A/N; I'm not even mad that this has turned into a daily updates thing. I think Im going to try and get as many chapters done, but will maybe write au's if i feel like that i want to. Eric/Ryan stories seem to be more common on ao3.. in the smut department. Don't mind me being flulffy with my oneshots. Cutenesss est là où il est pour moi.
But this is a lil sadder.
(Posted my first hardy boys au "Cowboy From Boston", if you tend to wonder)
Yes i skipped a verse, just because . This isn't my best work tbh. But it'll get better. Honestly.
Song #4: "I Hate Myself For Loving You" by Joan Jett and The Black Hearts
"Okay guys, we're gonna split up." Frank said to the three CSIs, all carrying their service pistol tightly in their hands.
They were searching for the suspect, who'd ran away after shooting a patrol officer at warehouse. There were two possible directions he could've gone in, so the Detective wanted the officers with him for the search whilst Natalia and Calleigh continued to process the crime scene they'd been called to. Walter, Ryan and Eric had gone with Tripp in attempt to find the idiot who decided to attempt the murder of a police officer infront of other officers. More than enough witnesses to testify against him in a court of law. The guys weren't sure how the split would work, so they listened closely.
Frank split them up based on experience. Wolfe, being a formerly exceptional patrol officer, knew what he was doing and would make good lead. But Eric had a little more superiority on him since he was a higher ranking CSI. Conflicted, he decided that he would lead. "Ok, Simmons you're with me. Wolfe, Delko - that way."
The four split into the assigned pairs and travelled their separate ways. Frank and Walter going one way, while Ryan and Eric went another.
"Do you really think we're gonna find this guy?" Eric asked Ryan quietly, following his lead as they tiptoed through the empty room.
"I don't know, honestly." He stopped by a wall, the sound of footsteps distracting him from what Eric had to say. Didn't mean he was ignoring him though. There were just a lot of things going through his head. Only so many words he could process at a time. The Latino had kind of ignored him earlier, which made Ryan feel as though he'd probably said something offensive. That's if he didn't count how many times he'd insulted him in a friendly way. "Did I do something for you to be mad at me?"
Delko glanced out to the empty room, and then to Ryan. "What makes you think I'm mad at you?"
"You haven't said much to me since I started going out with Molly."
I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you
That's why I hate myself for loving you
Ow! Uh
Even just hearing her name, Eric became exasperated that they couldn't talk about them anymore. He missed the times when Ryan didn't care about what people thought. When he would check him out, knowing full well he noticed or hint at things with these songs for him. That would always be there thing. Eric knew Ryan better than anyone thought he did. He didn't know why he felt jealous that he no longer had Ryan's attention. Even when they'd first met, he could tell by the sparkle in his eyes that he'd been intrigued.
The attention intrigued him. And his drawing of him (which he still focused on more than talking about a date) had little details that some people didn't even know he had. Of course he didn't have stars in his eyes, but that was what Ryan did. Drew things the way he saw them. Eric saw the erased hearts.
Daylight, spent the night without you
But I've been dreamin' 'bout the lovin' you do
I'm over being angry 'bout the hell you put me through
Hey, man, bet you can treat me right
You just don't know what you was missin' last night
I wanna see you begging, say forget it just for spite
I think of you ev'ry night and day
You took my heart and you took my pride away
"Sorry if it seems that way, I've just been busy.."
Although Ryan saw straight through his lie, he decided it wasn't worth arguing now. "Okay."
I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you
That's why I hate myself for loving you
Ow! Huh
I think of you ev'ry night and day
You took my heart and you took my pride away
Delko didn't know why it happened everytime he was around Ryan. This guy ruined his pride without trying. Being a smartass, thinking he always knew better. And making him look a fool. He filled up his thoughts with false possibilites that could've happened if he'd not put his pride before the only chance he had. The only bad part about this was that it meant Ryan had moved on. "I told you to cover me!" He heard Ryan shout, bullets pinging all over the place.
Eric fired back, feeling foolish in both previous and current aspects.
How could Ryan know how he felt if he assumed that it was one sided and had moved on?
I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you
That's why I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you
That's why I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself
I hate myself for loving you