A/N Most of y'all know that currently I'm posting the chapters with my smart phone. And that will stay this way for now. I'm dealing with a writer's block so I'm not posting new chapters for this story as much as I want to, let alone post chapters for my other stories. My writers block is caused by the problems I'm dealing with in my personal life. And right now I don't know if I can continue writing here at all. In two weeks, more or less, I will hear if I will become homeless or not. And if I do, I don't know what will happen next. I don't know where I'm going to stay. My life is turned upside down already and I might lose everything I have. Not only my house, but my pets who are very important to me. The only thing I can hope for is that I won't lose my girlfriend too. If that happens I truly have nothing to fight for anymore...

Anyway, if I can find some place to stay with access to the Internet I'll keep writing, with a small time of absence, as it means a lot to me. Writing helps me deal with the problems I'm struggling with. I promise I will keep y'all informed and won't quit writing without letting you, my readers, know it. I truly hope that I can keep writing and that writing won't be taken away from me too.

Cabson

Chapter 30

"Trying not to love you, only makes me love you more." - Nickelback.

" Hold on. Wait a second." Jane says.

Four pair of eyes are looking at the brunette Detective. Oliver looks kind of anxious, afraid of what his friend will say.

"Didn't you forgot to tell me something, Benson? Like you and Alex are going to get married?" Jane asks shocked.

Now it's Alex's, Oliver's and Abby's turn to look shocked at the former Boston Detective. This isn't what they had expected. It seems like Jane is more shocked about the fact that Alex and Oliver are gonna get married than about Oliver being a guy now.

"You're shocked about Alex and I going to get married? That's what you're shocked about?" Oliver asks shocked.

"Really? You would be the last person to settle down, let alone so soon. So yes clearly I'm shocked about that. But I'm also very happy. I'm sure that Dr. Bouchon wasn't finished and he has better things to do than listen to this conversation. We'll talk further when he's gone, ok?' Jane asks.

"Uhm yes. Sure." Oliver answers.

Dr. Bouchon stayed for 5 more minutes explaining the results of the tests. Although the results were very good he was still worried about Oliver's heart rate going up when he got a flashback. He said that Oliver needed to stay in the hospital at least until Friday. Then he would look again if the Detective would be ready to leave the hospital. If it wasn't for Alex's intervention, the situation it would have ended in another fight between Dr. Bouchon and the stubborn Detective. Abby and Jane were watching it all amused. Both brunettes were well aware of Oliver's attitude in a hospital. After everything was settled Dr. Bouchon left the room leaving the four of them alone.

"So now that he is away, when were you gonna tell me the two of you are gonna get married?" Jane asks teasingly.

"When you were done talking hadn't he interrupted us. But really that's what your shocked about not about you know the other thing?" Oliver asks anxiously.

Jane smiles sincerely at Oliver.

"No, I'm not. Relax Benson, my upbringing may have taught me differently but I'm ok with it, really. It doesn't come as a shock to me. I always have known it, after I got to know you well. I knew you didn't figure it out yourself so I never said something but I knew. I think I'm more happy that you figured it out and that Alex and Abby are ok with it too. So I guess I should start calling you Oli too, like Abby." Jane answers.

Abby snickers.

"The only one that is allowed to call him Liv is Blondie here. Glad to hear you're ok with him, if you wouldn't be I had to kick your ass, Rizzoli. I don't care you're a Detective like Oli, I still would have kicked your ass. Nothing personal though." Abby smiles.

"You and Alex. If I'm right, you would have done it literally. But Alex is just as dangerous with words, she would have killed me with that and her glare." Jane laughs.

They all laughed. Oliver was happy that Jane accepted him so easily and yes he had a lot of questions he wanted to ask about how the Italian Detective knew it but he knows now is not the time to do that. They talked a bit longer until Oliver said that he was starting to get tired and that it would be a good moment for them to split up for a little while so that he could talk with Abby and for Alex and Jane to talk too. Alex and Jane went into the bath room to talk while Abby and Oliver talked with each other in his room. As Abby updated Oliver about the trials and Dickson the guard at Rikers, Alex told Jane about the undercover op and how it went wrong and what happened to Oliver in Rikers, what happened in the hospital and what Elliot had done when they told the squad about Oliver's sex changing surgery. By the time Alex was done she had never seen the dark-haired Detective so angry and defeated at the same time. Knowing what happened with Hoyt, Alex knew that Jane understood what her fiancé went through. Oliver and Jane were assaulted by a suspect being on the job. Both being trained as a Detective and both being helpless with all the training and experience they had. When Jane heard about what Elliot had done Alex was actually glad that the asshole was in prison already, even though he had only been arrested and the trial needed to start. The blonde ADA knows for sure that unlike Abby who had been able to hold back and fight it out in the courtroom, Jane would have kicked his ass in the squad room, not giving a damn about the consequences it would have had. But it also made the blonde feeling a bit better. After Jane had calmed down enough to not upset Oliver, and Abby and Oliver were done talking, the four of them sat together around Oliver's bed. Just when Oliver started to dozen off Abby got called by Fin. He told her that they had caught the guy and were bringing him in for interrogation. So both Abby and Jane went back to precinct. The brunettes promised that the would come back in the early evening to visit Oliver and Alex again. After the brunette ADA and Detective were gone Alex snuggled up against Oliver. They were both exhausted and not even 5 minutes after the two women had left, both Alex and Oliver were asleep.

The rest of the week Oliver kept having awful nightmares, if the Detective slept because that was another problem. The Detective hardly fell asleep at all. The sleep medication Dr. Bouchon had giving Oliver didn't work at all. Wednesday Dr. Bouchon had giving the Detective different medication but with the same results. It almost looks like the Detective doesn't react on sleep medication at all. And he refused to take any other medication to calm down until Thursday, when Oliver finally accepted a small doses of anxiety medication..

Alex hadn't left her fiancé's side. She went to get them something to eat occasionally and went home once to get toiletries and clothes but aside from that Alex stayed with Oliver and watched him like a hawk. The squad along with Liz Donnelly, Captain Cragen and Abby visited the couple but except for Abby and Jane, they visited them once a day and had made a schedule whom visited them when.

Petrovsky had come to the hospital to take Oliver's testimony on tape with Trevor on Thursday. And that's when they found out why it was possible for Elliot to get Trevor Langan as his defense attorney. The man was as bigoted as Elliot himself when it comes to Oliver's sex change. He had lowered his fee. It was a joke, the amount of money Elliot Stabler needed to pay him. Trevor crossed the line once and payed for it. Oliver managed to stay calm. Petrovsky was clearly not amused with the creepy weasel and after only one warning she had him hold in contempt. Fin had come to hospital just in case and had taken him away. Alex had almost sued Trevor, if Oliver hadn't asked her to let it go. The Detective told her that they had enough lawsuits and that he didn't want another one added. But they knew one thing when Petrovsky had him hold in contempt, he didn't have to try anything in the courtroom. And that was a big relief for Oliver. The Detective slept better for the first time since all of this had started. That night he had only one nightmare and it wasn't as heavy as the former nights had been.

Now it's Friday 3.30 PM, Oliver and Alex are on the Detective's bed, waiting for Dr. Bouchon to come and see the Detective and to hear if Oliver gets released today or not. Dr. Bouchon had gotten an emergency surgery and his visitation round is rescheduled to the second part of this afternoon.

"I don't say it's gonna happen, but if Dr. Bouchon says you need to stay longer, don't get into a fight with him again, Oliver. He won't do it to punish you, he'll do it for your health." Alex says.

"Alex, I've been here too damn long already. I'm not severely injured, I'm perfectly fine to get out of here and for us to go back to your cabin until I have to testify in court. If he wants me to stay here, he can suck it up. I'll get out of this hospital today." Oliver answers irritated.

"I don't think so Detective. If Dr. Bouchon wants you to stay and you leave against medical advice, I certainly won't take you back to the cabin. But we don't know that yet. So why don't we wait what he's gonna say before arguing about it?" Alex asks calmly.

"Alex, c'mon. I'm an adult. I can take care of myself, and I'll ask you to help me if I really need it."Oliver says.

Alex raises one perfectly shaped blonde eyebrow questioningly at the Detective.

"Really Alex, really? You won't go back to the cabin?" Oliver asks.

"Who said something about me and not going back to the cabin. You're a grown guy, you can take care of yourself can't you? I'll bring you to our apartment. Abby will be there in the evening to keep you company." Alex answers.

"You won't do that. You're watching me here like a hawk, you'll never leave me to myself there." Oliver says.

"Try me." Alex says seriously.

"Excuse me?" Oliver asks stunned.

"I said try me. You don't believe I will do it. So try me. There's only one way to find out if I do it or not. Don't challenge me Detective. You know it doesn't go your way most of the time." Alex answers.

Of course the younger blonde is bluffing, not that she's gonna tell Oliver that. She's effectively avoiding a fight between the Oliver and Dr. Bouchon. Without the Detective knowing it. Normally Alex would never back down from any situation and that's what Oliver knows. He still thinks that Alex might be bluffing but he won't take that chance. Not wanting to get into a major fight with his fiancé and maybe ending up in the apartment by himself while Alex is at the lake in the cabin.

"Fine. I'll stay if Dr. Bouchon wants me too. But I promise you this, if he makes me stay longer than next Tuesday I'm leaving this place and if that means you'll leave me at the apartment fine. I'll be damned to stay longer than that, no matter what you threaten me with Alexandra Cabot." Oliver says sternly, but giving in to Alex.

"Deal, Alexander Benson. If you stay till Tuesday when the Dr. wants it, we'll go to the cabin than. Assuming you won't have to testify in court later in the week." Alex smiles.

Oliver smiles at Alex before he pecks the blonde attorney briefly on her lips. Then he seriously looks in Alex's baby blue eyes.

"I love you Lex, I love you so much." Oliver says softly.

Alex's eyes get watery at hearing Oliver saying he loves her. Yes he had said it one time earlier but he brushed it away that time. Alex knew he wasn't ready to say it and let it be there for a moment, so the blonde attorney had acted normally like nothing happened, but on the inside she emotional and happy. Now she could she it came from the bottom of his heart. And Alex slowly puts her hands on Oliver's face and kisses him deeply. Trying to put everything she feels right now in the kiss. Words can't make say what it means to her so the blonde makes sure her fiancé feels it. When breathing becomes necessary Oliver pulls back but puts his good arm around Alex's waist.

"I love you too, Liv." Alex says softly.

The couple took a minute or two to collect themselves and just in time because Dr. Bouchon knocked on the door and walked inside when they were done. Dr. Bouchon told them that he wanted Oliver to stay in the hospital and that he would let the Detective go on Wednesday. He would release him from ICU and sign him over to a normal private room. And that he could leave the room once a day for 15 minutes tops. But that at night he would be monitored until he would leave the hospital. Dr. Bouchon was surprised that Oliver let him finish talking and was stunned that the Detective agreed with what he just said. But after asking why and Oliver telling him that Alex had blackmailed him to stay and not put up a fight, Dr. Bouchon had smiled and actually laughed. Silently thanking the blonde attorney for what she had done. Dr. Bouchon said that he was going to take of things and then would come back to give him more instructions and information about what floor and room Oliver would stay.

A couple of minutes after the Dr. had left there was a knock on the door and at first Alex and Oliver were surprised thinking that the Dr. was back so soon. But that quickly changed when they heard a female voice before the woman herself actually came inside Oliver's room. Not that it was necessary, both Alex and Oliver would recognize that voice everywhere. It belongs to Alex's mother.

"Alexandra Laura Cabot, why did we have to hear from Liz that the two of you are here? For almost two weeks?!" Caroline asks sternly.

Alex and Oliver look at each other shocked and whisper.

"Oh shit."