The one were Kara wasn't all rainbows and sugar...but gets into a realization. Enjoy!

Lena pressed her phone between her cheek and shoulder while juggling all her files in one hand and going through the blue prints in her tablet on the other. Needless to say, she wasn't paying much attention, so when Kara answered the call, she was a little surprised.

"Hey Lena, what's up?"

"Kara?" she asked confused.

"Um, yeah? You called"

"Oh, I'm so sorry, I just saw Danvers and dialed, it didn't occur to me to double check which Danvers" Lena explained.

"Ow, if you are looking for Alex she's probably at work"

"Odd, she told me to call her at this hour" Lena explained "Anyways, I'll try her phone number this once"

"Good luck" Kara said "Are we still up for lunch Wednesday?"

"Yeah, sure. Meet me at L-Corp?"

"Great" Kara replied

"Um, hey? Quick unrelated question but...what's Alex's favorite color?"

"Huh?"

"In clothing, specifically?" Lena asked a bit nervous.

"I…I guess she looks good in red?" Kara provided with a hint of awkwardness.

"Red, thank you" Lena said relieved.

"Am I allowed to ask why this sudden interest?"

"Ow, I just wanted to give her a thank you present for all her help" she explained chuckling anxiously "anyways, I better leave you to go about your day, see you later"

"R-right, later" Kara hanged up with some questions racing through her mind.

Kara was at the DEO waiting for Alex, it used to be unusual for her to be this late but it had become kind of common these last few days. And it always seems to be the same reason time after time, Lena. From their late hangouts working in the already very much finished project, to going to pubs to discuss other ideas or to celebrate whatever progress they've made. And every chance of a free time either one would get they would spend it together now. So more often than not, Kara was left to her own devices.

And some things weren't quite adding up for the Super anymore, she thought once the gala and the presentation were upon them these meetings would cease but instead they were frequenting each other even more.

Once Kara saw her sister sprinting through the entrance, she sighed tiredly "There you are"

"Sorry, I was talking through some logistics of the gala with Lena"

"Ok, let's get started now" Kara said, but noticed how distracted the red headed was on her phone "Alex?!"

"What?" she looked up.

"You are still talking to her?" she folded her arms shrugging "you have been spending an awful lot of time with her lately" she mumbled.

"Yeah, she's actually showing me a lot more of her prototypes. There's so much potential in them, if only she could get a piece of alien tech her breakthroughs would be major! A single kryptonian machine could give her new bases to solve so many energy problems"

"She told you that?" Kara questioned.

"She didn't need to; I know her train of thoughts by now. I'm sure that would be her next logical step to overcome these obstacles" Alex huffed.

"That must be why she's getting close to you, to get to Supergirl" Kara said too self-absorbed in that thought to notice the hurt and indignation in her sister's eyes.

"Yeah, because the only reason someone would hang out with me is get to you" she said outraged and offended.

Kara noticed her own words and stared at her like a deer facing headlights "N-no, I-I didn't mean it like that"

"Then what did you meant to say?" Alex demanded.

Kara was caught off guard and stood with her mouth hanging open helplessly.

"I thought so" Alex stormed out leaving Supergirl alone.

Kara exhaled under her breath as the doors of the elevator opened and she reached Lena's office.

She took a deep breath and walked in without knocking "Hey, Lena"

The CEO looked up surprised by her appearance "Kara! What a lovely surprise" she went to greet her "To what do I owe the pleasure?"

"Lunch?" she answered what she hoped would be obvious.

"It's already that' late?" she took a glance at her wrist watch "I'm been at this longer than I thought" she sighed.

"Um…what are you doing?" Kara approached to see all the laid out blue prints.

"Oh, I'm working on the security for the event. The last thing I want is sabotage. Alex suggested that I hired some bodyguards since I've received double the amount of usual threats and some that she thinks might be serious"

"You got threatened?" Kara asked alarmed.

"I always get threatened" Lena answered matter-of-factly.

"Why didn't you told me?" she frowned.

Lena looked away, a very well concealed expression of annoyance and sadness almost taking over her features. She was about to say something but changed her mind at the last second "Well, I told Alex, it occurred to me she might put you up to date" she dismissed.

"No, if she had, you would know by now that I would tell you to call Supergirl" Kara remarked "I can get her to attend, you don't have to-"

"It's fine Kara. I don't need a Super to watch my back at all times" she looked at her notes "the media is getting under the impression that when she appears at my events is to keep an eye on me. Like if she mistrusted my intentions and is ready for the retaliation. Which to be fair happens very often given that most of my events tend to backlash at me"

"Supergirl isn't there to keep you in check, she's there because she trust your work"

"And although I appreciate her efforts, I can afford an evening without her appearance. I'm sure your sister has told you the same"

Kara clenched her jaw "I wouldn't know, we haven't talked recently, we…had an argument"

"Oh, I'm…sorry, are you ok?" she laid a hand on her shoulder "And is Alex?"

Kara frowned "yeah, we'll be fine" she said curtly.

"I'm sorry to hear you had a quarrel. After our lunch I'll make sure to call her as well, see if she is still up to go to the event" she turned around writing it down "Offer to cancel our visit to the pub"

"Why are you hanging out with her?" she asked bluntly.

"Excuse me?" Lena turned around confused.

"I mean…I thought you told me everything but I'm hearing a lot of things that I hadn't and apparently Alex had. Why aren't you talking to me anymore?"

"Kara, it's not that simple and I'm sorry if you have been feeling neglected, but-" she presses her lips, holding her tongue for a second time.

"What, Lena? Why are you suddenly just shutting me out?"

"I'm not trying to shut you down I just needed the change" she tried to explain, her words close to losing her coolness.

"What? What can Alex understand that I don't?" Kara demanded.

"It's nothing personal, nor against you" she continued, avoiding a direct answer.

"At least I know you well enough to know you are not telling the full truth"

Lena felt her blood boil "Kara, you are threading in dangerous waters here"

"I've always been the one that believed in you, why is that suddenly not important anymore?"

"Please, stop"

"Then just tell me to my face!"

Lena then couldn't bear it "I needed a real conversation, Kara!"

"And I'm not real?!" she retorted opening her arms.

"No! Not like that!" Lena threw her hands up "You are- just- so hopeful and optimistic to a point is downright bothersome. I don't need a pep talk or to hear everything is going to be alright, I needed someone that could understand and relate to how broken I was feeling, how fragile and vulnerable and…you are always looking the good in the world, the upside of every situation, I was just exhausted" she looked into her eyes feeling the tears assaulting "People die, family turns on you, you get left alone and hope becomes nothing more than an illusion. I can't keep a smile up or the charade that everything is fine when truth is I feel defeated. That' I'm always at the verge and looking down" she spitted "Alex understood that, she shared the feeling I…connected to that so I opened up to her about it. I didn't felt like I could talk to you about any other color other than pink"

Kara was rendered speechless. She wanted to defend herself, answer back, say something, anything! Just to refute the allegations. She was Supergirl, she was always battling herself as well, of course Lena didn't know that, still she was just as real as her sister and was determined to get her point across, but once she saw Lena's eyes casted down, she felt her drive to fight disappear.

"Just go, please" the CEO asked with little voice.

Kara stood there for a couple of seconds before ordering her legs to move. She grabbed her things and stormed out. Millions of questions flying through her head.

Lena poured a glass drinking half of the Scotch in one go, then shutting her eyes as the burn in her throat offered a new thought to occupy her mind. She filled it again and repeated the process.

She hadn't left her office, too many memories on replay in her head. She was about to take her fourth glass when a breeze ran through her office. She looked at her balcony to find a silhouette standing there.

"Miss Luthor" Supergirl addressed still standing in the shadows.

"Supergirl?" she was surprised not only by her appearance, but by how quivering her own voice sounded, truth be told she was getting kind of dizzy. So, gripping to the table she stood up stabilizing herself "Unless this is a serious matter, would you mind leaving?" she tried to take a step, forgetting how high her heels were as she stumbled, being barely caught by the hero.

"I think it's my duty to get you settled first" Kara drove her to the couch where Lena laid facing up.

"Why are you really here, Supergirl?" She asked covering her eyes with her forearm "You see a Luthor with an empty bottle and assume you should intervene before bad choices are made? I don't have a button to send out nukes, you know?"

"I'm not here to…"

"Babysit?" Lena asked sarcastically "yeah, 'cause you always appear in the right time, just before a terrible scenario, during it or after one" she chuckled "I must look like such a mess, always caught up in something. If it's not Lex's aftermath, then its Cadmus coming for another round or just the whole weight of the Luthor last name pulling me under" she confessed "all the time I feel like I'm drowning, so might as well drown my pains"

Kara pressed her lips swallowing hard. Lena never told her any of this, of course more than once she had been caught up in the middle of the monumental family dramas the Luthor family had, but it was rare when Lena would bring up the subject herself.

"Anyways, as you can see there's nothing for you to do here; you better hop off and fly to save the city or something"

"I don't think you should be alone" the kryptonian said.

Lena chuckled bitterly "Can't you tell? I'm already alone" she laughed at herself "Seems like I manage to push others away, all the time"

"I'm sure that's not true" Kara tried to sooth her.

"It is. Mother always told me so" she shifted in the couch "I can't even keep more than one friendship at the time, that's how basics my social skills are" Lena pushed her forearm harder against her face "How damaged can I be? Normal people can talk; I just…put away my feelings. Store them in places they can't trouble me"

Kara silently heard all the thoughts Lena wouldn't share with her otherwise, not as Kara at least and definitely not while sober.

"Or at least I put them aside until I can forget how much they affected me" she rambled, the alcohol clearly already way up in her head "But this once I was…I was trying, you know?" she uncovered her face unaware that tears were dripping "I can talk to her, she sees beyond what I do to why I do it. It was thrilling" she admitted "And I just so happen to push away my first friend"

Supergirl kept a safe distance, her shoulders tense "Why did you?" she knew it was an unfair question and she was taking advantage of the opportunity but she just needed to know.

"She's ray of sunshine while I'm mostly just in the dark" Lena explained "I couldn't tell Kara how lonely I was feeling, how you tell someone, 'thank you for your company but I'm feeling desolated?' She wasn't at fault, but she didn't get it either…her sister did" she smiled to herself "Alex didn't trust me at first, so I know every compliment comes from heart" she rolled over barely registering that Supergirl was looking at her "I feel…safe…to be myself, the part that isn't pretty or strong, the one that's just…broken"

Kara quietly sat down at the opposite side "I didn't thought you felt that way" she admitted.

"Why would you?" Lena asked without malice "You are Supergirl, the world is in your shoulders and your will is unbreakable, in what way would I hope you could understand me?"

"I should have made an effort" Kara muttered "Does it really means that much to you to talk to Al- Agent Danvers?"

"It really does" she smiled sweetly.

Kara exhaled softly "Ok, I get it, you need her…" she softly stroke her arm up and down "Just remember, you should try to relay on your friends- all of them" she added.

"How?" she asked more to herself.

"Start by opening up" she said tenderly getting up after leaving the CEO settled on the couch and then against her better judgment she called someone…

"Alex, wait! Don't hang up. I... need a favor, well, more like…Lena's is way over her head with drinks and…it would mean more to her if a friend stays with her and…Kara is not that friend right now, so…can you just come to her apartment? I'll take a quick flight and drop her there"

Alex opened the door to find Supergirl in full uniform in front of a very light headed Lena Luthor that refused to settle in for the night.

"I have to finish the plans, there's still too much to do" she argued trying to stand just to lose balance and fall into the bed "stop pushing me back"

"I'm not" Kara said, arms folded and an eyebrow arched.

"What the heck?!" Alex took off her jacket approaching them "how much did she had? She has never been like this in the pub"

"Let's say it wasn't happy drinking, she wasn't celebrating, she was drowning pains away"

Alex knelt in front of her "and you asked me why I was dealing with my regrets through alcohol"

Lena smirked "Hey" she greeted uncoordinatedly getting a soft smile in return.

"Hi, how are you feeling?"

"I'm fine" she extended the word "I need to keep working, can you tell her that?"

"Right now you have to sleep this one off" Alex tried to reason.

"No, no, the gala is tomorrow and I've already lost the afternoon, I can't fall behind, I just can't" she tried to stand, but Alex grabbed her shoulders trying to find her very dilated eyes.

"Hey, hey, hey, how about I help you? If we work tomorrow you'll make up for the time you lost today, sounds good?"

"You'll help?" she smiled moved.

"Of course, but you have to sleep first, alright? Otherwise we'll both be tired"

Lena sighed "Right, ok, I won't keep you up"

Kara sighed moving her cape to the side to reach for the balcony "I guess you have this handled"

"Hey" Alex reached grabbing her forearm "…thank you for giving me a call"

Kara nodded shortly, a faint smile on her lips.

"You are being a true friend by acknowledging you couldn't be here today" Alex said

"Yeah well…it sucks" Kara looked at the CEO "but the important thing is that she's alright so, it doesn't matter who is with her as long a she's not alone"

Alex nodded, she knew how much Lena meant to her and she was determined to take good care of the Luthor.

Once alone, Alex knelt in front of her again grabbing her cheek to take a look at her eyes to determine how bad it was, part of her previous life as a medic taking over.

Lena didn't stare back this time, instead she closed her eyes and leaned into her hand "I'm sorry" she mumbled.

"What are you apologizing for?"

"I didn't want you to see me like this, not like this mess. You've already seen me without the mask, which was hard enough"

"What was hard? Letting me in?" Alex asked still checking her signals.

"No, letting myself out…of my shell" Lena swayed to a side being barely caught.

"Hey, it's okay" Alex cooed while Lena rested on her shoulder grabbing into her fabric of the back of Alex's shirt.

"Are you going to leave me too?" she asked, her voice dripping with fear.

"What are you talking about?" Alex asked truly aback.

"I can't handle loses, not anymore…I thought with time it would be simpler…after my biological mother, Lex, Lionel I figured letting go would be painless… but now it just hurts even more" she began to cry.

"Hey, it's ok, Lena" she wrapped her arms around "I'm not going anywhere. And you've said it yourself, I've seen you whole and that didn't scare me away" she helped her rest on the bed "I'm staying right here" she offered, sitting at the side "I have nowhere else to be"

Lena smiled while muffling the tears against the pillow "Thank you"

"Hey, I'm here for you" she passed her fingers through her loosen ponytail, she repeated the action until the Luthor found peace in her slumber.

Alex smiled at the sight, not even in her happiest moment awake Lena looked this relaxed. It was when she didn't have to face the world that she could truly let her guard down and Alex was there to witness it. That's when the Danvers decided she couldn't take that away, so when the morning sun came, she disappeared. Lena didn't need to know she had seen her at her so called "lowest". After making sure there was medicine within her reach, water and a fresh pot of coffee ready, Alex exited the apartment. She had promised Lena she wouldn't go anywhere, but she was scared to face whatever was happening, whatever trust they've built. She rather leave that situation untouched.

I hope you enjoyed it! See you next time, And thank you for the support!