~ ROSE POV ~

I awoke to find the space beside me once again empty and a small folded note lying neatly on the pillow. My excitement to read Dimitri's love letter pulled me from the lingering tendrils of tiredness. I quickly pulled myself to sit up and flicked open the letter to read the beautifully written promises of love. I smiled after reading the note for the third time and placed the card inside my nightstand with the others, hidden from prying eyes. Just as I had shut the drawer, a knock sounded on my door. I quickly pulled on a pair of pyjama pants and a singlet before racing to the door.

The familiar feeling of Déjà vu flowed through me at the image of Dimitri standing at my door as he had only hours ago. His face was filled with pure panic and I was worried he would collapse. Before he could say anything, I grabbed his hand and pulled him inside my room before checking the halls to make sure no one was around to witness. Dimitri was frozen on the spot, his eyes wide and his mouth opening and closing as if he were searching for the words he needed to get out.

"Dimitri, what is it?" He didn't reply. His eyes flicked around the room as if he was searching for answers hidden in the small space of my academy dorm.

I had never seen Dimitri like this. He was always so in control of all his actions and words. Always knew exactly what to say and do. This was new territory and I knew I had to be careful with how I reacted. The letter I had read moments ago came to me. Along with the promises of love, Dimitri had written that he was going to speak with Tasha and tell her that he couldn't go with her because he had no feelings for her.

It didn't take a genius to figure out that Dimitri's now worried expression was a result of that conversation. For the first time in my life, I prayed. I prayed to whoever or whatever was out there listening, begging them to erase the last few hours. Pleading them to take us back to last night when Dimitri held me in his strong embrace, kissed my temple and whispered gently in my ear: 'I love you, Roza. So, so much. Never forget that.'

Unfortunately, I didn't exactly believe in god. Even if he existed, I doubted that he would answer the prayers of an atheist sinner such as myself. I took both of Dimitri's hands in my own, pulling his attention to me.

"Comrade, you're scaring me. Please tell me what's wrong." His pupils dilated as if he was just waking up to reality and seeing me for the first time. His expression shifted slightly, and I took a deep breath as I waited for him to say something, anything. Without warning, he leant in and captured my lips with his own. I gasped with surprise but quickly melted into the deep kiss. That kiss was unlike any other we had shared in the past. It was so deep and full of more feeling than words can express. Dimitri pulled back, leaving me dazed, drunk off the taste and smell of him.

"Tasha knows." He said. Those two words sobered me up in an instant. I knew exactly what he meant and what it meant for us. My body went slack as my breath left me and I felt myself falling towards the ground. Dimitri caught me as he had once before, that night we met, and saved my knees from hitting the hard floor. He pulled me into his arms as I sobbed into his chest, ruining his shirt with my salty tears. I don't know how long I stayed there, sobbing into his chest as he held me. Finally, when it felt like I had no tears left in me to shed, I pulled away and looked up at him. His eyes were as red as I assumed mine were and I could spot the trickle of salty water his tears left behind as they slid down his face. I swallowed, soothing my raw throat and spoke with a raspy empty voice.

"It's over isn't it?" I asked. Tasha knew. There was no going back. No way to undo what had been done. She loved him; I could tell that from the moment I saw her eyes light up as she looked at him. Our relationship was in her hands. Some people are so desperate for love that they are blind. She could destroy us and take Dimitri for herself, leaving us both heartbroken and any future for us shattered.

Dimitri moved his head in a way that signalled both a yes and no. "That depends on what Tasha does next. If she lets it go or is, she shares the truth." He said. His voice was as raspy as my own. I reached my hand up and brushed away a new tear which had fallen. I had never seen Dimitri cry. He was always so strong and stoic, hidden behind his guardian mask. We both knew that this could be our last day together and had let all our walls down, revelling all our feelings. Dimitri leant into my tough and I gulped, fighting against the building tsunami of tears ready to fall.

"Dimitri?"

"Hmm?" he said against my palm.

"I love you." His eyes opened in a flash and stayed deep into my own. His lips raised in a beautiful full smile.

"I love you too, Roza. So, so much." I snaked my arm around his head and brought him to meet me in a deep kiss. We had said those words so many times, I had lost count. But that time felt different because we knew it might be our last chance to be together.

I rose up onto my knees and pulled away for a moment. Dimitri groaned in protest until he saw my hands reach for the hem of my shirt and pull it over my head leaving my chest naked. Dimitri's gaze slowly slid over my torso taking in my hardened breasts.

"Roza," he gasped as I pulled his hand to rake over the flesh, he was so familiar with. His hand traced over the curves and crevasses as he had the night before. It felt like our 'first time', that night in the cabin, all over again.

"If this is our last day together, I want to be with you. In every way, I can. I want to engrave this moment into my mind so that I will never forget the love I have for you. The secret is out Dimitri. No more holding back." He looked like he wanted to fight that, but he didn't say anything as my hands found the lapels of his duster and pushed it off his shoulders. He let it fall to the floor and pool around him as he watched my hands move to the hem of his shirt and pull upwards.

Dimitri helped me lift his shirt over his head and tossed it to the other side of the room to be found later. I smiled at him in a way that conveyed everything I wanted for us. I reached for his belt and pulled him to me by the buckle until we were finally chest to chest. I marvelled in the feeling of his skin against mine as our chests rose and fell in sync to the beat of our racing hearts.

In the past, Dimitri took control when we were together but was glad to let me take over whenever I wanted. This time I was the one in control. I knew what I wanted, and I knew how I wanted this day to end. I kissed his lips slowly. Then his jaw, then his neck. I playfully bit his earlobe and was rewarded with a groan. I smirked and kissed it better before raising slightly to whisper into his ear.

"Make love to me, Comrade." He didn't need to be told twice. In an instant, I was lifted and lowered onto my back on the floor. Dimitri hovered above me, kissing my neck as his hand fiddled with the ties on my pants and slid them down my legs leaving me completely bare. An irrational wave of nervousness washed over me as Dimitri moved away to take me in completely. I smiled up at him, my face growing redder as his eyes scanned over every inch of me. I shivered as his eyes met mine and I saw the hunger shining in them. I reached for his buckle again and tugged at it until it was released, and I was able to slide the belt free from his hips. Dimitri watched every movement as I unbuttoned his jeans and slid the zipper down.

Dimitri took over and removed his pants until he left was as naked as I was. I scanned over him as he had me, taking every inch of him in. I traced over his muscled body with my eyes, admiring his beauty and when I met his eyes, I was lost for words. He was the most beautiful man I had ever known in body and soul. I pulled him to me again and hooked my leg around his hips. In one movement, I rolled us until he was on his back below me while I straddled him. It was a lot like in training. If I had my practice stake, all I had to do was bring it down over his heart and I'd win. This wasn't training, however, and Dimitri was not my enemy or opponent. He was my partner. My equal.

I placed my hand gently over his heart and splayed my fingers taking in the strong rapid pulsing of his heart beneath my hand and slowly lowered myself onto him. His groan when fully sheathed within me was enough to make my stomach tighten. My body moved to the rhythm of our hearts. Without warning, Dimitri sat up. I gasped quietly as I met his lust-filled gaze. He smirked playfully and lowered his mouth to suck on the sweet-spot right below my ear. I let out a loud moan as my head rolled back to allow him better access. Our bodies moved in sync as he continues his kisses down my neck, collarbone and breast. The pace fastened and I felt the first flutter of my climax. Dimitri must have felt it too. Without warning, he lifted me off him and laid me down onto my back.

Dimitri kissed my lips and then continued his path down, down, down. I dug my hands into his hair as his tongue found just the right spot. He looked up at me with those delicious brown eyes. The sight enough was almost enough but I wanted more. I pulled him back to me and kissed him roughly. I kissed his jaw and neck softly before biting down hard on the muscle between his neck and shoulder. He let out a loud groan and I giggled. His eyes flashed to mine sharply, full of lust and playful determination. Without warning, he thrust back into me and every thought disappeared from my mind in an instant until there was only us two in this moment. Nothing else mattered but the love we shared for each other. As quickly as we began, we finished. The coil within me grew tighter and tighter until I finally reached my peek and released myself, Dimitri following a moment later.

Neither of us could move from our spot on the floor so we stayed, lying there with a blanket draped over us as we held to each other and our breaths returned to normal. Dimitri held me, on hand playing with my hair, the other lightly drawing soothing patterns on my hip. I didn't ever want to move from this spot.

We both heard the distinct buzzing of a text message. Dimitri shifted to get it, but I grabbed his hand to stop him.

"Don't get that. Not now. Let us have a few more minutes together," I begged. Dimitri gave me a sad smile but shook his head.

"I have to, Roza." He kissed my forehead and reached for his pants to pull out his phone. I lay down and waited patiently for the bad news. Dimitri's brow creased in confusion and I sat up quickly, impatient to know what it was that had made Dimitri look so nervous.

"Comrade? What is it?" I asked. Dimitri looked up to meet my eyes. Worry danced deep within his irises.

"It's Tasha," he said hesitantly and sighed. "She wants to see us. Both of us. Now."

I am so very sorry for the very late update. I went on an unexpected vacation away from my laptop meaning the chapter I had half-written was sitting at home waiting for me. I am back now and very much excited to bring you my first ever attempt at an M-Scene. I know it is not as detailed as other authors but I am still experimenting and trying to find a way to write these details to properly show the connection and love between these two characters. Let me know what you thought of it anyway, if you want more and how I can improve them. updates might have to go to one a fortnight because I have recently got a new job which will probably take up a bit of my writing time and not allow me to edit properly. Anyway, thanks for all your updates and private messages. I am sorry if I missed anything while I was away. Thank you for sticking with me! :)