Once home I locked the front door behind me and walked up stairs. Going into my bathroom I ensured the door was locked before stripping. This was highly painful as my leggings were acting as scabs over my cuts but ignoring the pain I carried on. Once fully undressed I started looking at myself in the mirror, poking bits of fat, bruises and old scars. Pulling my new cuts so they kept oozing blood and didn't scab. Cursing my greasy, limp, dead hair and fat useless lips.
Surprisingly pointing out my flaws didn't make me feel any worse but at the same time no better. My emotions seemingly used up for the day let my face show nothing and my body feel nothing. Running the shower I got inside and just let the water wash over me. I have no idea how long I was in that shower, nor do I care. The stinging sensation from my cuts soon went away and my head was fuzzy and unable to think clearly.
After a while I got out and dressed in joggers and a t-shirt, not bothering to dry myself and went and curled up under the covers. Lying there, exhausted from not sleeping for 48 hours yet unable to fall asleep a my mind was to busy I just lay there. Listening to the sound of a empty house.
I must have fell asleep at some point as the next thing I rember is waking up to bleary voices. Unsure who it was i put on a clean pair of leggings and a crop top before heading downstairs yawning.
"Morning Gracey, did you enjoy last night" Steve asked as he saw me making my way downstairs
"Morning" I replied yawning before continuing "Yeah it was fun thanks" walking into the kitchen to grab some juice I saw chin sat there with a cup of coffee "Hi chin" I said before sitting myself on one of the island stools.
"Hi Gracey" he replied before turning back to Steve "She said its important and requires a meeting asap"
"But I had one with her yesterday how much could of changed since then" Steve replied clearly stressed
"Apparently a lot" was Chin's only response
"Ok Grace i've got to go the governor wants a meeting, I have a feeling we'll be working late tonight" he directed at me clearly frustrated
"It's fine i've got cheer practice and then will go round megs for tea" i replied which seemed to make him a bit happier despite the factI was lying thriugh my teeth which apparently navy seals can't pick up in teenage girls.
"Are you sure her parents wont mind?" he replied a little uncertain still
"It's fine its what we do when i'm meant to be with Dano anyway so" I replied which was the truth before drinking the rest of my drink
"If your sure then" Steve responded kissing the top of my head "See you later kido" and with that him Chin walked out leaving me alone again. This must be a big case, I couldn't help think to myself, as he didn't notice the lack of my car on the drive I looked at the time and saw it was 7. So sighing I headed out the front door picking up only my keys and phone as i'd left everything else in school. Knowing Steve's nievaty to the situation would soon decrease if my car didn't appear I phoned my garage
"Mike's deals on wheels" I heard on the other end of the phone
"Hi my name is Grace Williams, I need 4 wheels size 147 please" I asked hoping they wouldn't question it
"Ok Miss Grace is this of insurance or card?"
"Card" I replied instantly as I new other wise Dano would be alerted "And can this be kept confidential to just me as this is my car"
"Of course mam if no insurance is involved, when do you want them delivered"
"Do u have any spots today?" I asked knowing they most likely wouldn't
"Let me just check,we defently have your tyres... and we have a cancellation at 10:45 is that any good?"
"Yes brilliant" I answered knowing I had a free period lesson 2 and gave him my school name before hanging up. By this point I was about a third of the way to school and passed a corner shop. Heading inside I picked myself up a pack of pens, a sandwich and a breakfast bar as I was coming close to fainting after not eating much over the last few days. By the time I got to school it was 8:20 so i headed to my locker to drop of my food and grab my pare notebook. Deciding I would try and see if my bag was still in the locker room, despite my low hopes, I headed in that direction only to be stopped by my cheer coach.
"Grace Williams please come with me" she said before marching off without an answer. I followed her all the way to her office where she motioned me to sit "you have now missed two practices, there's been a pention by your team mates to kick you off, and the last three weeks you were inconsistent for this reason you are now of the team. You may be an alternate if you keep coming to practices but that's up to you." she finished without really catching my eye
"Ok miss, sorry for letting you down" were my only words before I walked out of her office. I knew this would happen if I didn't go to practice but this week had been to hard and at least now I only had to deal with them in lessons so that was a bonus. I made the short walk to the locker room from her office and walked in without paying much attention. Seeing my bag wasn't on the bench I turned to leave when a voice stopped me
"It's in your locker, I didn't want them messing with it so I opend your locker and shoved it in" turning around slowly I saw Meg and couldn't help but say
"Why would you give a shit. You've not exactly helped this week have you" taking a breath before carrying on "Friends are meant to be there for one another, I went from having loads of friends and a boyfriend to having no one and suddenly you care about my bag. Whatever you want or whatever they told you to do or say I don't care any more I just don't give a shit so please just piss off back to your friends and leave me to get on with my new life"
"Look grace i'm so sorry" she sarted but I cut her off
"No don't if you really cared you'd be there for me and not against me, please I don't want excuses just go" she went to say something but I cut her straight off with "I said go" knowing I was about to completely lose my head at her. Knowing by her walk i'd hurt her i just didn't care she'd done the sane to me for the past 4 days and now it was my turn.