A/N Here's another new chapter for y'all to read. Apparently, this is the only story I'm able to write for at the moment. Oh well, I'm happy to be able to write at all at the moment. And those who are reading this story are the lucky ones. My muse can change her mind in a split second so I don't know what she'll let me write next.

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Chapter 5

"Love isn't something you find. Love is something that finds you."- Loretta Young

Alex knows that she left Cragen and Liz with more questions on their minds than when they came to the hospital but right now she has other priorities. One to be exact and that's the woman lying in the hospital bed. Looking at Olivia the blonde's heart breaks. The Detective looks... lost, yes that's the word that seems to fit the best at this moment. Some other words that cross her mind are devastated and shocked but mostly lost. Alex walks back to the chair next to Olivia's bed and takes a seat.

"Is there anything I can do to help you, Liv?" Alex asks softly.

Olivia looks at Alex with tears rolling over her cheeks.

"Make it all go away?" Olivia whispers.

"I wish I could. I wish I could let it disappear, but I can't." Alex answers.

"I changed my mind. I don't wanna talk with the gynecologist now. I don't wanna talk with anyone. Right now I don't even want to press charges. All I want is to wake up and realizing it just was a nightmare and if not I want to disappear. I don't want anyone around me. Except for you. I wish I could get up, walk out of this hospital and go somewhere nobody can find me or knows where I am. But that's not gonna happen." Olivia says softly.

"It's too much all of it together isn't it?" Alex asks.

"Yes." Olivia answers.

"Alright there might something I can do to help you. First, let me go and find Kate to cancel the gynecologist. Then I'll go find out how long you need to stay in the hospital. And I do mean need to stay, not how long they want you to stay." Alex says.

"Ok. Then what? How do you think you can help me if I don't even know myself what I want?" Olivia asks.

"Then I call Liz or Cragen, I know that you don't want to see or speak anyone else besides me but hear me out. What I'm thinking is that you and I give our statements as soon as possible, let's get over with that. They don't need us for anything else so for example, say that you would be able to leave tomorrow, let's give our statements and after that, I'm taking you away from here. We can go to my cabin and stay there as long as you want, we even can come back for the trial and go back again. I can ask Liz for a speedy trial, that way we only need to come back for 1 or 2 days I think. You and I both have more sick days and vacation days than we know what to do with. So why don't we make use of them now? Go away and stay somewhere where it's just you and me like you want. The cabin is a perfect place for that. So what do you think of my idea?" Alex asks.

"You are serious? You really want to do that for me?" Olivia asks shocked.

"Yes I am and yes I do. If that's what you want and need than that's what we're going to do." Alex answers.

"But Alex, I can't ask you to take your sick days or vacation days for me. I can't ask for you to take me to your cabin. I know what that place means to you. It's your secret heaven, the place you go to when you want to be alone and recharge your battery or you go when you need to be alone and think about things. I can't impose you and ask you to give up that place for me. Don't get me wrong I think it's the best thing I've heard today but I can't ask you to do that." Olivia says.

"Well it's a good thing that you don't ask it but that I'm offering or suggesting it then. You are right with what you said about the cabin, but there is only one person I would like to take there and share it with and that's you. Now is just a good opportunity to actually do it. So what do you say, do you want to go with me as soon as you may leave the hospital?" Alex asks.

"If you are sure, I would like to go but only if you are sure. Because you want it, not because you think you need to offer it to me." Olivia answers.

"Yes, I'm sure. In fact, I would love to. Now give me half an hour tops, I promise I'll be back sooner if I can. I'm gonna look for Kate first and then I'm gonna call Liz. What do you want her to know and what not? I'm asking you it now because Liz is gonna ask me questions and I need to know what I can say or not." Alex asks.

"Well since you need to get her permission to take a couple of days off..." Olivia starts.

"Not a couple of days Liv. I told you we can, let me rephrase this, we are staying there as long as you need to stay. Now finish what you were gonna say before I interrupted you." Alex says.

"We'll talk about that later when I'm really up for it. Anyway as I was saying, since you need to ask her permission for your days off and ask her for a speedy trial, she needs to know what's going on and what happened whether I like it or not. So you may tell her but only if she promises to try to keep the testicles part off the table and won't tell it to anyone if she can keep it off the table." Olivia answers.

"She can keep it off the table, Liv. It has nothing to do with what they did to you. It's something that they found out because of what they have done. Because they screwed up and switched your identity. It shouldn't be a problem for Liz to keep it out. But I'll make her promise that she keeps it to herself. She needs to know so that she can keep it out. Now I need to go before the gynecologist will get here. I'll be back as soon as I can." Alex says.

"Alright go," Olivia says.

Alex stands up and walks to the door, turning around when she hears Olivia's voice.

"Thank you, Lex, for doing this for me," Olivia says softly.

"No need to thank me Liv, I'll do anything I can to make this easier for you," Alex says.

The blonde attorney turns back and walks out of the Detective's room. Alex finds Kate just in time. The nurse was going to call the gynecologist. The ADA specifically asked Kate how long Olivia needed to stay in the hospital. Kate had answered that the Dr. assigned to this floor needed to make that decision but that normally the Detective could leave tomorrow somewhere in the afternoon if she was lucky and if not it would be the day after tomorrow. When things stayed the way they were of course. Alex asked her to send the Dr. to Olivia's room as soon as the blonde was back there. She told her that it would be half an hour tops before she would be back at Olivia's side. Kate agreed and Alex left to find a more private place to call Liz. To say that the older blonde was livid when she heard what happened is an understatement. The two women agreed on trying to get a speedy trial and Liz agreed with Alex after the younger blonde had made the older blonde promise she would keep it to herself, that she could keep the fact that Olivia has testicles away from the trial. Knowing everything now Liz understood why it became too much for the strong Detective. And when Alex asked for taking days off Liz knew that she was going to take them anyway. She made an offer to Alex. Take some sick days till the trial was over and then to see where they were standing. Assuming they were getting a speedy trial. Alex took the offer of course. She would figure out what to after the trial when it was needed. Finally, they agreed that Liz would come to the hospital tomorrow morning to take their statements, with Cragen. Giving both women but especially Olivia the time to get ready for it. Twenty minutes after Alex had left Olivia's room she came back and knocked on the door before opening it and walking inside.

"Hey," Alex says as she sits back again.

"Hey. How did it go? How long do I need to stay?" Olivia asks.

"There will be Dr. here soon to tell you that, but Kate thought tomorrow somewhere in the afternoon you might leave. If not the day after tomorrow. But don't worry about that. I'm gonna have a 'nice' conversation with that Dr. if he won't release you tomorrow somewhere in the early afternoon. Liz will be here with Cragen tomorrow morning to take our statements. And she promised me to keep it to herself that you have testicles. She's sure she can keep it out of the trial and I think that she will skip the last part and not ask you about it if you want to when Cragen is there too. So they only thing we need to do is for you to ask Cragen for some sick days, which he will be more than happy to give you and for me to go and pack our suitcases when they have released you. Doesn't that sound good after everything you went through today?" Alex asks with a small smile at the corners of her mouth.

"After today it sounds like heaven. But we need to convince that Dr. first maybe. Or you may need to convince him if I'm not able to do it myself that is." Olivia answers, with relieve in her voice.

"Oh don't worry about that Liv. I'm sure you'll be able to do that yourself and if not I'm more than happy and certainly pleased to give him a piece of my mind if he should make the mistake and refuse to release you when you are good enough tomorrow." Alex says with a small but shit-eating grin on her face.

Seeing the look on Alex's face when the younger blonde answered Olivia actually smiles herself. For a moment she almost wishes that the Dr. wants to keep her longer than needed only to see how Alex will give him her infamous death glare and more. Alex sees the smile on the Detective's face and raises one perfectly sculpted blonde eyebrow.

"Something funny Detective?" Alex asks teasingly.

"Funny is not the right word now, but yes Counselor. I almost wished for a moment that the Dr. refuses, only to see you in your prosecutor mode and tell him where to shove it." Olivia answers, winking with her eyebrows.

"Well, anything to make you laugh or feel happy for some time. So I think it's safe to assume should he refuse you want me to make him pee his pants like I do in court. Alright, I think I can do that. Maybe I can get him to release you before lunch if he refuses first." Alex laughs.

"Well the sooner the better. You know how much I hate hospitals. And now even more." Olivia answers.

"Yes, I do. I'll do the best I can to get you out of here." Alex says.

"I know you will," Olivia says.