When Kono reappeared she said
"It's all good I've got you cleared. Were going to my place and talk about this properly" she sated as I knew i'd skimmed over the parts where she was most concerned. "Get out" she continued "were taking your truck so they won't target it but your not in the state of mind to drive so i'm driving" I didn't argue, didn't speak. Just let my body move without thinking or feeling like I had done all week. Strangely it was like a huge weight was being lifted off my shoulders but a new one replaced at the same time for fear of having to talk so much about it. We drove to Kono's in silence, she didn't try to break the silence obviously realizing the struggle it had been for me to tell her in the first place.
Once we got there we walked straight in to find Adam in the kitchen
"Babe were going upstairs to talk, if any of the ohana phone i'm not here and do not mention Grace" Kono said before leading me towards the stairs
"Ok, do you guys want drinks?" Adam responded calmly although visibly concerned
"That would be great babe thank you" Kono replied and she led me upstairs. Sitting on the bed facing each other I couldn't bring myself to look at her for the fear/shame or what she might have to say. But luckily she didn't push it. Waiting until we got the hot coco from Adam before I started
"I'm so sorry Kono just rember that" I pleaded before continuing "So Monday a load of my friends and also just people in my first lesson were talking about what happend and how he deserved better and all sorts so lesson 2 which I had free I went to the library to get away from it all but some of the best gossiper of the year were talking about how funny it was and I just lost it. I was still struggling with my thoughts despite everything we did at the weekend and with those thought it just pushed me over the edge. So I ran out of the library crying and went to my truck, I completely broke down crying, sobbing, shaking, unable to move, think or do anything. It took me like half an hour just to sit up and not burst into sobs again. I was in so much emotional pain I ended up doing something I vowed never to do again. I ended up using the knife kept in my glove box and cut my hips up to numb the pain and then I just sat there in some sort of trance for the rest of the day before I was able to go home." The entire time I looked at the bed, not moving at all and defently not looking at Kono.
"Hey, hey grace look at me" Kono started touching my face so I had to look at her "I'm not ashamed of you i'm just worried about you if this all happened Monday. Can i see your cuts?" she questioned wanting to know how bad my break down had been. She waited for few minuets before I was ready to show her. Pulling down my leggings slightly I showed her my cuts. "Is this why you flinched Tuesday morning?" she asked "I knew something was wrong I just couldn't tell what. Can you tell me about Tuesday?" she prompted gently
"Um, Tuesday I drove to school and saw a massive banner in the car park saying 'ban grace the school hore form the cheer-leading team' or something like that and then there were little ones round school as well. I tried to ignore it and went to first lesson where bits of paper with notes on which I refused to read, a ping pong ball was bounced of my head and all sorts of comments made. But I held it together till the end of the lesson when I ran out crying and ran straight to the bathroom where I collapsed again and Miss Harrison found me and took her to her office where I told her about Friday and yesterday minus the cutting and she gave me a exit card. I lasted 3rd and 4th lesson just about but then gym last lesson everyone was ignoring me, or purposely hurting me or all sorts of stuff so i lost it screamed at one person and ran out and that is when I found they'd smashed my front windscreen and removed and nicked all four wheels, so i just sat on the floor till the bell rang and then ran into the forest text Steve to say I was going out with friends and just sat in a tree thinking and ended up cutting again" I finished cooking down at the bed once more. Knowing she wanted to see my cuts without asking I pulled down my leggings as I had sport shorts underneath and showed her my thighs which actually caused her to gasp.
"Oh Graecy you do not deserve this. What happened today?" she pushed once more
"I made the mechanics come and fix my car. I also got kicked off the cheer team and Meg tried to make up with me but refused to stick up to the others for me so I ended up ignoring her. And then walking to third lesson some guys bet me up slightly again which is when I phoned you" I said looking up at her "I just don't know what to do any longer I just cant deal with it. Its turning into my biggest nightmare" I finished bursting into tears as Kono just held me tightly.