice that considering the shocked faces on the other Cullen siblings I didn't think he used very much.

"Edward, Bella is a guest in our home. She has been nice enough to come into a house full of strangers to speak to us because we asked her to, I'm sure this isn't easy for her. Now I insist you sit down and show her some respect or you can leave the room until we are done, am I understood?"

Edward looked back and forth between both Carlisle and I and threw himself back into his chair with a defeated look on his face.

When Carlisle turned to address me wearing an apologetic look I was still in shock from Edward's little episode and I was still vibrating with anger so I'm not really sure why I started giggling uncontrollably .

Maybe it was because I was so emotionally spent from reliving a time I'd rather not think about or maybe it was from witnessing someone as strong as Edward have a temper tantrum and then get reprimanded by his father. I don't know, but I couldn't control it.

I heard snickering break out through the room and I saw that now all the Cullen's, besides Edward of coarse, were giggling along with me. Even Carlisle was trying to suppress a smile by rubbing his hand side to side over his mouth. When the laughter died down I felt lighter, it was a good feeling. I realized it had been over a month since I had truly laughed last.

With the tension now melted from the room Carlisle spoke up, "Bella, I'm so very sorry for the interruption. Would you mind continuing or do you need a break?

I let out a big breath of air, "Just let me check in with Charlie first and let him know I'll be a little late then I'll continue. There's not much left to tell," I told him, "I'll skip over a lot of the middle stuff and move onto the not so happy ending," I said with a grimace.

This was the part of my story I was least looking forward to.

EPV

Bella left the room and all I could do was stare forward at her empty chair to keep from making eye contact with the accusing eyes of my families stares burning into me. Their thoughts had been bombarding me non stop since I had interrupted Bella.

I couldn't help it. I lost all control……how dare he! How dare he reach out and pluck that beautiful, innocent girl from her life. Our kind know our limits, know that when humans are concerned that if you get too close nothing good can come from it. But non the less he gambled with her life every time he was close to her.

He was the worst kind of monster and I cringed every time she talked fondly of him, or he made her smile or laugh. He didn't deserve it, he didn't deserve her.

It took all the restraint I possessed to not stop her earlier. He told her everything, took away her innocence and let her into this dark world and what lived in it.. He held her hand, laid beside her in bed, and kissed her. He touched her! My teeth were permanently clenched and my fists were in tight balls. I wanted to find him, hunt him down, torture him, and then rip his head from his vile, lifeless body.

Alice kneeled in front of me and spoke to me in her thoughts so Bella didn't here, "Edward, please calm down," she said trying to unclench my hand with her tiny fingers, "This last part of the story is going to be especially hard on Bella and it won't take much to scare her away. I know you have feelings for her, but….

I jerked my hand from her grasp and growled at her, " I. Do. Not. have feelings for Bella!

Jasper came over and put a calming hand on my shoulder, I relaxed the slightest amount.

"Bro, you don't have to have my ability to see you have feelings for Bella." he said lowly so Bella couldn't hear.

"Eddie's got a girlfriend, Eddie's got a girlfriend, Eddie's got a girlfriend…" Emmet's chant broke through my barriers.

I was about to lunge at my delusional brother when I heard Bella come back into the room from the kitchen. I sat back giving Emmet one last death glare and tried to prepare myself for the second part of the longest night of my life.

BPV

I sat back into my chair and waited for the Cullen's to get settled. I glanced over at Edward and noticed he actually looked worn out which I didn't think was even possible for a vampire. Wasn't I the one pouring my heart out, laying out a very personal part of my life for them to see and judge. Figuring out Edward was going to take some time which I didn't have right now because I was about to divulge into the real reason I was here participating in story time at the Cullen's, the part of the story that would explain how I got here. So I continued.

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Avery and I were always together. I woke up to him in the morning, we worked together, when we weren't working he would come over after dark or we'd go out, and he spent every night holding me while I slept. It was perfect, he was perfect.

The next few months flew by in a blur and before I knew it school was out and summer was here. That just meant one thing to me, more time with Avery.

Renee interrupted my daydreaming at the kitchen table, she had made it a point that I had dinner with her tonight and she was cooking something that resembled chicken. I should of known something was up, she never cooked.

"Earth to Bella." she said snapping her finger in front of my face.

"Hmm?" was my only response.

"Bella what has gotten into you lately? You're spacing out, walking around here like a zombie, you're never home anymore and when you are you're held up in your room. This is so unlike you. You know you can talk to me about anything, right?"

I chuckled inwardly. That would be an interesting conversation…..Well mom, my boyfriend's a vampire who doesn't like to go out during the day very much because he sparkles and all so I really only get see him at night or in the morning before he sneaks out of my room, ya, I could see that going over real well.

"Are sleeping at night hunny, look at the circles under your eyes, you look like death run over." Renee interrupted.

I caught my reflection in the mirror on the wall behind Renee. I traced the darkness under my eyes with my fingers, I did look like I could use a good nights sleep or maybe five. I guess I wasn't sleeping very much, with Avery staying over every night we spent a lot of the night talking or doing other things not as innocent. We hadn't gone any further than the night he confessed everything to me but our time together was definitely intense. He kept telling me he wanted us to take our time, not to rush things, but I could tell it was wearing on him and it was getting harder for him to stop. I know I was struggling with it.

"Is it that boy?" she questioned. "You know I was against this from the beginning, he's too old for you Bella, and your too smart to lose sight on what's important in life because of some boy."

"He's not just some boy mom!" I snapped back a little too quickly.

She stared at me for a moment dissecting what I had just said, "Please tell me you're not sleeping with him, I told you it only takes one time to………"

"No!" I interrupted her. "I'm not sleeping with him mom."

I took a deep breath and calmed myself. "Everything's fine mom, I promise, I'll catch up on some sleep and I'll be good as new, ok"?

Renee looked at me skeptically and stood up and went and got something from the kitchen drawer, she tossed it in front of me standing back against the wall with her arms crossed, "This came in the mail today."

I opened the folded piece of paper. It was my report card. I had always been a straight A student but staring back up at me from where my A's usually resided were three very angry looking C's.

I swallowed the lump in my throat, I couldn't even remember doing poorly, when I thought hard enough about it, I couldn't remember much about the last few months of school at all. I had just been going through the motions counting down the minutes until I got to be with Avery again.

"Bella, you've always been the responsible one. You have a great head on your shoulders and I don't have to tell you that in order to be able to get assistance to get into a good college you have to do better". Renee looked at me apologetically. "I thinks it's best if you stop seeing Avery for awhile."

"But Mom….." I pleaded trying to hold back tears.

"End of discussion Bella." Renee said matter of fact..

I crumpled up my report card and ran to my room only stumbling twice on my way to the back of the house.

When I flung open my door and slammed it behind me I was met with two strong arms wrapping around me and crushing me to him in the dark.

"Shhhhh, it's ok baby, breath." his cool breath whispered in my ear. "Calm down for me, ok, and when Renee goes to bed I'll take you somewhere where we can talk, shhhhhh?"

My body instantly relaxed in his embrace and I took deep calming breaths as Avery drew circles on my back with his fingers. We stayed like that in silence until he said Renee had went to bed an hour later. He grabbed a throw from my bed and wrapped it protectively around me and with that I was flung around to his back and we were out my window running at full speed.

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When I opened my eyes I had to blink a few times to clear them from holding them closed so tight on the trip. No matter how many times he ran with me I couldn't make myself get used to it. I looked around and saw we were in our spot in the dessert. Avery had taken me here more than once. He loved to tell me about the stars, out here in the middle of no where it seemed like they lit up the sky only for us. It was beautiful. Avery took the throw from around my shoulders and placed it on the ground for us to sit on. Instead of snuggling me up to him like he normally did he sat me down and then sat across from me with his legs crossed. He really did want to talk. Any eerie feeling shot down my spine.

"Bella, I'm sorry I got you in trouble with Renee," he started quietly.

I interrupted before he could go any further, "You have nothing to be sorry about it's my fault and Renee's overreacting, I can take extra credit next year, I'll be fine."

"I have no doubt you'll be ok in school, you're a smart girl Bella," he said picking at pieces on the blanket, "but Renee's right."

My heart sank, right about what, my mind went a mile a minute trying to recollect everything she said to me that he could possibly be agreeing to and then as realization hit me my world fell a part.

"No." I whispered.

"Bella I'm not good for you, look what I've done to you. I've taken you away from your friends and family, because of me your not eating or sleeping right, you did poorly in school ….

"No." I said again between clenched teeth trying to hold back the sob threatening to break free.

"I'm disrupting your life," he said still concentrating on the blanket, "I told you at the beginning I didn't want to hurt you and here I am doing just that. I love you Bella, I can't hurt you anymore."

I stood up having so much emotion running through me that I didn't know what to do with my body, I felt like I was being ripped into a million pieces.

"Why are you doing this?" I sobbed.

"I told you Bel……" he started.

I interpreted him, "NO." It seemed to be the only word I could grasp at the moment.

"Look at you," I said, anger starting to take over me now, "You can't even look at me, you haven't looked up once, you're playing with that stupid blanket like it's so god damn interesting, look at me you coward!"

His head shot up to look at me surprised by my anger and choice of words. He stood up slowly.

"If you don't want to be with me anymore just SAY IT, stop feeding me these god damn lies." I shrieked.

My heart was ripping apart inside of me and the blood spilling from it was pulsating in my ears, I was quickly losing it.

"You never loved me," I spat turning around to stalk off into no where land. I didn't have a plan on how to get home, I didn't even know exactly where we were I just knew I needed to get as far as I could from him before I broke down anymore and became even more pathetic in his eyes.

He caught my arm and spun me back around into his body. He removed his hand from my arm and grabbed my face on both sides. His breathing was heavy and he pulled my face to look directly into his darkened eyes.

"Don't ever say that!." He spoke hard. "You know I love you, I've loved you every second of every god damned day since I met you!."

All I could do was stare, I was numb.

"What did you think was going to happen, Bella? You know what I am. I fell in love with you knowing I was going to have to let you go someday so you could move on and have a normal, happy life. My presence is already disrupting your life too much," he said rubbing his thumbs across the circles under my eyes, "so it will be easier on both of us to not prolong the inevitable."

I swallowed hard and found my voice, his closeness under the circumstances was heartbreaking.

"I want you to turn me, I want to be like you." I said with as much determination in my voice I could muster.

He dropped his hands from my face backing away quickly as if he'd been stung.

"Have you lost your mind, Bella." He looked shocked at me, "There's no way in hell I'm doing that to you," his voice lowered, " you don't even know what your asking for."

"I'm asking to be with you forever," I said as I closed the space between us, "I put my hand on his cheek, "I'm asking you to make me yours."

He looked at me with pain in his eyes, "No," he said brokenly, "I've been selfish with you but I won't be that selfish. You will fall in love with someone who will be able to give you everything you want, kids, a life, a future. I. Will. Not. Take that away from you.

"All I want is you….," I trailed off already feeling defeated, " I want you, please."

"I'm sorry." was all he said before he scooped me up and ran me home.

He left me alone that night.

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The next night at work I felt horrible. Avery wouldn't even look at me. I was weak and empty. I didn't get any sleep the night before because I had stayed up broken and devising a plan. I wasn't going to have him making decisions on my life for me, it was my life, and my decision.

At the end of the night I walked over to Avery when he was getting ready to leave. He looked everywhere but at my eyes.

"Avery," I looked at him with my best doe eyes, "can I talk to you for a minute."

He finally looked at me. He had so much emotion in his eyes I'm sure they mirrored my own because inside I was falling to pieces.

"Bella," he warned, "Everything that needed to be said was said last night, please don't do this."

"It's not about that," I was a horrible liar, "I need someone to talk to about something and you're the only person I trust, so please, just give me five minutes," I cheated and begged, he'd only told me no once, and that was the night before so my chances were good.

He looked at me, studying my face to figure out what I was up to. When he found nothing he nodded his head yes.

"Walk me to my truck?" I smiled, already moving towards the door, he frowned and followed.

When we got to the truck I leaned back against it with my hands in my pockets as he kept his distance.

"Whatever your doing isn't going to work," he said leaning up against his car in return, "besides I want you to know I gave Mark my two weeks notice today, I'm leaving Bella."

My breathing hitched, He was leaving. My mind wouldn't catch up with my mouth. "Please, if you loved me you'd do this. It's my decision and I've decided you can't dictate my life for me. I love you so, so much. Please don't make me force your hand."

Confusion filled his face at my last words but he shrugged it off. He put on a hard mask that I was so used to by now and then spoke what he thought was his last words to me.

"NO. End of discussion."

That was the same way Renee ended my argument with her last night, I was tired of being told what to do, how to live my life, it was my choice.

Avery turned around to walk to the drivers side of his car, I waited until he got far enough around to pull the blade that I had been clutching on for dear life to from my pocket. Before he could realize what was happening I locked eyes with him and whispered, "I love you." I put the ice cold blade to my wrist, pushed hard, and sliced it open.

The last thing I saw before I blacked out was a sobbing Avery hovering over me with black hungry eyes.

AN: Whew, well that was a mouth full! Hang on, one more chapter and then we're on to Bella and Edward…yay!