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Other Problems Arise

~Lilly's POV~

I look at myself one more time in the full length mirror and smack my lips. My mother gave me a couple bucks that she earned with her new job and with that I restocked my make up so I couldn't deny how good I looked in that moment. It'll all rub off later but right now, I'm poppin' as they say. I sighed when I heard my mom call from the kitchen, "Lilly, you're gonna be late!" I grab my school bag and turned my head to the side.

"Girl, who did your make up? Oh, that's right... Me. Look at that highlight." I gave myself a kiss and walked out, finding John watching his tv very angrily and my mom fixing me my lunch. "Lunch?"

"Like a regular family, right?" She joked. "Let me know if anything happens okay?"

"Yeah, no problem. See you later!" I said before walking out the door.

It's been a little over a month since the whole kissing ordeal. This time, I was avoiding Raphael so that I could think about the whole thing and rethink this relationship. I know in my heart that I don't like Raph, but I also know that that was one hell of a kiss. I wouldn't mind doing that just one more time. Is that bad?

My mom and John have been weird lately. They barely talk to each other. Whenever they do talk they fight about my moms job. Something about some guy... John is always a jealous prick and he's the one who's always cheating so I know it's nothing. My mother has been nicer and happier. So I've been happier! I mean...I got new make up. And lunch! It's been pretty good.

Interrupting my thoughts were two girls, pushing, literally, pass me and then looking back. Lindsay and her minion. She stopped dead in her tracks, "Looks like you survived the invasion."

"Yeah..." I said, pushing past her.

"I heard you and David broke up." She chuckled evilly.

I scoffed, turning around. "Oh my god..." How does this girl find out everything? You know what, I don't have time for this. I look good today and she isn't going to stop me. Today shouldn't involve her presence. I continued to walk and didn't stop until I reached the school. Our lockers should still be the same so I headed towards there.

As soon as I turn the corner, my eyes locked with April's. Before she looked away she stopped talking to some guy that had a hockey stick resting on his neck. I continued walking, giving him a dirty look. He smiled at me... First thing I noticed-no teeth. Well if he was a hockey player then I figured that maybe that's why... Man, I wanted to punch the smug look off his face. I walked over to April, "Who was that?"

April sighed, "Some guy I'm going to tutor."

"Tutor? Was he dropped or something?" I joked, opening my locker.

April shut hers, "Look Lillian... I love you. I consider you my best friend. But I'm trying to start a new life."

I immediately threw my bag in my locker and slammed it shut. "You better not be saying what I think you're saying."

"Lilly, you and the guys are close. So close that I don't want to make you choose. So I think I'm going to make the mature choice and just go in it alone."

I chuckled, shaking my head. "You fucking...this is crazy. I can't believe you said that to me."

"I want a normal life. I don't want anything to do with the turtles. And you're..."

I can't make her choices. I can't tell her not to feel that way. I can't. As stupid as this thing may be to me, I have to understand her side, respect her feelings. But with that being said, nothing says I can't be pissed about it. "Okay April. You know what? Fine. I'll leave you alone. But you listen to me..." I felt myself become enraged, so angry that it brought tears to my eyes. "You want a life without me. Well, that's what you're going to get. But when this shit blows over- and it will blow over mark my words, do not come to me." I said before heading to the library to get my schedule.

My best friend. My best fucking friend just... How can she just throw me to the curb that quickly, that easily? Some fucking friend. Unbelievable... I can't believe this... I'm not going to cry... It'll ruin my new make up. But I really really want to.

When I'm at the library, I'm fuming. All I want is to get my schedule and start the school day- and finish school. In the library there are tables starting from the letter A all the way to Z, on each table were the schedules of all the kids in my grade. I headed towards the right table and began to look for my name. Aguilar... When I found the slip, all I could do was stare in absolute confusion. "What...?"

My schedule went as such:

1. Pre-Calculus

2. English 3

3. Dance level 4

4. Spanish 2

5. World History

6. Whoa whoa whoa wait...

Dance 4? I was in Advanced Dance last year! What the absolute fuck? I was bumped down?! I was at the top, I applied for advanced dance...what is going on?

I didn't waist time and ran my ass to the dance room. Usually, Ms Stevenson has first level dance, or Dance 1 in the mornings. And the first bell hasn't even rang so I had about 10 minutes till everything actually started. The dance room was the same, untouched and unscathed. Freshman were taking pictures in the giant mirror that I missed so much. I walked into her office and she immediately stopped talking to a student and screamed when she saw me.

"Lillian!" She yelped, launching out of the chair and hugging me close to her chest. I hugged her back. "Thank god you're okay! My baby!" She laughed, cupping my face. She's changed, darker lip stick, long braids tied up into a high bun- she changed but she was still the same.

"Ms-"

She pulled away, "How come you didn't come to practice? Or auditioning?"

I blinked in confusion and in fear. "Auditions? There was practice?"

"There's always practice. And the auditions were pushed a little later than expected but that's because of the freaking aliens. But honey, nothing stops my practices." She chuckled, as if I was already supposed to know that. "I sent an email. The school must have called you."

I shook my head, "I was told that there wasn't any practices. That everything was canceled because of the aliens." I clarified.

She shook her head and scoffed, "Who told you that? Because nothing stopped me, not even aliens coming and probing everybody." She laughed, wrapping an arm around my shoulders. "Remember, you had to audition before you came to this school to get into Advance Dance? Well, you have to do that every year until your last."

"Okay...I didn't know that. But I was told by David that practice was canceled..."I said slowly, soon coming to the realization of what truly happened. My eyes suddenly widened when I finally realized. "Oh my god..."

"What?"

I laughed, feeling even more enraged. "You wanna know why he told me that? Because he was pissed and thought I was cheating when in reality I was loyal as fuck! So he told me everything was canceled out of spite!" I growled through gritted teeth.

Ms Stevenson's eyes widened, "No... Are you guys...?"

"Yeah, he thought I was cheating because I was texting friends that I literally have no attraction to what so ever." I explained, feeling tears of anger rising up.

"Were these friends 'guys'?" Some kid asked. The hell are you?

"Now now, relationships are about trust. She has the right to talk to whoever she wants. Whether it be a guy or a girl." Ms Stevenson defended logically.

"Exactly. I had a friend that I met the same time I met David. In fact I met him a month after David, and he got mad, said I was cheating... Ugh, what an asshole!" I ran my hand through my hair and took a deep breath. I am not crying. I am not. Crying.

"Okay. Well, you know what? I'm going to get to the bottom of this. Don't worry sweetie. I'm going to talk to David-"

"Not before I do. He's going to get a foot up his ass." I huffed like an angry bull. "Now I have you third period so I'll see you then. I have to go get my books and walk around."

She rubbed my arms, "Alright, calm yourself. You look good. Like damn girl... That boy does not know what he left." She chuckled, cupping my face. "Okay now go, relax until everything is settled."

I left, but not to go get my books. I left to find that petty son of a bitch and make sure he didn't have the last word this time.

I was angry, I was frustrated. I lost a friend, I lost an amazing class, I wanted to cry, and I didn't even start the day! I wanted school to be over because the first day already sucked so why bother going on with high school at this point. I could quit and become a stripper... Obviously I'm not going to do that but man did it seem easier than this. I was walking around every hallway, trying to clear my thoughts, trying to stop my tears and just calm down. I look good today. So I should act good...

Fuck that, I wanted to murder David so hard right now.

I also wanted to pull out my phone and text Raph and tell him I'm sorry for ignoring him and I'm sorry for kissing him like I did. I want this awkwardness to stop. I don't want to lose him. I genuinely care about him. I would cry all this make up off if he chose to say 'Fuck you, bye!'

I heard a familiar giggle behind me, and I turned, growling immediately when I see David with his arm wrapped around Lindsay's shoulder. Oh Jesus... What happened to her other boyfriend? I ran towards him, "Hey dickhead," I shouted, startling then both. "Tell me why I'm in Dance 4 this year."

David snorted, "How should I know?"

"Well, I talked with Ms Stevenson and she wants to know just as much as I do why you told me everything was canceled when it fucking wasn't!"

David let go of Lindsay and pointed his ugly finger at me, "You snitched?"

"I told the truth. I asked what the hell happened and she told me nothing was canceled. Which means you and your petty self, lied!" I shouted angrily. Lindsay opened her mouth to say something stupid but I cut her off. "Stay out of it."

David crossed his arms over his chest, "That's what you get for cheating."

Fuck! This argument was so stupid and annoying that I'm sick of it. I'm done with it. "Holy shit... Are you that dumb? You honestly think I cheated on you... Wow. That's besides the point, you let your emotions make your decisions and lied. This is my life. This is the only thing I had as an outlet and you took that away from me."

David rolled his eyes, "You're in Dance 4."

"Exactly. I'm in Dance 4. But I deserve to be in Advance Placement and you and everyone who has ever seen me dance know that." I felt my voice crack. Suddenly the bell rung... Now I'm going to be late to my classes cuz I still haven't gotten my books. "You." I said poking his chest, he promptly slapped my hand away. "You're fucking pathetic..." I turned around and headed for the library, trying to hold in every tear I wanted to let go at that moment.

Just wait Lillian...

Just wait...

I walked in quietly into the lair, finding Raph, Mikey and Leo sitting around the tv and watching cartoons. In order to get their attention, I threw my bag on the ground as hard as I could.

They all turned sharply, then relaxed when they saw it was me. Raph got up first, "Lilly?"

I sniffed, meeting him halfway, letting him walk up to me. "Raph," I started as he came up to me upon seeing my sad face. I took a deep breath...

"Raph, I'm really sorry I haven't talked to you these past weeks and I know I said things shouldn't be awkward between us and that's all I'm doing is making them awkward well I don't want to do that and I don't have any friends to talk to anymore about how bad my day was and how terrible life is and David sabotaged my dance class because he's still mad over the 'cheating on him' thing and now he's going out with Lindsay and he has a big fucking mouth so I know he's going to tell her everything I told him then April told me that she didn't want me choosing between you guys and her and I told her how stupid she was being and then she told me she didn't want to be friends so now I have no one and-"

All I did was ramble on and on and on in this high whiny voice and all I wanted to do was cry and have him hug me again. If not that then I wanted him to give me those awkward shoulder pats because he sucks at comforting. I just wanted something from him...

"Whoa whoa whoa wait... Stop. Hold on." He chuckled. "April doesn't want to be friends with you?"

"No! She doesn't and I called her out on it. All day long I've been wanting to cry but look," I fluttered my eyes and turned my head. "This is new and expensive make-up. I'm literally glowing."

"Yeah, I noticed your make up was less...black." He chuckled, then sighed. "Well, what did April actually say?" He said taking my hand and leading me to the couch.

"She said she didn't want me choosing between her and you guys." I began, throwing myself on the couch in exaggerated exhaustion. "I wasn't even going to make a 'choice' first of all because I love all of you guys. You're all my friends..."

Leo shook his head in what seemed to be disappointment. "What did you say?"

"Fine. I said this whole thing is going to blow over and when it does I don't want her telling me shit. And I meant it." I huffed irritably, sitting straight up. "You guys don't know me that well, but you don't throw me to the side without reasonable cause."

Raph shrugged, "Well, here's the thing," he started softly. "We, as in the guys, think that April wanting a normal life is a reasonable cause. What I don't understand is why she thought you would chose us over her. Weren't you friends before you met us?"

"I was..."

"Don't you want a normal life?" Leo asked.

I sighed, "Normal?" People are throwing that word out like it's simple. It's not. Normal without the turtles? Normal like with normal teenage problems? Worrying about grades and boys and... "Well, what is your definition of normal?"

He seemed taken aback from my question. "Well...I mean-"

"Do you want a life without us in it?" Donnie said coming out of the lab.

I locked my eyes with his and my heart nearly broke with how expecting they were. Almost as if he knew the answer I was going to say. "If that's what normal is...no." I then rolled my eyes. "But do I want a life where I don't have to worry about my mom getting beat up by her boyfriend? Or worry about whether or not Ian will get shot wherever he is? Yes."

Raph snorted, "You really wouldn't leave us for a normal life?"

"There you go again with the word 'normal'. You know, I hate to be cheesy- trust me, I really do, but you are my normal. I've had you guys in my life long enough for me to realize that there's nothing you can do for me to say 'I'm done', okay?" I shook my head. "Is that hard to believe?"

Leo sat down next to me, "Forgive me... But yeah..."

I smiled softly at him, then I smacked his thigh, "Well believe it! Why would I just get up and leave when all you guys have ever done for me was show me kindness that most people don't?"

"Well," Donnie began. "We could cause an incident similar to what happened with April's dad."

"That was an accident. Whether April wants to admit it or not. I'd be mad if that happened to me yes...but I would never blame the people who aren't responsible."

"But what if-" Mikey chimed in.

"Guys!" I yelled, massaging my temples with my fingers. "I don't see myself ever hating you. Don't doubt me, please. And if something were to happen that would endanger myself or my family, then..." I sighed. "We'll cross that bridge when we get to it." And we won't get to it.

Leo nodded slowly, placing a hand on my hand. "Well, I don't know about these guys but I'm happy to call you friend."

"Awe Leo..." I wrapped an arm around his shoulder and pulled him in for an one-armed hug. He's never been sweet to me before.

Mikey groaned, "Hey... I'm happy you're our friend too."

I laughed, "Thank you, Mikey."

Raph cleared his throat, catching my attention. "So, what did Dylan do this time?"

Donnie suddenly walked up to us, sitting down across from me.

"What an asshole. I almost kicked his ass." Nice way to start a story... "He told me practice was over... Remember? When he came over and dropped my stuff? Anyways... Turns out, not only did he lie about practice, but because of that I missed fucking auditions. Apparently, Ms Stevenson never ever cancels auditions."

"So, what does that mean?" Donnie asked.

"Instead of Advance Dance, I got dropped to Level 4 dance." I groaned.

"At least you're in dance though, right?" Leo asked almost hesitantly. "So...silver lining?"

"That's what David said. 'You're in Dance 4.'" I mocked. "Yes, I am. But even I know I deserve to be in the Advanced class. My teacher knows it, I know it, the fucking class knows it! But no...I'm stuck in a dance class where they're teaching me things I already knew before dance."

And they listened to me go on and on... Why? I have no clue. But it warmed my heart for all of them to listen to me. Do nothing else but listen to my idiotic problems and help me try to find solutions on how to solve them. It was bitter sweet.

Today, April decided that her life would be better if I wasn't apart of it. And I'm so...angry about that. But I still have people I can talk to on the outside. I still have someone to go to and that's the guys. Even if I want them to, they will not leave my side. They will protect me... Something that nobody else has done in my life. And for that I am forever great full to have them in my life. They add to my life in ways...a lot of people can't.

They're family...

~Raph's POV~

"Alright guys..." She yawned, stretching her body out on the couch before standing up. "Love to watch really...bad anime with you but sadly I have school tomorrow and it's almost past..." She blinked. "Oh wait, I don't have a bed time." She laughed before walking around the couch and heading towards the exit. "I'll see you guys!" She waved and smiled as everyone said goodbye.

Now was my chance.

I quickly got up and jumped over to her. "L-Let me walk you home. It's late and dangerous."

She looked up at me through thick, black lashes and smiled. "Sure..." Her make up was lighter than previous styles. She would always wear dark eye shadow, black liner, and black lashes...although I don't think they were fake. Now...standing in front of me as she waved over at Mikey before turning and walking out, she was glowing. Not figuratively. Literally glowing. Her cheeks would shine when she'd turn her head, she had on this soft gold colored eye shadow and no liner.

Why do I know all these products? I'm... I'm hanging out with her too much.

Kissing her was probably the best thing I ever decided to do. I thought it would somehow make my feelings for her disappear, (as dumb as that sounds now), and her not talking to me for the rest of the summer made the chance of me not liking her anymore, stronger. But it didn't. I thought about her, not all the time but most of the time. I would text her and call sometimes to check to see if she hated me or something... She never answered back.

I just assumed that was sort of it.

But the minute she came back, I swear...this stupid smile never left my face.

"So..." I said awkwardly. "...H-How have you been?"

She didn't look at me, "Fine..."

Shit... "That's great." I said softly, sort of regretting wanting to walk her in the first place. Might as well get this out of the way instead of just letting it sit there. "Look, about the kiss,"

She looked up at me, her eyes wide and cheeks flushed. "Um... Yeah, sorry about that."

I shook my head, "Don't apologize. I'm in the fault just as much as you. But..." I sighed, I suck at words. "You didn't have to do it."

She seemed to relax, sighing heavily as if relieved. "Raph-"

"I didn't want you to."

"Raphael-"

"If you and I were supposed to kiss it shouldn't have been...pressured. And you may have kissed me the first time but the second time was all me...well mostly."

"Raph!" She laughed, nudging me a little with her shoulder. "Shut up. Let me speak..." She chuckled.

"Sorry..." I chuckled. Damn, she was cute.

"I didn't feel pressured." She began, brushing her hair behind her ear. "If I did, I would have told you to stop or I wouldn't have done it. So you can stop saying that."

I shrugged, "I just thought... I mean it's not like I've kissed tons of girls." I took a deep breath to calm my heart. "And you're like my best friend. I don't want to do anything to jeopardize-"

She suddenly squealed grabbing on to my arm and giggling madly, "Raph! That's the first time you've ever admitted to me being your best friend without me pushing you to say it."

I chuckled, letting her hug me as tight as she wanted to. "Yeah..."

"Forget about the kiss. It's not going to change anything between us. I mean people kiss all the time..." She said nonchalantly.

"I guess..." I should be happy. But, I'm not and I don't know why. Did I honestly expect something to change? Nothing is going to change. What, did I think she was going to magically like me? Me? A mutant... Get real, Raphael.

I have to remind myself that no matter what feelings I have towards Lilly they have to remain just that. I can not tell her anything. I just can't. It could mean putting her life in danger and I would never forgive myself if she ever got hurt because of me.

"Raph...?" She asked as we entered the sewers, coming up on the actual manhole we were supposed to exit.

"Hmm..."

"This is a stupid question, but I was just wondering..." She let go of my arm and stood in front of me. "Do you like me?"

I blinked in confusion, my heart began to race in fear. "W-What?" I chuckled, trying my best to play it off as some kind of joke.

"Well... The kiss... Only people who have ever kissed me like that-"

"You kissed me."

She sort of jumped at how quick I answered. "Uh..."

"You kissed me." I repeated.

"The first time. Then you kissed me. Did we not just have this conversation like two seconds ago?"

I walked around her and continued heading towards the exit. "We did. But just because we kissed doesn't mean I suddenly like you."

"So you don't like me?" She asked from behind.

"No I don't. It's like you said, it doesn't change anything."

She grabbed my hand forcing me to stop and look at her in irritation. She smiled softly, "You can tell me Raph..."

"Don't flatter yourself." I spat.

She let go of me, crossing her arms over her chest. "That's not what Master Splinter told me."

My eyes widened, "What?"

She pointed at me, "See, look at your reaction. Why do you look so scared if it wasn't true?" She laughed. "Raph, if I were you I'd like myself as well." She continued to walk, trying her best to avoid the mucky sewer water.

"Oh... Way to use my dad as a way to get me to confess to something that isn't even true." I growled, stomping behind her.

"I didn't lie. Master Splinter did tell me you had a crush on me."

God damnit. "Yeah right..."

"He did!" She laughed, tying her hair up in a pony tail.

"Something funny?" I growled, suddenly catching up to her.

She turned around quickly, "Yeah I-" her shoulder bumped into my chest. Her eyes locked with mine and I felt every inch of my skin suddenly become extremely hot, to the point where I started sweating almost immediately. I backed away just slightly so I could fight off the urge to pick her up and kiss her. "I..." She continued, turning her entire body towards me. "I just think it'd be cute if you had a crush on me."

"Cute?"

"I mean... Yeah..." She shrugged. "You know how Donnie is with April. That's really cute." She sighed softly. "I don't care that you like me."

"I don't."

She rolled her eyes, "Just don't lie to me. Because I would tell you if I liked you." She turned around and tip toed her way through the sewers once again.

I just watched her go, wanting to turn back so fast and run. She knows I like her and she doesn't care and that should be a good thing but it's not. She knows... She wasn't supposed to know! Thanks Splinter... I know I'm shooting in the dark but I have to ask. I'm going to be kicking myself later if I don't. "Do you?"

She stopped, "What?"

"I said... Do you...like me I mean?" I sounded so pathetic.

She turned around slowly, "Do you like me?"

"Are we playing this game?" I groaned, walking up to her to try and intimidate the answer out of her but she didn't budge.

"What game? Just answer the question." She said softly with a cocky smile.

"I asked you first."

She rolled her eyes, "Fine. On three we say our answers at the same time."

I grabbed her arm and shook her a bit, "Fuck that. Just tell me your answer... And I'll tell you mine." I tried to sound as calm as I possibly could so I wouldn't scare her that much.

She sighed, pulling my hand off of her arm. "Fine." She turned around and started walking. "I don't know."

I blinked in confusion, "What?"

"I said I don't know. I didn't until you kissed me the way you did and now I don't know." She huffed almost sounding mad. "You want me to be honest, I've never liked a turtle before, let alone a mutant one so I don't know."

We were coming up on the exit so I had to speed things along. As much as I didn't want to. "Fair enough..."

"And you?" She muttered. "Don't skip over yourself like I already forgot. Just confess your feelings towards me."

"I don't..." Well, I'll hate myself later but it's not like anything will come out of this. "...know."

She snorted, "Yes you do. You like me." She teased annoyingly.

"I don't know." I growled. "I've never...liked a human before. But then again, I've never met a human like you before either." I said with my heart in my throat, stopping in my tracks

She turned around, her eyes sort of sympathetic and her cheeks were red.

I stared at her face for a moment, trying to think of something I could say next without ruining whatever electricity was in the air. "You... Listen. Even though you may not really understand what it's like to be me, I can tell you try to. April..." I sighed. "She doesn't do that with me at least."

She smiled, "She'll never be me. It's like you said, you're my best friend."

"But I barely know you."

"You know everything about me."

I shook my head, "No I don't." I sighed. "You hide from me and I know it and I usually don't care. But if I were to like someone...it should be with someone I know completely, right?"

She walked up to me, finally ignoring the mucky water. She grabbed my hand and smiled, "You know enough..."

I smiled, "Do I?"

She nodded, "Yes, because half the shit I tell you I never tell anyone else. Not even David." She cupped my cheek, I suddenly wanted to pull away to prevent her from feeling the heat on my skin. "You are my best friend."

I couldn't help but lean into her touch, her hands were so gentle... I almost gave into the urge to plant a kiss in the middle of her palm but-

"Ahem..."

I turned around angrily, glaring at whoever was behind me. "What are you doing here?"

"Am I interrupting something?" Donnie chuckled.

Lilly never let go of my hand and smiled, "Just giving Raph the confidence boost he needs." I couldn't tell if she was lying or what but she was good.

"Oh well... Just came to say goodbye. Since you decided to leave without it."

"I said goodbye. I waved and everything." Lilly laughed, walking towards Donnie.

"No you didn't. I was in the lab. You just left." He said as Lilly reached up and gave him a hug. He looked at me and smirked. What a liar! That's so not why he was here. "Goodbye."

"I'm sorry. I can't believe I forgot you." Lilly laughed.

Donnie let go of her and smiled, "I forgive you." He looked up at me, "I'll see you at home. You two kids play nice."

Lilly laughed, "Alright... Bye." She watched him go but I knew he was going to be waiting. That fucking ass... I'm gonna kill him. She walked back to me, "What was I saying?"

"Let's just go..."

I walked her up the ladder of the sewer and watched her leave. I should have kissed her again. Everything in my body was telling me to do it and for once...or for the second time, I was going to. I was. But I couldn't because of this fucker...

"Donnie!" I yelled when I found him waiting for me, just leaning against the wall. "What the hell?"

"What?" He said with a sly smile.

"Don't play dumb." I growled. "Next time, don't fucking follow us." I began walking home, tempted to just turn around and beat the living hell out of him.

"Are you guys dating?" Donnie asked as he tried to keep up with my pace.

"No."

"Why not?"

I stopped, "You know why. Don't act dumb."

"I'm not acting, you're just being dumb. Ask her out."

I turned and raised my fist, "Would you-"

"Hey," he said quickly, ready to block my attack. "It's obvious you both are into each other. Especially you. So what's stopping you?"

"We're dangerous you brainiac!" I yelled in frustration. "She could get hurt! And I would never forgive myself if she gets hurt. I'd never be able to look at her in the eyes and promise her that everything is going to be okay." I growled.

"Raph," Donnie sighed. "Lilly likes you."

"No, she doesn't."

"Yes she does." He laughed irritatingly. "You have no proof that says she doesn't and I have so much evidence that says she does. Take advantage. Ask her out."

"I asked her Donnie..." I sighed, sliding my shell down to the floor and cradled my head as it began pounding. "I asked her and she said she didn't know. She said ever since..."

Donnie took his bo staff and set it aside so he could sit down with me. "What?"

I rested my head back against the cool bricks and sighed painfully. "You can't tell anyone."

"I won't." He promised. And he'll keep it, he's too afraid not too.

"We kissed. And she says nothing has changed since but... What if I want it too?" I mumbled pathetically.

Donnie was silent for a bit. Probably trying to find something to say...without pissing me off which is hard believe it or not. "Dude..." He sighed, giving my shoulder a nudge. "You got it bad."

"Don't you dare say I love her. I don't." Just thinking about that word terrifies me.

"I'm not. I do think you two do have feelings for each other. And with that, I think you should grab on to her. Because if you guys kissed, then she does like you she's just trying to process it and to do that she answers with 'I don't know' but that doesn't me she doesn't like you."

"She said she's never liked a turtle before."

"Then you basically got a confession. Just give it time. I'd wait for a second kiss, and make it good. Then tell her and just try, Raphael..." Donnie sighed, rubbing the back of his head. "I know April and I will probably never happen. But that doesn't mean you and Lilly won't. You guys have a chance. Take it." He rested his hand on my shoulder. "Everything will be okay. You can't be paranoid all the time. And you, sounding this way make me think you're more like Leo then you think."

I pushed his hand off me and chuckled. Was he right? Yeah. I mean maybe I am being paranoid but was there a valid reason? Duh... Last thing I want is someone getting hurt because of me. "What if-"

"If you base your decision off of 'what-if's' you are going to get nowhere." He stood up, grabbing his staff and hitting my knee with it. "Get up. Next time she comes over ask her out."

I rolled my eyes, "And you say l sound like Leo?"

Almost there. Raph is so close! Thanks for reading! See you soon!