AN: So, this is it the last Chapter of Bella's story. "Cue the Happy music" There are pieces of this chapter I loved & some not so much but oh well, ENJOY!

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BPV

I couldn't look at any of the Cullen's, I was mortified! In hindsight that was definitely the worst decision I've ever made. It was irresponsible and rash. It was childish and selfish. I could only imagine how they were looking at me.

I felt someone sit on the arm of my chair and an arm slid around my shoulders cradling me, it was Esme.

She was rubbing my arm soothingly as she asked, "Dear, is that how you were changed?"

I looked up to meet her eyes expecting the worse but not finding it, instead I found understanding and love. I'd had only met her a few hours ago but I respected her, she was a good person through and through and I felt a sort of connection to her. I took a deep. unneeded breath and let my eyes scan the room. I found much of the same in the rest of the families eyes except for Edward, he was slouched to the side holding his head in one of his hands as if he had a headache.

"No," I answered.

"Are you saying Avery sustained from drinking from you Bella? That's an enormous feat for even someone his age, not many can accomplish such a thing," Carlisle mused more to himself than me.

"I'm almost finished would you like me to continue." I asked. For some reason looking to see if Edward had any response. He didn't look at me. He must be repulsed by me for the sin I had just confessed to, I didn't blame him.

"Please do, Bella." Carlisle interrupted.

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As I started to come around I couldn't focus in, my vision was blurry and I wasn't sure where I was. I tried to think back to the last thing I remembered.

The blade, Avery, me, blood, all came roaring back to me.

Had he changed me? He must have, I'm not dead, at least I don't think I am.

I blinked rapidly trying to clear my sight but when it cleared what I saw wasn't the first thing that corrected my wrong assumption, it was the steady, thumping beat of my heart that I felt. The realization that I was in a hospital room hooked up to a lot of machines hit me like a ton of bricks and I wasn't alone, in the corner sat a very solemn looking Avery.

He stared at me unmoving with so many emotions flashing across his face that I couldn't keep up. He stood up slowly and moved his chair to my bedside. He sat back down and stared into my eyes again searching.

"Are you okay?." His voice was strained.

I shook my head no referring to my emotional state more than anything.

He looked at me with panic for a second, "Should I get the nurse?"

"No," I croaked out, my throat dry.

"Why….?" was all I could say.

Understanding crossed his face and his features hardened. "Don't." he said through clenched teeth.

"Why would you do that to me?" he demanded. "Do you have any idea what you put me through, I could of killed you Bella."

"But…..I'm alive….," I trailed off, tears starting to slide down my cheeks.

He took a deep breath dropping his eyes to his lap, "There was so much blood. You were covered in it. At that moment, it was all I saw, all I knew. It took everything in me not to take you right there."

"Why didn't you?" I begged.

"Bella," he looked at me now with anger, if it was directed at me or at himself I wasn't sure, "if I would have started, I would NOT of been able to stop! By the time I got you to the hospital I was covered in your blood, I was so taken over by the blood lust that I had to throw you at the first doctor I saw Bella, before I massacred every last person in this hospital including you. I ran out of here as fast as I could and killed every animal in sight until I came to."

"I've been sitting here for the past 12 hours waiting for you to wake up," his voice lowered, "I didn't know if you were going to live or die." He cringed.

"So, you would rather see me die than be with me forever," I was sobbing now, it was quiet and weak, but it was all my body would allow at the moment.

"No," he reached out and caressed my cheek with the back of his hand, "I'm much too selfish for that Bella, if it had come down to that, I would of….tried. I don't want to live in a world where you don't exist."

I could hear it with every word he spoke, the finality of the situation, and with every word he spoke my heart broke a little more.

"You're leaving still, aren't you,? I whispered.

"Yes, when you get out of here I'm leaving. But you'll always have my heart Bella, you're it for me." he said as his hand moved down to rest on my heart.

That was it. The last straw. I knew I had lost, my world was closing in on me and I didn't want his last memory of me to be any more pathetic than the ones I've left imbedded in his mind over the past twenty four hours.

I wiped my face off with my free hand, gathered up as much courage as I could, and tried to find my voice, "Then go."

He looked taken aback for a second, his eyes searched my face and then scanned the machines above my head, he looked torn.

"Go" I repeated a little harder.

"Please." my voiced dropped to a mere whisper. My strong exterior I was trying to put off was rapidly deteriorating.

"It'll be easier for me this way," I lied.

He shook his head in understanding then he closed his eyes tight for a second before reopening them, he looked pained and my heart clenched. He stood up and hovered over me placing his hands on each side of me to prop himself up. He leaned in and placed a small short kiss on my forehead before tilting his forehead down and placing it on mine. He stayed like that, eyes clenched, and breathing in short sharp breaths.

"I love you," he said brokenly through his clenched jaw, before giving me a quick kiss on the lips and pushing himself away from me and walked out the door.

As soon as the door closed the flood gates opened and I cried myself to sleep.

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The next few weeks were hard. It had been two weeks since I saw Avery last. I was released from the hospital three days after that and while I was being discharged one of the nurses let it slip that she was surprised my "boyfriend" wasn't there because he hadn't left the waiting room until that morning, Renee shot her a nasty look but I ignored it, he had stayed to make sure I was ok.

Renee didn't say much to me especially not about Avery, she blamed him for everything. All my privacy was taken away, I was never left home alone anymore and my door was removed from it's hinges. I spent most of the last few weeks sitting numbly on my bed reading except for when it came time for Renee to drive me to a therapist they were making me see. That was tons of fun! It was pointless and I lied through my teeth.

It was just like any other night had been for the past few weeks, I tossed and turned hoping beyond hope that sleep would come but of coarse it wouldn't so I sat up to turn on my light to read but something caught my eye by the window. It was Avery, even through the darkness I could tell it was him, I went to turn on the light but he stopped me. He grabbed me by my shoulders and a little too roughly shoved me back down on the bed, he slowly crawled over me and started kissing me. It was harder and more urgent than it ever was before and for some strange reason it felt a little off but I shrugged it away not wanting to miss a second of this. I had missed him beyond reason and with him here I felt alive. He continued kissing me hard and passionate, his hands roaming my body, fondling and squeezing my chest as he went. His kisses became more urgent as he moved to my neck and his hands roughly grabbed my hips thrusting them up to meet his very prominent erection. I could feel my panties dampen and I put my hand over my mouth to stifle a moan that was escaping my lips.

He grabbed my hand away and I felt his cool breath on my ear, "Don't do that, I want to hear you." he said, but his voice sounded off too, it was rough and distant through his panting.

It wasn't until he grabbled the waistband of my pajama bottoms to move them down that I stopped him, he let me push him back a little, and he didn't stop me this time when I reached for the lamp and turned it on. When I turned back to Avery I was met with two very red, very hungry looking eyes staring back at me.

Before I could open my mouth to scream Avery's hand clamped down over it. He spun me around and held me to him then flung us out the window, we were flying through the forest when I lost consciousness.

When I came to we were in the middle of the woods somewhere, Avery had let me go and I was standing only a foot away from him. He was staring at me with an awful smirk on his face. I was staring back into his red eyes searching for any part of Avery I could find but came up with nothing. My heart dropped to my stomach and my knees gave out.

Before I could hit the floor Avery caught me and pulled me up to him. "Nah uh uh," he cooed shaking his head back and forth. "We're just getting started my pet."

He roughly shoved my back against a tree and pinned me there. He cocked his head to the side and his hand began sliding down from its place on my shoulder down my stomach.

I whimpered and did the only thing I could do, I begged, "Avery, please," I sobbed, "this isn't you please, please stop.

He chuckled and I cringed. It wasn't Avery's chuckle I had grown to love, it wasn't his hands on my body, and it wasn't my Avery who was probably going to end my life tonight.

His hand kept moving and he leaned in and I felt his cool breath on my ear, "As much as I love to hear you beg," he purred nuzzling my cheek, "you can stop, because I know you want this.

"No." I tried to say but my voice came out broken.

"I can still smell you Bella." he said at the same time his hand made contact in between my legs as he palmed my center firmly, " it's intoxicating," he breathed me in, "your fear, your arousal, your blood all mixed together beckoning me."

He begin kissing me hard down my cheek to my neck and collar bone. He was sucking and nipping on my skin too hard and I cried out in pain but that only seem to make him more aggressive. He moved his hands back up to my breast pushing my shirt up as he went. He squeezed and kneaded them hard pinching and pulling on my nipples as he went, I screamed out in pain this time and he got rougher. He picked me up and wrapped my legs around his waist grinding his hips into mine while pushing my back harder and harder into the bark of the tree behind me, my back stung and I could feel the blood starting to soak through my shirt.

It was almost over, I knew it was only a matter of minutes, I was going to die in the arms of a stranger. I wished for my mom, my house and my room, I wished for Avery, my love, my angel.

With the last ounce of strength I had I made one last attempt at bringing my savior back, "Avery, please," I begged, "I love you."

At that exact moment I felt a sharp tugging on my neck where Avery had been kissing me, I blacked out when the burning began.

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Three days later I was awakened by a man's voice. I called out for Avery but no answer. The sound of children playing brought me roaring back to reality. I sat up quickly with the events of the past four days playing like a movie in my mind. I blinked rapidly trying to clear the haze and looked around. Everything was crystal clear, brighter, and I could hear everything. I heard traffic off in the distance a few miles, it must be a highway. Avery must of brought me to some kind of National Park….. Avery? I turned around quickly trying to find him but what I found was a middle aged man hovering over me.

"Ma'am, are you okay?" he questioned. He was trying not to look down my body.

I looked down confused and gasped at what I saw. My clothes were tattered and clawed through and I was covered in mud.

What I had just been through again flooded me and my body froze in realization. I looked up at the man and then over to his two children playing tag in the distance and closed my eyes and waited for it, but it didn't come. No frenzy, no maniac desire to drain this unknowing man and his two innocent children, nothing.

"Ma'am.? He questioned again a little more worried.

"Umm yes, I'm okay." I said not recognizing my own voice.

"Stay here, and I'll walk back to the ranger's office and get some help." he said.

"No, no," I said standing up probably a little too quickly, "I'm fine really."

After offering his help a few more times, which I gratefully declined, he offered me his flannel and then let me go on my way.

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It didn't take me long to find my way home after I killed a few defenseless little animals on the way. That was going to take some getting used to. I was confused, this was nothing like Avery had told me about newborns during one of our many conversations and I had so many questions. But he was no where to be found, he left me. I'm not even sure why I was surprised, he wasn't even my Avery the last time I saw him. I wasn't even quite sure why I wasn't a drained corpse laying on the forest floor right now and I was quickly realizing I might never know why he stopped, I might never see him again.

When I got home the police were there. Renee and Phil were furious. It was assumed that I had run off with Avery and I didn't correct anyone, what else was I supposed to say. Weeks went by with debates on what to do with me. Boarding school kept popping up in discussion every few days as I sat in my bedroom awaiting my fate. Finally, Charlie, my dad, called from Forks and asked if I could come live with him for awhile. I never really liked Forks as a kid when I was forced to spend every summer there until I was eleven but right now, I welcomed it. Renee eagerly agreed, anything to get me away from here. In her mind if she just got me far enough away from here I could start fresh and be normal again, and the more miles she put between me and Avery the better. But she didn't know I had no idea where Avery was or if he was ever coming back again.

The next day I was on a plane to Forks.

AN: I really hate the word panties! LOL, I might use underwear from now on :)

Goodbye Avery, Onto Edward and Bella……………….