AN: Here's the second part of last chapter, it's mostly in EPV, yay. Enjoy.
Thanks so much for all the feedback - you guys are amazing.
I'm dedicating this chapter to Celtic-Hybrid, thanks for always reviewing, you make me smile!
I forgot last chapter so here's two great story's to check out.
Good and Evil by bella c'ella luna rated M - very good, keeps you wanting more, and me loves the Edward in this story, he's more carefree (I guess you could say).
The Arrangement by manyafandom - rated M - definitely not for anyone under 17, it's super hot and you might read the description and think, eh, I'm not really into that but it's not just sex, it has a good story to it.
I do not own Twilight! But I am unfortunately owning a bad headache at the moment, damn laptop, lol.
EPV
I sat in my Volvo in the crowded school's parking lot impatiently waiting for Alice and Bella to arrive. It had been 16 ½ very long hours since I last saw Bella at school yesterday and I was….. uncomfortable. I couldn't make sense of it, all I knew is that when I was around Bella everything about her relaxed me but the second I was away from her I felt odd and tense which was why for those past 16 ½ hours Jasper and I have not been on very good terms. As I paced in my room last night wondering what Bella was doing, guessing how her excursion went with Rose and Alice, and replaying the last 48 hours back in my head with her, I heard Jasper throw a few sailor like words in my direction before slamming the door on his way out of the house to put some distance between him and my erratic emotions.
When Rosalie finally got home I paid close attention to her thoughts trying to pick up anything on Bella but all I could hear was how she didn't really think Bella was all that bad anymore which in turn made me smile but that smile quickly dropped when I heard her think about Alice staying over at Bella's for the night. I wouldn't be able to see her until morning now, my stomach dropped.
Alice's Porsche pulling into the parking lot broke me from my reverie and I breathed a sigh of relief, in just a few moments I would be with Bella. I could hear Alice's thoughts loud and clear, she was especially excited about something but she blocked me before I could hear what about. I had just turned off my engine so I could jump out and meet them when I froze. Time seem to slow down as I watched Bella open her door and slide fluidly from the car, she closed the door and pushed her hair back behind her as she started heading my way with Alice in tow. My breath hitched as my eyes roamed down her body taking her in and putting every inch of her to memory. I immediately noticed her hair was different today, her thick dark locks were straighter than usual with only a few large curls towards the ends, she had very little make up on but her eyelashes looked more prominent and thicker, her eyes sparkled but she kept looking at her feet as she walked, looking shy and a bit uncomfortable. I moved down to her lips that were slightly opened at the moment and were wet with lip gloss, the light shine on them made them sinfully full and inviting. I licked my own lips as my fingers tightened on the steering wheel and venom pooled in my mouth as my eyes continued their path down her body. She was wearing a very form fitting, very revealing long sleeve shirt. She looked angelic in the white cotton with lace trim, I followed the lace as it dove into a deep v where a small amount of her delicious cleavage peeked out. I followed the delectable line down in between her breast to stare opened mouthed at her tight shirt where I could just make out the outline of her breast as it pushed out against the straining fabric. The bottom of her shirt was short enough for the slightest amount of her pale, tantalizing skin to show and it begged to be touched as the material rode up a little further with each step she took. My knuckles were white now and I could faintly hear the creaking of my steering wheel straining in protest about to break. The jeans Bella had on were perfectly molded to her, I watched her hips sway seductively back and forth before I made my way down her long, slender legs to her black high heeled boots. I swallowed hard.
Alice and Bella stopped to talk to my brothers and Rose at Emmet's jeep and I closed my eyes to try to calm down. I took deep unneeded breaths in through my nose and out through my mouth willing the throbbing in my lower half to subside, all the while still gripping my slightly bent steering wheel. The thoughts of every male in the parking lot hit me like a ton of bricks
Damn, Bella looks hot today!
Check out her rack!
Oh god, what I wouldn't give to tap that ass……!
I cringed and grabbed the sides of my head trying to focus so I could push away the thoughts before I snapped and massacred every hormonal boy in sight.
A light tapping on my window made me jump, that was a first. I had been so caught up in my head that I didn't notice someone approach, I looked up and was met with Bella's beautiful eyes holding nothing but concern in them. I dropped my hands from the side of my head and took a deep breath averting my eyes from Bella who was still leaning over awaiting my reaction and the fact hadn't escaped me that at this angle I had an up close view of Bella's cleavage pushed tight together calling for me to look. I shook my head at a half hearted attempt to clear it and I got out of the car to face Bella. I stood only inches from her with my hands shoved in my front pockets, hopefully disguising my not so little problem at the moment. School hadn't even began yet and I was desperately in need of a cold shower, today was starting off with a bang I thought sarcastically to myself.
Bella studied my face and my down cast eyes, "Are you okay?" she asked quietly, hugging a small leather jacket to her, I could smell the newness of the leather so I knew she had bought it with Alice yesterday and I was having an internal battle wondering why she wasn't wearing it at this very moment but at the same time thanking the lord that she wasn't. I was losing it.
She looked at me nervously after I didn't answer her right away probably picking up on my off behavior, "Is something wrong?" she tried again.
I looked directly at Bella with a million thoughts swirling in my head and blurted out the first thing that came to mind, "What are you wearing?" I said lowly with an edge to my voice that she probably took as anger but in reality I was about to crack.
Her eyes got wide and she flinched. Her eyes dropped to the floor as she hugged her jacket tighter to her chest.
I continued, not waiting for her to answer, "Were you trying to attract every hormonal boys attention today Bella?" It wasn't until the last word spilled from my lips and I saw the hurt in her eyes that I realized what I had just done.
I took my hand out of my pocket and tried to reach for her arm but she jerked away. "Excuse me," she spat. The anger in her voice made me flinch. But her eyes no sooner filled with tears that would never fall before she stormed away from me, tugging on her jacket roughly and holding it tightly closed on her as she stomped away.
I watched Bella hurriedly walk into the school in shock, I couldn't believe I had just done that, what was wrong with me?
"Edward Anthony Mason Cullen," Alice's thoughts screamed at me as she walked by after Bella, "if we weren't in a crowded parking lot right now I would rip your head off!" Alice was small but I knew for a fact that she wasn't just capable of such things but that she probably would of actually done it if we were alone.
"You Ass!" Rose spat as she followed Alice by.
No sooner did I feel Emmet's hand on my shoulder as he stood beside me shaking his head, Jasper stood in front of me mimicking Emmet.
"Dude," Emmett snickered, "for someone so smart, you know nothing about woman."
I shrugged his giant hand off of me and pinched the bridge of my nose with my thumb and forefinger.
"I have no idea what just happened, I didn't mean for it to go that way at all," I shook my head in disgust.
"It seems like you have a case of big foot in big mouth," Emmett laughed, having way to much fun with my current predicament, "you might as well get used to it bro, because I've been with Rosie for ages and I still come down with a case of it every now and then."
Jasper laughed at Emmett shaking his head in agreement and I stood there in utter confusion. I prided myself in being in control, it was something I've worked on for over a hundred years and in just a matter of a few days Bella had completely taken that away from me. When I was around her I was a mess and unsure of myself, which was completely out of character for me and it was the worst and the best feeling all at once. For the first time in my life I had no idea what I was doing. I ran my hand through my hair exasperated. I couldn't believe I was about to do this.
I turned to my brothers, "What do I do now?" I asked reluctantly, desperate to make amends with Bella.
They both smiled smugly at the fact I was actually asking them for help for once.
"Awh, little Eddie needs our help, it's not so easy when you can't get in someone's head to get all the answers, is it?" Emmett thought referring to my inability to read Bella's thoughts, I ignored him even though I agreed, If I could just get in Bella's head I probably wouldn't be standing here at the mercy of my brothers right now.
"You need to apologize until you can't and then apologize some more," Jasper offered, "and you better start coming up with a really good reason why you reacted that way if your not ready to tell her the truth because she will ask, trust me."
I nodded my head in understanding, I could do that.
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BPV
I sat on the cold tile of the bathroom stall with my knees drawn up to my chest completely mortified, as I heard Alice and Rose come in.
"Bella get off that dirty floor in your new clothes and come out here and talk to us, no man is worth sitting in a bathroom crying over," Rose said as she propped herself up on the counter.
"Our brother's an idiot Bella, he's confused and he's lashing out," Alice said softly kneeling down outside my door, "I know he didn't mean it."
"Confused about what?" I asked, my voice cracking with humiliation and anger.
"I knew I shouldn't of worn this, it's not me and I look like an idiot." I sounded like a child having a temper tantrum now but I didn't care because deep down I knew the sole reason that I had conceded to dressing like this today was for Edward's benefit. The reaction I got though was not what I was secretly hoping for.
"Bella," Alice sighed out, "he was jealous, you can even ask Jasper if you don't believe me. You saw how he acted with Mike yesterday, imagine how he felt at all the attention you probably got when we got here, it was just too much for him to handle at the moment, I'm sure he feels horrible."
I thought about that for a minute, I guess it did make since after yesterday. Even though I doubted it was jealousy that prompted it, he was probably just being protective like he had been with Mike. I stood up slowly feeling a little better but still angry, I didn't like people telling me what to do and that's exactly what he was doing.
I walked out of the stall and Alice looked relieved before complete horror crossed her face, "Look at you!" she said putting her hands on her hips looking me up and down, I had been running my hands over my face and hair in aggravation, I'm sure I looked a mess. "Rose, hand me your brush." She was a woman on a mission.
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By the time lunch rolled around I was feeling better, I hadn't seen Edward all day which was a plus because I was still angry with him. Of coarse my plan of dressing like this back fired, I got lots of attention but from every boy except for Edward. Mike was especially clingy today, the way his eyes raked over me made me highly consider wearing a moo moo to school tomorrow. If Mike's roaming eyes matched his thoughts at all I knew I was going to have a problem with Edward in Biology today. I didn't mind him suffering a little for what he did but not at the expense of exposing our secret, I'd have to keep a close eye on him.
When I walked into the cafeteria I immediately felt Edward's eyes on me but I resisted looking up at him. I went through the lunch line and got a few things I'd never touch and made my way to the Cullen table. I took a deep breath and walked past the empty chair pulled out a little next to Edward and I went to the opposite side of the table and sat in the only other open chair by Alice, unfortunately it was across from Edward so I probably should of thought my plan out a little better. Alice giggled and started rambling on about our shopping trip and things we needed to go back for but I couldn't concentrate on what she was saying when I was this close to Edward, I needed to look at him, to see his face. I raised my eyes slowly and stole a look at him and was surprised at what I saw. There he sat across from me, not a trace of anger in his face like I assumed there would be after this morning. His shoulders were slumped and his head was down looking at his hands fidgeting on his lap, I'd never seen him look more….human. He looked up and my heart dropped at what I saw, he looked right at me with sad eyes and pain in his face. I had to look away and remind myself I was angry at him. I ignored him the rest of lunch and was thankful when the bell rang.
EPV
I had waited all day to be able to talk to Bella at lunch, I hated that I had made her feel the way I did. Through Alice I had seen Bella in the girls bathroom huddled on the floor and my dead heart broke, I had caused that. I wanted to be the one to take the hurt from her and here I was the one hurting her, I was a monster, I made a vow to myself to do whatever it took to make her forgive me and to never hurt her again.
When Bella walked past the seat I had pushed out for her my stomach clenched. I sat there for most of the lunch period wallowing in my self pity ignoring the mental lashings from my siblings.
"Be a man Eddie, buck up and tell her your sorry dude." Emmett thought.
"You deserve this, you jerk!." Rose spat mentally..
"Her emotion's are all over the map." Jasper mused.
"She'll come around after you apologize," Alice's thoughts interested me the most because I knew she knew what she was talking about, "you shouldn't do it at school though," she paused searching," and if I were you I'd skip Biology, Mike Newton won't make it out alive today if you don't."
I could feel Bella's eyes on me and I looked up. I looked right into her deep, topaz eyes and tried to exude remorse for hurting her but she quickly looked away. It was killing me being this close to Bella but not being able to talk to her or hold her hand, to look into her beautiful face and see her smile.
The bell rang and I jumped up to take my opportunity, I couldn't last any longer without making things right with her.
"Bella?" I said, stopping her before she headed to Biology.
She turned and acknowledged me but didn't say anything.
I took the opportunity and rushed out what I needed to say. "I know after this morning I don't deserve it, but I really need to talk to you….please." I sounded desperate.
"Okay," she said harshly, "then talk."
She crossed her arms and waited for me to continue, "Not here," I lowered my voice.
"What do you mean?" she looked at me confused. "Why not here?"
"Don't you trust me?" I asked starring directly in her eyes and giving her my best grin, I was pulling out all the stops trying to just get us out of this damn building. I extended my hand and hoped to god she took it because either way I was staying by Bella's side today and if she decided to go to Biology things did not look good for Mike Newton.
She blinked her eyes a few times and stared down at my hand. I smiled inwardly knowing I had had some kind of effect on her.
She cautiously wrapped her small hand in mine and relief washed over me. I had gone entirely too long without touching her. I made my unsteady legs work and before the bell rang we were in my Volvo speeding down the road.
AN: Poor Edward, he's forever getting himself in hot water. So where are they going? I know you guys know this.