A/N Sorry I kept y'all waiting for so long. I have a lot on my mind right now. And I think my muse is playing hide and seek with someone else. Well, they are hiding and I need to seek that is. Anyway, I hope to post another chapter soon for this story or another one.

Be my heroes and R+R. :D

Chapter 6

Your words are my food, your breath my wine. You are everything to me. - Sara Bernhardt.

The Dr. assigned to Olivia's floor had paid a visit and examined Olivia's left arm and thought it was broken, the radiologist had taken an x-ray which confirmed what the Dr. thought. The fracture was not complicated so the only thing they had to do was getting a cast around her underarm. He also examined the Detective between her legs and everything was alright. The surgeon performing the surgery had been a bit rough and that was what cost the pain between her legs. He promised Olivia and Alex that he would be back in the morning and that if everything was going well he would release the Detective around noon tomorrow. But he did request that there would be someone taking care of Olivia if he would release her. This was not a problem of course since Alex would take Olivia to her cabin when the brunette would be released. They didn't tell the Dr. that but they asked him if she would get permission to travel for about an hour and a half. The Dr. said it would be alright if it wouldn't be longer than that and Olivia could travel comfortably. Alex had refused to leave Olivia alone and went with her to take the x-ray and to get a cast on Olivia's left arm. They had stayed in Olivia's room after that. Alex had only left the room to get them something to eat once Olivia had gotten permission to eat. No one in their right mind would settle for hospital food Alex said so the blonde had ordered some take out and delivered to the reception desk on the main floor of the hospital. Olivia got through the night relatively good. Not that she or Alex had gotten much sleep. They just had finished breakfast when Liz and Cragen arrived. It took them about an hour to get Alex' and Olivia's statements and when they were done Olivia asked Cragen for the sick days she needs to take. Alex and Olivia explained that they would leave and that they would be back for the trial. That they could call Alex's cell phone if they really needed them. Olivia told Cragen that she needed to go away and that Alex would go with her since she needed medical care. Cragen had told Olivia that she could take all the sick days she needed and take the time to recover physically and mentally. And both Liz and Cragen had said that when the trial was over they needed to talk how to take things from there. They made it clear that there was no pressure and that they would figure it out, both realized that Olivia needed to figure things out and that the Detective needed Alex to do that. They thought that there was more between the ADA and Detective and that it was clear that they didn't know it but Liz and Cragen both had a feeling that they would figure it out once they were away from NY and be with just the two of them. Hoping that the two women would stop dancing around each other and see what everyone around them already knows. After Cragen and Liz left the Dr. had paid Olivia another visit and he told the Detective she indeed would be released at noon. Now they are waiting for the paperwork and then get out of the damn hospital.

"How do you want to do it? Would you like to go to my apartment first or to yours?" Alex asks.

"What works the best for you. I don't really care. Just as long as I can get out of here it's fine by me," Olivia answers.

"Alright. We'll go to my apartment first then since yours is closer to the highway. When we are done at my place you can take a small nap at your place while I'm packing your stuff," Alex says.

"Alex, I'm not an invalid I can pack my own stuff. I only broke my left arm it's not like I can't do anything at all," Olivia says.

"I know you're not but you can only leave under the condition that I take care of you. And you packing your own suitcase or bag or whatever it is you want to have packed is not taking care of you. I pack your stuff end of the discussion, Detective." Alex says firmly.

"Fine, I let you fuss about me for now, don't expect it to become normal anytime soon, Counselor," Olivia mutters.

"I won't. Don't want to press my luck," Alex says.

It didn't take long before the Dr. was back with the release papers for Olivia and Alex to sign. After that was done the Dr. told Alex how to take care of Olivia's wounds, what to look for and when she needed to bring her back to the hospital and he told Olivia to do nothing at all for at least the next couple of days. She wasn't allowed to use her left arm for the next 6 weeks. Of course, Olivia began to protest but one glare of Alex and the Dr. threatening to admit her back to the hospital silenced up the Detective. There was no way in hell that the brunette would stay in the hospital. About two hours after they left the hospital Alex and Olivia were on their way to Alex's cabin. Despite all her protests Olivia fell asleep on her couch and Alex didn't want to wake her up when she was finished packing their stuff. On their way to the cabin, Liz called to tell them that the trial would start Thursday, two days from today and that it should take one day to finish it. If things were going real slow it could be that the closing statements and the jury verdict would be on Friday morning. Olivia and Alex need to be at the courthouse at 9.45 AM. The trial starts at 10 PM.

When Alex and Olivia arrive at the cabin Olivia looks around from the inside of the car while Alex walks around her car and opens the passenger door offering her hand to the Detective to help her out of the car.

"The view is beautiful Alex. And it seems so quiet here. I can understand why you love to come here, Counselor," Olivia says.

"Thanks, Liv. How about we go inside and settle in before we go lounging at the lake?" Alex asks.

"Sounds like a good idea. I could use some relaxation, to be honest," Olivia answers.

"Well, I have two of the most comfortable lounge chairs we can lay down on. C'mon Detective I give you the nickel tour first." Alex says waggling her eyebrows.

Olivia shakes her head as she walks into the cabin behind Alex. Inside the cabin looks like an apartment. There's a living room, bathroom with a toilet and a shower, a small kitchen and two bedrooms. One semi big bedroom which is Alex's bedroom and a small guest room. The cabin is bigger than it looks on the outside. After showing Olivia everything Alex starts to unpack their suitcases in their rooms while Olivia lays down on the bed in the guest room till the blonde is done. When Alex is done she quickly changes into a short and tank top before she walks back into the guest room.

"Do you want to stay here or do you want to go outside and lay down on the lounging chairs?" Alex asks.

"Let's go outside. Could you help me up please and maybe help me change into shorts and a tank top too?" Olivia asks.

"Sure," Alex answers.

Alex helps Olivia sit up carefully and then helps the Detective to stand up. When Olivia is standing Alex walks to the commode and opens a drawer to pull out a short and tank top for the brunette. When Alex helps the strong Detective she stands behind Olivia to pull off her shirt and to put on the tank top. She knows Olivia would hate it if she would see the scars even though she would be seeing them tonight as she takes care of the wounds. She didn't want to make Olivia uncomfortable already. After Olivia changed her clothes the women walk to the patio behind the cabin and Alex helps Olivia to lay down on one of the lounge chairs before she lays down herself on the other one next to the Detective. Both women let out a content sigh. They look around and take in their environment for about 10 minutes when Olivia turns her head around and looks at Alex.

"Hey Alex, can we talk now? I think I'm ready for it well as ready as I can get," Olivia asks.

"Alright. We can stop at any moment you want though, keep that in mind. I don't want to force you to talk about things you're not ready for. So, did you figure things out a bit?" Alex asks.

"I know you won't. To be honest I only get more confused. The more I think about it the less upset I get about the hysterectomy. And to make it more complicated, I never wanted to have children of my own, I don't exactly have the best genes to pass on, now I can't carry them anymore and instead, I have testicles and I don't know what to do. Then there is not freaking out about having testicles and not immediately wanting to get rid of them is confusing me at least," Olivia answers.

Alex thinks about what Olivia is saying for a few moments before she responds.

"Well maybe getting a second chance on having children of yourself makes you think about it and maybe that's why you don't wont to get rid of your testicles or you don't freak out about having them. That is a logical explanation to me. I can understand that looking at it this way. So what you need to figure out is if you want children of your own or not," Alex says softly.

"Well besides needing to choose what I want or not, I don't have a penis to get a woman pregnant, IF I would want to get her pregnant the normal way. But what are we talking about here? I don't even have a relationship that makes me need to think about that kind of things," Olivia says.

'And it's not like you want kids with me in the future. So maybe I should get rid of them.' Olivia thinks.

Unfortunately for the Detective, she thought it out loud and Alex heard her. The younger blonde's eyes are getting large as saucers and she let out a small gasp.

"Did I hear it correctly?" Alex asks shocked.

Olivia looks shocked at Alex and judging by the look on Alex's face she did say it out loud and more importantly the blonde heard her. Ashamed and being terrified of the blonde's reaction Olivia tries to get up to get away.

"Shit, I said that out loud didn't I? I'm so sorry Alex. I shouldn't have said that," Olivia says softly.

Olivia tries but can't get up.

"Damn it!" Olivia curses.

Olivia cursing gets Alex's attention and she looks aside to see the Detective wrestling to get up.

"Olivia, stop! You're gonna hurt yourself. If you want to get up let me help you," Alex says standing up herself.

Knowing that she has no other choice Olivia let Alex help her up. As soon as she is on her feet the Detective turns around to walk away only to be stopped by Alex putting her hand on Olivia's arm.

"Liv wait. Don't walk away, please," Alex begs softly.