Why do you continue with your persistence?*
*Why do you contuine to terrioze me and force me into despairs ruthless grasp?*
"Anna, why are you running away from me!?", Elsa shouted, urgency in her voice. One minute her and Anna were talking normally then all of a sudden Anna looked at her like she was a ghost and ran away from her. The gears in Elsa's mind were turning, trying to figure out why would Anna do this.
Thanks to her anxiety and fear, Ice burst forth out of the Queen engulfing the entirety of Arendelle. The ice queen worries snapped at her, everyone will fear her again, she is harming all her people thanks to her stupid powers. Why was she born with them?
She heard a grunt of exhaustion in front of her , noticing her sister's red hair through the dense blizzard she called out to Anna but the call fell on deaf ears as Anna contuined to run, forcing Elsa to sprint with more speed to catch up with the redhead. She ran and ran and ran but no matter how much she tried her sister contuined to evade her, always just out of reach.
Just when her legs felt like giving up on her she saw Anna skid to a halt several meters in front of her, causing the blonde to sigh in relief.
Elsa ran in front of Anna."Anna this is-" the rest of Elsa's words stoped short at the sight in front of her. Ice was crawling all over Anna, nearly covering her entire body, but what frightened Elsa even more was the look of pure hatred directed at her, a look full of murderous intent which looked so wrong on the innocent girls freckled visage.
"Anna... Anna who did to this to-
Anna cut her off. "You did... MONSTER!".
She flinched back, Anna's words reverberating inside her soul. Those very words which she called herself all her years of isolation, words that she feared everyone would call her if they noticed she had powers... But what she feared the most was the thought of Anna calling her a monster.
"I-i hate you! You freak!", Anna contuined, practically spitting the words out. Elsa fell to her knees, ignoring Anna's hateful words, ignoring the sting of her icy tears briefly to try and thaw her but to her shock the ice spread faster, engulfing all of Anna.
Before Anna froze over completly, she gasped out four words which destroyed Elsa.
"I never loved you".
Elsa woke up with a start, she could feel her hands were aching from grabbing the silk sheets, her knuckles were white from the excessive grip she had on the blankets. Sweat dripped down her forehead like a waterfall despite the thin lining of frost that coated her entire chamber, her powers were providing no help to cool her down nor did it have any effect on reducing her racing heart.
Conceal... Don't feel.
Conceal...don't feel.
She repeated her mantra multiple times fervently. Anna had scolded her for using such a negative and self harming mantra but she needed it... She needed something to comfort her, she couldn't go to Anna. Elsa bitterly thought. Telling Anna of her recurring nightmares wouldn't be wise, the best way to handle emotions is concealing them, atleast that's what she thought.
But her latest night terror was excruciating, evidently so much so that the ice wouldn't thaw no matter how much she tried to force it away. After failing for the fifth time the Queen just sat there, trying to control her shaking hands, her mind was in a really frail state right now, images of her nightmare still crisp in her mind.
Elsa tried to stem the tears that threatened to burst forth like a overfilled dam, did Anna really die? Who does she have left? Her loving sunflower is gone...
The dam broke as she sobbed loudly, every mental barrier she had placed broke in all but a instant. She needed to convince herself that Anna was fine, that the redhead didn't hate her. So despite her hesitations to go to the princesses room, she found herself opening the door to the very same room.
Soft snores could be heard from it's owners mouth, despite the darkness Elsa could discern the massive bush atop of Anna's head, almost causing her to giggle despite her saddened state, even just one look at her sunflower and everything felt okay already. 'Shes okay, Anna is alive'
Elsa walked around the bed to where Anna was sleeping. "Anna I'm sorry", she said her voice a mere whisper . "I'm such a horrible sister who hides everything from you and *sob*-". Her words were cut short by the soft sob that forced it's way out her lips.
Anna looked so comfortable, like she had no worries in the world. If only she knew of the turmoil that her older sister was going through right now. Elsa smiled,knowing exactly what she would say. *"You tart!, stop trying to hold the entire world on your shoulders by yourself, let me help you"*
Elsa inhaled deeply. 'One time, then I leave', she thought to herself. Leaning forward she put her ear on Anna's chest, each beat of Anna's heart comforted her greatly, instantly eroding all of her despair and filling her soul with light. Each beat symbolised a victory of every nightmare getting destroyed, each insecurity, anxiety and fear were all nothing in the face of the love and peace she felt from such an action. Before sleep could capture her in it's net,she felt Anna stir, groaning.
"Elsa? What you*yawn* doing?".
"I was walking by and heard you tossing about, you were having a nightmare so I came in to check on you", Elsa said without missing a beat. 'You lied to her again, what a good sister'.
Anna narrowed her eyes. " Elsa... Why do you lie so much?
Not expecting such a response she remained quiet, suddenly finding the curtain to her right very interesting.
Taking Elsa's silence as confirmation of her lie, she contuined. "If you c-" she paused when Elsa flinched at her reprimanding tone. "Elsa I love you okay? Would you like it if the person you loved the most lied to you?"
"Of course I wouldn't like it if you lied to me", Elsa mumbled, still holding her gaze away from Anna. She tried to hold back the tears when she heard Anna move off the bed, presumably to get away from her. To her surprise a pair of warm arms wrapped around her.
"Please tell me whats bothering you... Or I'll tickle you, don't tempt me. Ice powers or not, you will still fall to my might", Anna teased, her voice muffled by Elsa's shoulder.
"I-" Elsa couldn't help it, she burst out into a fit of giggles, with no concern of looking regal or proper, both girls laughs could be heard through out the corridor by the guards on night shift, causing a smile to form on their lips.
"Thank you Anna, you're a lifesaver".
Anna huffed. "Of course, The tickle Queen saves the day, didn't you know tickling is stronger then Ice".
Elsa shook her head with a smile. "Whatever you say, your Majesty".
Anna stared at her blankly, making Elsa shift worryingly on the bed. "Elsa you still haven't told me what bothering you.".
Elsa sighed, rubbing the bridge of her nose. " Your right Anna, I'm sorry.". She stared into Anna's eyes, briefly getting captured by the beautiful soul that lay beneath the teal coloured orbs. Elsa knew then and there that she would give the entire universe up for her sister, she would give up that damn mantra as well, if it was for Anna she would do anything.
"Almost since I...froze you, nightmares have been pestering me non stop, tonights terror was by far the most severe, I.. ki-killed you in my dream, you even said you hated me". Elsa held her face with her right hand, trying to control the swirling emotions inside of her, she was not going to cry, enough of being a crybaby.
Anna squeezed Elsa with more force, her warmth a stark contrast to the blondes coolness. " See? Don't you feel better now. I'm proud of you Elsa, you're much stronger then you give yourself credit for!".
"I do feel better, thanks to you Anna, my sunflower". Elsa leaned forward and gave Anna a kiss on her nose, eliciting a small squeak from the princess.
"Hm, I think you should be called the mouse queen instead of the Tickle queen", Elsa mocked, earning a glare from her sister.
"Tease me more and i might be the Queen of kisses".
"I might take you up on that offer".
Anna raised an eyebrow. Well at least that's what Elsa thought she did, it was hard to tell in the darkness. "You can sleep with me from now on, your nightmares will cower in fear from our combined love", Anna said ignoring Elsa's reply.
"Someone really becomes a jokester when they are tired don't they? Though I agree with the sleeping arrangements", Elsa replied with out hesitation.
Anna chuckled slightly, getting under the covers and patting the unoccupied spot beside her. "Let's get to bed, I'm surprised you agreed Elsa, if I asked you a couple of weeks back, you would of said. 'That is highly improper Anna, we are not kids'.", Anna teased with her most regal impersonation of Elsa she could conjure.
Elsa crawled besides her and embraced the loving arms that encircled her, emitting a sigh of content. " Really funny Anna, I can barely contain all the mirth within me, at such a hilarious statement".
Anna rolled her eyes at her sisters obvious sarcasm. "Night Elsa".
"Goodnight Anna, I love you".
Elsa smiled when a soft snore tickled her ear, her sunflower was always a quick sleeper, there could be a massive storm and Anna would be snoring away like it was a normal occurrence.
She has the best sister in the world.