Author's Note: Yes, I am back! Happy Women's Day!

Lena tapped her pen against her notes at L-Corp, her eyes now and then travelling to her phone expecting a call, a message, anything. She kept that routine for a couple of hours getting absolutely nowhere in her work. So she pulled out some other files that were a very personal matter of hers and started to look through them very cautiously. It was a delicate subject and she wanted to present it just right, so she had a lot of research to do before even bringing the idea up. She could only offer the best and no less, which meant she had plenty of phone calls ahead of herself.

"Miss Luthor?" her secretariat sneaked her head in "are you going out for lunch today?"

"Apparently not" she answered.

"Oh, alright then" she scratched something from her chart.

"Could you schedule a couple of meeting with these contacts please?" she extended a page full of phone numbers "I'll go directly to them, don't ask them to come"

"Are those the board of directors?"

"No, they are…experts in the field" Lena offered and noticed the somewhat confused and almost panicked expression the other woman wore when she read just what their expertise was "Not for me though" she hurried to say "still, I would appreciate it if no one was to know I'm looking into it, especially not the media"

"Of course, Miss Luthor" she nodded before taking her leave.

Lena exhaled running a hand through her hair.

Alex messed her hair up sighing "Seriously Kara, I appreciate it and all, but you don't have to accompany everywhere I go"

"I'm just…making sure everything is fine"

"Listen, I'm going to run into Maggie sooner rather than later, she made it clear, she wants to talk, I just asked for time. I want this reunion to be on my terms, in neutral territory and, no offense here, but without you intervening"

"Hey, I'm just looking out for you"

"I know you are, but I'm telling you, I can handle it"

Kara smiled weakly "Ok, just remember I am less than a second away if you need anything"

"I know, Kara" she squeezed her shoulder "Thanks"

The kryptonian smiled "welcome" she nodded "Ok, back to CatCo I go, see you later"

"Yeah, later"

Once Alex was absolutely sure Kara had flown away from her and was no longer in sight or hearing range she pulled her phone out and began to text "At the dinner half past three, I can only spare a couple of hours"

An almost instantaneous response appeared in her screen under Maggie's name "Until then"

Lena put the files at a side ready to call it a night. It had been a long day at the office, her plans now narrowed down to going to bed or reading a book or both. She exhaustedly reached for her purse when her phone started ringing, Alex's photo greeting her eyes.

"Alex, hi! I thought you weren't going to call at all today" Lena said brightly, but was caught off guard when she heard a muffled sound on the other side.

"L-Lena?"

"Alex, what's going on?"

"Um…are you at work? I mean, are you done for the day?"

"Yeah, I was about to leave L-Corp"

"Could you, um-? Can we meet somewhere? I- I talked to Maggie and-"

"You did?" Lena asked aback "I-I didn't know that was today"

"I… I didn't want you guys to know until it had happened, it felt like something I should have done alone but Maggie is..." Alex groaned fighting off her feelings "I'm sorry I called, you should go home get some rest, we'll talk later, just ignore-"

"Alex" Lena firmly cut her off "where are you right now?" she asked.

"M-My apartment, didn't want Kara to know just yet"

"Ok, I'll be there in 15 minutes. Just stay put, ok? Call if you need anything" Lena waited "give me a sign you heard what I said, please"

A dry chuckle was confirmation enough "I did"

Lena exhaled relieved "Alright then" she hanged going to her car.

Alex bit into her nail looking at nothing in particular, just playing over and over her meeting with Maggie. It had hurt, a lot. Seeing her face to face wasn't even the thing that threw her off balance, it was a little detail that sparkled in front of her eyes, now that had been a shock.

She was brought back into reality by a knock "Alex?" Lena called from the other side of the door.

Once there was no obstacle between them Alex finally understood just how wrecked she was, because as soon as Lena was within arm's reach, she felt the punch in her guts and undesired tears assaulted her.

Lena embraced her strongly driving her into the couch making sure she was settled before even daring to look for her eyes "Alex…can you tell me what's wrong?"

The Danvers sucked in a breath "She…Maggie, well she's…married, Lena" she gazed trying to find comfort in those emerald eyes "It shouldn't be a shock, right? I mean if we were both ready back then why wouldn't she be ready now? I guess I was somehow assuming that if I wasn't moving on in that direction again she wouldn't either" she laughed at her words "it's ridiculous I know but…I thought it hurt us equally. It's selfish of me to wish we were both in the same pain so I wouldn't feel like the one stuck in the past"

Lena carefully rubbed her back "It's fine, you are hurting"

"But I shouldn't, not anymore; it's been so long, how can she have so much power over me still?"

"Because you give her that power over you" Lena said softly "Believe me, I know a great deal on letting other people have a weight on your own life. You just have to learn how to let go of their opinion and focus on what your own voice tells you" Lena tilted her head "And if your voice tells you, you aren't ready to go back into marrying plans, then you listen but always make sure you aren't staying in one place because you fear what is coming next. Is not the same taking time to heal and giving up" Lena explained "but truth be told, I think right now you are processing, so don't be so hard on yourself"

Alex breathed in more evenly daring to smile faintly "How are you so good at this?"

Lena giggled "I am really not, but I think we are alike enough for my life lessons to be useful to you"

Alex averted her eyes while fidgeting with her thumbs "It's a- it means a lot that you actually came"

"Of course, you asked me to, how could I not come?" Lena offered a genuine smile, but noticed something hiding behind Alex's eyes, a truth held back "Hey…did something else happened with Maggie?"

Alex hunched forward as if in pain "She just…told me about her new life" Alex mumbled swallowing hard.

"What about it?" Lena inquired trying to bring down the walls between them.

Alex frowned clenching her jaw, her body trembling "I…I don't, I can't-" she chocked pressing her hands into fists until her knuckles turned white.

Lena reached for her hand trying to make her release the tension "You can say it, I won't tell a soul" Lena whispered noticing just how pained Alex's expression was turning, the real thorn revealing its sharpness now; it was beyond just the marriage.

"She…her new wife well… she…already had a kid… a two year old girl…which means…Maggie is a mom now…" she chocked in those words "so…was it only a no with me? Does she loves this new woman more than she ever loved me to actually want to marry her despite she already having a kid or…?" she stumbled over the words rambling through tears "was I just…not good enough?"

Lena wrapped her arms tightly over the red haired woman shielding her from those thoughts "You are worth it, Alex" she said firmly against her hair "I don't know why Maggie would make such decisions and I have no moral ground to assume anything, but I can tell you without a doubt, you are good enough and then some. I'm sorry she wasn't the one, but she won't be your only one either, so don't crumble down, I know you feel like giving up, but this shouldn't be the reason you quit your dream"

Alex hugged her back "That should had been my life" she finally said.

"I know" Lena said above a whisper "It feels like it was taken away from you, but…" Lena swallowed hard wanting to say that if not for that, maybe they wouldn't be close right now, but didn't dare to say such selfish thing "but maybe the future has something better, maybe…you can still be happy"

Alex continued to cry against Lena's shoulder and the CEO had no other words to offer, so she just rocked her gently. In such a short period of time she had grown closer to the older Danvers than she had with people she lived with. It was almost frightening how much she trusted her.

Lena couldn't tell how long it was before Alex finally ran out of tears and began to breathe in slowly again. Once the shaking subside, the CEO rubbed her back encouragingly as the red haired woman mustered the courage to look up and meet emerald eyes that were ever so gently watching over her, trying to sooth her.

Alex averted her eyes noticing how she was clenching into Lena's coat, when she finally released the pressure her fingers felt numb "I'm sorry" she whispered in a tired small voice but Lena paid no mind to the piece of fabric.

Before she could think of something to say the doorbell rang throughout the room. Both gazed at the entrance as the older Danvers tried to compose herself.

"It-um, it could be Kara" Alex provided "She…has a way of knowing when she needs to make an appearance even without me telling her" she sniffed trying to fix herself.

Lena nodded slipping away "I'll take that, you can wash up meanwhile" she suggested.

"Yeah, thank you" she stood up as well going to the bathroom.

Lena exhaled reaching for the door opening it wide ready to receive the youngest Danvers, she herself knew that Kara more often than not, appeared at the right time to offer comfort, but her face was not the one to greet her.

Lena was rendered speechless as the figure stood there gazing at her with equal confusion.

"Oh, Miss Luthor" Maggie said.

"Sawyers" she answered back, her tone low and even.

"Is Alex-?"

Lena instinctively closed the door ajar preventing her from looking inside "You should really leave"

"Listen, I'm not here to cause her more harm, she left in such a state…I just need to make sure she's ok"

"If you want to help, you can kindly please go back from the same place you came from" she said sternly feeling crossed and upset. They barely knew each other but Lena had seen how much Alex had suffered just by thinking of her that she felt her loath as her own.

"I know you are used to give orders but this isn't even your own house" Maggie bite back "I need to speak to Alex!"

"I know I have no right to stop you, but you have no right to be here" Lena stated "You've caused enough hurt, regardless of your intentions. The best you can do is leave her and go back to your city and your family" she stressed the last word.

"So running away like when you came to National City?" Maggie jabbed.

"Lena?" Alex's voice was right behind her "isn't Kara coming i-?" her eyes landed on the woman she had seen hours prior "M-Maggie"

Alex seemed so wounded Lena wished she had slammed the door shut to prevent the look of hurt in her eyes "Why are you-?"

"…Can I come in?"

The room fell silent as a thick atmosphere settled and the tension rose.

"I don't think it's a good time" Lena cut in first, one arm extended out keeping Alex behind her.

"Please, I just need a couple of minutes" Maggie begged looking past the CEO.

"You've already-"

"It's ok" came Alex's voice faint but decided.

Lena turned around in a hurry "Are you sure?" she wore the concern on her eyes.

Alex nodded "We'll be fine" she assured before gazing at Maggie "Just a couple of minutes, right?"

Maggie nodded solemnly "My bus leaves at 2 a.m."

Alex breathed in "Ok, come in"

Lena slowly released the handle allowing the door to swing open "I'll let you two talk then" she said reluctantly going for her purse.

Maggie reached the couch as Alex walked Lena out.

Once at the threshold the CEO evaded her eyes.

"Hey, I'm ok" Alex mumbled.

"Just don't let her under your skin" Lena advised firmly "I'd hate to see you so hurt again" she said heartedly unaware of how much she meant those words until they were out there.

"I'll be fine" she reached for her arm squeezing it gently "I just need to say my peace, I don't want her to have all the power over me, so I'll take it back. Just like you said"

Lena inhaled sharply, that was not the time or place for her to stay and still she so desperately didn't want to leave Alex alone with Maggie "You are worth it, that's all you need to remember"

Alex smiled softly nodding "I'll call you in the morning?"

Lena tugged her lips to a side "Do" she turned around walking towards the stairs.

"Lena" Alex called as the CEO spun on her direction just to be wrapped on a tight embrace "Thank you for caring for me"

Lena hesitantly hugged back before leaning fully into her shoulder, breathing in slowly, allowing her eyelids to go down, drowning on the comfort the embrace provided. At least for now Alex was safe and sound on her arms "You are worth it. I mean it" she whispered against her hair.

Alex settled the steamy cup down before sitting in front of Maggie. Just moments prior she had been on that couch sobbing against Lena's collar.

"What did you needed to say?" Alex asked bluntly.

Maggie paced her finger against the mug "In all honestly I thought I had said all I needed when we met for coffee but then…you left like that and I realized I missed something important"

"Another child, maybe?" Alex cut her short averting her eyes.

"No" Maggie frowned knowing how much pain Alex hid under her snarky remarks "I forgot to tell you that…none of the things I've done were with the intention of hurting you"

Alex huffed looking away "That's rich"

"I mean it, Alexandra" she said severely.

"So you didn't stop for a second to think about me as you got married to a woman with a kid?! It didn't crossed your mind how those were the exact same things I was hoping to have with you?!"

"Of course I thought of you!" Maggie spat "And I hated myself at first! I felt rotten and guilty and-! And I tried to break things with her because of it!" she admitted "When we started dating I didn't now she was a single mother and as I started to get to know them both I-I fell in love with the idea of belonging with her and have a family and- and I finally understood you but- we were done and..." Maggie fought against the tears "And I'm sorry I wasn't there to help you fulfill that dream but… I didn't though I was ready back then and…life got different plans for me and I hope it will give you your dream as well…" Maggie looked down "I wanted to say I am happy and…I hope you get to be happy too"

Alex could feel the sincerity in her words which only made it worst. She covered her face ushering salty tears away while cursing under her breath "That doesn't make it easier, Maggie"

"I know it doesn't. I didn't came here to ask for forgiveness or anything like that, I just wanted to say this and be able to look forward without feeling like I was carrying a shadow full of regrets for taking the things you wanted most in life"

Alex leaned back looking at the ceiling chuckling senselessly "I though you held control over me all the while you felt exactly the same way about me" she dared to gaze at her eyes "we are so messed up sometimes, Sawyers"

The other woman offered a sincere smile "Yeah, we are Danvers" she put the cup down "Another thing I forgot to ask was…how are you holding up?"

Alex sighed loudly leaning back in, resting on her knees "Some days are better than others"

"One of those weeks?"

"One of those lives" Alex mumbled smiling to herself as she said the same words Lena had told her that first night at the bar "Things have changed a lot, I can tell you that"

"I noticed. Lena Luthor being here was…almost as weird as Supergirl being your sister"

Alex scoffed "Life can be unexpected like that"

"How did that happened?" Maggie asked leaning in to listen closely.

"She's just been a true friend to me lately…I guess I needed that. Someone on the other side that could…understand…me?" she tried to explain "Everyone close to me knows about Kara and the DEO and the expectations are just so high it's unbearable and then she…she showed me that we are so much alike" she took her cup "whatever I judge so harshly about her was maybe every single bit that reminded me of myself" she took a sip "and now I can't even imagine how I would have coped with half the things I have if she wasn't there"

Maggie softened her eyes "And I am the reason half those things have pulled you under, aren't I?"

Alex shrunk her shoulders "Maybe after this whatever we choose to do with our lives won't hurt one another?"

"I would like that" she raised her mug clashing it softly against hers "And on that note I think I should go catch a bus" she stood up "time to go back to my life"

Alex nodded standing as well as they reached the door.

"One last comment, if I may I add" Sawyers said "Does Lena know now?"

Alex questioned what she meant before Maggie provided a softly "That Kara is Supergirl. Has anyone told her?"

"N-no" Alex shook, for the first time considering how she had tangled herself deeper in the web of lies and half truths that involved her sister's secret identity "Kara hasn't told her, it was far better to protect her identity, but-"

"But now that you know her you think she should?"

Alex visibly pulled back "That's not my secret to share, it never was"

Maggie tilted her head considering it "Well, maybe before Lena was just your sister's friend and admittedly a Luthor but…now she is something to you" she pointed out "she was ready to bite my head off. She was here for you so…I guess now it's just as much your secret to tell as it is Kara's? She is your sister Alex, you carry the weight too, in a way"

And long after Maggie was gone, those words stood by Alex echoing over and over with a truth she was not ready to face.

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