Sorry for the late update guys just back into school and work is taking up all my time and sanity. Plus, I wanted to post the other story while it was in my head as well as working on my own book. Hope you guys still like it. will try to update again soon.

CHAPTER 12 Bella

I tried to keep track as my girlfriend paced inhumanly fast from where I sat in the living room, Lauren doing the same from next to me. "Catt?...CATT!" the blur stopped in the middle of the room as she turned to look at me, her breathing shallow. I held out my hand and she flashed to my side to take it in an instant. "I get your upset-" I gripped her hand tighter when she went to pull away. "I get that your upset, but you need to calm down. We are all fine and-"

"you could have been hurt! He launched right at me, you were right there Bella!"

"I know that! But we're fine!" her reply was a savage growl as she shook here head mumbling of Sam's death under her breath. "can we please focus on better things right now? Sam's not alpha anymore, we don't have to worry about the wolves right now."

"wolves break free of packs all the time Bella-"

"Catt."

"-ok…ok. I'll let it go-for now."

"thank you. Now. I think it's time for bed. I made up the guest room for Lauren while you were trying not to throw anything." She had the decency to look sheepish at my joke. "Sorry. Ok, you go on to bed I'm just going to-"

"Nope. Goodnight Lauren."

"Night." With that I was dragging my stubborn mate up the stairs towards my room. Once inside I made sure the door was shut firmly before turning to where stood in the middle of the room. "I'm really not tired babe but you should get some rest." Wrapping my arms around her waist hers automatically encased me as I try to catch her eye, "please Catt, for me?" I knew it wasn't fair but I also knew it would work as she let out a sigh. "do you have anything I could sleep in?" placing a grateful kiss to her lips I grab her some shorts and a t-shirt. "Thank you."

"you know damn well I had little choice Bella." She sent me a small smile before flashing to change in the bathroom, she knows it still new territory for me, even after our heated make out session. I changed as well while she was in there. I was sitting under the covers when she came back in and flopped ungracefully onto the bed before scooting in with me. I slide into her open arms wordlessly laying my head on her chest listening to her slightly faster heartrate until I fall asleep.

When I woke up the first thing I had noticed was the absence of my girlfriend, and from the lack of heat on the bed I'm assuming she has been out of bed for a while. With a groan I roll out of bed and head to the bathroom before joining the noise downstairs. Lauren sat at the table sipping on her coffee as Catt stood in front of the stove flipping bacon, still wearing my clothes. And she looked downright sexy doing it. I couldn't help but walk up behind her after a good morning to Lauren and wrap my arms around her waist, resting my chin on her shoulder. "how long have you been awake?" I murmured. "not long" she murmured back tilting her head to send me a small smile. Pressing a quick kiss to her jaw "the fact that my bed was cold tells me otherwise."

"are you suggesting my only use is to warm your bed Isabella?" she purred out as she slowly turned in my arms, my face darkened as Lauren let out a laugh. "that's not what I meant and you know it." her green eyes sparkled as she stared down at me, "mmm but of course mon ange. Sit, your breakfast is almost done." Placing another kiss to her lips "you didn't have to cook."

"aye, but I wanted to." She placed a plate of bacon, eggs, and hash browns in front of me and Lauren before grabbing her own. After a few bites in silence Lauren spoke up, "Thanks for letting me stay her last night Bella. It was nice to sleep through the night."

"no problem, I hope you didn't get I much trouble for it though."

"don't worry they probably didn't even notice I was gone." She spoke as if it was nothing and a normal occurrence. I shared a look with Catt before she spoke, "that reminds me. As of right now my place is only a studio, so I have arranged to have another room added to it, if you decide to accept my offer?" once again Lauren looked close to tears, "I would really appreciate that Catt, but you don't need to put in a whole new room for me, the couch would be fine until I can afford my own place."

"no. I will not be making you sleep on the couch for an unforeseen amount of time. It will not take long for it to be built, I have hired good workers. And if it is the money it is no problem, when you live as long as me, you can acquire quite a bit of it." I reached over and squeezed my girlfriends hand, amazed at her generosity. She laced our fingers and bring my hand to her lips. "as I said Lauren, you are important to Isabella, and Isabella is important to me, as are you." She looked at her for a moment before turning to me, "your girlfriend is kind of awesome Bella." I let out a little laugh, "yah, yah she is."

2 weeks Later

This is it, I am officially going crazy, no my girlfriend is driving me crazy. For starters I have hardly seen her in the past week, she's always with Jake and the wolves since he requested her help with training and teaching them. When she isn't she's in Port Angeles overseeing the work on her place. And to top it off, we still haven't spoken about what happened that night before the meeting. She was pulling away and it was driving me crazy. It didn't help that Mike and Jessica would still ask me questions about her like crazy. This is what brought me to pacing my room like a crazy person while I waited for her to show up, I had to practically beg her to stop by on her way to the Rez and that's just bull. My own fucking girlfriend and I had to beg! "this is fucking ridiculous." I mumbled to myself before jumping at the voice in my doorway, "you know I have learned that when you start cussing its best to stay back, shall I return later?" I spun around to face the object of my frustration "NO!" her eyes widened at my outburst but I stood my ground lowering my voice "we need to talk." For a split second I saw a million emotions swirl in her eyes before she shut them all down. "as you wish." She took a seat at the desk and crossed her legs before giving me her full attention. "what's going on Catt?" a frown marred her face as she tilted her head cutely, "I do not follow? Why would you assume something is wrong?"

"because you've been ignoring me!" I all but shouted. "I have not! I have just been busy with the wolves and-"

"I know Catt! Your busy with the wolves, your busy with your place, your busy with the garage! When can you busy with me!" I tried I really did but I couldn't stop the tears from falling as old pain resurfaces, I couldn't help but compare her distancing her-self from the time when he distanced himself. I knew I sounded like a clingy needy girlfriend but I couldn't stop. Confusion and pain filled her expression, "Isabella-" her phone interrupted and a watery chuckle left me, "you better get that, the wolves are probably wondering where you are."

"it can wait-"

"no I'm sure it cant. Just go. We can talk later." Her mouth opened and closed as she tried to find something to say, "as you wish" is what she said as she walked out the door. As she left me there with tears streaming down my face.

Catt POV

Why do I feel like I just made a huge mistake, why do I feel like my hearts on fire and my heads going to explode. Because you are a fool. Ughh. Damnit Saphira I don't understand this. Your mate, our mate is upset, and it is because of you, what don't you get? "why! What did I do!?" I practically growl out as the woman walking down the street gave me a concerned look. I climbed into my car quickly pulling out of her driveway and away from this human. Our human Catt. "I know Saphira!" then what are you doing? The wolves- my reply was cut off as once again my phone rang, "hello?"

"hey Catt, just wondering where you are."

"Jake, yah I'm on my…" what am I doing? I pulled to the side of the road as another stab went through my heart. "Catt?"

"I'm here Jake, look I'm not going to make it today, I have some things to take care of."

"oh, ok no worries, hope everything is ok. Il see you later tell Bella I said hi, and to come visit soon."

"I will" I murmured back before hanging up. Have you come to your senses child? "what do I do Saphira? I can barely look at her without wanting to jump her!" she was silent for a moment, is that what this is about? You wanting to mark your mate? She's not ready, she still has time to change her mind. She still has a chance to- you sound like HIM. "What?!" you do, is this not her life? Is this not her choice? Has she not already chosen you? You need to speak with her, you have brought about all of her past fears with this. I am not him! Prove it. was all she said as she faded to the back of my mind.

I quickly pulled back onto the road and floored it to the one little store this rainy town had. As soon as I made my purchase I was once again hauling ass down winding road back to my mates. My heart was racing slightly faster than normal as I knocked on the door. And it cracked at the pain I put on my mate's face when she answered the door.

Bella POV

For the past 45 minutes I sat on my bed with my knees pulled up and tears streaming down my face as I tried to figure out what was wrong with me. Besides the fact that I as human and they, they were-She was a goddess. The loud knocks on the front door broke me from my thoughts as I wondered if they would go away if no one answered. Dragging myself up and then down the stairs since Charlie was down fishing with Billy. I opened the door not prepared for the sight, Catt stood there nervously with a bouquet of white roses surrounding one red. She finally looked me in the eyes, "I am not Him. Please do not think so little of me." She looked close to tears herself, something I have never seen in her before. "I am sorry Isabella. I have been ignoring you, I have been avoiding you, I have my reasons and they are foolish. If you wish to speak we will. If you wish for us to sit in silence we will. If you wish for me to leave, I won't. I am not him Isabella." I couldn't control myself any longer and launched myself at her, she caught me easily, she always did. I don't know how long we stood there with me silently crying into her shoulder and her murmuring soothing things into my hair, but it was interrupted by a throat clearing. Pulling away I saw my dad standing there with all of his fishing equipment looking stern as he took in the flowers, "am I interrupting something?" She beat me to a reply, "not at all Chief, I had made a big mistake and I am simply trying to gain your daughters forgiveness, if she'll give it." his eyes widened at the honest reply his mind probably in the same boat as mine, he never would have done that. All I could do was nod at her before turning to my dad, "were going to go talk upstairs dad." After a moment he nodded his consent and I dragged her up there. I didn't bother closing the door cause I no he wouldn't approve but as soon as we were in the room I slammed my lips to hers. I slid my tongue against her lips and she quickly granted me access. We both moaned as our tongues warred and a growl built in her chest before she pulled away with a gasp her eyes no longer human, "that-that is why- I was avoiding you." Frowning in confusion "I don't understand, do you not like kissing me? Did I do something wrong?"

"no mon ange. You did nothing wrong, I-its just-argh." She took a step back and began to pace, "Bella, I-you are-its taking everything in me not to jump you!" my eyes widened at her whispered shout. "oh" what else could I say to that. "Yes, im sorry, it's just everything in me is screaming at me to take you, to mark you. To make you 100 percent mine."

"but I am yours."

"I know that, you know that. But my beast need everyone to know that."

"I see, so you have been avoiding me so you-wouldn't jump me?"

"yes."

"why didn't you just tell me?"

"tell you I could barely control myself from attacking you?" she shook her head in disgust. "Catt come here."

"I don't think that's wise. I am already fighting the urge to take you, and I doubt your father would appreciate that very much." My face warmed at her words. "..is that why we haven't talked about that night?" she let out a strangled sound at the thought, "Goddess Bella I am so sorry for that."

"why?"

"besides the fact that I was practically dry humping you!? I shouldn't have let things go that far, I shouldn't have pushed you, I-"

"Catt! Stop. I could have told you to stop Catt, and I believe you would have without a doubt if I had. But I didn't, I didn't want you to." My face heated up at the admission, and it stayed that way at the next, "I'm not mad at you Catt, I-enjoyed that very much." I walked slowly towards her as she watched my every step, taking her hand in my own I use the other to cup her cheek and bring her lips to mine in a soft kiss. When we broke away I gasped out "I love you." Her eyes shot wide, I had not meant to say it, I knew I felt it but I didn't mean to say it so soon. No point in taking it back. Her eyes shot wide and her mouth dropped open, "you- you love me? Truly?" looking into her eyes swirling with emotions I could say that without a doubt I was irrevocably in love with her. "Yes Catt, I love you, I am very much in love with you."

"…oh shit" she gasped out, that was not what I expected, or wanted to hear, but before I could think on it my back hit my bed and her lips mashed with mine. My arms went around her waist as she straddled me, when she pulled away from the heated kiss her eyes were the eyes of a panther, her ears were no longer human, and there was a tail swishing behind her, she looked down at me with could only be described as awe. "I love you to Isabella."

For the first time in the time I had known her, she finally let a few tears slide down her face, she didn't bother wiping them away as she placed kiss after kiss on my face, neck and shoulder as I just held onto her. Thankfully my father never came up to check on us while she was all Were'd out. She murmured "I love you"s over and over into my hair. She never once seemed close to losing it, minus the tail and what not.

It took 20 minutes to get her to be able to change back, she was bouncing around the entire time, through her I love you s she was able to explain to me that when her emotions become too hard to control it happens. Rarely, but it happens, and I had apparently just thrown her emotions for a loop. We were finally able to make it downstairs when Charlie yelled up he had ordered pizza and it was here, but her smile never dimmed as her tail and ears disappeared. This girl was something else for sure, and I wouldn't change her for anything. She hadn't let my hand go as we made our way to the kitchen where my dad already sat "everything alright girls?"

"Fantastic Chief" she sent him a beaming smile he couldn't resist returning, "good good."

They chatted about some game or another as we ate, I added in when necessary but mostly enjoyed watching them interact. "I've been meaning to ask you Catt, you own that garage right?"

"yes sir."

"what about school?"

"hmm, I tried it awhile back, wasn't a fan, but I am actually thinking of going back."

"oh? What would you major in?"

"psychology probably, or law. Or hell psychology in law." She sent him a wink he laughed at. "good girl. School is important. Can't wait for bells here to graduate, its coming up fast. Any plans Bells?"

"uh not really not yet."

"well you better get to it kiddo. I'm going to head to bed now, goodnight girls, you know you can stay Catt but the door."

"yes sir." ." He left us sitting in the kitchen alone. "will you be staying?" I asked, "do you want me to stay?"

"you know I do Catt." she chuckled quietly "as you wish mon ange. I wish to speak more with you anyways, if your not to tired?"

"sure what about?"

"hmm why don't we get ready for bed first yes?" I quickly took a shower as she changed into something to sleep in. when I entered the room she was already under the covers scrolling through her phone and my heart warmed at the sight, it was so, so domestic. "are you going to continue to stare or join me? I have no objections either way, but would much prefer you in my arms." I rolled my eyes at her as I climbed under the covers next to her. "what did you want to talk about?"

"Saphira." My body froze as my eyes narrowed "and whose Saphira?" she looked up at me and smiled, "I must say Isabella, a jealous you is quite-attractive." I rose a brow, wait was I jealous? The thought of another with her came to mind and yup definitely jealous. "well?" was all I could utter. "she is my beast."

"…what?"

"Saphira is the spirit, the panther inside of me. She is the one in charge on full moons."

"oh, is she dangerous?"

"ha! Very she is one of the most dangerous beings I have ever came across. But she is on our side, and quite besotted with you."

"so…shes the one who imprinted on me?"

"correct."

"I see."

"she is, well she is inside of me for a lack of better words. She is, hmm, we can speak she is very much real to me. and well, a full moon is approaching, a little late this month but still. It is next week."

"and Saphira will be in charge?"

"sometimes yes. I do not wish for this to scare you, as I said she would not harm you, but she will make me much more, possessive."

"ohhh, ok."

"ok?"

"yah I'm sure a possessive you is hot. Its fine." She let out a sigh and rested her head against the wall behind her, "I love you Isabella Swan."

"and I love you Catt LeValken." We scooted down until I could lay my head on her chest and wrapped an arm over her stomach, hers encircling my waist. I drifted into a peaceful sleep quickly surrounded by her warmth.