Long time no see. I know it's been a very long time but I decided it was time to return.
Short chapter but I have to start the creating Sam her personality all over again :)

A kind welcome to all the new readers and followers, hope you like what you read.

POV Sam

Life was easy back when we were human. Our lives were written, we only had to do things according to our script. Grow up, find a man, marry him and have children of our own. Seems boring now but it was my life. Easy compared to this "life" if you could call it a life that is.

A dagger to the heart in a coffin with my name on it, isn't life. It's a punishment for actions beyond myself. I didn't fit the plans of my brother once more. Like back when I met Damon as a human. Not the right time to play a human but time to move before Mikael found us.

Always on the run, never at peace… I hate this, now I understand why Beks warned me back in New Orleans. Klaus is going crazy and after killing Finn, Kol and Rebekah, it's probably my turn. I hated this, leaving Elijah on his own, fending for himself once more.

I didn't allow myself to think of anyone else but my family. I couldn't…wouldn't think about him. My heart could only manage this much pain and I was already pushing the boundaries. In those intense moments all I felt was regret. Regretting the human life I left behind, the chances I wasn't willing to take.

Like that time in our village and the boy of the neighboring village asked me to dance with him. I said no because of Nik his look in this eyes. He didn't like him. Father was furious that night. Demanding why I didn't take this chance to unite our villages. A true Vikings spirit that man was. Divide and conquer kind of thing…

In that moment I realized all I was to him was a way to get more land or "sons". Nobody could replace her… the angel daughter…Freya. Rebekah and I were just replacements that never quite fit the picture. Finn even took us for granted. A messed up family indeed.

But Elijah, Niklaus, Kol, Rebekah and Henrik were kind, loving, needed pieces of the puzzle which is me. I knew my siblings better than anyone else. I could read them like an open book. But the night Nik daggered me, I didn't see it coming.

My heart got broken so many times but this was the hardest. Nik had always promised me, he would never dagger me. He could control me better as a child. That explained the spell but didn't explain why the spell was 2 years late. I was 20 years old like the day I "died"…changed. Different word, same meaning if you ask me. Always and forever didn't go according to plan.

Love is hard especially with a family which is broken deep down. Knowing we can't undo what we did. Knowing killing is our life, our need to survive. The silence around is excruciating. Where the hell did he hide my body? Is anyone here? Is this the way it should end?

That was it for now :)

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