A/N All I'll say is...

Poor Liv.

Chapter 4

"Love knows not distance; it hath no continent; its eyes are for the stars."- Gilbert Parker

About 3 minutes after Alex had pushed the call button there was knock on the door and a nurse walked inside. She hesitated for a moment before she speaks up. Olivia and Alex could both see that the nurse had something to tell them and judging by the look on her face both women doubted it was something good.

"You look like you have more bad news to tell me. Is there something the other nurses failed to mention?" Olivia asked.

"Hello Detective, I'm Kate. And to answer your question, not exactly. The surgeon who performed the surgery just came to us to update us. He thought it would be for the best if someone else would tell you it instead of him. So that's why it took me so long to come and see you. There is no easy way to say this when the surgeon performed the surgery he found out that besides a uterus and ovary you also have testicles. Now normally he would have removed them too but since the person you were switched with is a transgender he decided not to remove them and let him choose what he wanted after being told what the risks are. It is just a coincidence that his names were already male. I'm sorry for needing to tell you this," Kate answered.

Olivia turned green after hearing the shocking news. Alex was shocked by what she heard.

"I'm gonna be sick," Olivia said.

Alex looked around and saw a recycle bin next to the nightstand. Quickly she picked it up and shoved it in front of Olivia just in time. Hanging to the right a bit, Olivia vomited in the bin several times. It took the poor Detective 5 minutes before her stomach settled down a bit and she stopped throwing up. Kate went into the bathroom and took a washcloth, wet it and filled a cup with water before she walked back and handed Alex the wet washcloth. When Olivia was done Alex took away the recycle bin and handed it over to Kate, then the blonde attorney carefully took the washcloth and softly wiped it over Olivia's face to fresh her up a bit. Alex took the cup with water from Kate and handed it over to Olivia who took a few sips to get rid of the bad taste in her mouth and then held up the cup for Alex to take it away and leaned back into the pillows.

"Do you think you're done throwing up?" Alex asked carefully.

"Yes, I think I'm done," Olivia said, still as white as the sheets she was lying under.

The Detective turned to Kate.

"How the hell is it possible that I didn't know that? Shouldn't I've noticed something years ago? Shouldn't they have noticed it when I was born or my mother when I was getting older? How is it possible to have a completely normal female body and testicles too? I don't get it." Olivia asked shocked.

"Truthfully, I don't know Detective. Normally with something like this you don't have it both like you did. I've never seen this before either, I'm sorry. The best I can do is to call a gynecologist and ask them to come here, today if that's possible. I can understand it's a big shock for you, I can't imagine how you must feel but do you know what you want to do already or do you want to talk with a gynecologist first and then think about it?" Kate asked.

"You would think since I never knew it I would get rid of them immediately, I shouldn't have to think about it for a second but I really don't know what I want. What the hell is wrong with me?" Olivia asked softly as she looked at Alex.

"Olivia, you're in shock. It's normal that you don't know it right now. The most logical things aren't so clear anymore. There is nothing wrong with you. You just heard you had a hysterectomy and before you have time to even think about what that does with you, emotionally, you hear this. Your world turned upside down twice in not even an hour. It's alright to be confused and not knowing what you want. How about she calls a gynecologist and you get some answers to your questions first? One or two days thinking about it won't matter," Alex asked softly.

"Maybe you're right. About getting some answers first I mean. Damn it Benson, think!" Olivia answered.

"Don't be so hard for yourself Liv. You'll figure it out and just so you know, to me you're still the same person as you were before. No matter what you will decide today, tomorrow or whenever you make your decision. Now, how about that call?" Alex asked.

"I never will be the same person again as I was before because I didn't know then what I know now. No matter what I'll do. Thank you for not freaking out at me or walking away from me." Olivia whispered.

Alex heard the Detective's words clearly though. Olivia looked at Alex for a moment before she turned her head back to Kate.

"I think I want to talk with them first. Can you call them?" Olivia asked.

"Sure no problem. And your girlfriend is right about being so hard for yourself Detective." Kate answered.

Before Olivia or Alex could deny or correct Kate's mistake there was a knock on the door before it opened and Cragen and Liz stepped inside. Seeing Liz and Cragen is just too much for Olivia and the Detective couldn't take it anymore and broke down.

"Get them out of here! Lex, please, make them go away," Olivia begged before she burst out into tears.

Alex quickly jumped up and walked to a shocked Captain and EADA. With a nod of her head, she made them and Kate clear that they all needed to leave. As soon as they were outside Alex closed the door behind and Cragen and Liz looked at her with a worried face. They had never seen Olivia like this.

"Kate, make that call please," Alex said softly but sternly.

Kate nodded at Alex and then walked away. After she was gone Alex turned her attention to Cragen and Liz.

"I don't think Liv wants you to know everything right now and I won't tell you it, not without having talked about it with her. I keep it short, Liv needs me now and is more important. I'll call one of you later today when I have time. Do I make myself clear?" Alex asked with her courtroom voice.

It was clear to the other two that the younger blonde was being protective and worried about Olivia. They knew that they wouldn't get more out Alex then the ADA was willing to tell them now. And after seeing Olivia like this they were the last persons to disagree with Alex that the Detective didn't need her. So both Cragen and Liz nodded.

"Good. Now as for why I asked you both to come here, the morons in this hospital switched Olivia with the person next door and they performed a hysterectomy on her instead. We talked about it after I called Liz and we want you to find out how the hell this was possible and sue every asshole involved. That's all I'm saying now. I have one question before I go back to Liv. As soon as I can I'll call either one of you. Liz, Liv needs me and wants you to prosecute this case. Do you want to take it please?" Alex asked as she was trying to keep the anger out of her voice, again.

Stunned and shocked Cragen and Liz looked at Alex. They had so many things they want to ask. Looking at Alex they both realized that is was pointless at this moment. The blonde attorney's mind was already back at the woman at the other side of the door.

"Yes of course. But you better call as soon as you can, Counselor," Liz answered.

"I will, now I don't want to be rude, but you have to excuse me," Alex answered

Before Cragen or Liz could react Alex already turned around and walked back into Olivia's room shutting the door in front of their noses. Cragen and Liz look at the door and then at each other. Both thinking the same the question.

What the hell is going on here?