[EDITED] Here we go with another update! Like I said I did all these ahead of time before my phone went wacko. All I really have to do it review the grammar. But still ignore any mistakes I might have missed.

ukitakeitalialover041757: Ian is here to stay too!

Nekura Ookami: That's the last you hear of John so unfortunately, Raphael will not be beating him half to death but rest assured, he totally wants to.

lashayluv: Thank for the compliment. I feel like I write Mikey to come off as stupid but it's to be reassured. And! Don't worry, I'm pretty sure there's no more cliff hanger after this. I think...

WARNING: Explicit sexual content towards the end! If you don't want to read it, just skip it!

Enjoy!

Song for this Chapter - Moonlight ~Ariana Grande

Together

~Lilly's POV~

When I closed the door behind me I felt a genuine sadness drape me like a cape. I couldn't help but cover my mouth to stifle the sob that came out. My life was almost ruined. I haven't slept, I haven't eaten, and it was all due to some stupid vendetta thing John had. And he's not going to get away with it like he would get away with everything he's ever done to me and my mom.

I force myself to stop crying, swallowing all the cries I wanted to let out before walking into my room. I didn't have my clothes but I had extra pajamas- no underwear. I took them all just in case I stayed in that place for a while. All my bags are in the back of that car, so... If I take a shower to calm my nerves, would I just put on... oh fuck it. I went over to my drawers, pulling out a big t-shirt and some pajama pants then headed towards the bathroom.

I don't know if I was going to see my mother tomorrow or next week. I don't know if I was going to be broke for the next month, or be fine. I didn't know what was about to happen next now that Ian was home and safe. But I knew thinking about all this stuff is just going to get me to panic, and when I start panicking not even I can calm myself down. I need to find something to distract myself.

Once I was done cleaning my hair and body, I jumped out of the shower and began to dry off as quickly as I could before feeling cold. I stopped when I heard a small noise coming from my room, like a metallic clinking. I wrapped myself in my towel then tiptoed quietly to investigate. My tensed muscles relaxed when I saw Raphael by my window. "Thank god..." I whispered softly, walking over to the window to let him in. I forgot I told April to call him.

As soon as I opened the window, he came through it and picked me up from the ground, his arms around my waist. I sighed peacefully, my wrapping themselves around his neck. I felt him kiss my shoulder and neck, making his way all the way up to my cheek as he set me down. He then kissed my lips ever so softly. "You okay?" He asked, his hands running through my wet hair. "Did anyone try and-"

I shook my head, "I'm fine. I'm so much better now." I kissed him. "Ian came back! Can you believe it?" I giggled happily. "He picked me up from that place."

"That's great. That's really great, babe." He gave me another hug, this one tighter than the last. "I'm just glad to see you're okay."

"I am. And I will be." This was rock bottom... But now that's we've finally hit it, can't go anywhere but up right?

"Did you just shower?" He asked.

"Yeah, I needed to relax." My fingers lightly rubbed against his cheeks. "Did you come from home?"

I felt him tense, he took a deep breath before shrugging. "No... I was actually on my way to kick John's ass."

I chuckled, "That's funny..." when he didn't laugh, I stopped and stared at the sincerity in his eyes. He didn't... "You... Tell me you're lying."

He sighed, shaking his head. "No babe I actually was going to-"

I pushed him before he could even finish. "Do you know how incredibly stupid that was of you? Your life, your family's life- you put them all in danger." I walked away from him, heading towards my bathroom and slamming the door behind me. Fucking moron!

Before I could put on anything, he barged into the bathroom. "Lillian, we didn't show ourselves. Someone got to him before we did."

"You still went Raphael. You still went and after you promised you wouldn't. I just..." I ran my hand through my hair before shaking the drops from it.

"I didn't..." he sighed when his voice began to grow louder in volume. "I have to..." he looked down at his feet, rubbing the back of his head. "I have something I need to tell you."

"What?" I snapped. "Is he dead?"

"N-No..." He looked up at me with big pleading eyes. "A while back...before we were together you told me he hit you and stopped me from beating him. But..."

"But what?" I growled.

"That night... I told my brothers...and..."

My mind flashed back to a beaten and battered up John on my couch. That couldn't have been just Raph alone. All that damage done by Raph or any of his brothers. All together? "You jumped him?"

"No, it was just me."

"No that's impossible, John said it was a group of guys."

"Well, he lied. I did it. Just me. He deserved every-"

"That's not the point, Raph!" I yelled at his stupidity. "What is it with you and trying to solve things with your fists? You and your fucking pride is going to put everyone in danger!" I place a hand on my forehead. "God I can't believe you would go behind my back and do this. After I told you not to." I knew he was angry and he had anger issues but I didn't know he had this insane need for revenge. "What did that get you? He still beat the shit out of me. I was still bruised. What did beating him get you?"

"Did he even lay a finger on you afterwards?" He growled.

"No, but again that's not the point."

"Then what is the point?" He said as he walked up to me. "The point was to scare him into never touching you again and it worked. This time the point was to get him to take back all the accusations he faked. But we didn't get there on time and apparently, someone else-"

"How do you even know it was him?"

He stopped, "Damnit..." he cursed softly to himself. "We went-"

"To see my mother?" I felt a lump rise into my throat. "Showed yourself to my mother?"

"No, no. She didn't...we just had to get information-" I began to walk away from him, when he grabbed my arm. "Lilly-"

"Don't you fucking touch me." I snapped. "I can't believe you did all this without telling me. I..." I felt tears fall from my eyes. "I think you need to leave. Before I say things I'll regret later."

"Lillian,"

I walked out of the bathroom and into my room, trying to get as far away from him as possible. "No reason to put your family in trouble. No reason at all. And I told you, I made you promise me and yet that meant shit to you because you still did it anyways."

Raph slowly walked into my room, "No reason?" He asked. "No reason? You're family! When there's something happening to your family you do anything to make it better."

"Better? I don't know if I can ever trust you again! That made things better?" I yelled back.

He walked up to me furiously, I felt my heart jump in my throat and out of pure reflex I flinched when he picked up his hand. I shut my eyes and waited from the smack...but soon opened them to find Raph pointing at the bed. His angry look morphed into a horrified look. He dropped his hand, "Lilly..."

I felt more tears fall from my eyes, my whole tough guy act vanished. I can't believe I thought Raph was going to hit me...

"Sit." He ordered softly and I did. "I'd never hurt you. I'd never even think about laying a finger on you." He knelt in front of me. "Lillian... I love you."

I held my breath, was this a joke? Was he just trying to get me to not be pissed at him? Was he actually sincere? My heart began to race in my chest as more tears fell from my eyes.

"I'd do anything to protect you. I'd hurt people, I'd kill and I'd even die for you. If that's not something you're comfortable with for whatever reason, then..." he shrugged. "I don't know what else to do."

"Why? I just don't understand why you'd go through so much problems for one person."

He smiled, "That's because you're not in love with me. That's okay." I couldn't help but gasped quietly at that statement. It was true... "When you get to that point, you'll understand."

I covered my mouth, averting my eyes from staring into his. I'm such a bitch...

"I'd do anything for you. Even if this right here is the end..." he rested a hand on my knee, his thumb gently rubbing against my naked skin. I couldn't break up with him. I was still pissed off but...it's Raph. I can't break up with him. I don't want to.

I placed my hand on his and shook my head, "It's not."

"I'm sorry I went behind your back. But I'm not sorry about what I did to him. I'll do it again if that's what's gonna keep you safe." He lifted my hand to his mouth and kissed it.

"You'd hurt people for me?"

"Yeah. Absolutely. No hesitation." He shrugged shyly. "Like I said, I love you. You're my girl, I'd do anything for you."

I felt my cheeks warm from his term 'my girl', it sounds so much better than being called babe. I got up, kissed his head and walked over to the door to shut it, just in case. He was right, I wasn't in love with him. Yet... I don't know when I will be but I'm willing to wait.

When I turned I waved him over, "Come here."

He stood up and walked over to me, his hand grabbed mine. I took a deep breath, shutting my eyes before opening them and dropping my towel. I watched Raph's reaction, he eyed my body with wide eyes before looking back up to my face. "Do you...?"

I nodded, "I do. Do you?"

"Well, yeah but you were just yelling at me. You sure?"

I snickered softly, leaning in to give him a small kiss. "Yes. I'm sure." I felt him wrap his arms around bare waist, the skin to skin contact sent fire throughout my body. "Today's been shit, yesterday was shit. I need someone to..." I shrugged, unable to find the words.

"To love you?" He finished, I said nothing, I couldn't. "I can do that but," he pulled a hand away and showed it to me. "I'm a little nervous." I saw how much he trembled causing my heart to ache.

I smiled, taking his one hand in both of mine. "You're nervous?"

"Duh. I just don't know how to do it."

"I'll show you." I said softly before leaning in to give him a kiss.

I felt his hands run down my waist, to my butt, then to my thighs where he lifted both of my thighs and easily picked me up. I wrapped my arms around his neck as he held my legs up whilst walking to my bed. Once at my bed, he tossed me playfully, probably to lighten the mood even just a little bit. I squealed, giggling madly until our eyes connected with each other's. I motioned for him to come and kiss me with my finger, and he happily complied. He lifted my pelvis from the bed for a moment, pulling me so that his thighs were touching the back of my thigh. His hands then slid their way to my wrists, lifting both of them over my head. I moaned softly against his mouth.

He pulled away from me, taking my breath with him. I watched him as he began to take off his equipment, tossing it all to the side. He then leaned in to kiss me once again, my entire body suddenly feeling like it was on fire while a painful tension feeling was beginning to form right in between my legs.

I noticed a worried look on his face when he pulled away from the kiss, "Um..."

I cupped his face and smiled, "Yeah, I kinda have to see your peepee for this to work, sweetheart." When he didn't chuckle at my playfulness, I frowned. "Did you want to stop?"

He shook his head, "No. I'm just nervous. That's all. I think it's pretty okay to be nervous since I'm the only virgin in the room."

I smiled, running my finger over his mouth. "Of course..." I kissed him softly, attempting to clam his nerves but speaking from experience, kisses can only go so far.

While I was kissing him, he kept moving almost as if positioning himself already. I open my eyes and pulled away from his mouth to see what he was doing. I was going to gasp but nothing came out when I saw...what I've been wanting to see for some time now. He was right, he didn't look human. I know he's self conscious, but oddly enough seeing him completely out didn't freak me out. He was big, and here I was thinking he was just being a guy but nope. He is actually pretty big. That wasn't what made my jaw fall open, it was how thick he was. That was the thing that stood out the most to me, that and the shape of his head, it wasn't human shape. And he wasn't green like I thought he'd be, he was more of a purplish... I know why he'd be nervous about me seeing this, but again, I wasn't weirded out. Like at all... Which was weird...

He wasn't looking at me and I felt like the more I stared at dick, the worse he felt.

I cupped his face, "Hey, look at me..." I said softly. "You're okay." His eyes stared into mine, almost like he were reading me to see if I was lying. "I still wanna be your girlfriend. Your dick doesn't weird me out." I chuckled, my thumb rubbing his cheek. "You okay?"

He didn't answer, he just kissed me. He moved from my lips to my neck and shoulder, making his way all the way down to my breast. Yay! I loved it when he did this! I gasped before sighing softly, my hands cradling his head.

A thought suddenly popped into my head, I've never made him feel the way he makes me feel. While he was preoccupied, I reached down and gently wrapped my fingers around his member for the first time. I heard him suck in a breath before staring up at me with wide eyes. I bit my lip to hide my smile but failed. He choked back a churr when I began to slowly stroke him, "I wanna make you feel good too."

He rested his head on my shoulder and moaned. I kissed his cheek, one hand teasing his head while the other stroked his shaft. Hearing him churring and moaning against my skin, set my body on fire.

He groaned, his teeth gently grazing my shoulder, "I'm gonna come in your hand if you keep touching me like that."

Already? Jesus... "Then fuck me."

Raph raised his head, staring at me with wide eyes. "What did you just say?"

I rolled my eyes. I knew he was going to make a big deal about my language. "You heard me. Don't leave me hanging here." He smiled, giving me a soft sweet kiss.

About ten minutes later, Raph was pulling away from me, out of breath and completely relaxed. I leaned over and kissed his cheek, waiting for him to catch his breath. I then quickly got up from my bed and began to walk back to my bathroom to clean up- I'm a lady, not a sponge. In the meantime, might as well put on those pajamas I just left in the bathroom. When I came back, Raph was unfolding my covers and tucking himself into my bed. Um...

I tried to force myself not to smile but failed, "Aren't you going home?"

"No." He yelped. "I don't want to see anyone but you right now."

Okay... I walked over to the other side of the bed and slid underneath my covers. "What happened?" I asked.

He just shook his head and stared up at the ceiling. "I...I may have told my family we're dating. And it may have not...went well."

I frowned, "Really?"

"It was all Leo. He was...telling me...he was just pissing me off." He turned to face me. "I'm sure it's going to be hell tomorrow."

I rested my hand gently on his cheek, "Want me there?"

"Of course I do...but I don't trust him."

I sighed, "Raphael, that's your brother. Why don't you trust him?"

Raph shut his eyes, sighing heavily. The last thing I wanted to do was come in between brothers. I refuse to break up such an amazing family and I will leave the picture immediately if I think that is happening, without hesitation. "If he yells at you, or even gives you a look that I don't like, I don't know why I'd do."

"Nothing. That's your brother. I don't want you fighting him because of me."

He shook his head, "I don't want to talk about it anymore. I just want..." he sighed again, his arm draping over my hips and pulling me closer to him. "I just want to lay here with you and forget everything else."

I blinked, my face feeling a little warmer than before. Eventually, I smiled, deciding against it to call him cheesy. "Okay..."

"And I know how you are with cuddling so...I'll only do it for a little bit."

Although I smiled, I rolled my eyes, "Fine."

"Um..." he said nervously. "So..."

"So what?" I asked.

"How...how did I do?"

I giggled, "Raph," I gave his chin a small kiss. "You were fine. Better than I thought you would do actually."

"Really?"

"Yeah," I smiled. "You were good."

"Did you finish?"

I know if I tell him the truth it would hurt his feelings but I wasn't about to lie to him. "No. I'm not always going to finish when we have sex Raph."

He frowned, "Fuck..." he said before pulling his hand away from my waist and covering his eyes.

"Raph, you don't have to worry about me-"

"The hell I don't." He snapped.

I laughed softly, my fingers grazing the side of his face to calm him down. "Raph," I cupped his cheek. "Being with you is fine. I'm really happy we finally crossed this line. It means...I'm over everything that's happened to me." I couldn't help but give him a sweet kiss.

I was used to my needs being ignored. When I have sex it's never about me finishing first of last or whatever...for me, sex it great because I'm making the person I care about feel good. At that moment, I don't really think about myself.

It's sweet to see Raph so upset about something I just didn't really care about. It made me feel fuzzy and warm.

"You've done better things today, Raph," I whispered, suddenly feeling very lethargic. I yawned. "Let's just go to sleep."

He sighed, before nodding.

I began to get comfortable, turning around so my back was pressed up against his chest. I would be more comfortable if we weren't cuddling but, I have to admit it feels nice to have his arm draped around my waist. "Goodnight." I yawned one last time.

I felt him breathe in my scent, then he kissed the nape of my neck. "I love you."

Damn, it really sucks when you can't say it back. I know he said it was okay I didn't say it back to him, but I know he cares. I didn't know what to do so I just grabbed his arm and nuzzled into it.

I knew he wasn't going to be there when I woke up, but I really hope he would.

I woke up feeling relaxed, almost like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I turned around finding my bed empty. I sighed, I knew he wasn't going to be there but I still was prepared... There was a commotion going on in my living room. I could hear laughs and loud conversations being had. As soon as I stood and took a step, I winced slightly and sat right back down. I was sore... I guess it's been too long since the last time I... Taking a deep breath, I smiled to myself. I had sex with Raph last night... I giggled. I had sex with Raph. I stood up again and although I winced, I was happier than I've ever been.

I exited my room and just to find Ian and my mom's boyfriend talking while my mom cooked for both of them. Upon seeing me, Ian got up and came over to hug me. I hugged him back, burying my face into his uniform before letting go.

I sat at the table, right next to this complete stranger, smiling at him. "Morning..." I said sleepily.

He smiled, "Good morning."

Ian went over on the other side of the table to sit, "Lillian, this is Barry. He helped a lot with your situation."

He held out his hand, "Nice to meet you."

I went on the defensive, "You're my mother's boyfriend?" I asked.

When I didn't take his hand he smiled, "We've only been on one date so I don't think that really qualifies me as her partner."

I shook my head, "You went on a date with her. That more than John ever got. Don't hurt her." I leaned in. "She likes you."

He chuckled, "If we're telling secrets, I like her too." He whispered back. "But I understand how your mother was with past relationships, and so I get why she wants to take it slow." Slow? Holy shit... My mom is actually serious about this thing if she hasn't even slept with this guy. "I also understand that you're her daughter and you're only looking out for her. But you shouldn't worry about your mother."

I smiled, so he starting to tell me what to do? I looked over at Ian and raised my brows. Time to interview. "Barry... What do you do for a living?"

Barry smirked over at Ian, before looking down at me. "I'm the commissioner."

Commissioner, which means if I just search him up on the internet I'd get some information. But not all... I think Donatello can help me out with that. "It's because of my mother's past relationships that I worry about her." I shook my head, "I don't know you and I don't know if I'll ever see you again after today- but just keep this in mind if you and my mom actually start doing stuff: don't ever boss me around, don't boss her around. I come first in this family, not you, not her, not Ian. Me. The minor, the child, her daughter. Also, don't lecture me about my own mother because I know her better than she knows herself and trust me when I say...she likes you. But you'll be gone so quick if you even think about fucking this up with me."

Ian's eyes widened, "Lillian!"

Barry raised his hand up to stop Ian, "It's okay, Ian. I was expecting this. I admire your love for your mother. And I can assure you I have immense respect for her. I will take everything you said to heart. I swear it."

"Good," I said with a nod, hiding the fact that I was shocked at his answer. I guess I'm so used to John's vulgarity.

"I better not hear another word like that out of your mouth. Do you understand?" Ian growled.

"Sorry, but it was for my mom." I grabbed Barry's hand and shook it. "It's nice to meet you, Barry."

Barry nodded, "It's very nice to meet you too, Lillian." Let see what my life will be like now.

Alright, Lilly and Raph finally diddled. Barry may be a little...off but don't worry we'll all get to know him. See you soon!