STAN

I didn't think Kyle would take it so badly to me not telling him about me being gay. I actually still preferred for my friends don't know. I mean they say nothing has changed but it already feels different to me. It's not my imagination. I wanted things to stay the same. At the same time I needed to come clean. It was getting hard to tip toe around. Kyle doesn't miss shit. I wake up checking my phone to see TC hasn't text me back yet. What the fuck is he doing?

Stan: TC, did you do it?

I don't get a reply of course. So annoying. I get up heading to the bathroom I share with Kyle. I get washed up knowing he must be really hung over to still be sleep. It's almost noon. He is usually up before 10. I have never seen him so drunk. I feel bad that he barfed on his own girlfriend. I replay in my mind how she was acting at the club last night. It seems like to me her mind was on Kyle who. I'm surprised Kyle never went up to Heidi at all. I have to give her credit she was not dancing with any guys just the girls. Then the making out….whole different thing altogether. I head back to my room grabbing my laptop to get online. Let's see what is going on out there in the world.

I'm scrolling through Facebook and nothing much going on. I can see some pictures from last night that Wendy and the girls took last night. I smile to myself because Wendy really let loose once she got to college. Granted she is still pulling off high marks. I have no idea how she is able to do it. It takes everything in me just to focus on what it is I have now. I'm going to school to be an electrician. Seems to be a dying field that is needed, the pay is really good too. I like the fact that I get to use my hands. A message pops up from Butters.

Butters: Hey, how did it go yesterday?

Butters has been out since 10th grade. I told him our freshmen year of college after I spoke to TC. Kyle would kill me if he knew Butters knew before him. Butters and TC both helped me out a lot with coming to terms with everything. Butters is completely comfortable with dating guys and so is TC. TC convinced me to tell Butters. He said Butters would be a great support system. He truly has been. I felt like I could truly be myself around them. I could talk about guys and not feel ashamed. Butters knows I was going to tell the guys last night.

Stan: Kyle took it really bad that I didn't tell him

Butters: Poor guy, he will be okay. Otherwise, was he accepting?

Stan: Kenny and Cartman acted like I just told them the weather of the day. They of course made a few jokes. You know how they are. Kyle was the only one flipping out.

Butters: How is he doing now?

Stan: Shit, I don't even know. He is still sleeping. He got really wasted last night.

Butters: Kyle doesn't usually drink like that….I mean not to the point where he is not functionable.

Stan: Exactly! Then he didn't even do anything when Heidi was making out with Red

Butters: Whoa his girlfriend made out with another girl!

Stan: Yeah, he threw up on her though from drinking too much

Butters: Sounds like last night did not go well for him

Stan: I'll say. Have you seen Craig at all today? I needed to get some notes from him.

Butters: Not yet. You know he is not a morning person.

Stan: The one fucking time I have to rely on him. God he can be annoying as fuck.

Butters: I wish I was in your class. I would definitely lend you my notes!

Stan: I know Butters. Thanks for information though.

Butters: I see, whelp I have arrived to work so I will catch up with you later!

Stan: Later

Butters works at American Eagle. He actually likes working there. Folding shirts and making recommendations is his thing. He is going to school for management so he can move up in the company. We shall see how that goes. I find most of those businesses are shady when it comes to promotions from within. I continue looking up stuff online until I hear a knock on my door.

"Yeah," I shout knowing it's Kyle. He opens the door slowly. My god, he looks like shit. He actually has bags under his eyes, puffy a little like he has been crying but it's hard to tell. His hair is pretty bad, his curls are all fuzzy and very untamed. "Dude you look….not good." I don't want to tell him how bad he looks.

"I'm starting to feel better," he says stumbling slowly into my room. I shrink my internet page putting my computer aside.

"You okay?" I asked him.

"Why wouldn't I be?" he asked sitting on my bed groaning like he is in pain.

"Well, Heidi was making out with Red….." I say slowly.

"Oh, that," he says. "That was pretty hot actually." I stare at him in surprise.

"I didn't know you were into that," I say unable to keep the surprise out of my voice.

"Oh yeah," he says blushing. "I wish she would have told me beforehand because it does leave my mind wondering how many times has she done this. I mean she looked pretty comfortable with it. Heidi is tame for the most part but I do know she likes to check out other women. She has thing with for women with slim waist and wide hips."

"How do you not get jealous?" I inquire. "That kiss looked really intense."

"I know that she is dating me and possibly doing this for fun," shrugs Kyle. "You how all these college girls think kissing each other is sexy." Kyle groans before continuing. "God I vomited on her….." He drops his face into hands as he leans over.

"Yeah it was pretty bad," I admit. "At least you don't have a hangover."

"I don't know about that," he says before glancing at me. There is an unnerving silence for a moment. "Stan you will tell me everything moving forward right?" I swallow hard still uncomfortable with that. How do I tell him that?

"Kyle," I say softly shifting my eyes. "I mean, you're a guy, a straight guy. I don't know if you would be comfy with me talking about that kind of stuff."

"Try me," says Kyle. "How was your first time with a guy?" I blush immediately remembering my first time. God, it was embarrassing as hell. It was unplanned, TC had to help me clean and prep. I almost died by the end of that alone. "It's just me dude, you can trust me."

"I lost it to the guy I'm seeing," I say slowly. "It was embarrassing because I never have done anything like that before. I mean girls don't really have to do much except getting turned on. I have to…..uh clean….and stretch the area." Kyle's eyes widen a little.

"You're the bottom!" he exclaims.

"I do either or but I like being the bottom," I explain. Kyle blushes covering his face. "See I can't talk to you about this." Kyle recovers quickly grabbing my hand.

"No!" he exclaims. "It's cool really. Sounds like you really like this TC guy."

"I think I might love him actually," I reply. "He gets me. We have been talking on and off for a while." Kyle nods.

"I would love to meet him," he says. "See this guy that is stealing my best friend heart." I can feel my cheeks burning.

"He stays busy," I explain. "Like he knew I was going to tell you guys last night. I can't even get ahold of him." Kyle frowns.

"That's not cool," says Kyle. "If you were my boyfriend I would always make time to at least send you a text." I stare at Kyle thinking maybe I should have told him a while back. He is certainly very accepting. Kyle blushes making me smile a little before we hear a knock on the front door. "Would TC just show up here unannounced?"

"Hell no," I reply sliding off my bed. I head out into the living room with Kyle close behind. I look through the peephole seeing Heidi. I was not expecting that. "It's for you," I inform Kyle opening the door. Heidi walks inside looking just as bad as Kyle. Her hair looks matted in the back. She is obviously wearing someone else's clothes, probably Bebe's since they are a little baggy. She looks like a raccoon with her black eye makeup smudged all over her red puffy eyes, stained red lips.

"Hi, Stan," she smiles weakly.

"Hey," I greet.

"Heidi, what are you doing here?" asked Kyle.

"Sorry I didn't text you, hun," she says walking up to him. "Do you hate me?"

"What?" he questions in surprise. "No."

"I have been texting you all morning," she pouts rubbing her eyes as tears start to appear. "I'm so sorry." She starts crying. Kyle comforts her by hugging her before wrapping his arm around her waist.

"Come on," he says leading her away. "Let's talk in my room." Man, she is really shaken. I guess I would be too if I was caught kissing someone else. I head back to my room sitting back on my bed picking my laptop back up. Maybe Kyle and our friendship can work though. I guess I could confide in him after all. I smile to myself as I get back on Facebook. I'm halfway through my feed when I begin to hear Kyle and Heidi having sex. I sigh grabbing my headphones. I put them over my ears thinking well at least they made up.