Chapter 2: I'm not your back up plan!

The air was cold and damp outside as Felicity walked to the bus stop. She didn't mind the cold at all, it somehow matched her mood perfectly. Even the skies on this chilly morning mimicked her mood. Grey and dull. She was still miffed at what she had seen last night. Oliver and Laurel. All romantic and lovey-dovey. Felicity rolled her eyes. She was done being sad and upset about it. She had cried her eyes out last night and began a downward spiral of self blame. Somehow whenever things didn't work out the way she wanted Felicity always took to blaming herself. Maybe it was because of her traumatic childhood, in her household whenever something went wrong Felicity was blamed and harshly punished, even if she had nothing to do with it. She remembered when her grandfather's tractor broke down and she was blamed for it. He came home fuming and lashed out at her, hitting her with his leather belt and locking her in room.

This time Felicity blamed herself for Oliver's disinterest in her. "Maybe I came on to strong? I probably scared the crap outta him didn't I? Guys don't like clingy woman and I reeked of desperation! Oh my God! I was too clingy wasn't I? That's why he didn't want me! No! Maybe he could only see my as a friend? I gave off bff vibes and guys don't date their friends! Arrrggh I wrecked everything! I'm so stupid! Can't I get anything right? I'm probably too ugly for him anyway.. Look at Laurel... I'll never be able to look like that..

Poor Felicity dumped on herself, until she woke up this morning and the guilt and blame were replaced with only one emotion: Seething anger. She was angry at Oliver for not being straight with her and frankly when it came to her big decision she didn't think she should be straight with him either. No, she was going to toy with him a little before she left for good. Make him question everything and maybe then he'll realize how truly valuable she really is.

Arrow Cave late evening:

"Felicity I need you to tell me where Carlson is I can't see him at all! Felicity! Felicity! Are you there?? I need you! What the...! Felicity!" Oliver practically screamed into the coms. Felicity just sat there, arms folded silent as ever. "Yeah right you need me! Pfffft! Dumbass! Of course you need me! Or why don't you ask Laurel to be you're woman in the chair?! " Felicity thought angrily. "Let's see how you like it when I'm not in your ear to guide you Oliver. " Felicity whispered as she shut off the coms and left only the monitors on so she could still see the action. She quickly hacked into the city traffic cameras and was able to see Oliver getting his ass kicked by Carlson. Poor Dig took a beating too but Felicity knew he could handle himself. Oliver however was outnumbered, disarmed and getting his ass handed to him. Felicity smirked with an evil sense of joy, secretly loving Oliver's pain. She hoped the physical beating he was taking was at least a fraction of the hurt she felt last night. Yes it maybe have been a bit cruel to leave him stranded but he had it coming to him. She knew she had to face Oliver's wrath when he got back but she was ready for him.

"FELICITY! WHAT THE HELL!! " Oliver screamed as he limped into the arrow cave, Diggle supporting him. He looked terrible, from what Felicity briefly saw his left leg was badly injured and his face was bloody and swollen and yet somehow he still managed to look ruggedly handsome. "Felicity, what happened?" Diggle asked in a much calmer tone that Oliver's. "We nearly got killed Felicity! Where were you? " Oliver asked sternly. "The coms went down, I couldn't manage to get them running again, sorry. " Felicity answered nonchalantly and Oliver was taken aback by her lack of interest. He knew she was lying, she was the best damn hacker in the world even Cisco admitted it and that was something. "I could have died Felicity! " Oliver spat out threateningly to which Felicity replied, "Well maybe this will teach you how valuable some people truly are. That what they do ensures your survival and maybe you shouldn't lie to them and go around pretending!" "What in the world? Felicity, where is this coming from, what the hell is going on? " Oliver demanded.

Diggle could sense the tension in the air. He let go off Oliver who was now standing on his own, and slowly shrunk into the background while grabbing his keys and trying to make a quick escape. He knew about Oliver and how Felicity secretly pined after him. However, he also knew about Oliver and Laurel and honestly felt like Oliver should have been straight up with Felicity and not strung her along all this time. "How could you lie to me Oliver!!! You said you didn't want a relationship, that you were afraid to lose me that if I got hurt your entire world would be gone!! But here you are dining and playing kissy face with Laurel Lance!!! Are you not afraid to put her in danger Oliver?? Do you not care about Laurel? Is she just another fling or a whore to satisfy your needs huh?!!" Felicity screamed. She knew she hit below the belt with that one. "FELICITY!!" Oliver screamed, "How dare you insult Laurel like that she had nothing to do with what happened today! You left me for dead Felicity!!! Do you know what could have happened today??? Carlson got away Felicity!!" Oliver took a deep breath and calmed himself, deep down he knew he fucked up too. Him and Laurel... It was complicated. "Look Felicity, we'll talk about this tomorrow and next time don't ever do what you did tonight ever again." Oliver threatened which made Felicity snap. "You think you can just dismiss this like it's nothing??!!!" Felicity fumed. You lied, blatantly lied to my face, toyed with my emotions, strung me along for so long and I expected to just forget about it and move on!!!" Felicity took a step toward Oliver so she was right in his face, she could see the anger in his green eyes. "You always said you were afraid of losing me Oliver, but now you are the one who pushed me away, I'm done Oliver, I'm done being your lookout, done being your backstop and your second choice, I'm done being lied to and manipulated by you. I'm done with you Oliver. I don't ever wanna see you again." Felicity whispered tearfully as she walked away from Oliver who grabbed her arm and stared into her eyes.

Felicity broke when she saw Oliver stare at her that way. His eyes conveying all of his emotions, his anger, his hurt, his fear and confusion and most importantly his regret. "Felicity.. " He whispered.. "Please don't leave me.. " Felicity looked at Oliver and turned her face away, remembering the hurt he caused her and with all she had in her removed his hand from her arm.. "I'm sorry Oliver, but I'm done being your back up plan." And with that Oliver watched as the woman he took for granted walked out of his life however what he didn't know is that she would be gone for good.

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