Chapter 26
"A man reserves his true and deepest love not for the species of woman in whose company he finds himself electrified and enkindled, but for that one in whose company he may feel tenderly drowsy." - George Jean Nathan.
"What? NO. No, no, no,no,no. This is not happening. Oh God, I can't breathe. Alex, I can't breathe." Oliver chokes out.
Alex knows that she has to calm him down fast. Forget about a full blown panic attack, Oliver is still being monitored and speeding up his heart beat will give them more problems than having a panic attack. Alex knows that no matter what state her Detective will be in, as soon as nurses and Dr's are barging inside his room troubles starts. There is no way he will let them help him and probably will think that they are there to attack the blonde ADA.
Alex pulls Oliver against her body and starts talking to him softly. Trying to get his attention on her.
"Liv, breathe. Everything is gonna be alright. Just breathe. Take a deep breath and listen to my voice, Detective. I'm here with you baby, nothing is gonna happen to you now. Breathe." Alex says softly with a soothing voice.
Oliver's heartbeat went up and the alarm from the monitor went off. This combined with the nurses and Dr. bursting into the room caused Oliver fighting to not get into a flashback. The nurses and Dr. thought that something was wrong with his heart and yelled at Alex to get of the bed and they wanted to pull Alex from behind him to lay him flat on his back. However, the moment they are getting closer to the Detective, Oliver thinks in his dazed state of mind that they want to attack Alex. And that was what Alex was afraid of to happen. Oliver growls for them to back off and stay away from the younger blonde. When they don't listen and steps closer, carefully but still closer, Oliver is getting a flashback. Alex immediately notice the change in Oliver and knows what's happening. The blonde ADA quickly climbs from behind Oliver and gets off the bed and jumps in front of her fiancé.
"Don't come any closer. Oliver will hit you. He's having a flashback. Now get out of the room all of you, please. I will explain it later but I need everyone out now!." Alex says firmly, glaring at everyone in the room.
Everyone except one nurse steps back. The nurse was standing at the end of Oliver's bed and didn't know anything about Oliver or Alex. It was her first day back today after a vacation. The nurse walks around the other side of the bed and puts her hand on Oliver's shoulder while she starts talking to him. The moment she touches Oliver's shoulder Oliver sits up immediately and swings his fist in the nurse's stomach. The nurse almost doubled over on his bed. She quickly steps away and walks away backwards while Oliver starts begging not to hurt him and then whispering not to hurt Alex. It breaks the blonde's heart to hear her fiancé in so much pain. Furious that the nurse made it only worse for Oliver Alex looks around stopping with the nurse who just backed off. The nurse is the one at the end of Alex's death glare this time.
"Everyone out now!" Alex says sternly.
The blonde ADA points her finger in the direction of said nurse who now looks at Alex like a deer looking into the headlights.
"I don't want to see you EVER again in this room with my fiancé. Do I make myself clear?" Alex asks in her courtroom voice.
The nurse shivers involuntarily hearing the tone of her voice and seeing the cold hard look in Alex's eyes. She doesn't trust her voice so she nods quickly at Alex and fleets out of the room. Followed by the others. Alex turns quickly back to Oliver and climbs on the bed to hold her poor Detective in her arms and softly speaks into his ear. Trying to get Oliver out of his flashback.
An hour and a half later Alex and Abby are sitting outside Oliver's room talking with each other. The blonde had left the door open just a bit so she could hear Oliver should he wake up. Alex explains to Abby what happened.
"They sedated Oliver an hour ago. After we were done talking on the phone I went back inside and told Oliver that the trial would start Monday. He almost got a panic attack. Since he's still monitored the fucking alarm went off and they came bursting into his room. I don't have to explain how that went. Poor Liv got a flashback and then a nurse was so stupid to go to him which made it only worse. It took me 20 minutes to get him calm again. Then the Dr. came inside and started to examine him, he freaked out and panicked again. How are we gonna get Liv ready for the trial Abby? If they release him before it starts." Alex ask worried.
Abby thought for a few moments before she replies to Alex.
"It went that bad? Poor Oli." Abby asks.
"Yes Abs, it went that bad. If I didn't ordered them to back off and leave the room it would have been even worse I think." Alex answers.
"Judging by how today went we're not gonna get him ready to testify in court. And it would actually be a good thing if they wouldn't release him before Tuesday. I know Judge Hagen from my first time at the DA's office. He won't post pone the trial later but he does wants his testimony. So I think he wants to take it here in the hospital if Oli is still here. Which would be better. No courtroom full of people. No watching that damn video tape. Just Hagen, Oliver, me and that asshole Langan. Hagan will keep Langan on a short leech and if he won't do it the Dr. and I will. There is no way in hell that I will let him badger Oli. Over my dead body! That sick son of a bitch Stabler made it all worse for Oli. I really hope they keep Oli here till after the trial. The nurses and Dr. will be relieved when they finally can release him somewhere next week after he made all their lives miserable but it would prevent him testifying in court. Again I seriously doubt Hagen will post pone the trial since Langan asked for a speedy trial and he granted it." Abby answers.
"Well I don't think it would be that hard to convince the Dr. to keep Oliver in the hospital I think. Not after what happened today. I think they would release him on Monday normally but with today and if we would ask for it I doubt they won't do it. But I do think we should talk with Oliver about this first. Because if we don't we will get a shit storm over us. And I don't want to be at the other end of his wrath, thank you very much. Maybe we could even reassure him if you manage to get his testimony here in the hospital. It's still very risky but it's better than being in a courtroom at this moment." Alex says.
"I agree with you. It ain't the best option but we don't have a better one." Abby says.
"There is something else we need to talk about. Kathy was here today with Cragen. Kathy and the kids are staying with her parents. She and Stabler are getting divorced. She filed for the divorce before he assaulted Liv. Anyway, Liv and I talked about it and Liv offered Kathy to take over her apartment, we're staying at the Cabin for a while and when we come back we're going to stay at my apartment till we find a new place for the two of us. Kathy took the offer. Would you mind staying in my apartment? Till you find something else. That way Kathy can move in the day after tomorrow or so. Tomorrow we will pack Oliver's stuff and rent a storage box to put his stuff in." Alex asks.
Abby looked shocked and surprised at the blonde ADA. She didn't expect Oliver and Alex to have Kathy visit them and she certainly didn't think this would happen. But of course the lanky Texan had no problems to stay at Alex's apartment.
"No, of course not. No problem. Did Oli really offer his apartment to Kathy?" Abby asks surprised.
"Yes he did. After Kathy told us that she was staying with her parents, Liv asked them to leave the room for a couple of minutes. He told me what he wanted to do. And knowing me that I would want us living together when we come back from the cabin. So he asked me if I was alright with this. Of course I agreed. It's so Oliver, he said that Kathy had always been there for him and that now he finally could do something back for her. He doesn't blame her for what Stabler did nor do I. But I fell in love with him even more when he asked me this." Alex explains.
"I can see why. You falling in love even more with him I mean. But you're right. This shows again how selfless he is and wanting to help others. I'll pack my stuff tonight. I also go and get some moving boxes and start packing tonight to help you guys. I don't have a lot of stuff at his apartment. Most of it is in a storage box too, till I find a place." Abby says.
"Thanks Abby. That would help us so much. I don't want to leave Oli here alone. I know I have to tomorrow but it's not that I like it." Alex replies.
"If you're gonna move the stuff after 5 pm I think I would be able to either stay her with Oliver or to go to his apartment and take care of things there." Abby offers.
"Really Abs? You have so much to do before the trials. Do you really have the time to do either of it?" Alex asks hopeful.
"Alex you're my best friend and Oli is my bro, I make time to help. I can go to the office on Saturday to work some more. But I know both of you don't want to be apart right now or leaving Oli alone here. Which is completely understandable btw. So it's not a problem at all. Just tell me what you want the most and I'll do what's left." Abby answers.
"I'd really like to stay with Liv here. So if you could go to his apartment tomorrow that would be really great. I'll call some people to come there and pack things up so that you won't have to do that too." Alex answers happily.
"Then you'll stay here with Oli, where you belong, and I go to his apartment and take care of it there. You're not alone in this Alex. You and Oli have the guys at the precinct and me to help you for a start. We all have your backs." Abby says softly.
"I know. And I'm so grateful for that. It means so much to me that everyone supports Liv so much. Even Amaro said that Liv was his partner and that he have his back. All the things that are happening now shows who stands behind us and got our backs. I just hope that my parents will be so supportive when we tell them about Liv's surgery. But we'll worry about that when we get there. Now I have and we have other things to worry about. I'll be so glad when those damn trials are behind us and we can focus on Liv's recovery and our wedding." Alex sighs.
"Ya know, in a way Stabler is lucky that Oli had that surgery and was injured. Otherwise he would have beat the crap out of him if not killed him for what he said about you. I know, it's lousy of me to say it but it's true though. I know without a doubt he would have kicked his ass big time." Abby says.
"You're right. It's lousy for you to say that right now and you're right about it too. Liv would certainly have kicked his sorry ass. And then he would have been in jail and probably lose his job for that asshole. But he didn't and now he and I need to deal with the aftermath. But the best thing that happened or is happening is that he and I got together and now I'm gonna be Mrs. Benson." Alex smiles.
"Sounds like your pretty sure about that. Is it gonna be Benson only? You gonna give up your last name?" Abby asks.
"Yes. I'll be proud to wear his name. Besides, I have a brother and 3 sisters who can keep the Cabot name alive. Liv has no one. And I want our future children to have the same name as we have. And if my family doesn't like that, I'll tell them where to shove it. It's our life not theirs. And it's our or mine decision to make not theirs. I and our future children will be the only real family he's got. Yes the guys and you and other friends are there and we see them and you as family but still it's different though." Alex answers.
"I know what you're trying to say. And you're right. You are his only real family and apparently your future kids will be. Should have known you talked about that too. Don't take it the wrong way. I'm really happy for the two of you. And I want nothing more than that you are happy and have a family." Abby says.
"I know how you mean it. To tell you the truth I couldn't be any happier than to carry his children. To be pregnant with our children. I know it will take some time to convince him of that but if that happens I'm the happiest woman in the world. Although I already am the happiest woman in the world being his fiancé and soon-to-be- wife." Alex sighs happily.
"You've got it bad, Cabot. You've got it bad for Benson." Abby jokes.
"Just wait till you find your dream woman Carmichael. We'll talk again then." Alex laughs.
"I'll believe that when I see it. Anyway, I'll get out of your hair and go. I've got enough things to do tonight and you can go back and drool over your fiancé." Abby winks.
"Bite me." Alex counters.
"I don't think so. I value my life too much for that. Oli may be my bro but that doesn't mean he won't kill me if I would do that." Abby says.
"True. When it comes to me there are no limits. It makes me feel safe though." Alex answers.
"You make him feel the same way, Alex. Now go back to your guy. I have an apartment to pack." Abby smiles.
The two ADA's hug each other and then go their own ways. Alex back into Oliver's room and Abby to the Detective's apartment.
Alex climbs back onto Oliver's bed carefully and snuggles against him. Even in his sleep Oliver wants to protect his woman and puts his arm around Alex's waist and pulls her into his body and let his arm lying around her waist possessively. Alex lays her head on his chest.
"One day, Oliver Alexander Benson, one day I'm gonna convince you and carry our children." Alex whispers before she falls asleep.