A/N talks about self harm, bullying and other sensitive themes throughout. also I know I havent uploaded in about a year but these chapters were already written so ill try and get round to posting them now.
I'd been sat with Kono for a couple of hours now, I don't really know how long, I don't really know what the time is, I don't really know anything except for the fact Kono's just left me for the first time to go downstairs to talk to Adam. I really don't want anyone else to find out, at least not about the cutting stuff, I feel bad letting it all out on Kono but right now she's all I've got.
As much as I hate to say it I wish none of this had happened, I wish Charlie hadn't gotten ill again, I wish my family hadn't moved, I wish I hadn't gotten close to or gone out with Jake, I wish I'd kept my friends how they were, I wish I hadn't been kicked off the cheer team, I wish I hadn't been beaten up any of the times, I wish my car hadn't been vandalised but most of all I wished I hadn't cut. At that point I got pulled from my thoughts by Kono walking back in and sitting next to me
'ok' she stated taking a deep breath 'here's the deal well tell everyone everything apart from the cutting' at this my head shot up and I went to say something but Kono put her hand up to stop me 'however I know from the cuts that's not the first time you've done it so were going talk about that later, ill help support you the best I can but you have to be honest with me and Adam will know everything as well. How does that sound'
'good' I managed with a small smile ' I really appreciate it Kono you've always been so good to me ad right now that's what I needed. We drove to Uncle Steve's house, Kono still driving my car, Adam going to pick up Kono's from school before going to get takeout. By the time we'd got home and eaten is was about 8, me and Kono had talked for 6 hours there about and I knew shed briefly told Adam what had happened already. Hanging out in the hammock by the lani Adam was saying how much we could be sisters when Steve got home.
'hey guys, thanks for coming and having dinner with grace' Steve said siting in one of the chairs 'you ok Kono? Chin said you had an appointment or something he said looking across to us. Glancing at me Kono started
'actually that was a bit of a lie, I didn't know what was happening at the time which is why I said that but I know now and I, we have something we need to talk to you about' she paused again and gave me a smile before continuing 'you're not to interrupt and just listen till we explain everything alright?'
'ok' Steve responded obviously still sceptical. I zoned out at this point I had had already lived through the whole situation and had to retell it twice I wasn't going to listen anymore.