A/N I know this is an extremely short chapter but I didn't want y'all needing to wait any longer than you already are. I do hope y'all like the chapter despite the short length.
As always R+R, y'all know how addicted I am to them.
Chapter 16
"The decision to kiss for the first time is the most crucial in any love story. It changes the relationship of two people much more strongly than even the final surrender; because this kiss already has within it that surrender." Emil Ludwig.
After Abby had spoken to Alex the tall brunette had left and went to Olivia. Alex wondered who else had noticed the dance she and Olivia had been dancing for years. And if it was that obvious that they deeply loved each other. The Texan was right, she hasn't said to Olivia that she loves the Detective nor did Olivia said it to her but she could feel the love Olivia has for her. And hopes that Olivia could feel the blonde ADA has for her. Alex smiled when she thought about it and then tried to prepare herself for what see would see on the tape. Keeping in mind what Abby said about it. Watching the tape Alex goes through a turmoil of feelings. Getting angrier and heart broken with every minute that passes. Pausing the tape two times because it became too much seeing what happened to her girlfriend. When the tape has come to its end the younger ADA removes the tape and sits on the couch thinking about what she saw and what kind of hell her Detective went through. Thinking about what to do to help Olivia dealing with everything that had happened. 5 minutes after she stopped the tape Alex is pulled out of her own thoughts by Olivia's screaming but before she gets off the couch to run to the spare room Abby walks inside the living room with a bloody nose.
"Alex, you need to go to Liv. She's having a flashback and I can't get her out of it." Abby says, trying to stay calm.
Alex jumps up and walks to Abby.
"What happened with your nose?" Alex asks while motioning Abby to walk with her, Abby's nose has to wait for now Olivia is more important.
"Don't worry about that, is just a nose bleeding. I tried to talk her out of it and leaned too close towards her. She hit me on my nose. It's my own fault, I ain't blaming her." Abby answers.
"I'll look at it later right Abs." Alex says.
Alex walks inside the room with Abby following behind her. Olivia is sitting on the bed with her legs pulled up against her chest and her arms around them. She is rocking for and backwards. Her eyes are closed and the fear is clearly visible on her face. Alex quickly walks around the bed and climbs on it pulling Olivia in her arms. Instinctively knowing that Olivia won't hurt her.
"Liv, it's alright honey. I'm here and you're safe now. You need to come back to me. Breath honey, just breath." Alex says softly with a sooting voice.
Although Olivia doesn't come back she does stop rocking. Shaking in the younger blonde's arms. Alex keeps circling her fingers over her lower back and keeps talking to Olivia.
"It's over Liv. He can't hurt you anymore, you're safe now. I'll protect you. But I need you to come back to me honey. Listen to my voice Liv and come back to me. Everything is gonna be alright, baby." Alex says.
Alex reaches the Detective and slowly Olivia opens her eyes and looks at Alex with fear and anxiety in her eyes.
"Lex?" Olivia whispers.
"That's right baby. It's me. You're safe now, Liv. He can't hurt you anymore. Now take a deep breath and let it out slowly." Alex answers.
Seeing that Olivia was back Abby left the room to let them be and look at her nose in the bathroom.
"What happened? Is it really over Lex?" Olivia asks, still shaken up.
"Yes it's over. You were having a flashback. You're safe now here with me, Liv." Alex answers softly.
Hearing Alex's words makes Olivia burst out in tears. Tears of relieve and pain. Alex let Olivia cry in her arms while she comforts the older woman and whispers sweet things into her ear. After sitting like this for a few minutes Olivia calms down. When Olivia looks at Alex her heart skips a beat at the love she sees in the baby blue eyes. Not ready to say the words out loud, Olivia tries to pull away from Alex's arms but she doesn't let Olivia go. Instead, she pulls her arms tighter around the Detective, turning her so she can look into those beautiful brown eyes.
"You're not going to run away, Liv. I know you're feeling extremely vulnerable right now. I told you that I would be there for you when you need me and that's exactly what I'm doing right now. No one is going away, neither one of us. I care for you Olivia Benson. I care for you deeply and then some. And nothing can change that." Alex says.
Alex takes a deep breath before she continues.
"I know we are going slow and I wholeheartedly agree with that, I'll respect every decision you make. But there is something that you need to know and even though I'm scared that you'll run, now is the best moment I can think of. I love you Olivia Benson. I love you with everything I am and have, I always will. I probably did even before we actually met. Whenever you're ready you can talk about what you feel you can talk about it with me. I just want you to know what I feel for you." Alex says softly.
When Alex finished saying what she wanted to say tears are forming in Olivia's eyes again, only this time they're happy tears. Olivia hesitates for a second or two before she leans in and softly kisses Alex's lips. Trying to put everything she's feeling for the younger blonde but isn't ready to tell her into the short kiss.