You deserve better
Time seemed to slow down. Every second felt like a minute, every minute felt like an hour, and every hour felt like an eternity. Amity couldn't even bring herself to move or do anything after Luz accepted Uzair's offer, in which Uzair made a swift exit and Luz literally jumped with joy because she'd finally been asked out. The screaming bell was just enough to knock Amity out of her daze and get back to class. She couldn't concentrate during class and she could barely manage to keep the abomination in a standing form.
After class her body went on autopilot as she began walking home, eventually she found herself opening the front door, walking to her room, and laying down on her bed.
She didn't know she was crying until the tears stung her cheeks.
Amity cried herself to sleep.
"Hey, you ok?"
Amity slowly opened her eyes to see Emira sitting on the edge of her bed, resting a comforting hand on her shoulder. Amity rolled to her other side so she was facing away from her sister.
"I'm guessing you don't want to talk about it then huh," Emira said softly.
The truth was that Amity did want to talk about it. She wanted to talk to someone, she wanted to tell someone how angry she was, yet at the same time so sad. Some random stranger just asked her Luz out and took her away.
"You were right, I should have listened."
"Amity, I'm sorry-"
"You have nothing to be sorry for Emira. You were just trying to help and I pushed you away, deciding that it'd be better to not even try. I was stupid and dumb and-"
"No you weren't."
Emira said it with such conviction that Amity couldn't help but turn around.
"You were scared Amity, scared that the one you love doesn't love you back. You were afraid that by confessing your feelings you'd lose her. That's ok, Luz isn't just someone you thought was cute. She means a lot to you. It's ok to be scared of losing what you love. I'm sorry for pushing."
The two shared a moment of silence before Amity spoke again.
"Do you know anything about Uzair?"
"Why do you ask?"
Amity slowly sat upright against her bedframe, "Because I don't want Luz to get hurt. If he's only planning on hurting her then I'll put a stop to it right now."
Emira stared at her sister, surprised at how serious she sounded. She spoke softly, trying to calm down her upset sister. "I haven't heard much of him, but he seems like an ok guy. I could look into him if you'd like."
"If you could do that that'd be great," Amity agreed. Sure, she was never one to support her sibling's rule breaking, but this was an exception. She pondered for a moment, "His Hexside uniform was red, that's the Bard's coven, right?"
This earned a light chuckle from Emira, "I'm guessing you're thinking about visiting the Bard's coven to rough him up with some abomination magic?"
Amity didn't think 'rough up' was the right word but her sister wasn't entirely wrong. "I just want to send a message, a warning of sorts."
"As cool as it'd be to see my baby sister beat up someone she doesn't like, it wouldn't look too good on your record. Just don't go overboard, ok?"
"Ok," Amity huffed.
"I'll tell Mom and Dad you're planning on skipping dinner to study, that'll keep 'em out of your hair."
"Thank you."
"Just one thing," Emira said as she got up from the bed.
"Yeah?"
"Promise me you'll tell Luz how you feel. Even if she says no at least you won't be asking yourself "Why didn't I ask her" or "What if I did ask her?". I don't want to see you like this and I can promise you, confessing, no matter the outcome, always helps."
"I promise," Amity whispered.
The next day Amity dragged herself out of bed and made her way to school, while yesterday's emotional turmoil was still in effect it wasn't enough to make her stay at home and sulk. She was better than that, her pride wouldn't allow it. Besides, there was someone she needed to... talk to. Yep, only talk to. It's not like she's planning on summoning her abomination or anything. Hehe...
Making her way through the academy she walked past her class towards the Bard coven classrooms. Classes don't start for another ten minutes but she was hoping to have a little talk with Uzair before school started. Unfortunately, despite checking all of the classrooms that supposedly housed Bard coven students, Amity couldn't find him.
Maybe he arrives late to class? Or maybe he doesn't even show up at all? Either way, it annoyed Amity because Luz deserves somebody who would put as much effort in their studies as she did. What if Uzair is using her for her fame? It is true that there are students who look down on her for being a human, Amity hates the fact that she was one of them, but in her short time on the Boiling Isles Luz has done a lot that ultimately changed history.
Luz has done the impossible. Her goal is to become a real witch, but if Amity's being honest with herself... Luz is more of a witch than she is. Despite their original difference in magic capabilities, Luz has consistently proved herself more and more capable, making the impossible possible. It's just another one of the reasons why she fell in love with Luz.
Love…
Amity stopped mid step in the hallway. Up until this point it had been that she "likes" Luz. Does she really love her? Her sister said it multiple times last night and she didn't even think to disagree. Sure, of course Amity knew how much Luz meant to her but was she really in love?
"AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!" Screamed the school bell... followed by a few coughs.
Amity gasped, realizing that for the first time in her life she was late to class. The Blight sprinted down the halls and she made it to class two minutes after it started, she was in such a state of disarray that before getting there she accidentally barged in on the wrong classroom… that was embarrassing. Her teacher thankfully let her off with a warning and she did her best to focus on her assignment until a certain someone joined them.
A couple of hours later the door opens revealing none other than the one thing her mind can't seem to get enough of, Luz Noceda.
"Present and ready to learn!" She greeted loudly upon entering.
"Good morning Luz, unfortunately today I have a bit of a headache and I won't be able to focus long enough for you to study my abomination without straining myself. Perhaps you could find someone to lend you their abomination?"
"I'm sure Amity wouldn't mind me using her abomination, right Amity?" Luz asked with a smile.
The Blight stiffened. "Nope, no problem at all. Hehe."
"Perfect, thank you Amity. Now everyone, return to your work."
Luz walked over to Amity and looked up at her abomination, "Is your abomination cool with me jumping inside of it?"
"I don't think that'd be a problem, it doesn't have a brain," answered Amity, not really looking at Luz.
"Oh yeah, forgot about that. Ok, here I go!" Luz took a deep breath and buried her face in the abomination's stomach.
Amity watched, unable to say or think anything. She wanted to tell Luz what she was feeling, but she didn't know what she was feeling. Was it a crush, or something more? Why does the first person she… feels things for, make her head spin? Amity Blight was always certain of everything she did, but when it came to Luz she knew nothing.
Too enraptured by her own inner thoughts she lost whatever little focus remained in keeping her abomination's form and the creature reduced into a purple puddle.
"Woah," yelped Luz almost falling into the gooey mess. She turned around and saw Amity staring down at her feet, visibly upset. Luz quickly wiped off whatever abomination remains were on her and stepped toward her friend.
"Amity, is something wrong," Luz asked, concerned.
Amity just stared at Luz, once again unable to say or do anything. Her mouth kept opening and closing, but no audible sounds came out of it.
"Are you ok," Luz put a hand to Amity's forehead, leaning in to find anything wrong, making Amity freeze.
She's so close!
"Amity!? You're burning up!" Luz whisper-shouted, turning towards the teacher. "Excuse me, Teach! Can I please take Amity to the school nurse? She's really hot!"
Amity felt her entire face turn red.
"Amity, are you alright," asked the teacher.
"Teach, she's really burning up. Can I please take her," Luz pleaded.
"Of course, please do get better Amity."
Luz nodded her head, quickly taking Amity's hand, and leading her out the classroom into the empty hallway to the nurse's office.
After a minute of silence Amity stopped walking, Luz turned towards her friend.
"Why'd you stop? We need to get you to the nurse's office," Luz stated, pulling Amity's hand lightly.
The teal-haired girl sighed, "I don't need a nurse… I need to talk to you."
Luz's face fell to a worried frown, "Did I do something wrong?"
"No! It's just, I mean… you're going out with that guy tonight?"
Luz's eyes widened slightly, giving her a huge smile. "OMG yes! You've heard about Uzair!? He literally came up to me and just asked me out. Me!? Like, did you see how dreamy he looked," Luz ended pushing her hands against her cheeks.
Amity's distraught look didn't disappear though, in fact she looked more upset, which made Luz more confused.
"What is it?"
"Why'd you say yes?"
"I mean… he's cute," Luz answered simply. Amity couldn't help but feel a little angry at the human's seemingly nonchalant answer.
"Is that it? Do you even know anything about him?"
"No, I just met him yesterday. Besides, don't you think that it adds a little mystery," Luz said with a wave of the hand.
"That's dumb."
Both Amity and Luz were taken aback by what she just said and how hostile she sounded. Luz opened her mouth about to speak up, but Amity continued.
"Don't you think you should at least get to know someone first before going out with them? You literally just said you met him yesterday. For all you know he could just be a stuck up jerk. Sure, I mean I guess he looks dreamy, but a date with him could be an absolute nightmare."
Amity knew she had a good point, but Luz just stared at her.
"Amity, what's this about? Why are you trying to convince me not to go out with him?
"Because you're better than that! You're better than settling for someone who only looks at you like a list of achievements."
Amity suddenly felt something... dense between them, as if the air had solidified, locking her in place.
"No, I'm not."
Amity felt her heart throb as she looked at the brown eyed girl. Luz's expression was one she's never seen before, she didn't just look sad. She looked... hurt.
"Back on Earth, no one really liked me. I was the one kid in class that everyone would avoid. I never fit in. Every attempt of me trying to fit in was seen as just "another thing the weird girl did". No matter how hard I tried I was never fully accepted by... anybody. Nothing I did impressed anybody or made them consider being my friend. Eventually I just stopped trying, throwing myself in a world of fantasy. But here? The fact that some stranger is amazed at the things I've done and wants to take me out is… it feels great. He likes me and he doesn't even actually know me. Even if he only likes me for the things I've done at least that's something, right?"
Amity stared open mouthed at Luz, shocked at what she just shared with her. That quickly changed as Amity threw her arms down at her sides, angry that those terrible humans made someone as inspiring as Luz to think so lowly of herself.
"No Luz, you deserve so much more. You should be with someone who appreciates you as a person! Me, Willow, Emira, Edric, the Owl Lady, we all like you for you!"
Amity reached forward and firmly grasped Luz's hand.
"Don't be so hard on yourself Luz, you're more amazing than you give yourself credit for. Heck, you're probably the most amazing person I've ever met! And I wouldn't be lying if I were to say that I think you're perfect just the way you are. I…"
The two locked eyes, light gold on chocolate brown.
Amity looked away, her cheeks tinted pink.
"I'll never not like you."
Luz felt something tingly in her chest and she couldn't help but feel a little flustered. No one had ever spoken to her in such a way that made her feel so... fulfilled. And her last words were just so Amity that she knew she was being genuine. Luz gave her the biggest smile she could offer.
"Thank you Amity, you're a great friend."
Despite the kindness in Luz's words, and how warm it made Amity feel, it was the most heartbreaking thing she could have said.
She'll only ever see me as a friend. That's all I'll ever be to her.
Despite how little of a chance Amity thought she had, there was a small part of her that had hope. Hope that maybe Luz would one day think of her as more than just a friend. But those words said with that smile, destroyed what little hope she'd been holding onto.
Something inside Amity snapped and her mouth moved faster than her brain.
"I DON'T WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND!"
Amity's eyes went wide and she panicked, quickly letting go of Luz's hand and sprinting back down the hallway.
Author's Note
Well… so much for the series to invalidate my story, I'm talking about Amity's current relationship with Boscha and different coven members being in their own classrooms. But, that episode showing Amity's "Gay Panic" was absolutely ADORABLE! And Luz learned a new spell (o_o) while I would love to talk more about it, I won't spoil it for anyone that hasn't watched it. So if you haven't watched it yet, DO IT!
Anyway, tell me what you think in the REVIEWS! Cya tomorrow!