A/N: TRIGGER WARNINGS FOR THIS 'EPISODE' – SELF-HARM, (ATTEMPTED) SUICIDE

Kurt , Mercedes, Tina, and Artie were waiting in the choir room for the new faculty advisor for Sectionals. But apparently Mr Schue hadn't assigned anyone yet so they were just talking about nothing in particular. That was until Rachel came in and asked them if they thought it was weird how the previous day Puck rushed to Quinn's aid when she slipped on the floor and asked about the baby.

None of them answered her about that and were glad she claimed to be a psychic so they used that as a quick getaway. It wasn't until they were out in the hall, and away from the choir room, that they discussed this.

"Rachel can't figure out the truth," Kurt couldn't put more emphasis on that if he tried.

Mercedes, who knew the truth and told Kurt, Artie, Santana, Brittany, and Tina, couldn't agree more. "If Rachel figures it out, you know she's going to tell Finn and Blair. So many lives will blow up."

"Blair will be crushed," Tina said worriedly. "She really loves Puck."

Kurt cut into all their worries to say, "We just have to make sure Rachel doesn't figure it out or if she does, she doesn't say a word about it." He pointed to Mercedes. "You loop in Brittany and Santana. We need to have a meeting about how to keep Rachel's mouth shut about this. If only we could lock her up until after Sectionals." He sighed heavily, "Damn her talent."

"Are we complaining about Rachel again?" Blair asked as she linked arms with Kurt as they walked, only having heard 'damn her talent'.

"Don't we always?" Artie answered with nervous laughter because he was afraid that she heard them talking.

"Point taken." She spotted Puck down the hall and said, "Gotta go, catch you guys later." Blair gave Kurt a friendly peck on the cheek and sprinted down to Puck's locker.

The little group stopped walking and watched as Blair went up behind Puck and placed her hands over his eyes before they both laughed as he turned around then kissed her. Mercedes voiced what they were all thinking. "Damn, we have to make sure Rachel doesn't blow up their world."

The rest of them nodded in agreement before going their separate ways to class.

Blair sat down next to Liam at the next Glee rehearsal and handed him a folded up piece of paper with an impish grin on her face.

Liam eyed Blair a bit suspiciously as he took it from her. "What's this?" When she didn't answer and kept on smiling, he unfolded. "Seriously?" he laughed, "A coupon for five cents off grapes?"

"I thought you could put it to good use." Blair smiled wide then turned her attention to the front of the room when Mr Schue entered with Miss Pillsbury.

Mr Schue addressed the club once they were all sitting. "Well, I have found my replacement. So give it up for Miss Pillsbury."

Santana wasn't impressed by this decision. "So, do you even know anything about music?"

Before Miss Pillsbury could answer, Mr Schue interjected with, "What's important is that she cares about you guys every bit as much as I do. Now…I don't know what the future holds for me, and for us, but I know, Saturday, you're going to make me proud. You guys are going to be great. So…goodbye for now."

"Wait, what about our set list?" Mercedes wanted to know.

"I can't help you with that," Mr Schue regrettably informed them. "You've got to figure that out for yourselves. Alright, uhm, see you around."

As soon as Mr Schue left the room, Artie said, "We have to do 'Proud Mary' in wheelchairs. That's in."

"And 'Don't Stop Believing' for sure," Finn added in.

"What about the ballad?" Blair asked curiously and rolled her eyes when Rachel jumped right up to sing one from her repertoire.

Mercedes had enough and after making it clear that she'd worked just as hard as Rachel and was just as good, Miss Pillsbury told Rachel to let Mercedes try. Upon hearing that, Mercedes looked at Rachel with a smug expression, told the band what song, and began signing 'And I am telling you I'm not going'.

Blair and the others thought Mercedes killed it and she stood up to clap because, damn, Mercedes had skills. She wouldn't have cheered but was afraid that it'd mess up the song and that was the last thing she wanted to do, so Blair used her body to express what she felt about it.

At the end of song, Blair whooped and clapped some more as they all cheered. She was worried about what Rachel was going to say because Blair didn't want anyone or anything to ruin that moment. To her surprise, though, Rachel told Mercedes that she couldn't wait to see her sing that song at Sectionals.

Upon hearing that, Blair dropped into her chair, saying, "Holy crap. I think we just witnessed a miracle."

No one, not even Rachel, could disagree with her on that.

Since it was free period after Glee rehearsal, most of the club stayed behind in the choir room so they could work on some stuff. Liam, Finn, and Rachel left to get stuff from their lockers so they weren't practicing with them, but soon they did return. Only…it wasn't for practice.

Finn stormed into the room and punched Puck the second he saw him. Before Puck could do anything about it, Liam went up behind him to hold Puck still so Finn could ream into him without issue.

"What the hell?!" Blair shouted and pulled Finn away from Puck and kept him pushed back. "What are you doing?!"

"He's lying to me! To you! They both are!" Finn charged at Puck again but was stopped by Blair once more.

"What are you talking about?!" Blair shouted, feeling so confused and pissed that he and Liam went after Puck like that.

"Tell the truth!" Finn shouted to both Quinn and Puck. "We deserve to know the truth!"

Quinn started sobbing as she admitted, "It's true. Puck's the father of my baby."

Blair froze as soon as she heard that, but she didn't believe it. "That's not true." She turned around and repeated, "That's not true," but as soon as she looked into Puck's eyes, she knew that it was.

Liam had let go of Puck and stepped back because he had no doubt that Blair would pick up where they left off and she didn't need any help in that department.

Puck was fully ready to accept the punch that he knew would be coming from her, but he had to say something first. "Blair, I'm sorry…"

Blair looked at Puck without a word, without a motion, without…anything. Something broke inside her and she just looked at him as tears started to pool in her eyes before they streamed down her face.

Seeing Blair like that hurt Puck far more than any kind of punch could have. Before he could say or do anything, Blair ran out of the room like a bat out of hell. He was going to go after her but was whipped around and punched right in the face by Liam.

"I told you if you did anything to hurt her I'd kill you." He punched Puck in the stomach. "I keep my word." Liam was going to punch him again but Mr Schue intervened.

Meanwhile Blair ran down the hall until she couldn't run any longer. She didn't feel like she got very far before she leaned against the wall and slid down to the floor. Blair pulled her knees to her chest and sobbed until suddenly she just stopped as her mind took her to a very dark place…

Blair walked into her bedroom, dragging a chair from the kitchen table behind her. After closing the door, she jammed the chair under the knob and went to her bureau. Blair pulled out one of the drawers and felt underneath it to remove the razor blade that was taped there. She kept it there to prove to herself that she didn't need to cut but after what happened…that was all Blair could think about.

Blair closed the drawer and sat on the floor. She pushed up the sleeves of her purple fishnet shirt and peeled off the last of the tape from the razor. She poised it over her arm but froze. Another idea came to mind – and idea that made her feel like it would solve all her problems in this Reality. She slowly brought the blade down to her wrist and pressed down before sliding it upwards, deeply slicing as she did.

Blair sobbed and cried out as she did this, but it didn't stop her – nothing could stop her. While she had the strength, she sliced upwards on her other wrist as far as she could go then just sat there. She closed her eyes as the tears streamed down her face, dripping onto the blood that poured from her arms placed in front of her.

The thoughts 'Never again' went through her mind. She would never feel this kind of pain or betrayal in this Reality ever again. She would never feel anything again.

Blair was pulled from these dark thoughts when Kurt crouched down in front of her in the school's hallway and took her hands. He'd been trying to get her attention and finally it seemed like he did.

"Blair?" Kurt looked at her with such worry. He was afraid she was going to do something to herself because of what happened. "Blair, what – what can I do?"

Blair looked at her Kurt and found her voice, though it was broken. "I – I don't think I should be alone right now."

Kurt didn't need to hear anything. "You're not going to be." He helped Blair to her feet and hugged her as she cried. "I got you." He looked over at Mercedes and Mike that came out to check on her, too. "We've got you."

Blair sat in Kurt's basement, curled up on the sofa next to Tina. In fact, her head was resting on Tina's lap. She felt so numb that she didn't even feel Tina stroking her hair in a comforting manner.

Mercedes put a final thing that could be used a sharp into a box and handed it to Mike. "That should be the last of the stuff she could use if she manages to avoid our eye line."

"Shouldn't we call her therapist or Sue or something?" Mike was all for being there for Blair, but he wanted to make sure they were doing the right thing.

"Blair doesn't want us to call anyone," Kurt interjected. "As soon as she says otherwise, that's when we'll call."

Mike accepted that and was about to go upstairs but stopped when he saw who was coming down them – Puck. He set the box aside and crossed his arms to block his path. "You've got a lot of nerve showing up here."

"She doesn't want to see you," Mercedes added in as she stood beside Mike to keep him from coming any further.

Kurt moved over to Blair and sat beside her when she sat up, but didn't look at Puck.

Puck didn't try to push past them as much as he wanted to, but instead spoke loud enough so Blair could hear him. "Blair, I am so sorry. I can't say how sorry I am. And I know you're hurt and you're angry and you probably hate me right now, but please don't hurt yourself, Blair. I can handle you hating me for all time, but I can't handle it if you hurt yourself. Please…don't."

"We've got her." Mike looked at Puck with as much of a menacing face as he could muster.

Puck took the hint and went back up the stairs to leave without another word.

Blair still didn't say anything but she leaned into Kurt and cried all over again.

Kurt hugged Blair tight and hated that she was going through this – they all did. So much for keeping Rachel quiet. They definitely failed on that.

When Blair finally mustered up her strength to go home, she did. Sue was not too happy with Blair when she walked in. "Where have you been?" Sue demanded to know. "I have been calling you ever since I was told you skipped school! What were you thinking?!" Her words were falling upon deaf ears it seemed because Blair went into her room. Sue was none too happy about this either. "Don't walk away when I am yelling at you." She was about to enter Blair's room to follow her, but was prevented from doing so when Blair came back out of it and tossed something onto the kitchen table.

Sue did a double-take when she saw what it was. She carefully picked up the razor and her heart dropped. "Blair…what…" Sue couldn't even formulate a whole sentence in that moment.

Blair sniffled as she pulled up her sleeves to show Sue she hadn't done anything then cried, "I've had a really bad day."

Sue dropped the razor on the table and went straight to Blair to pull her into a hug. She was trying to keep her voice strong when she said, "You didn't cut. Do you have any idea how big a step that is?"

"I wanted to," Blair cried. "I wanted to end it so badly."

Sue pulled back and placed her hands on Blair's shoulders to look her square in the eye. "But you didn't."

Blair found a bit of strength in that and held onto it to no end. "I didn't."

Saturday rolled around and Blair went onto the bus with the rest of the Glee kids, despite Sue's objections. It took the reassurance of her friends to convince Sue that they'd keep an eye on her. As much as Sue didn't like the Glee club, she knew Blair needed it and didn't try stopping her after her friends showed such loyalty.

Blair sat in the back of the bus far away from Quinn and Puck as possible. She wanted to sit alone but Liam slid onto the seat beside her. Neither of them said a word, but Liam did go into his bag and pull out a container. He popped off the plastic lid and held the container out to Blair because it was full of grapes. "I used the coupon."

Blair laughed lightly with misty eyes when she saw this and took a handful. "Told you it'd come in handy."

Since it made Blair smile, Liam had to say, "It certainly did."

When they arrived at Sectionals, and even before, morale was certainly low within the club. Finn didn't even come and Blair couldn't blame him. A part of her didn't want to be there either but she felt like she needed to do this. It was a bit of a bummer that they were drawn to go last though…but it was a good thing they did.

Every song on their set list had been used by the two teams that performed before them. Blair had reached her limit of things she could deal with – hell, she'd gone way past her limit of things she could deal with and she couldn't sit by while the other teams performed their songs.

Blair left the auditorium and went out into the waiting area. She started pacing back and forth and felt like she was going to have a panic attack. It didn't help matters when Puck approached her.

"Oh my god," Blair exclaimed. "I cannot deal with you right now, Puck."

Puck stayed far enough away from her but he had to make sure she was okay – at least as okay as she possibly could be. "I'm sorry…"

"Stop saying you're sorry!" Blair shouted at him. "I don't care that you're sorry! You lied to me, Puck! I told you parts about myself that I never talk about. I gave you a piece of my heart and I don't do that lightly and you lied to me! You betrayed me!" She scoffed and continued with her voice breaking, "And not just me. You betrayed Finn, too. I thought I knew you, Puck, but you had me fooled."

"Not everything was a lie," Puck's own voice was breaking. "Just that."

"Just that?" Blair scoffed incredulously.

Puck didn't let that stop him from saying what he had to say. "I loved you, Blair. I still love you. That was never a lie. I need you to know that."

Blair crossed her arms and looked away with a sniff before looking back to him. "It doesn't matter. I can forgive a lot of things, but I can't forgive this. In case it wasn't clear before, we are done in every sense of the word. If it was possible, I'd never see you again."

Puck let out a shuddering breath because any hope he had held onto had been shattered in that moment. He truly believed that she would never give him a chance again. Puck had one more thing to say, though. "It happened before you. I never cheated on you, Blair. I doubt that helps but I needed you to know."

Blair walked over to Puck with her arms still crossed and made something clear. "It doesn't help." She walked past him when everyone filed out of the auditorium for intermission. Their performance would be soon coming and Blair had no idea how the hell they were going to perform now, but they had to do something about that.

When she was certain that every Glee member was present – with the exclusion of Finn since he didn't come – Blair stood on a nearby chair and called out, "New Directioners, meeting in the green room in five minutes!"

Liam happened to be near her when she announced that and had to ask, "What are you thinking?"

Blair hopped off the chair and landed right in front of him. "I'm thinking that I'm pissed as hell and I'm not going to lose something I love without a goddamn fight." She was about to say something else but gasped instead when she saw someone walk past.

Liam thought Blair looked as if she saw a ghost. "What is it?"

Blair went into the auditorium and looked around, trying to spot the guy she thought she saw but couldn't find him. "It's insane."

"What is?" Liam wanted to know.

Blair knew she was going to feel stupid for admitting it but did it anyway, "I thought I saw my dad." She didn't have anything else to say about that so she went to the green room to wait for the others.

During the green room meeting, taking place an hour before they were to perform, it was the consensus that they all thought Sue was the one who leaked the set list. Blair wanted to defend Sue, but found she couldn't and needed to hear it for herself. So while the rest of the club was arguing about this and that, Blair was on her phone.

When Sue answered, Blair came right out with it, "Did you do it? Did you leak the list?"

Sue was quiet for a moment before saying, "You have no proof."

Blair wanted to punch the wall and almost did. "Why would you do that?! You know what, never mind. I don't want to know because I don't care what your twisted reasoning is."

"You sound fired up, that's good." When Sue first leaked the list that was part of her goal.

"You want me on fire? Well you've got what you wanted because I'm not going to let you or anyone else destroy what I love." Blair was going to end it with that but she had one more thing to say. "You know, I've been a wolf for as long as I can remember but I have to thank you for something, Sue. You just turned me into a dragon." With that, Blair forcefully ended the call and rejoined the group.

"Everyone, shut up!" Blair shouted because they were still fighting over who they thought was the one who gave the list to Sue and whatever else. "Fighting is getting us nowhere. We need to come up with a new list and we need to do it now." She looked at Mercedes, "Do you have anything else you can sing?"

Mercedes shook her head. "Nothing as good as that one. As much as I hate to say this, Rachel should sing the ballad. She can belt out anything on the fly."

"I do have something I've been working on since I was four," Rachel meekly offered up – meekly because she was afraid of Blair's wrath. "What do you think?"

Blair pushed her personal feelings aside and nodded. "We've got our ballad. What's next? We need a group one."

"Somebody to love," Quinn and Liam said in accidental unison. Quinn cleared her throat because she and Liam hadn't hardly spoken two words since the reveal. "It's a crowd pleaser."

Blair happened to agree. "It is." She took a deep breath. "Okay, that's two for three. Now what song can we do that'll send us all the way to first place?"

"I have one," Finn answered as he walked into the room with a stack of papers in hand. "I found the sheet music online and used the Cheerios printer to print them out. And then I trashed it." He handed the sheets around. "Mike, Brittany, Jake and Blair you guys are our best dancers. Come up with something and we'll do our best to follow."

"It's gonna be choppy." Mike had to warn him on that.

"I don't see a problem with that," Blair smiled. "We do our best when we're having fun and winging it."

"I was going to say we do our best when we're loose, but that works." Finn smiled because he had faith in this group. "Look, all we've got is our belief in ourselves and what we're singing. If we can show the judges that, then I think we've got a real chance at winning this thing."

Blair went over to Finn and hugged him. "I'm glad you're here."

Finn hugged her back. "Me, too. Now let's get this new set together so we can kick some show choir ass."

Blair touched her nose and pointed at Finn with an 'I got you' expression before going over to the others to put this new plan into action.

Showtime. The first song of their new set was 'Don't Rain on my Parade' and honestly, Blair thought Rachel killed it – in a good way. In an epically good way. Hell, in that moment Blair was actually a bit jealous of her because it was so good.

When it was their cue, the rest of the club went down the two aisles and made their way to the stage to join the solo Rachel. They took their places on the risers behind her and stood proudly when the song ended and the audience gave them a standing ovation.

Once the audience was seated, the second song of their set began; 'You can't always get what you want'. With their new choreography in place, they danced and sang and let themselves feel it. Blair, especially felt it. Everything bad that she was feeling seemed to melt away and all that was left was the music – the music and the support of her friends around her. It didn't hurt when members of the audience started getting up and dancing along with them, that definitely helped because it ignited a hope she thought had been lost.

Another standing ovation was awarded to them. Perhaps they had a shot at winning this thing after all.

And, well, winning was exactly what they did. When this was announced, they audience stood up and cheered. Liam was so excited that he picked up Blair and spun her around. She laughed happily and once she was back on her feet, she saw who she thought she saw before standing up in the third row. Blair's face froze because that guy looked so much like her father that it was enough for her to do a double take but now that she got a better look at him, it was obvious he was a different person. At least she didn't feel like she was going insane anymore.

Blair was pulled from that thought when Kurt rushed over and hugged her excitedly. The next chance she got to look at the guy, she didn't see him. All she saw was am empty seat where he once was. Not that it mattered though, it was just weird. Oh well, that unimportant thing was pushed to the back of her mind and she enjoyed the good feeling coursing through her – a feeling that she would savor and hold onto in case her mind ever went to that dark place again.

End Season 1 Episode 13

A/N: Hey, Readers. I'm really sorry if this Episode sucked, but thank you for reading. I appreciate it :)