Chapter 8

I watched Edward sit back. I stayed where I was. What could you say to something like that? I mean the whole purpose of my coming here was to think. I had no idea that I would run into Edward. I had no clue that he was back in Forks. Why was he back in Forks?

"I don't mean to be rude but why are you here now," I asked.

"Ahh. So this first. Yes, I suppose I should tell you that. I will never lie to you again," Edward vowed.

"We'll see."

"So, you are not going to ever trust me again? Don't answer that. Trust has to be earned and I have completely lost yours so I must earn it back. Very well, this will be one of my missions. I think you are aware of my other one," he smirked with an arched eyebrow.

"I might have noticed something. An answer please and then we can talk some more."

"Of course. Victoria had a favorite, if you will. Probably the one who had been able to satisfy her baser appetites."

"Sex, you mean sex."

"Yes, sex," Edward purred.

I had to remind myself that when he says that word, it does things to me. Very naughty and inappropriate things. I wanted to see his mouth form that word again. I wondered what a particular four letter word would sound like coming from his lips. Oh, to get him to say that one! I'd already heard him use more cuss words in this setting then any other time I had been with him. He had been away from Emmett; he couldn't blame it on him.

"So, her lover? What about him?"

"Victoria had an army. Alice had not been looking and had not seen it. I do not know why she started seeing you again as I told her not to look but I guess it got the best of her and when she saw you, she could suddenly see that this army would head this way, coming after you. Alice told me that I needed to get off my ass and go and fix this. I had to come here, destroy the army and of course, get my girl back."

I was stone still. Victoria had an army. They were coming for me. They were coming for me! Shit!

"Oh, God! What can I do? Where should I go? How soon is this happening?"

"I need to talk to Alice again and see if she can pin point it down. I was supposed to call Carlisle when I got her but you distracted me. Not that I mind at all. By the way, where does Jacob think you are?"

"He's not home. Jake has gone with the pack to talk with a few other packs about making them better."

"Oh. So, about this imprinting thing? Do you feel any of the things you are supposed to?"

And there was the million dollar question. Did I feel any of the things I was supposed to? Well, I didn't feel like Jake was the center of my everything. That the sun rose and set with him. I didn't feel as though we were destined to be together, that we were soul mates. I loved him like a brother. That was the way I felt before I married him and this was the way I still felt about him. Did I feel like I was destined to be with Edward and that he was my soul mate? I felt that about him the first time I saw him and that feeling never changed. I knew that I loved him with all that I was. I married Jake because that was what everyone else wanted. That was what everyone else thought was right. I never felt that way. I have never felt that way. I got pregnant accidentally. Did that make me love my unborn baby any less? No, it made me love it more. I may not have made this child intentionally but I wanted it all the same. And I would be the one to raise it. Me. No wolfy claims on this child. Edward looked at me oddly.

"You seem to be thinking something awfully hard. Have I overloaded you with information?" Edward asked.

"No, not really. I need to warn the pack as soon as you know something more," I answered.

"Yes, of course. You are the wife of the alpha after all. It would be your responsibility."

"Yea, whatever. I hate this. I never wanted it," I let my head thump to his chest. I probably bruised it.

He wrapped his strong arms around me. "I believe I did ask you what you want."

I gazed into his eyes and lost myself. I could see myself having it all and I could see me having it all with him.

"Oh, Edward. I'm an idiot."

"Whatever for? I simply find that very hard to believe."

"I don't love him the way I'm supposed to. I never have. I love him like a brother. Not like a husband and not like a lover. To be honest, he really doesn't . . . well maybe I'm in the wrong company for that kind of honesty."

"I don't have to know anything if you do not want to tell me."

"Thanks for that. But now I have this baby."

"And?"

"And? And you're a vampire and he's a werewolf. Mortal enemies. How do you think he would feel if you raised his child?"

"As long as I was being a good father I do not see how he could object. I feel pretty confident that I would be a good father to your child."

"Is that something you would like to do, Edward."

"If that is something you would allow me to do."

"I think I would like that. If you would want to."

"Bella, I would be honored to raise this child with you. If you would have me back into your life."

"Only if you will have me in yours."

Edward looked at me surprised. He leaned closer to me. "Does that mean . . .," he started.

I smiled and leaned closer to him. I placed my hands on his shirt and played with his buttons. I raised my head and looked into his endless pools of black and let out all of my truths.

"It means that I love you and only you. That I want you with every single part of my heart, mind, soul and absolutely my body. I want to be tied to you in every conceivable way possible and I want badly to be your mate for all eternity. And yes, Edward, I do want you to be the father to my child," I answered as I leaned in and sealed my words to him with a passion filled kiss.

AUTHOR NOTE: That is all she wrote for the night. Might give you another chapter tomorrow. It all depends on our love birds.