Sasaki Haise has always wondered about his past. Of course, if you didn't have any recollection of the past twenty years of your life, you are bound to feel at least a little curious.
Sometimes in the middle of the night, he'd wake up in a cold sweat and wonder if he had parents. He really hoped if he did have parents that they weren't out looking for him, wondering when their son will come back. The thought alone made him feel guilty. While he was out enjoying life with his teammates/friends, fighting for the people of Tokyo, they were probably shaking back at home, worried sick for their lost son.
When he'd read a book, he sometimes can't shake off the feeling that he had already read the book, finding many of the words familiar. Maybe by some coincidence, the books he reads just manage to be predictable. Or maybe, he had read them before?
A huge part of him was missing, and Sasaki could only hope that one day the missing part of him would return, or at the very least have something to ease his mind.
Of course he felt himself worry about what would happen if he did return, what would happen to him? Would Sasaki Haise still exist? Or would his old self completely ignore that part of his life ever happening. On second thought, that didn't sound so pleasant to him.
Sasaki thought about his teammates, their smiles and determination along with their quirks. He couldn't possibly fathom a world without them, it hurt to even think about.
So in the end, if he was offered even a glimpse of his past, he might as well pass it up.
Sasaki always laughs to himself when people tell him he is a good cook, because he can't exactly try his own food, and even if he does it tastes absolutely disgusting. Since he can't eat his own cooking he just has to trust their judgement.
He set four plates down on the table, all filled with food he made earlier. Mutsuki was already sitting there, thanking him for the food before quickly eating it. Urie came in soon after with the same neutral expression he usually adorned on his face.
"Good morning Urie, did you sleep well?" Asked Sasaki pleasantly, leaning over one of the chairs. Urie glanced up at him before sitting down at a chair opposite of Sasaki.
He stared down at his food and nodded "thankfully, yes"
Sasaki smiled "that's good to hear" he paused and glanced at the doorway "is Ginshi and Saiko awake? I don't want their food getting cold" he said, looking down at the two empty chairs worriedly.
Mutsuki nodded "W-well, Ginshi is awake, I'm not so sure about Saiko though. Knowing her she probably overslept again" he said with a chuckle.
Sasaki's sweat dropped "ahaha, true, I'll go wake her up just in case. It's not good to miss a meal" he smiled at them one last time before straightening up from his position and walking towards the room of a certain neet.
Saiko often stayed in her room playing whatever she had in there. It worried Sasaki a little that she wasn't getting enough sun or social interaction, even if she always did look fine when she comes out. He couldn't help but worry for his friend.
Sasaki knocked on the door twice and waited for a response. There was nothing besides the faint noises of snoring. 'Well things just got harder, hopefully she'll wake up soon' He thought to himself amusedly. He knocked once again, but this time harder. There was a pause in the snoring, but then it continued.
"Alright then.." Sasaki Mumbled to himself, if Saiko didn't want to wake up, he'll have to make her. "Saiko-Chan, please wake up! Or your food will get cold" he yelled through the door. The snoring stopped, but there seemed to be no advances towards the door. 'Fine, if you want to play it that way' he cleared his throat "If you don't wake up soon I'm going to have to give Ginshi your food" Sasaki said in a teasing manner.
Not even a second later the door opened up revealing a girl in her pajamas and messed up blue hair "no!" She quickly said, panic visible on her face "please don't! I'm awake"
"I can see that" Sasaki said with a chuckle, moving aside to let the girl walk past him "go on and eat, hopefully the food is still warm"
Saiko nodded "right" and sped walked past him. Saiko always found it difficult to choose between sleeping and eating each morning, at least she had someone to help her choose. Even if sleeping was really comfortable.
Sasaki smiled at the blue haired girl before following her to the kitchen. Ginshi seemed to have arrived while Sasaki had been getting Saiko, as he was already gobbling away at his food. He looked up and gave Sasaki a toothy smile "good morning Sassan!" Ginshi said in his usual manner.
Urie didn't seem to like the food coming out of Ginshi's mouth, what he didn't know was that Ginshi was doing it purposely to annoy Urie. Sasaki nodded at him "good morning to you as well"
Sasaki smiled at his team as he sat down. This felt right, one of the only things that did to him. All of them together, either laughing with or at each other. He never wanted moments like these to end, he cherished them too much.
It was also moments like these when he wondered, what were his old friends like? Suddenly he felt their voices become muffled as Sasaki found himself deep in thought. Did they have moments like these too? Moments filled with jokes and laughter, a nice conversation and mutual trust. Did he even have friends before? He probably did. Were they out looking for him? Or did they just assume they lost contact with him. Did his past self have moments that he never wanted to forget? He clenched on the tablecloth hard, concentration painted all over his face.
He suddenly realized that no one was talking or laughing and looked up. They all looked concerned (with the exception of Urie)
Mutsuki cleared his voice "Sassan, are you alright?" He asked concerned, voicing every bodies thoughts.
Sasaki stared at them for a moment before laughing awkwardly "erm, yes! Sorry, I was just...thinking about something" he looked down at the table and bit his lip.
Ginshi played with his food with his fork "well, if you don't mind me asking, what were you thinking about?"
"Oh, it's- it's nothing to worry about! Let's continue with our conversation, shall we?" Sasaki smiled at them, they all looked hesitantly at him before nodding, continuing with their conversation. Soon the table once again was filled with laughter.
Then they got a call.
Akira handed Sasaki a folder, Sasaki accepted it and opened it up. "There has been reports of a ghoul in Ward 2" she said simply to them.
"Ward 2? Isn't that place dangerous for ghouls though?" Asked Ginshi confused, he glanced at the folder Sasaki was holding.
Akira nodded "we believe it finds it safe for itself because not many ghouls go there, therefor it doesn't need to worry about getting killed by another ghoul"
"What about the branch office there, can't they handle it?" Mutsuki Asked, also voicing his confusion. Sasaki looked up from the folder to listen to what Akira had to say.
"They have tried, but so far there has been no luck" Akira said with a long sigh, she walked over to her desk and stared out the window "people have gone missing with that ghoul, no traces whatsoever. Although we could just write it off that it is keeping them hostage until he is hungry, we believe there is something more to it"
"And that is?" Urie Asked with a bored expression, he really just wanted to go and hunt the damn thing.
"We have no clue" Akira said with a shrug.
"Then what makes you think there is more to it?" Saiko asked, looking up from her ds.
"It's complicated to explain, but somehow he can teleport things to different locations. And he is much calmer compared to other ghouls the CCG usually fights. He blatantly said that he wasn't going to eat them either, only experiment" Akira turned to them with a frown
"The Teleporter, huh?" Sasaki said with a small laugh "who came up with it?
Akira laughed "I have no clue, but somebody did" she paused, her smile quickly disappearing "the residents there are becoming more and more paranoid, so please try to capture it quick, we don't want any citizen casualties"
Sasaki's face also became serious, and so did everybody else's. "Right! We'll give it all we got" he turned to his team "get ready, we'll leave in an hour"
They all nodded and ushered off. Leaving Sasaki and Akira alone. "Be careful out there, we don't want you disappearing on us" Akira said
Sasaki smiled at her "of course! I wouldn't be a good leader if I just left my teammates like that, I promise I'll be back soon"
A couple of hours later, the Quinx Squad found themselves in a dark alleyway. "Well isn't this fun! Some nice team bonding time in some suspicious alleyway" Ginshi said with a laugh, they all smiled at that.
"Can we finish this quickly? There is a show I wanna watch after this" Saiko Asked, looking down at her watch.
"There are more important matters at stake right now than pointless shows" said Urie with a roll of his eyes.
Saiko pouted "not to me there isn't..."
Urie was about to respond when suddenly they heard a rustle somewhere, Sasaki put a finger to his lips to quiet them. He signaled for them to move slowly towards the noise.
As they did, a man in a dark cloak suddenly appeared out of nowhere and attacked Mutsuki with crystal like shards. Mutsuki gasped in pain as he clutched his shoulder.
"Are you ok?!" Asked Sasaki as he jumped back to Mutsuki to which he nodded.
"I don't appreciate people invading my territory" said the man in a husky voice, walking towards them.
Urie and Ginshi activated their kagunes and ran after the man. The cloaked figure dodged them nonchalantly, attacking them with the same shards as he did with Mutsuki, except this time they stuck to them and the ground causing them to get stuck in a clump of crystal shards. They both struggled to get out.
Saiko, hid behind Sasaki, glancing briefly at her other two teammates who were stuck.
Mutsuki could only watch helplessly as his team was being attacked, he needed to do something, but he couldn't activate his kagune.
Sasaki attempted to attack the stranger with his kagune, while Saiko made a run to free her teammates while the man was distracted. Each time Sasaki made a move to attack the cloaked man, the man managed to teleport away. 'How- how is he teleporting!?' Sasaki mentally screamed. Never before has Sasaki ever heard of a teleporting ghoul, it was so weird to see one. The CGG weren't lying when they said he could teleport. He didn't want to lose control either, so he tried his best to not go over his limits.
"You and your team are a little boring to be around, so why don't I make this fun for you, and easier on me" said the man snidely, jumping away from another attack.
Ginshi managed to get free and charged the man, cutting him on his shoulder. "Ha! Cut you!" He Yelled out with a cocky grin.
"Of course, I was distracted" he stated simply, before attacking him with a barrage of crystals. And once again, Ginshi Shirazu was stuck. The man turned to Saiko who jumped at the sudden attention and aimed the attacks at her, managing to get her foot stuck.
"You stay put for now" his attention turned back to Sasaki "and for you.." he chuckled darkly "it's time for you to be my ultimate guinea pig"
'Ultimate guinea pig?' Sasaki would have laughed at that if not for the dire situation 'what did that even mean?!' He wanted to scream.
Mutsuki knew that they needed help, so while the strange man wasn't looking, he managed to sneak away to get help. It wasn't that the man himself was strong, but rather the fact that he could teleport was helping him out. They couldn't really do much if a ghoul could teleport.
Sasaki frowned "and what do you mean?" He said cautiously.
"Glad you asked" said the man, relaxing back into a normal stance "I've been working on something for years now, and I think I've finally perfected it enough to be used" and through his hood Sasaki could see a dark grin "and you'll be my very first subject, since you managed to get here just as I was going to experiment on another"
The man moved his cloak aside to reveal a pocket watch "you Sasaki Haise, will be in for a treat"
And without another word, there was a loud hum.
Sasaki winced and covered his ears, the noise was starting to become more high pitched as the world around him became more distorted. He tried to make a move towards the man, but he found himself frozen in place. Panic sit in, and he didn't know what to do. He could hear a faint laugh among the humming and the last thing he saw before everything went black was Saiko running towards him, managing to break free, in pure fear.
Sasaki opened his eyes to see a checker patterned floor and endless walls. He was in his mind, and he didn't like it. It was where HE sat, the ghoul version of him.
"Are you here to finally disappear?" Croaked a voice from behind him. Sasaki quickly looked behind him to see the white haired man, sitting chained up to a wooden chair.
"No, I just blacked out" Sasaki said firmly, backing away from the man.
"My my, the great Sasaki blacking out...waisting precious time for us I see, let me take over and I will help" said the white haired ghoul horsely. "I will protect your friends, just let me."
Sasaki shook his head quickly, backing up even more from the white haired man. "No, for the last time no! This is my life too, and you can't just take it to do whatever you like with it"
The man laughed as if he was just told the funniest joke on Earth, Sasaki could only stare and wait for him to finish. The man looked up at him with a single red eye "what a hypocrite you are Sasaki Haise" said the man seriously "didn't you take my life first?"
Sasaki opened his mouth and then closed it. Something unexpected started happening however, the ghoul started to fade away, his red eye being the last thing gone.
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It was also that man powering his curiosity about his past. Was that him? Or somebody else? He hoped it was the later. Sasaki really didn't want to know what happened to him in the past
Sorry if this is crappy, but I hope I got my idea across. I'll be editing this later, so if you see any flaws please let me know!
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