STAN

The remaining two days of our weekend getaway was great. I don't think I will ever be able to fully thank Kyle enough for this. I'm sitting outside at school doing school work. Sometimes I like to do it outside if the weather is nice. I smile as I begin to think about Kyle. He was a natural when it came to us making out and then some. I thought he would have been nervous or freaking out but he wasn't. He seemed relaxed.

I chuckle to myself flushing as I think about how he looks at me now. It's different. Granted we are still super best friends but I feel like he loves me. I think I want to try exploring a relationship with him but I don't want things to go too fast. He is new to this. I mean what if he thinks I'm still in love with TC.

Kyle and I haven't really properly spoke about what happened. He just started his internship and classes started back for me. It's been 6 weeks since we went on that trip. I know something should have been said before then. At the same time, we have this unspoken thing. Now we have to eat dinner together. Before it was we would eat together when we could but now I don't feel right eating without him. I don't know his reason for wanting to eat with me. We go grocery shopping together and even started studying together in his bedroom. I swear a few times he has almost grabbed my hand or touched me in some kind of way. I have almost kissed his cheek on more than one occasion myself.

"What the fuck Stan!" exclaims TC standing in front me. And here we go.

"Dude, please," I reply. "It's over. Please leave me alone."

"Did you seriously think I wouldn't see those pictures on Facebook and not say anything?" asked TC. I know he is mad. For the first time ever, I don't care. Kyle and I took pictures of our trip and posted them on Facebook. It was a shock for friends on my list because I rarely post anything on my page. Most of the time I'm being tagged in stuff or someone is posting stuff on my wall. I have taken the time to upload photos of me and Kyle studying or cooking. It has been really nice. I roll my eyes at TC seeing he is not going to let this go.

"I said it's over," I replied. "You made your choice and I made mine." I close my textbook and journal knowing he is going to keep bothering me. Time to get back to the apartment. I start shoving the books in my backpack.

"So you're fucking Kyle now?" he asked harshly. "I shouldn't be surprised though. I see the way he looks at you." I blush hard because I'm not fucking Kyle. Kyle is not just a fuck, he is my best friend. I care about him. I'm not going to explain that to TC. It's none of his damn business. I start walking away when he grabs my arm hard. "I'm not done." I look at him coldly.

"Get your fucking hand off me before I break it," I hiss at him. TC waivers letting me go. I think he saw my face says 'I'm not to be fucked with today'. I walk away and this time he lets me. I get in my car heading home. I'm not upset. I'm not over TC but I know I will get there. I think about how Kyle might enjoy a nice dinner tonight. I go by our favorite steakhouse ordering out happy with the choice I made. I head into the apartment getting dinner set up on plates for us before taking a nice shower.

I don't find it weird that we haven't discussed what happened between us. Of course, it is on my mind since I want us to be something more. It's almost like both of us are afraid to do anything. At least there is no weirdness between us. I would die if I had to go through what we did a couple of months ago. I finished up in the shower getting dressed comfortably. I get nervous as I think of what to say to Kyle when he gets here. I hear a text come through on my phone.

Butters: Hey what's going on with our buddy? He is so mean today.

Stan: Oh I forgot to warn you. He is in a mood

Butters: Gosh why is he always so damn cranky

Stan: No telling

I know why he is been cranky. It is because he no longer has me. He can't pull me back in as he did before. It was hard enough avoiding him for as long as I did. However I need to live my life. I can run from TC forever. I busy myself talking to Butters about classes and our social life a little bit until I hear Kyle come through the door. I immediately sit down my phone heading into the dining area which is closest to my room. Kyle is looking at the plated food on the table.

"We will have to heat it up," I inform him. Kyle looks at me making my heart love gate just flood up. He appears impressed, so pleased.

"I'm so hungry," he says walking over to me. "Thanks for taking care of dinner." I smile at him wanting to kiss him as he stands in front of me. The air feels intense for just a moment. I clear my throat.

"I know you want to wash up," I reply. "So while you do that I will reheat the food."

"Awesome," says Kyle. "I'll be right back." He heads into his room while I go to heat up the food. I think Kyle likes me too. I mean he looks at me so passionately now. I'm so deep into my thoughts I don't even hear him when he comes back into the room. "Stan,"

"Huh?" I ask turning around. "Yeah what's up?"

"You okay?" asked Kyle. "Your kind of just standing there."

"Oh, I'm fine," I replied. "Just thinking about school stuff."

"Oh god," says Kyle. "I don't even want to think about it. I do have to study tonight and I really don't want to. I just want to prepared for when my classes do start up." I grab Kyle's plate out the microwave.

"It's our last year though," I reply grabbing my plate putting it in the microwave. "I never thought I would be happy to just have a solid job."

"Tell me about it," says Kyle sitting down. "I'm lucky the boss we have at this internship is so relaxed."

"You complain more about school than your internship so I figured things are going well," I state leaning against the counter.

"It is," says Kyle. "I kind of like being a social media marketing. It's really knowing how to appeal to your audience." My plate is ready and I join Kyle. We both start digging into our food. "Mmm…." moans Kyle. "Fuck yeah I needed this." I laugh as Kyle looks up at me grinning. We eat in silence for a while until he says "I have been wanting to talk to you." I get nervous, excited, scared, I really don't know what he is going to say.

"I wanted to talk to you too," I admit. Kyle glances at me looking worried too.

"Um…." Kyle starts blushing like crazy. I know what he is trying to say. Kyle only gets like this when he likes someone. "I wanted to know if you were interested in seeing me?"

"Yes," I reply not having to think it over. "I wanted to ask you the same thing." Kyle laughs as he starts to look relaxed. "I mean I know you haven't been with a guy before so we can go at your pace. Take things a day at a time."

"We have been doing that already," says Kyle. "It feels like we have been dating since the trip to the resort. Well at least that is how I like to think about it but you know I needed to ask you." He has no idea how happy he just made me. "I want to make sure things are over with TC?"

"God yes," I reply. "That idiot tried to approach me today. I made it very clear that things are over. I thought I was going to have to fight him for a second."

"Did he get physical with you?" asked Kyle. "Just say the word I will have my dad file to a restraining order."

"Calm down dude it's not that serious," I reply. Kyle hates going to his parents for anything. I know he means business if he is willing to do that to get TC off my back. "If it goes that direction you will be the first to know." Kyle nods as he begins to grin.

"So I guess I have a boyfriend," says Kyle looking at me in a way that causes me to blush.

"I have a boyfriend too," I laugh nervously. "Would you like to go on an official date this upcoming weekend?"

"I would love to," says Kyle. "But I have to study….recheck."

"Sure dude," I smile. I know he is busy preparing for school. It's harder now that he is working his time is very limited. "Is it okay for me to put this on Facebook?" Kyle chews are he thinking about it.

"Yeah, I want you to," he says. "I will update my profile too."

"What about your parents?" I ask. "I mean they think you're straight don't they?" Kyle shrugs.

"I don't care what they think," he says. "Deep down I do but I'm happy to be dating my best friend. Someone I trust and can truly love. No one, not even my parents are going to take that away from me." My heart is beating hard…..does Kyle love me. He is putting everything out there not giving two shits. I get really anxious suddenly.

"Um is okay if we wait a few weeks," I say causing Kyle to look surprised.

"Why?" he asked. "I thought you wanted to let the world know." I chuckle eagerly.

"I know there are going to be some questions and I want to avoid that for a little while," I explain. I'm mostly talking about TC but I don't want Kyle to know that. He might not respond to that too well. I also would personally prefer Kyle tell his parents before we put it online. I will discuss this with him further later.

"Whenever you are ready," says Kyle with a shrug.

"Thanks," I reply. Kyle stands up walking over to me. He palms my face before kissing me with everything in him. I feel like he just sucked the air out of my lungs…..so fanatical. "Mmmmpppphhh….." I place my hands on top of his.

"Ahhh…" moans Kyle. "I wanted to make sure this is what I wanted, what we wanted." He pulls away so he can see me properly as I still stare up at him from my chair. God Kyle is such a good man. I'm kind of glad the other girls fucked up so I got to have him. I will never do him as they did. I'm going to love Kyle forever because I already do. Kyle sits back down in his chair. "Sorry I didn't mean to get carried away there." I continue to look at him growing hard in my shorts. I blink hard trying to think clearly.

"Can I sleep with you tonight?" I ask. My face turns crimson immediately. "I mean go to sleep in the same bed, not sex. God damnit…." Kyle starts to laugh.

"Sure," he says. "Did you want to sleep in my bed or yours?"

"I don't have a preference," I admit.

"Good," says Kyle. "I want to sleep in your bed."

"Mine?" I question. "Why?" Kyle looks down at his feet before meeting my glare.

"God, I need to stop being so embarrassed," he says slowly. "I like the way you smell." I blush because I think I know what he is referring to. My natural body scent.

"Um…okay," I say slowly.

"You don't mind, do you?" he asked.

"Not at all," I smile as it dawns on me he loves everything about me. We finish up dinner and go to our rooms. Kyle is studying. Me on the other I'm wanting to jack off because I'm so turned on by how everything went down this afternoon. At least we were both thinking the same thing, we want to be with each other.

I'm dressed in my PJ's ready for bed. I actually do have to work in the morning which I don't even feel like going to at this point. I pull back the covers to get in bed when I hear my door open. I glance at my door to see Kyle entering my room closing the door softly.