A/N at the end of this chapter. Enjoy reading this longer chapter.
Chapter 43
"Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open." - John Barrymore.
"Liv, dinner is ready in 10 minutes do you want to have it in the living...?" Alex starts to ask as she enters the living room.
When Alex walked into the living room she was stunned with the sight that met her eyes. The living room was filled with burning candles and the only other light came from the two dimmer lights, one next to the couch the other one in the corner next to the bookshelves.
"Wow, Liv. What's the occasion for you to do something so romantic like this?" Alex asks softly.
"Do I need a reason or occasion? Can't I just spoil my fiancé and do something nice for her?" Oliver asks back.
"No of course you don't need that. I'm just surprised, touched is a better description." Alex answers.
"You deserve the world on a silver plate, Lex. I just wanted to do something nice for you and this is all I could do. Well, I had some help of course since I can't walk around but that's not what matters. What matters is that I want you to know how loved you are, how special you are and how lucky I am to have you." Oliver says softly.
"I love you Oliver Benson. I must have done something good in another life to deserve someone special like you and call him my husband soon." Alex says softly as she walks towards the Detective.
"I love you too, Alexandra Cabot. And it is I who must have done something special in another life to have someone as special, intelligent and beautiful as you are." Oliver answers.
"How?" Alex asks, waving her hand at the living room as she sits down on the couch.
"I have to admit I had some help. The answer is Kim. I asked her if she would do me a favor and as you can say she did." Oliver answers softly.
"I have to thank her for doing that favor then. I think as the living room is set up so romantically we should have dinner here." Alex says.
"I like the way you think, Counselor. I think you are right, although it's you who's having dinner. Me, I just have baby food. But I'd like to eat that here too." Oliver says.
Alex softly pets Oliver's legs as she stands up again.
"You'll be eating normal soon again, Oliver. So how about we have dinner first and then have that talk Kim was talking about?" Alex asks.
"Sounds good to me, Lex." Oliver answers.
Alex smiles at Oliver before she returns to the kitchen.
Half an hour later they were done with their dinner. Well, Alex was done with her dinner. Oliver had taken two bites of his food when he had put down his spoon and refused to eat the 'baby food'. The Detective made it clear that it wasn't Alex fault. The blonde had done what she could. He just wasn't going to eat this. Alex tried to pursued him to eat but the Detective's stubbornness almost got them in an argument so Alex decided to let it go today. There would be more than enough days to have said argument. After Alex cleaned up their dishes and the kitchen she sat down at the end of the couch and automatically took Oliver's feet in her lap.
"So, what is it that we need to talk about?" Alex asks carefully.
"Well, about my nightmares and the fear of you leaving me or more precisely losing you, again should I add. I have two assignments to do. One on my own and the other with you actually." Oliver answers shyly.
"Alright. What do you want to start with? And what are the assignments?" Alex asks.
"I never dealt with you getting shot. I never talked about it with anyone. I never got therapy. I had nightmares, badly, but nobody knew it. It took me about 3 years not to have them multiple times a night every night I fell asleep. Eventually they became less frequently and not every night anymore. I need to write down your shooting, how it really went, not how I feel about it or think about it. I need to write it down objectively. She asked me to tell me what happened during the session but I didn't want to do it then. I was afraid I would get a flashback and you weren't there. So that's why I need to write it down and we'll talk about it Saturday. And to come back to your question about you being there or not, I would like for you to be at the house, so that should something go wrong or if I get a flashback you're there." Oliver answers.
"Is that where your nightmares are about now? Did you keep it locked up inside all this time, Liv?" Alex asks softly.
"At first my nightmares went about Barbara but after Elliot assaulting me and the shooting the nightmares changed. The nightmares I had all those years ago are back and just as worse as they were back then. Kim said it's happens that nightmares go about the person you love instead about yourself, but given the fact that I never got over it, blame myself for it, for you losing your life and everything you had and the fear of losing you cause me to have these bad nightmares. Yes we have a connection mentally, we always had and always will have, but sometimes you need reassurance physically. And that's where we or I have a problem. We don't have that physical connection. And that's something we need to work on. Well, mostly I of course. Yes I kept it locked up inside. I know you thought the nightmares went about my own shooting and somehow you got involved in them, but the truth is that I haven't had one nightmare about my own shooting, as soon as my nightmares stopped going about being raped... they were about you getting shot and bleeding to death on that pavement. There is something that I need to tell you about that time. Something I never told anyone before today. I mentioned it to Kim, but we didn't really talked about it though." Oliver answers.
Slowly Alex comes to the realization that the shooting didn't only destroy her life, but that of her Detective too. She knew that it was bad for Oliver, they had talked about it, but she didn't know it was still haunting him so much. And the ADA is almost afraid of what it is that Oliver needs to tell her about the time when it happened.
"I'm so sorry, Liv. I didn't realize that not only did I destroy my own life back then but also your life." Alex whispers.
"NO Alex! If I had done my job like I should have, if I protected you like I should have done, none of this would have happened. It's not your fault, it's not you to blame, it's me. I failed and you paid for it with your life." Oliver reacts.
"I should have listened to you when you told me to back off, I should have gone with you to your apartment when you asked me too. But I didn't and we both paid for it. I've had therapy to deal with the aftermath, to deal with the nightmares. Yes occasionally I have one but not every day and not like you. I promise you I'll do everything I can to help you, everything Oliver. So you do your assignment and write down what happened and I'll be there for you when you have your session with Kim. I'll stay in the house and be there for you if or when you need me. I promise to never do something stupid like that ever again. Now, tell me, please, what it is that you need to tell me." Alex answers remorsefully.
"Come here Alex, come here and sit with me. Hold me in your arms. We both need it." Oliver says softly.
Alex gets up and walks to the other side of the couch and slowly helps Oliver lean forwards a bit. Then the younger blonde sits down on the couch like they did it earlier that afternoon. Before Oliver leans back against Alex he kisses the blonde briefly on her lips. Then they both are getting comfortable and continue their conversation.
"Alright, I'll tell you it. But we talk about it another time. There is more we need to talk about and another assignment to do. Ok?" Oliver asks.
"Yes. I'm more than ok with it. You've done enough today. Maybe we should wait until tomorrow with it or the day after that. I do want to know it but I don't want you to have a flashback because of this. So I leave it up to you, Liv." Alex answers.
"Maybe you're right and should we wait until tomorrow or another day. Alright, let's do that. Now as for our homework, I need to pick out three words, three safe words. Kim used the example of a traffic light. Green is alright, Orange not alright but not bad either and Red means to stop immediately and try to calm down. And talk with you about what happened. We need to do something intimate every day to get a closer physical connection. For me to feel safe again with it and Kim thinks it will help us with the nightmares and my fear of losing you or you leaving me. And with intimate she means cuddling, holding hands, kissing, things like that. I have to pick something every day and use the safe words if necessary and we need to talk about how it went and write it down in a diary. Kim and I will discuss the diary once a week. I could have done the diary part alone but I want to do it with you, I promised you I would try not to run or shut you out. I thought, and Kim agreed, that this would be a perfect opportunity to practice with that. And if there's a day I can't do it, we have to write that down too and why. Do you understand what she wants us to do?" Oliver asks after explaining it to Alex.
"Yes I think I get it. Did she say anything else about it?" Alex asks.
"That we should do it at a moment I'm feeling alright, the chance on a flashback will be smaller. And that I had to remember that I'm always in control. That I decide what we're going to do. She also said that every once in a while everything could be alright one moment and then for no reason it wouldn't be alright anymore. What I need to do is to try to calm down again. And not doubt about my abilities. In a process like this a fall back always happens and I don't need to let that discourage me. I think that's everything she said about it." Oliver answers.
"Alright. Well, let's choose the three words first. Shall we?" Alex asks.
"Yes. Actually, I like the example of the traffic light. I mean, the colors are clear, right?" Oliver asks.
"Yes they are. But it's your choice, Liv. They are your safe words." Alex answers.
"True. I think I want to keep it with the traffic light." Oliver says.
"Fine by me. Did you have something in mind that you would like to do?" Alex asks softly.
"I do, but it's a bit difficult to write about it in the diary afterwards." Oliver answers.
"What do you mean?" Alex asks.
Alex changes the way she sits a bit so she can look at Oliver.
"Well, I wanted to kiss with you, like we did in the hospital and afterwards for you to snuggle up against me for a change. When we would go to bed to sleep, I mean. And that makes it a bit hard to write down our experiences about it." Oliver says shyly.
"Yes it would be. How about we take the diary to the bedroom and after we kissed we write down how that went and we could write down about the snuggling when we wake up in the morning?" Alex asks.
"I know it's an assignment but it would feel like we have to do it, not wanting to do it. Kissing and then write about it. Can't we just write about everything in the morning? I want to enjoy spending time like that with you. I want it to be spontaneous and special. Cuz every time kissing with you is special to me." Oliver answers softly.
"It's special to me too, Liv. Alright, just this time we write about it tomorrow morning. But the next time we're doing something we can write about afterwards, alright?" Alex asks.
"Alright, deal." Oliver agrees.
Alex thinks for a moment before she speaks again.
"Ya now, actually we're doing something right now. We are cuddling on the couch while we're talking." Alex says slowly.
"You're right. We are. I didn't think of it that way, but you're absolutely right, Counselor." Oliver smiles.
"So we could write about it in the diary." Alex says.
"Yes we can. It feels good to me and I do feel safe now. And I certainly enjoy it, Lex." Oliver answers softly.
"Me too, Liv. I enjoy it too. It always feels good to have you against me, whether it's I holding you or for you to hold me." Alex says softly.
"That doesn't mean I don't want for to you snuggle up against me when we go to bed, Counselor. Because right now I'm looking forward to that." Oliver smirks.
"Same here, Detective. Looking forward to it too. How about we watch a movie and slowly get ready to go to bed afterwards? We have a busy day tomorrow and we need make a list with questions for Dr. Young." Alex asks smiling widely.
"I guess you have a good point there. And I like the idea, so let's do that." Oliver answers.
Alex stands up and goes to her office to get a notepad, it has to do it for now, tomorrow they could by a diary to write in and write today's experience over in it. They talked about how it was for both of them and wrote it down on the notepad. They added a note that they we're already cuddling and talking when the thought came in their minds that they were already doing the assignment without noticing it. After they were done the couple chooses a movie and make themselves comfortable on the couch before they start the movie and enjoy watching it together in each other's presence.
Later that evening Oliver is laying in bed waiting for Alex when the blonde comes out of the bathroom. As soon as Oliver sees Alex his eyes light up, beckoning the blonde with a finger.
"I believe I was promised for you to snuggle up against me, by you, Counselor." Oliver says softly.
"I believe you're right, Detective." Alex answers as she sashays towards the bed.
Alex climbs on the bed and carefully lays against Oliver's good side.
"Are you alright? I don't hurt you?" Alex asks softly.
"This is perfect. I wanted this, laying with you like this, for a very long time. And no, you don't hurt me." Oliver answers as he drapes his arm around Alex's waist.
"I wanted laying like this for a very long time too, Liv. I feel so safe right now. I always feel safe with you but I never feel more safe than when I'm in your arms, Detective." Alex says.
"I will always protect you the best I can, I promise, Lex. I feel safe in your arms or for you to be in my arms too. It also makes me feel loved, really loved. Something I never have felt before. I know my insecurity will get the best of me at times but I know and I feel that you truly love me, Alex." Oliver softly.
"As I know you truly love me, Oliver." Alex answers.
They lay like this for a while, now and then talking a bit but mostly just laying there contently. 30 minutes after they went to bed, Alex and Oliver are sleeping peacefully in each others arms.
The next morning they woke up well rested. Oliver did have a nightmare but fortunately it stayed with that one. After getting up and doing the things that needed to be done the two had breakfast and made a list with questions for Dr. Young. They left their apartment a bit earlier to buy a diary before they went to the hospital for their appointment. Now Alex and Oliver are waiting to be called in by Dr. Young. 5 minutes later brunette woman in her thirties walks outside her office.
"Oliver Benson?" Dr. Young calls.
Alex gets up and pushes Oliver's 'damn' wheelchair forward to where Dr. Young is standing. The Dr. makes a gesture for Alex and Oliver to enter her office. Once they are inside Dr. Young closes the door behind them and holds out her hand towards Oliver.
"Good morning Detective Benson. I'm Dr. Emily Young. I thought it would be better to only call out for you by your name and not your title, I have other patients who are in law enforcement and not all of them likes to be 'outed' in public, so to speak." Dr. Young adds after introducing herself.
"Good morning Dr. Young. This is my fiancé ADA Alexandra Cabot." Oliver introduces Alex.
"Thank you for being so thoughtful. My squad knows about my transition but the rest of my precinct doesn't, so I do appreciate your gesture." Oliver says.
"Good morning Ms. Cabot." Dr. Young says.
"Good morning Dr. Young. And I'd like to thank you for it too." Alex answers.
"Take a seat, please." Dr. Young says while walking behind her desk and sits down.
Alex pushes Oliver in front of the desk and pulls a chair next to Oliver and sits down too.
"Alright, let's get stared. First of all, I'd like to congratulate you Detective, Dr. Olsen told me that your name is already legally changed. I know that is a big happening and an important step in the process." Dr. Young says.
"Thank you, Dr. I'm so happy with it." Oliver says, looking at Alex and smiles at the younger blonde.
Dr. Young sees the brief interaction between them but decides to let it rest for now.
"Now I know you talked with Dr. Olsen, could you briefly tell me what you talked about with her, regarding to your visit here? Just so I know what you know and don't know, since Dr. Olsen told me she was a member of a gender team, previously, herself." Dr. Young asks.
"Yes of course. Well Dr. Olsen told us, Alex and I, yesterday about the Mastectomy and the Phalloplasty, the sex changing surgery. She also told us about the hormone treatment and how things normally go and would have gone and how they probably will go with me considering my situation, should you give the green light. She told me that normally that would be given by a Psychologist or Psychiatrist before meeting with you, but again since my situation is different than normal she said that I 'passed' that stadium already. Dr. Olsen also said that the time line for the process will be different too because of that. I think that's in a few points what she told us. Am I forgetting something, Lex?" Oliver asks.
Alex thinks for a moment and then shakes her head.
"No, I think that's it, basically." Alex answers.
Dr. Young nods at Oliver and thinks for a moment before she continues.
"Yes things will go a bit differently, mostly faster, than normal. And to help you out of your misery right away, I do give you the green light, Detective. Seeing that your name is already changed is enough for me to know that you're serious about this and that it is what you want. But, as you know yourself, that can only be done when you had a hysterectomy. So I'm sorry for getting a bit personal but I need to know this. Do you have a medical condition that made you have a hysterectomy?" Dr. Young asks.
Oliver looks away from Dr. Young and looks at Alex, silently asking the attorney what to do. Alex nods and slowly grabs his hand, squeezes it softly and shortly and keeps holding his hand afterwards. Oliver takes a deep breath, looks at Alex one more time before he turns his attention back to Dr. Young.
"I hope you're ready for this cuz it's a whole lot of shit that happened and I'm sure you're gonna be shocked and more than that. Sorry for my language but I don't know a better word for it so soon." Oliver says.
"I've heard quite a few things in my career so far, Detective. Don't worry about it. Just tell me it." Dr. Young answers encouragingly.
"Trust me, you didn't have heard this." Oliver mutters under his breath.
Dr. Young heard it and raises her eyebrows but doesn't speak up. Oliver squeezes Alex hand and the blond squeezes back. Letting the Detective know that she's here for him and that he can do this.
"Alright here goes nothing. About two and a half months ago I was hit by a car while I was jogging. That wasn't the worst that happened that day. I had a broken arm and a concussion but that was it. What was turning my world upside down, and Alex's world too, was that they had switched my chart with someone else and our rooms too. And I ended up in the OR for a hysterectomy that should have done on the patient they switched me with, as the first surgery in the process I'm in now too. And we found out that I have testicles due to that surgery. Now that on itself, the surgery I mean, is worse enough, but it gets worse. Do you want the short version or long version of the rest that happened?" Oliver asks softly and a bit nervous.
Dr. Young is a rather shocked to hear how they had messed it up. She knew that this kind of things did happen, sadly, but never had heard someone telling it to herself. She made metal note of Oliver mentioning he has testicles to come back at it later.
"I'm so sorry to hear this. I hope that it wasn't this hospital, for you I mean. And sensing that this hard for you, tell me the short version, please." Dr. Young says sincerely.
Oliver takes another deep breath before he goes on.
"No it wasn't this hospital and have paid for what they did." Oliver says, pausing briefly.
"For once I was obeying the order to take a couple of days off, it was the first and last time I can assure you that. We had a bad case and an undercover operation that went wrong. Very wrong, I can't go into details, as I'm sure you'll understand. Anyway, I was falsely arrested and ended up in a holding cell where they threw the perp from our case in too. My squad figured out where I was, too late. And he.. he sexually assaulted me... Then a few days later that accident happened and everything I told you. The surgeon didn't remove my testicles since he thought he was performing the surgery on a trans gender. That was a major shock for Alex and myself. After being released from the hospital Alex and I went away to get some rest and that's when I found out that I'm a trans gender myself. I finally realized what was wrong with me. I talked about it with Alex and a very good friend of us. We decided to tell my squad what I'm going to do and my former partner assaulted me by hitting me in my stomach and I needed to go back to hospital, turned out I had an internal bleeding. While I was in the hospital we were threatened by the perp I mentioned earlier. He sent someone to the hospital to deal with me. Another friend of us and Detective came for protection. That's when I got shot and was in a medical induced coma for two months and how I became a patient of Dr. Olsen. So to summarize it for you, in the past three months I was assaulted twice, hit by a car, had a hysterectomy and found out that I have testicles that are working as they should be would I have a 'normal' guy, found out that I'm a trans gender and got shot. I really don't think you've heard something this before. There are two good things that happened in this horrific period of time, I finally found out what was 'wrong' with me and the best thing that happened is that I asked Alex to marry me and she said yes." Oliver finishes.
If Dr. Young thought she was shocked about a minute ago she sure as hell is shocked now. She found out that Oliver wasn't lying when the Detective muttered to trust him that she didn't hear this before. She certainly couldn't imagine what kind of hell Oliver went through and with him Alex. She takes a couple of moments to think about her reaction, before she reacts.
"Congratulations for the both of you. Detective, you were right, I haven't heard this before. I can't imagine what you've been through. What the both of you have been through. I'm sorry that all of this happened to you. I do realize that sorry is not enough, but it's all I can say. I don't want to offend you, Detective, but are you sure you want to do this now, start with the process?" Dr. Young asks carefully.
"Yes, I do. And thank you. I know I have a lot to recover from but starting this process will help to do that. To have something positive to do with everything that's going on. I know that the process on itself isn't easy but I have a wonderful, amazing fiancé, soon to be wife, supporting me and I do have a great supporting network. It might seem crazy, seeing what's going on, but I actually look forward to start with the hormone treatment, Dr. Young. Yesterday when we talked about it with Dr. Olsen I got really excited and so did Alex. To be honest the both of us can't wait till I have to shave myself for the first time." Oliver says with a shy smile.
"Well as both you and Dr. Olsen agree that this is the right thing to do, I give my permission. I don't doubt your judgment nor Dr. Olsen's. I have no reason to doubt about it. And I do believe you but I'd like to hear from your fiancé herself how she feels about your transition." Dr. Young says.
"I tell you the same thing I told Oliver. I love him for who he is not what he is and I mean that. I fell in love with him for who he is as a person, not his gender. Oliver and I know each other for over a decade and minus a month or two, I love him that same time. Yes we are shortly together but that doesn't change anything for me. I think I'd made it perfectly clear how I think about his transition." Alex says firmly but with a soft tone in her voice.
A big smiles breaks through on Oliver's face. That's his fiancé, because Alex just told the Dr. politely where to shove it and at the same time perfectly answered the Dr.'s question.
Dr. Young can't help it than to do anything else than to smile at the ADA's reaction.
"I have to agree with your fiancé, Ms. Cabot. He was right about you being an amazing and wonderful fiancé. That being said, I'd like to continue if that's alright with the both of you." Dr. Young says.
Both Alex and Oliver nod at Dr. Young.
"Good. Now I'll tell you shortly how Oliver's process is going to be. First you start with the hormones, you need to use them for the rest of your life, even though your testicles work properly, your male hormone level is a little low. Now there are a couple of options and the most common ways to use them are either to have an injection every two weeks or to use a gel. With the injection your hormone level will have a big peak and is less constant, with the gel the level is constant but you have to do use it on a daily basis. You can learn how to inject yourself or come to the hospital every two weeks. The gel you can get it at a pharmacy with a prescription, which you will receive from me. What ever option you choice you have to visit me about every six weeks for a check up. What do you prefer, the injection or the hormone gel?" Dr. Young asks after explaining everything.
"The gel. I don't like needles being poked into my body and I hate hospitals, I want to be in them as little as possible." Oliver answers immediately.
"Yes of course you do, you're a Detective. I could have known that. Alright the gel it is. I'll give you a prescription when we're done." Dr. Young says, smiling.
"Great. Thank you, Dr. Young. How do we go from here?" Oliver asks, smiling widely.
"Taking today or tomorrow as the start of your treatment, your first surgery, the mastectomy, will be around 6 months from now, since you had a hysterectomy, you don't have female hormones anymore and your body will get used to it sooner than when without it. After your mastectomy you will be added to the waiting list for the Phalloplasty. I have to warn you though, you need a lot of patience. It can take up to two years before you get a call to set a date. Sometimes people get lucky and the surgery will be canceled by a patient and then we call someone else to get the surgery. But again don't hope for that too much. I just mention it because it happens sometimes. Is everything clear so far about the process?" Dr. Young asks.
"It is for me. Since we know a lot of things from Dr. Olsen." Oliver answers, still smiling widely.
"I have no questions for now about this part." Alex answers thoughtfully, wearing an identical smile on her face.
"Alright. Feel free to ask me a question when you do have them. Something else, there are special shirts that flatten your breasts. More like pushing them against your upper body so that they are less visible. Almost every patient uses them. The only ones that don't use them have such small breasts that the shirt doesn't make a difference or hardly make a difference. You don't wear a bra anymore, you wear the shirt instead. The second thing that most trans genders use, going from female to male, is a penis prosthesis. It is made from rubber and you put it your underwear. From the outside it will look natural and nobody knows that it's not a real penis. And lastly, there are special swimming suits. There are two options, one option is a swimming suit like professional male swimmers wear, with short pipes. The special shirt is in the top of the suit and you can wear the prosthesis in it. The second option is a skin tide short with the same option for wearing the prosthesis. I can give you the addresses of a couple of websites where you can order these items. I also can give the address of a store where you can buy the special shirts and swimming suits. If you would like that of course." Dr. Young says.
Oliver's smile gets so big that it almost hurts.
"Wait, you tell me there's a way I can hide those damn things?" Oliver asks excitingly, pointing at his breasts.
Both Alex and Dr. Young laugh at Oliver's reaction. The both know how much he hates his breasts.
"Yes, Detective. The shirt can hide 'those damn things'." Dr. Young laughs.
"Great. I totally want a couple of those shirts. Oh and I also would like the thing for in my pants or jeans. I only hope they are comfortable to wear." Oliver says, almost jumping up and down in his wheelchair.
Alex shakes her head although she's smiling.
"Thanks Dr. now I have a two-year-old toddler the rest of the day." Alex jokes.
"Well you better get used to it because ever time something good happens during his process he'll be like this." Dr. Young smiles.
"I figured out that myself already. And I don't mind at all. I like seeing Liv happy." Alex answers.
"Liv?" Dr. Young asks raising one eyebrow.
"That's was my nickname. Alex is the only one that is still allowed to use it. I can't explain it but I like it when she calls me Liv. But only when Alex says it. And she likes it too, so we agreed that she would keep calling me Liv." Oliver explains.
"Why Liv? If I may ask that." Dr. Young asks.
"Well my name was Olivia, shortly Liv." Oliver says, wrinkling his nose when he says his former name.
"Now it's Oliver Alexander Benson." Oliver says proudly, smiling at Alex when he says it.
Alex smiles back at Oliver with her love for her Detective clearly in her eyes.
"I don't have to think hard or to ask why you choose Alexander as your middle name, Detective. The looks between the two of you says it all." Dr. Young says.
"Thank you." Oliver says softly.
"Back to why you are here. Is there anything that either one of you would like to know before we end this appointment and I give the prescription and addresses?" Dr. Young asks, being serious again.
Oliver looks at Alex, since she's the one that usually wants to know a thousand things more. Besides, the Detective can't think about anything. now that his head is in the clouds.
"There's one thing I'd like to know. The rest is pretty clear for me, now, so I have one important question I'd like to ask. There's nothing in the world that I want more than to have children with Oliver, besides marrying him in less than 2 months. There is nothing I want more than to carry our children. So what I want to know is, is it possible for us to get pregnant the natural way or not?" Alex asks hopefully.
"Judging by the look on your face and with what you said, I think I'm going to make you very happy, Ms. Cabot. Yes, you can get pregnant the natural way. After Oliver's Phalloplasty of course. I have to admit it's something I've never seen before, having a normal female body and testicles that are working. But how or why isn't important in your situation. What is important seeing what you want and is important to you, is that it's possible to get pregnant the natural way." Dr. Young answers.
A/N I hope y'all enjoyed this chapter. I enjoyed writing it.
As for the process of Oliver's transition, the time line is different than it would be in reality. The description of his process is basically how it goes. Except for Alex getting pregnant the natural way, this is not possible in real life. But this Alex and Oliver we're talking about and they deserve to have that going normally, at least. With everything they went through and what will come on their path in the future, sooner or later. After all there still is a lot Oliver and/or Alex need to recover from.
As always please R+R.
I know y'all do it often, and I'm very very happy with them, but it can't hurt to ask for them, right? * blush *