This is how I grieve. I miss Naya, she won't be popping up on any of my social media feeds. No more interviews, no more new news about her, no more new clips of her with her son and no more new pictures or clips of her and Heather together. Its a hard pill to swallow but for the lives of the people she touched both personally and through the characters she portrayed she will always be a LEGEND.
She was sitting by the window of her favorite cafe, looking at the people walking outside, some in a hurry, some taking their time. She noticed the dark clouds on the horizon "Looks like it's going to rain" she thought to herself, she remembered when she was a kid she used to play outside in the rain, she would wear her favorite yellow raincoat and red boots she wouldn't go back until her dad would carry her back inside their house. She smiled at the memory. Then a familiar intro to a song started to play on the cafe's speaker together with it started a bitter memory.
Brittany:
You know I want you
It's not a secret I try to hide
I know you want me
So don't keep saying our hands are tied
You claim it's not in the cards
And fate is pulling you miles away
And out of reach from me
But you're here in my heart
So who can stop me if I decide
That you're my destiny?
"I do love you. Clearly you don't love you as much as I do, otherwise you'd put that shirt on and dance with me!", I said and walked away from a stunned Santana.
Brittany:
What if we rewrite the stars?
Say you were made to be mine
Nothing could keep us apart
You'd be the one I was meant to find
It's up to you, and it's up to me
No one can say what we get to be
So why don't we rewrite the stars?
Maybe the world could be ours
Tonight
I am more confused now than ever, why can't Santana just be true to herself? Even though I am young and people say that I am dumb and stupid I know in my heart that we are each others soulmate. I know that she has feelings for me, and she knows I have feelings for her, why can't she be with me?
Santana:
You think it's easy
You think I don't want to run to you
But there are mountains
And there are doors that we can't walk through
I know you're wondering why
Because we're able to be
Just you and me
Within these walls
But when we go outside
You're gonna wake up and see that it was hopeless after all
Why can't she find the courage to be with me? Doesn't she love me as much as I love her? She can cut down people with her vicious words and she is ready to fight even people twice her size. Why is she denying this freedom for herself?
Santana:
No one can rewrite the stars
How can you say you'll be mine?
Everything keeps us apart
And I'm not the one you were meant to find
It's not up to you, it's not up to me
When everyone tells us what we can be
How can we rewrite the stars?
Say that the world can be ours
Tonight
I am spending most of my time with the other glee kids, ignoring and avoiding Santana as much as I can, it's a good thing that we aren't Cheerios anymore. It means less time finding excuses when she asks if we can hang out.
Both:
All I want is to fly with you
All I want is to fall with you
So just give me all of you
Santana:
It feels impossible
Brittany:
It's not impossible
Santana:
Is it impossible?
Both:
Say that it's possible
This is so hard, she is still my best friend. I am so used to spending time with her, I don't care what we are doing as long as I am with her, I am happy and content. I can't remember when this started to grow into love or maybe it was already love I just didn't know it. I feel like it is over even before it started, but I am not losing hope. I know it is possible for us to be together, she just needs to realize it for herself first.
Both:
How do we rewrite the stars?
Say you were made to be mine?
Nothing can keep us apart
Cause you are the one I was meant to find
It's up to you, and it's up to me
No one can say what we get to be
And why don't we rewrite the stars?
Changing the world to be ours
Artie called me stupid and that made me sad so, Santana cheered me up by singing to me and it was so beautiful. I hope she can sing to me like that in front of other people.
Santana:
You know I want you
It's not a secret I try to hide
But I can't have you
We're bound to break and
My hands are tied
I was at my locker and Jacob Ben Israel was asking Santana about her and Dave being soulmates, our eyes met. I couldn't read her, then she answered "Yeah, I'd say that was accurate".
"Mommy!" She was snapped out of her bitter trip down memory lane when her five year old son called her, she smiled and told the little boy "Indoor voice please." the little boy answered "Sorry" and looked at her with his toothy grin. He pointed at the door of the cafe "Look it's mama" he whispered. She looked at the door and there she was the woman that she has loved all these years. She stood up and held out her hand for the little boy to take so they could greet her wife. When both women were face to face she kissed her wife and whispered "I love you until infinity Santana".
Note: Song used Rewrite the Stars. Glee is not mine. Mistakes are mine.