The Ambivalent Hero: Book II

by ZeldaRubix

The story of Link and Zelda continues in book II. Will Link be redeemed? Will Zelda succumb to her vices? Find out in the concluding story of book I. This was originally uploaded in 2013. It will be re-edited later.

19. Chapter 19

Inspiration: Introspection, and differences.

Word Count: 16,736.

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Chapter 19

Two Weeks Later, Ordon Village: Link's POV

It was quite the understatement to say I was taking a gamble. At this point, I was downright acting in opposition to her majesty Queen Zelda's order. I was fully aware that she had that decree written as a warning for me. However, I was also aware that in the end, after everything was said and done, I couldn't and wasn't going to let anyone stand in my way of doing what I knew was right either. Midna was out there somewhere, I had to do this, and I was tired of living my life just for the convenience of others. I saved the kingdom not once, but twice, and all I wanted was a little consolation for those actions. I didn't want rupees or accolades, I simply wanted to see my beloved friend again. I just wanted to know if she was alright and if she still cared for me. That was all. Were my actions selfish? Probably, especially considering how I got to this crossroad, but the end goal, in my opinion, was definitely worth the risk. To be honest, I would probably go through a great deal more to see Midna again. I really did care for her that much.

In line with that contemplation, I made sure to be discreet in my goings about when I went to and fro from the castle. However, such discretionary measures weren't without notice. Bastion had been keeping an extra eye or two on me ever since this whole ordeal started. I didn't blame him, I wasn't exactly acting like myself these days. Every time I made an excuse to leave on an errand, he said he wasn't busy and he would accompany me on my venture. With that being the case, I often had to backtrack from what I originally intended and initiate something new. Because of such suspicious activities, there was usually a snide remark or an off handed comment from my friend. All the side stepping did on my part was give Bastion further confirmation that I was involved in something I shouldn't have been. He constantly warned me to be careful, even if he wasn't completely in the loop. I told him I would do so, and tried to ease his mind.

Right now, I was going over my plans for tomorrow. I had the map Bastion obtained a little while ago opened out in front of me, along with some other books on geography and typography. I also had a pair of calipers and a magnifying glass for specification purposes. I was currently tracing over the trail leading to the third location marked in red ink. Carefully, I was converting the inches to kilometers to scale the land marks in proportion to their real ratios. The first two locales had been simple in finding the clues, perhaps it was because of all the practice I was getting lately. Anyway, both areas did have some rather strange old relics buried within them. The first had a message written on a leather canvass in ancient Hylian that said: ...quod temporis... or "the time" roughly translated. The second clue was also written on a leather stationery that read:...ingressus est enim... or "for adventuring". It was all either one of them said, nothing more and nothing less.

It often left me puzzled, but not stumped.

"'The time for adventuring...'" I muttered aloud.

I was trying to determine if there was some intermittent code beginning with that phrase anywhere in ancient Hylian codex. So far, nothing matched up, however, I was starting to believe I needed all three pieces of information before I could solve this mystery. Who knew, I might have had the location of the Book of Mudora leading to the Mirror of Twilight in a matter of a few days. It was almost hard for me to believe that this was happening this quickly, but there was no mistaking the remnants of the first two clues and the location of the third one. Vincent had done all the work for me, and now I was enjoying the fruits of his labor. It was nice and ironic to have the tables turned for a change, and when this was all over, I was going to bring that sorry bastard and his worthless sister to justice. There was no way I was not going to see them brought before the royal tribunal for their crimes. The laundering of rupees alone was going to give Vincent twenty years, and I couldn't even imagine what the sex traffic accusations were going to estimate for Morgana. They were in serious trouble, and there was no way they were going to get away with it.

I can't believe I exchanged bodily fluids with that horrible monster, I thought of Morgana.

That woman was a whole different kind of evil. For her to be a woman and actively kidnap other women to live a life of depravity and contemptuous servitude spoke droves about her character. I didn't understand how she could be so obtuse to the feelings of others. Her black heart and her true nature were truly an enigma to me. I groaned in disgust and shook my head just then, trying not to think about it or her. My life was already screwed up enough, I didn't need to rehash the stupidity of the past, and putting the female Rue Morgue out of my mind, I decided to refocus and go over another part of the encryption codex. There was still much I needed to do. However, when my refocused form of study was underway, there was a sudden knock on the door. Surprised, I looked up from my text and glanced at the moon out the window. It wasn't too late, but I already had a feeling who it was.

I sighed, then closed my book to face the door.

"Come in," I called, and when Ilia walked through the abridging, my assumption was confirmed.

Per the usual with her lately, she had a worried look on her pretty face. I already knew from that expression that this wasn't going to be a happy discussion. I wasn't trying to be insensitive, but I didn't have time for this. I had work to do, and I really wasn't in the mood to hear her usual list of complaints tonight, even though she had been a lot less meddlesome after our last talk. However, I didn't say anything, and I waited for her to say her piece. Ilia came in and sat down across from me at the table. She was trying to look casual as she glanced over all my open manuscripts and scrolls, then afterwards she glanced over at me.

"How's the search?" she asked.

I stared at her for just a second, and wasn't sure if I wanted to answer that with complete honesty. These conversations with Ilia often started on a simple note, but then took a turn for the worst. However, there seemed to be no underhanded undertone to her question.

I nodded.

"It's going well," I said finally, "I'm making some progress."

Ilia nodded herself this time and looked over everything once again. She got quiet after her question, and that was when I knew something else was on her mind. After what I said to her before she may have been hesitant to speak as freely as she used to. Going back, I wish I hadn't been quite so harsh to her. After all, this was a very stressful situation for the both of us, not just me, and there was no telling what she was going through emotionally, or what she was feeling psychologically having a little baby growing inside her. With that thought in mind, I stopped what I was doing to give her my undivided attention. I wanted her to know she could come to me for anything, especially since we were going to be husband and wife soon.

"What's the matter?" I asked her finally.

For some odd reason she blushed at my question and looked down at her hands nervously.

"Nothing," she lied.

I raised a brow, knowing she wasn't being truthful.

"Ilia..." I trailed, "come on, stop with this nonsense. I know something is bothering you, tell me."

She sighed again and bit her lower lip. She was silent a moment longer, then looked like she decided to come clean with what she really wanted to say.

"Alright," she said, "I might as well be honest with you."

I stared at her and waited. She in turn reached across the table and took my hand in hers. For what it was worth, that wasn't a good sign.

"Link," she said, "I know you'll probably disagree, but I think you should leave the confines of the castle."

I looked at her taken aback just then.

Where in the world did this come from?

Why is she bringing this up now? I wondered.

"Ilia-" I tried.

"Hear me out," she interrupted, "before you dismiss what I have to say, hear me out."

I clamped my mouth shut and raised my brows waiting for her explanation.

This had better be good, I thought.

Ilia squeezed my hand tighter.

"I... I hear them Link," she divulged, "I hear the maidens talk about you loosely in the city streets when I go to town from time to time."

I groaned in irritation, waiting for more, but nothing else fell from her lips. Was that it? That was what had her so concerned? Why did every little provocation from another woman incite her to feel jealous? She was going to have to understand that maidens gossiped, particularly about me.

"Ilia that's normal," I replied, "it's part of Hylian nature."

She shook her head.

"Not some of the things they were saying," she reassured.

I cleared my throat, trying very hard to hide my annoyance.

"You're going to have to accept that Ilia," I said to her calmly, "women, and people in general for that matter, are that way, they talk."

My explanation obviously wasn't enough for her.

"I'm aware of that Link," she went on anyway,"but this wasn't just idle talk, they were speaking about how you and the queen had a big fight and were no longer in good standings."

I paused when I heard her say that, not expecting her to be quite so keen as to what was going on in Hyrule.

"Where did you hear that?" I asked, making I didn't sound suspicious.

Ilia stared into my eyes for just a moment.

"From some of the girls in Castle Town," she replied.

I sat back at her divulgence and pondered over her revelation for just a moment. First of all, why in the world was she traveling to Hyrule Castle Town alone in her condition anyway? Secondly, the last thing I wanted or needed was for Ilia to get a whiff of those rumors about my past relationship with Zelda. Her jealousy would go into otherworldly mode if she found out how close the queen and I used to be. I needed to deter this subject to something else.

"Ilia why are you going to Castle Town alone?" I demanded. "You know that's dangerous."

She seemed surprised and taken aback at my concern.

"I go alone a lot," she reasoned, "I used to do it all the time."

I shook my head.

"Why did you go recently?" I asked. "Everything you need is right here. Your father and I made sure of that."

She bit her lower lip and shrugged.

"I was selling some milk to the milk vendors for Hanch," she replied, "the pumpkin milk he sampled to them was a huge success."

I looked at her in mild disbelief.

Why in the world was Hanch having Ilia do his work? What the hell was wrong with him?

"That's besides the point," I said, "it's dangerous for you to be going to Castle Town alone, let alone by horse back! I just got on Ashei for the same thing."

She blushed again and looked at me with widened eyes.

"I... I didn't go on horseback," she said quietly, "I walked."

I groaned and shook my head.

"You're missing the point," I said, ignoring her answer, "what I'm trying to tell you is venturing out alone is not safe, especially with you being pregnant."

Ilia looked down at the table with a crimson face. She was quiet for a good while.

"I'm... I'm sorry, I didn't think of it that way," she said finally, "I just heard something distressful and wanted to alert you to it."

I sat back and sighed. I shouldn't have been upset with her in that regard. She was just doing what she thought was right by telling me, and all she ever wanted to do was help me. However, I wasn't kidding with her regarding the travel precaution. There was no telling who, or what, she could run into on the road alone. I knew, I had seen the world first hand. I knew how dangerous it could be out there alone, even in this supposed time of peace. Vincent and Morgana were still on the lam, they had nothing to lose, and at this point they would probably take anyone I knew for leverage if it meant getting to me. I wasn't sure how much they knew about my private life away from the castle, or if they knew about Ilia at all, but I wouldn't have been surprised if Vincent had spies watching me all this time. If either of the Rue Morgues caught wind of my relationship with her, or found out that she was pregnant with my baby, there was no telling what they would do to her. They were both part of that crazed sect known as the Interlopers. I had read somewhere that the sect still practiced human sacrifices in secret. The last thing I wanted was for her to be caught up in the middle of this complicated mess. She knew nothing about Vaati, or the situation at the castle, or the nobles hating me, or anything else for that matter, and I wanted to keep it that way. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if Ilia had to suffer for something she knew very little about.

I took her hand in mine and squeezed it affectionately.

"Look," I started, "I appreciate you trying to help me, but you will help me all the more if you just do as I ask in this one request. There's a lot going on right now with things you know nothing about and I don't want you getting involved."

Ilia looked at our interlocked hands and I think all I did was deepen her worry. She pulled her hand from my reach and got up from the table to walk about the room. When she was over by the hearth, she turned and looked at me with a determined look on her face. She interlocked her hands together before she spoke.

"I... I understand what you're saying to me Link," she replied, "but your life means a great deal to me, and I can't let my concerns go to the wayside because of your stubbornness."

I took in a deep breath and shook my head.

"Ilia-" I tried.

"I want you to quit your job at the castle," she interrupted.

I just stared at her for a moment.

She had no idea how silly she sounded.

"You know I can't do that," I replied.

Ilia rolled her eyes and looked away.

"It's not that you can't, you simply don't want to," she replied.

I stood up from the table after her utterance.

"It's not that simple," I replied.

She didn't waver.

"Yes it is," she replied.

I narrowed my eyes at her.

"Really?" I countered. "And how do you expect me to support you with no occupation?"

She took a step towards me.

"You could be a goat herder like Fado," she replied.

This time I rolled my eyes and turned away from her in minor disgust.

Was she serious?

A goat herder? She wanted me to return to that after what I experienced in Hyrule?

"Are you kidding me?" I muttered underneath my breath.

Ilia walked over to where I was and stood near the table behind me.

"It was good enough for you before," she replied, "why are you turning your nose up at it now? Fado, father and the others work very hard Link."

I sighed, then turned around to look at her.

"I never said they didn't Ilia," I replied, "but it isn't as easy for me to just up and leave."

She stared me straight in the eyes.

"Why not?" she demanded. "What aren't you telling me?"

I groaned.

A lot, I thought.

However, I hesitated for a second, knowing that if I didn't give her some kind of explanation that she was going to hound me about this for weeks. The truth of the matter was, I enjoyed my position at the castle. I liked having the respect of the people. I enjoyed what I did with the counter insurgency team for the most part, even if it was stressful. It was an exciting fulfilling life. The thought of giving all that up for a menial and meager existence as a goat herder was not something I wanted to consider. I didn't want to seem like I had a superiority complex, but I wanted more from my life than goat herding. I wasn't putting my fellow villagers down for such work. I just knew it wasn't something I wanted to do for the rest of my life. Part of the reason for my differing thought process was because my world view had changed. However, given all the things I had been through recently, why wouldn't it? My outlook on life was different. I had different desires and goals. I had grown up and seen the world, it was as simple as that. However, that wasn't to suggest that I wasn't still the core man that I was inside. I was always going to be me, but I wasn't going to pretend a life perpetually tucked away in a remote village was how I saw my happily ever after either. But... even still, even with all that in mind, I needed to ease Ilia's concerns with some kind of consolation.

"There's nothing I'm hiding from you," I replied finally. "I need for you to trust me, and trust that when I tell you that I'm okay, I'm okay."

Ilia shook her head.

"But for how long?" she countered. "I don't know why, but I feel this is a very dangerous time for you Link. Something isn't right about all this."

I grunted in slight annoyance. I respected a woman's intuition and all, but in this case I think she may have been overreacting.

"Ilia-" I tried.

"What about your search?" she interrupted suddenly. "Wouldn't it be easier to conduct your search for Midna if you didn't have the stress of that job looming over you?"

I looked at her surprised.

I actually paused and was taken aback a little at her reasoning. I never thought to think of the situation that way. All of a sudden, Ilia just made me reevaluate my whole thought process on the matter. When she put it like that, there was some merit to what she was saying. If I did leave the CIT, the search for Midna would in fact be much easier. I wouldn't have the extra eyes on me, and I would be able to come and go as I pleased. Honestly, it would probably be the ideal situation for me. However, I also had to consider the consequences of such a decision after my search. I still had to come back to Hyrule and take care of my responsibilities at home. How would I take care of my family in the long run? How would I provide properly without a decent wage? How would I buy a home if we wanted to move? True, I could always build one, but that still took resources. What was I going to do when everything was said and done then? I couldn't just make a rash decision without thinking things completely through. I was done living like that, and I needed Ilia to understand that.

"I'm doing fine on my search Ilia," I reassured, "don't worry about that."

My words still didn't ease her thoughts.

"Link-" she tried.

"Ilia," I interrupted calmly, "I'm done talking about this. You need to learn to trust me."

The concern never left her eyes.

"I know you think I'm silly, but I'm scared for you," she said, "I don't know why, but I'm really really scared for you."

I sighed again, then tried to smile at her. I came over and took her in a tight hug where I had my hand cradling her head.

"You're such a little worry wart," I whispered, "I told you what that could do to your complexion."

She hugged me tight in return, but did take note of my joke.

"I know, but right now I don't care about my complexion," was all she said in reply.

After a few seconds more, I finally let her go and sent her off home for the evening. She needed her rest and she needed to take care of herself.

"I want you to go home and ease your mind on this situation," I said to her softly, "you have enough on your plate, don't give yourself more reasons to worry."

Ilia stared into my eyes for just a moment.

"I suppose you're right," she replied.

I grinned at her.

"I know I'm right," I stated with confidence.

Ilia nodded then sighed.

"Alright, I'll see you tomorrow then," she replied.

I nodded.

"Sounds good," I said, then added, "be careful going down those rungs on the ladder, you don't want to lose your footing."

She chuckled at me.

"You sound like me," she said, "but I'll take your advice."

I then walked her to the door and watched her go down the ladder. When she was safely on ground level, she waved to me and started for the main village. When she was out of sight, I went back inside and sat back down at my table. I was going to pick up where I left off in my book, but I was suddenly thinking about Ilia's suggestion again. I was aware of what I just told her, but I couldn't shake the idea from my thoughts. I tried to force the idea out of my head and refocus, but for some reason my thoughts still came back down to one major thing: the ease of seeing Midna once more. I took in a deep sigh and closed the text I was looking in, realizing I wasn't going to get anymore out of it tonight. I decided I was going to sleep on the idea and make my decision in the morning. If the feeling was still very strong regarding this matter, I would take what Ilia mentioned into consideration. If not, I would continue with the CIT the way I had been.

I think that was all I really needed.

I just needed a good night's rest.

~SSS~

The Next Day, Hyrule Castle: Outside The Counsel Room

When I woke up this morning, it was pretty clear to me what I needed to do. The more I thought about Ilia's suggestion, the more it actually made sense. If I resigned from my duties, I would be free to look for Midna without the watchful eyes of the queen or my comrades. There would be a lessened amount of stress, not just for me, but for everyone, and I would be able to move more freely as needed. Besides, I felt like I was becoming more of a distraction and a side show than a help to the queen, my continued presence in Hyrule was only making things worse. The whispers, the gossip, the subtle glances and salacious talk were all hindrances to the court functioning properly. What did the queen's and my relationship have to do with establishing a flat tax? Nothing, but it seemed the people were more interested in the thought of us getting married than the rupees that lined their pockets. I didn't altogether blame them because we helped fuel those rumors with some of our behavior, and to be honest, some of what was said wasn't necessarily far from the truth. However, I couldn't and wasn't going to allow that to cloud what needed to be done for the country. I had already broken Zelda's heart. I had already misused her trust. The friendship we had was all but gone now. We rarely spoke, and when we did the conversations were brief and tense, with the queen often having to look away from me just to talk to me. I didn't compliment her the way I used to, because I felt she was going to think it was coming from a place of insincerity. However, there were times I wanted to tell her how beautiful I still thought she was, but I was aware of how that would complicate things. I didn't blame her for not wanting to hear my 'whimsical words' as she once called them. I knew she was still disappointed in me.

I sighed as I contemplated all this.

It was hard for me to believe that after everything Zelda and I had been through we were ending up like this. I was aware that Zelda had another ending for us in mind, but I honestly didn't think I deserved her love, even if Ilia wasn't a factor now. My mind was just too muddled with indecision, and she didn't need that in a man or a king. Zelda needed someone who loved her whole souled, and that just wasn't me at this time. However, I wasn't going to lie, a part of me still yearned to please her and want to love her the way she deserved. If anything I would have greatly desired just being her friend again. I never thought I would leave Hyrule under such circumstances. I never thought I would leave with the queen's disapproval, but I had to do what had to be done.

I was currently waiting to be seen by her Queen Zelda. It was probably a subtle surprise to her that I was asking to see her at all, especially without much notice, but I did add that it was urgent. Hopefully, that would put a fire under her belly and give the added spark needed for her not to turn me away. I was pacing the hall much like I did before when I called on her a few weeks ago, and the same guard who was watching then was watching me now with a more sympathetic eye. However, this time around he didn't offer much in terms of advice. He probably still remembered the expression on my face when I left her chambers. If that last encounter were any indicator, it wasn't a hopeful sign. I ran a hand through my blonde hair and tried not to be bothered by that fact.

I hope to Hylia this won't be anything like it was before, I thought.

I paused for a moment with my impromptu prayer when the door opened. However, instead of me being announced right away, I was surprised to see a steady influx of noblemen and women making their way out of the counsel room to the adjacent hall. I raised a brow puzzled at everyone leaving and giving me a side eye stare as they walked by. A few of them poignantly whispered to each other then glanced over at me accusingly. I was a little taken aback at their actions, not sure what their gripes were with me this morning, except for their usual list of complaints. Even still, when the counsel room was completely cleared, a courtier followed the last nobleman out and gestured for me to come forward. This was getting more and more mystifying.

What is going on? I wondered.

"Her majesty will see you now Master Link," he said, "but please keep your audience to the point because the queen is very busy."

I took in a deep sigh and nodded, not wanting it any other way. I preferred to make this as short and quick as possible. There was no sense prolonging what was going to be an uncomfortable conversation.

"Of course," I replied with a nod then walked past him into the room.

The guard watching all this time gave me a cleverly disguised thumb's up signal. I saw that and grinned at him appreciatively for the vote of confidence, I was definitely going to need it. I nodded in acknowledgement as I walked past him as well. Afterwards, the courtier closed the door behind me and my heart pounded immediately when I was face to face and alone with the queen of Hyrule. When I looked up, Zelda was dressed in all blue with the locket of Nayru's Love around her neck. I was a little surprised at her over all demeanor, because her appearance reminded me of one of the first times I sparred with Vincent in front of her. It was a little over a year ago, she was sitting the way she was sitting now, she was quiet yet confident, and she just radiated with an essence of wisdom and justice... she was so serene.

That seemed like so long ago, but it was just a little over a year.

Just a year.

I remember the first time I heard the faint sound of her almost hallowed laughter that echoed through these halls. It seemed like she hadn't laughed in years, and it sounded like music to my ears. I still remember when I had the realization that she wasn't just a perfect, icy apparition sitting on a throne, but a living, breathing, sensitive, kind woman with a large heart. She was prim and proper, true, but she was definitely more than she seemed. I remember how excited she got when I took her for a ride on the spinner, and her exclaiming, "That was exhilarating! Let's do it again!". I still recalled how she defied everyone at the ball to show her support of me. I was the man of the hour because she chose me... she chose me, even over the dragon prince. I still remember her sweet words when she kissed me with those tears in her eyes that night in the tower... telling me about her father... allowing herself to be vulnerable. She looked so innocent and sexy all at the same time. There was a lot going through my mind as this was a bittersweet moment for me honestly, so yes... my heart was pounding once again at the sight of Zelda. She was definitely more than she seemed.

I cleared my throat, walked forward, and bowed before her throne when I was about six feet away from her. Zelda's face was expressionless and she had her hands clasped together. She raised a brow in preparation to speak.

"Good morning Master Link," she said quietly, "what can I do for you?"

I hesitated for a moment.

Right to the point I see, I thought, well, I can't say I blame her.

"Good morning your majesty," I replied, then added, "I might as well not beat around the bush, I'm afraid I've come with some surprising news."

Her face didn't change, but I saw the glimmer in her eyes.

"Oh really?" she asked. "And what news is that?"

I paused again and looked at the floor. There was no other way to do this other than just to do it. I needed to get this over with, I had another location to look for.

"I'm afraid I'm no longer of any use to you," I stated plainly.

Zelda's eyes widened ever so slightly at my words, but she didn't react right away.

"I... I beg your pardon," she replied.

I looked around the empty room, then back to her.

"I want to thank you for always being so courteous and kind to me, it won't be forgotten," I said with a hint of finality. "The fact that you cleared out the hall to speak with me alone speaks volumes about your character."

It was then Zelda was on full alert. I think she finally understood why I was here.

"I don't understand," she said, "what are you saying Master Link? Why are you talking like this?"

I was quiet for another moment, but then took a step forward and looked her straight in the eyes.

"I'm handing in my resignation and leaving Hyrule your majesty," I divulged.

There was a deafening silence after that, one where a pin drop could be heard. It lasted for several seconds, until Zelda, whose whole demeanor had then changed, stood up. Her eyes were widened completely now and she looked beyond stunned.

"W-what?" she whispered finally.

I nodded the confirmation.

"I'm leaving," I repeated, "there's nothing more I can do for you my lady."

Zelda then immediately came down from her throne and stood in front of me. I was surprised at her unfiltered reaction, but not altogether thrown off by it. Her eyes searched my face in disbelief, and I wasn't quite sure, but it looked like there was a little fear in her visage. She cleared her throat and tried to downplay her actions.

"Why...?" she trailed helplessly. "Why are you leaving?"

I avoided her face now and cast my eyes to the ground again.

"I just told you why," I stated.

She swallowed hard and shook her head defiantly.

"You can't be serious," she said to me, "please tell me this is your idea of one of your bad jokes. This is a terrible jest Master Link."

I shook my head now.

"I'm afraid it isn't a joke your majesty," I said, "it's true. Like I said before, I'm no longer of any use to you here."

She took a small step forward.

"Th-that isn't true!" she stammered fiercely. "I do need you here. Why do you think I made you the head of the counter insurgency team? I wouldn't have given you that position if I didn't feel you were fit for it."

There was an undercurrent in her tone that was all too familiar. I knew where all this was coming from and it only made me feel guiltier. Even still, I couldn't let that deter me.

I shook my head.

"My lady we haven't conferred in counsel in weeks," I disclosed.

She looked at me incredulously.

"Is that what this is about?" she inquired. "If that's all then we can confer right now."

I pursed my lips together.

"That isn't my point," I said quietly, "it's obvious our relationship has... has changed."

There was a brief silence between us after I uttered that, and I could only imagine what was going through her head right now. I was certain she wasn't going to let me slide with that remark.

"Are you serious right now?" she demanded, breaking the silence. "Do you honestly want to act like you don't know why there's a void between us? Can't you understand my discretion with regard to you Master Link?"

I closed my eyes at her words and had no rebuttal to her for that. She was right.

"Your majesty-" I tried.

She took another small step forward.

"Are you doing this out of spite?" she interrupted suddenly. "Are you that disgusted with me that you would do something like this?"

I looked back into her eyes surprised, not expecting her to be this honest considering the state of our relationship. She couldn't have been more wrong. I found nothing disgusting about her. Her reaction was completely natural. I blamed her for nothing considering how I toyed with her in the past.

"I'm not doing this to spite you," I reassured, "it's quite the opposite, I'm doing this because I've caused you nothing but trouble."

Zelda immediately shook her head.

"That isn't true," she replied, "you're speaking nonsense."

I gave her an obvious stare. She knew she wasn't being honest.

"You know that isn't the case," I replied, "I've caused you more trouble than you'll openly admit to. Just ask one of the nobles in your court."

Her bottom lip began to tremble.

"You'll have to refresh my memory since you're so insistent," she challenged.

I took in a deep sigh.

Did I really need to go over everything?

There was really too much to recall.

"Alright," I replied, accepting it, "but stop me when you've heard enough. If this how you want this to be done I should start from the beginning shouldn't I?" I pretended to think for a moment then went on. "You've constantly had to defend me because of my reckless behavior to the members of your court, for instance do you remember the bar fight you scolded me about?"

She rolled her eyes and looked away when I brought that up.

"So what," she replied, "you told me you were looking for clues and someone was after you."

I nodded, as that was the truth, but that still didn't dispel the fact that it was an unnecessary action on my part.

"That is correct," I replied, and went on, "but you still had to come to my aide because I made your decision to commission me look foolish. Also too, what about all the rumors regarding the inappropriate relationship we supposedly had in the past? What about all that?"

She blushed and and still avoided my eyes.

"What about it?" she countered. "I told you once before I didn't care about any of that, and I still don't," she said. "It's all nothing but rubbish anyway."

I raised a brow and sighed, realizing she was going to be tough to convince if this was the way she insisted on being. She really cared very deeply for me, and all of her denials were showing it.

"Rubbish it may be, but it's still dangerous talk," I replied, "I don't like people speaking about you like you're a brothel girl your majesty. You're not a senseless woman, you're the queen."

She looked back at me defiantly just then.

"Dangerous for who?" she demanded, ignoring my last statement. "For me or for you?"

I hesitated.

She had me there, I didn't have a rebuttal. There was another tense silence between us after that with Zelda's eyes searching my face. She was fidgeting with her hands nervously much like she did in the past when she could hardly look me in the eyes. She seemed to be rationalizing a problem in her head all this time. When it looked like she made a resolution, she broke the silence.

"I... I know we haven't spoken in a while, but that was only because I was upset," she said with a slight plea to her voice. "As of this moment I'm not any longer."

I looked to the ground to avoid her eyes again. I wasn't sure if she was blaming herself or not, but I certainly hoped she wasn't resorting to that. My mistakes were my mistakes, and they had nothing to do with her not wanting to speak to me. To be honest, I was grateful she was so lenient with regard to what I had done. She very well could have been extremely harsh with me and been justified in doing so. I couldn't even begin to describe the guilt I felt.

Zelda... I thought.

"I don't care about what anyone else thinks Link, can't you see that?" she went on in a rare moment of letting her guard down. "I never did... I never did."

I closed my eyes at her tone and knew from her utterance she was trying to convince me that she was still willing to forgive me, and for a moment I was tempted to cave in. I was tempted because I hated seeing her like this. I hated seeing her hurt, especially over me. I knew that didn't make sense, considering my stance and actions with Midna, but I would do anything not to see her cry. I had to look away to keep my resolve.

"I appreciate that my lady, but I do," I said quietly.

Zelda blinked several times, and I knew what that meant. I didn't want to do this to her again. I didn't want to hurt her emotionally anymore, she had enough to deal with.

"Link I... I-" she tried in a whisper.

My eyes widened at her utterance because I had a feeling I knew what she was going to say to me and I had to stop her. I had to stop her because once those words were said they could never be taken back, and I didn't want her having any regrets.

"What about Emiry Tower Zelda?" I interrupted. "Do you remember how badly I hurt you after the gala? Do you remember what I said to you about Midna? Do you really think you want a man like that in your life? Do you really want to love someone who can't love you the same way?"

Zelda was taken aback, and stared at me stunned regarding my unfiltered words. She didn't want to admit it, but deep down she knew I was right. She knew and she just didn't want to face it. She wanted to keep reality at bay for the moment. However, finally, after the realization hit her, the inevitable tears filled her eyes. She immediately wiped them away and tried to look unscathed, but the pain was written all over her face. She pursed her lips together, then looked to the ground and shook her head no at my question. Seeing her do that made me wince. It was the definite confirmation that it really was over between us... though she may have gotten that message way before now. Emiry Tower was certainly a good indicator.

"Then... then you have to let me do this," I whispered, "I'm done being good for nothing for you."

Zelda hesitated for a moment, but then shook her head again, and I knew she was going to attempt a last ditch effort.

"I've never seen you as good for nothing," she replied, "on the contrary you've been quite the opposite. I can't over state enough all that you have done for Hyrule."

I took in a deep sigh.

"Your majesty-" I tried.

She raised her hand to silence me.

"Do your comrades know what you are doing?" she demanded suddenly.

I paused, but then shook my head at her question.

"No," I replied, "I wanted to talk to you first."

Zelda composed herself enough just then to stand erect.

"Well then, who's going to take your place?" she snapped. "You can't just leave your team in disarray."

I nodded at her concerns.

"I've thought about that, and Master Auru is more than capable to take over," I replied, "he's probably more qualified than I am anyway."

Zelda stared me down angrily and took a step back, then nodded sarcastically for some reason.

"Well, I guess that's that, isn't it? You've certainly thought of everything, haven't you?" she demanded in a broken voice, then looked me over. "Link, the man with all the bloody answers!"

I closed my eyes again at her tone.

"I... I suppose so," I said quietly.

She narrowed her eyes at me just then.

"You think this is a joke?" she snapped quietly. "That isn't funny!"

I shook my head, not meaning the comment in disrespect.

"I wasn't saying it to be," I replied.

Zelda's whole disposition had changed, and the signs of the demure indifferent woman I had seen only a moment ago were gone. This was the side she was working so hard not to show me. This was what she didn't want me to see again. Everything was so surreal, she didn't want to believe this was happening.

"I mandated that position to you!" she reiterated. "You!"

I winced once more at her tone.

"I'm... I'm not worthy any longer your majesty," I replied.

Zelda shook her head again, but more to herself than to me. Afterwards, she then turned away when she found herself getting too emotional. She was trying to control it, but I knew it was because she was going to cry. That was all I could take. I wasn't going to just stand there and watch her cry. I immediately went over to her and took her in a tight a hug. Zelda didn't fight me like before after the gala, and she seemed to hold me tight as she cried into the front of my tunic. I hated myself for doing this to her again.

"Please," I whispered, "please don't cry."

She held me tighter and looked me straight in the eyes.

"I-I don't want you to go!" she whispered in a very broken voice all of a sudden. "Please, Link please! I've grown very fond of you. Please don't leave like this. I was angry with you before, but I couldn't bear the thought of you leaving under these circumstances."

I cringed at every word.

"Zelda-" I tried.

She surprisingly interrupted me by reaching up and kissing me fervently on the mouth. I felt my eyes widen at her impulse, but I didn't pull away. To be honest, I didn't want to pull away. I wish I had the will to, but I didn't. In fact, the kiss had gotten passionate an intense right away and not just on her end. She was breathing hard against my lips and opening her mouth to mine.

"Link, Link, Link..." she whispered several times between a kiss.

I had never seen her so needy in her kisses like this. I'd pull away, and she'd kiss me again. I'd pull away, and she'd kiss me again. I'd pull away, and she'd kiss me again. It went on like this for several minutes, until I realized I had to get a hold of this situation. If I didn't pull away and stop this from continuing, I was going to renege on everything I intended to do. Hell, I may have been tempted to ask for Zelda's hand in marriage if it made her sadness disappear. I knew it did make any sense. None of what I thought about lately made any sense, but it was what I felt just the same.

However, the reality dictated something else. The truth of the matter was, I had already gone too far, and there was no turning back for me now. Midna was out there somewhere, and I had to find her. I had to. With that ever present thought in mind, I finally I pulled back, and this time I prevented her from trying to initiate the kiss again. However, Zelda was close to getting what she wanted because she was insistent, but I held her firmly by the shoulders.

I tilted her chin up and looked her straight in the eyes.

"I can't do this to you anymore, I have to go," I said, "I'm sorry."

Zelda's grip stayed firm.

"Link-" she tried.

I shook my head.

"I have to go Zelda," I said, "please don't make this harder than it has to be. It's already hard enough."

Her bottom lip began to tremble again.

"Link I-I can't accept this!" she said in a broken voice. "I haven't even-"

I put my finger to her lips just then to silence her. She looked at me so imploringly with her eyes brimming with tears. She was so beautiful.

She.

Was.

So.

Damn.

Beautiful.

I could barely look at her.

"You and Hyrule will be fine," I reassured, "you're strong... much stronger than me."

She shook her head again.

"But Link I-" she tried.

I pecked her softly on the lips to interrupt her once more, and then finalized this situation by leaning forward and kissing her on the forehead.

"Goodbye my lady," I whispered.

Afterwards, I let her go and started for the door. However, Zelda's eyes widened and she grabbed for my hand, but I slipped from her grip. I was almost to the door when she stopped me.

"Master Link wait," she called.

I halted in my tracks, but didn't turn around.

"Yes your majesty?" I called back.

She hesitated for a moment before she spoke.

"I... I wish you all the best Link, whatever that may be," she whispered, "and... thank you for your service, it will not be forgotten."

I closed my eyes and swallowed hard. This was probably one of the hardest things I ever had to do.

"Thank you your majesty," I replied, "all the best to you as well. Hyrule will thrive with you on her throne."

With that, I took my exit, hoping against all I hope I wasn't making a decision I was going to regret for the rest of my life. Right now I didn't know. I was just going to have to wait and see.

~SSS~

The Queen's Chamber: Two Hours Later (Zelda's POV)

I was working tirelessly to stop crying, but nothing seemed to help. I even had to dismiss the court early after my audience with Link. There was no way I was going to be able to face all the nobles and ladies once again, when I at first was perfectly fine, and now I was a crying mess. I wasn't sure and didn't care if anyone saw me leave the counsel room in a hurry to come to my chambers to be alone. The gossip was probably already circulating with speculation by now anyway. That wasn't my concern.

It was hard for me to believe that Link was really leaving like this. It honestly felt surreal, like an out of body experience of some kind. I never expected my reaction to his news to be so strong, but I was sincerely thrown for a loop. Why had he made a rash decision like that? Was it retaliation for the decree I put forth? Did he hate me now? Did he not understand my feelings in all this? I would never really know, because I couldn't get any clear declarative answers from him. It was slightly maddening to be quite honest. What a completely unorthodox and useless set of circumstances.

I was sitting at my dresser with my crown removed and now dressed in one of my huntress gowns. I felt more comfortable dressed down than dressed up. It often made it easier for me to think. I looked at my reflection and contemplated some of the recent decisions I've made. I knew my recent motivations had been twofold, with part of it being jealousy and the other part being pain, and that was no way to rule. A ruler couldn't rule based off emotions, and I unfortunately had let mine run rampant and get the better of me. Now the end result was one of my most trusted allies was gone, and I wasn't sure there was anything I could do to get him to come back. I closed my eyes and sighed, trying not to think of it any longer. What was done was done. Link was gone and he had made his decision.

It was then after my brief introspection that I looked around the commodious room and sighed again. The feeling of loneliness that I worked so hard to keep at bay was now starting to creep up again. This large room, with its hallowed halls were going to see sleepless nights again. I hated sleepless nights, and the problem was I had no way to distill it now. My usual comfort, Elbourne, was gone, and Link was now a distant memory. I knew it was probably wrong to refer to Elbourne as a comfort, but that was what he had been for me in times like these. Now with everything I said to him before and after the gala, I wasn't sure how he would react if I called on him for such selfish service. It would actually be wrong, because he would know it was because something didn't mesh with me and Link. I wouldn't want someone to use me in such a way, so why would I think it would be okay to do that to Elbourne? It was wrong plain and simple, and I needed to leave that be.

However, getting back to Link, I had hoped somehow, some way, that the hero would see the light and realize that he loved me as much as I loved him. However, given these recent events, and our conversation only a short time ago, I knew that to be nothing more than wishful thinking. So, how was I going to do it? How was I going to overcome my loneliness this time? To be honest, I didn't have time to contemplate such self centered pursuits much, as I had bigger things and people to worry about like Vincent and Morgana. However, that knock that kept tapping on my door, interrupting my thoughts, was a huge distraction as well. I didn't want to see anyone, but I couldn't become a recluse again, that would only cause more talk.

I took in a deep sigh.

"Who is it?" I called.

There was a brief pause on the other side.

"It's your servant girl my lady," Lydia called back.

It was involuntary, but I groaned, not in the mood for a lecture from my dear friend. However, I knew her intentions were pure.

"Come in," I called back.

The door opened and in walked Lydia. She looked at me with open concern and came over to me immediately. i must have looked a mess to her.

"Your majesty are you alright?" she asked.

I cleared my throat and sat upright, wanting to fan off her concern.

"Of course," I said, taking note of my pink tinged eyes, "what can I do for you?"

Lydia didn't look convinced at all.

"My lady..." she trailed, wanting me to go on for her.

I rolled my eyes and became impatient.

I don't have time for this, I thought.

"Don't coddle me," I snapped, "I'm fine, now tell me what you want."

Lydia looked at me surprised and paused for a moment.

"From the look on your face I thought you already knew," she said.

Now it was my turn to be surprised. I gave her an off handed look.

"What are you talking about?" I asked.

Lydia raised a brow.

"So... you haven't heard?" she asked.

I was growing tired of this.

"If I knew what you were talking about Lyddie I wouldn't be asking," I replied, "now will you please be out with it."

Lydia bit her lower lip and nodded. I was wrong for being so short with her. She was only trying to temper the dialogue before she spoke.

"Very well ma'am," she said, "have you heard about the news from Dragon Roost regarding Prince Elbourne?"

My ears perked immediately, and I gave her my undivided attention.

"Regarding Prince Elbourne?" I repeated.

She nodded.

"Yes, ma'am," she replied.

For some reason I felt the bottom of my stomach drop.

Oh no, I thought, I hope nothing has happened.

"News?" I repeated. "What news?"

~SSS~

Dragon Roost, Two More Weeks Later: Elbourne's POV

It had taken me some time, but I think I found the perfect alternative to my beloved Queen Zelda, and it was quite by accident too. Ever since I met up with that lovely young lady again, that maiden named Adlez, I admittedly had been thinking of the queen less and less. In all honesty, I was truly surprised at that fact because I thought no one could come and take my mind away from the queen of Hyrule. I apparently was wrong, and in a substantial way too. Not only was Adlez proving to be a considerable diversion, she was also proving to be very intriguing and enigmatic. It wasn't hard to grow fond of Adlez because she was charming, beautiful, intelligent, and very kind... much in the same way that Zelda was kind to me. I found that sort of agreeableness interesting, because it came from a place of pure unselfishness. For the most part the giver didn't ask for anything in return, the person simply just gave. That quality and type of genuineness was rare in people, let alone when it was conjured from a selfish and stiff necked aristocracy like the one in Hyrule and Dragon Roost. However, that was Adlez, that was who she was, but... I wasn't going to pretend she was all sweetness and gaiety. She had her faults like anyone else. Admittedly she was a little eccentric, and from time to time I would catch her talking to herself. These attributes weren't deal breakers in themselves, but I did find them to be an oddity to say the least. It was just a quirk I took note of.

I also found out she was stubborn and strong willed, coupled with a high sense of morals and standards. I had to divulge that because when I took her out after the Dragon Gala, I, of course, thought we were going to end the night making love in my chambers. However, that was not to be. Instead, Adlez simply thanked me for the night on the town, told me the dragon ride was wonderful, and had me escort her back to her family's manor north of Dragon Roost. That was it. That was all that happened. At first, I was shocked and upset that I wasn't going to get my carnal satisfaction the way I usually did when I took a woman out for the evening. Part of the reason I put on the charm so thick was so that I could have the sex at the end of the night. There was no sugar coating that fact. I was a man with a healthy appetite, and I knew what I wanted. I liked sex, I enjoyed it on a regular basis, and I wasn't going to pretend that I wasn't physically attracted to this woman who openly rejecting me. Adlez was stunning, and I wanted to see all that beauty up close and personal. However, she firmly stated her reasonings for her abstinence with conviction and said she was not spending the night with me. I made sure to be vocal about my discontent while I took her home, but she didn't seem to care. She didn't waver in her stance. Admittedly, that did make me respect her all the more... so much so, I couldn't stop thinking about her.

Adlez seriously turned me down.

Me.

There was no way she didn't want the ultimate evening with the dragon prince.

No way.

Women begged for that.

I stayed up for the rest of the night trying to figure out what I could have possibly done wrong. Did she not like the dragon I chose? Was she upset that I didn't offer her supper first? Did I come on too strong? Was she shy? Was she simply playing games? Was she crazy? Was she a conniving bitch? Seriously, what the hell was wrong with her that she would reject a night in bed with me? I mean, it's me.

I was so bothered by it, that directly the next day I called on her demanding to know why she had me ride her around all night with no real reward at the end. Most women expected a night in bed with me, so why was she so different? What gave her the audacity to turn me down? I needed some answers. When I was announced at her home, she looked at me stunned and surprised that for one, I came to see her again, and so soon for that matter, and two, that I was so upset about the preceding night. However, after hearing my complaint, she made it very plain and clear to me that if all I wanted was sex, or 'copulation' as she so elegantly put it, a brothel girl should suit me just fine. I tried to argue her down, but she stood her ground, and afterwards kindly asked me to leave if I had nothing further to discuss.

I looked at her shocked.

Truly shocked.

No maiden, outside of Zelda, had dared to speak to me in such a fashion.

Not one.

Did she not know who she was speaking to? Did she not realize that I was the dragon prince? Did she not understand that I stood in line to be the next king? Was she not aware that any other woman would have been begging to be in her shoes? I mean seriously, who did she think she was dealing with? The interesting thing was, I think she was completely aware of who she was dealing with, and she simply didn't care. She had enough self respect to put me in my place, and, I wasn't going to lie, I was stunned by her boldness and her unbridled tongue. When I left her home, it only made my intrigue for her deepen. So much so, that after that fateful encounter, I called on her everyday. The reality was I had been seeing her exclusively since the gala, and it was interesting to note that in all that time she hadn't slept with me or gave me any provocation that she wanted to once.

I couldn't believe it.

For the first in a long time, I thought I may have found someone who might actually be taking a like to me for who I really was. That was telling because the only other person who really knew me -the real me- was Zelda. The queen was aware of how selfish and spoiled I could be, but she also knew I didn't like to let anyone in either. I just didn't. I didn't like being vulnerable in front of anyone, but I let Zelda have access to that part of me because I trusted her implicitly. However, admittedly I was starting to let my guard down around Adlez as well. Just the other day, I called on her to have lunch with me, and during the course of our conversation I slipped and told her a little about the dysfunctional relationship of my mother and father. She was staring at me with a keen interest as I spoke in an unfiltered fashion, but perhaps the most telling thing of it all was, that afterwards she grabbed my hand, squeezed it affectionately, and told me that my father deep down did love my mother, he just didn't realize it yet. I was silent for a long time after that and just stared at her after her utterance. I had the strangest sense of deju vu just then, realizing Zelda had said something similar to me only a little while ago. I don't remember the exact circumstances, but I definitely remembered her saying it.

It was uncanny.

For some odd reason, after that conversation with Adlez I got angry and took her home. I warned her not to repeat what I said to anyone or she would suffer dire consequences. She stared at me for just a moment and smiled, probably recognizing my insecurities right away. Afterwards, she boldly reached up and caressed my cheek, then told me I didn't need to worry, my secret was safe with her. Afterwards, I watched her as she went inside her home. Strangely, as I stared after her, I did something rare and took her at her word. I didn't feel I needed to worry about her opening her mouth to the gossip mavens. I didn't believe she was going to tell anyone. Her reassurances left a deep lasting impression on me, and I wasn't going to lie, I felt a little smitten with her because of it.

Not understanding what she saw in me to take my silly childish behavior, I asked her one afternoon why she still continued to let me call on her when I was so unbecoming to her. Adlez grinned at me, then jokingly told me that she really couldn't defy the prince, but added that she didn't think I was unbecoming. She explained she thought I was interesting and complicated, and that she liked trying to figure out interesting complicated men. I wasn't sure what to make of what she was saying, so again I let my insecurities show and got upset. I acted foolishly and threatened to never see her again if all she wanted was some specimen to probe and analyze. She was initially taken aback by my threat, but then she got quiet and just stared at me with those beautiful green eyes. Her eyes searched my face as her features softened with time. Afterwards, again she grinned, and kissed the tip of my nose. She took my hand in hers, and told me I was thinking way too deeply on the matter, and that I should relax. Once more, I was surprised at her unbridled, unfiltered tongue, but I was grateful for it. I was glad she wasn't afraid of me, I was glad that she felt comfortable enough to tell me like it was so to speak.

As the weeks went on, my liking for Adlez deepened. It was so great, that many in the court began to take notice, especially my mother. It was now being whispered that I was openly courting the maiden with the possible intentions of marriage. My mother was pleased that I found such a nice 'friend', as she liked to call her, to associate with, and she was also glad I had found someone with a clean reputation. I think my mother was proceeding carefully regarding labels just in case things didn't work out. She often did that to spare both the maiden's and my feelings. However, in this case, there was no need for that. I was taking this very seriously. I realized Adlez was special and that I wanted to know her on a much deeper level than the friendship we had now. I even took her to meet my mother. She, of course, was naturally terrified of the prospect, stating it was too soon, and people would get the wrong idea about us. Again, me letting the comment get under my skin, I narrowed my eyes at her and looked at her with open suspicion. I didn't like what she was implying by that statement. Who cares if people thought we were courting? It was none of their damned business. So what if we were contemplating marriage, what was it to any of them? I decided I wasn't going to let that slide, and asked her in private what 'the wrong idea' was. I gave her a hard stare as I waited for her reply, she just blushed and never answered. I figured I would let that fall to the wayside for now, she had a right to be cautious around me. I did have a promiscuous reputation. However, promiscuous or not, that still didn't deter me from having Adlez meet my mother. In the beginning of the meeting she was nervous, but as soon as she saw how kind and receptive the dragon queen was, her fears quickly diminished. The two of them even had a long conversation about me as though I wasn't even there. I pretended to be bored, but it was quite entertaining. I was glad they both liked each other. My mother even asked me in private after their meeting if Adlez was the 'one'. I just smiled and told her to wait and see.

It then became the practice for me to call on her every day for the next two weeks and have lunch with her. We were actually inseparable for the past five weeks. I couldn't help wanting to see her. Adlez was wonderful company. She told me about her family as well, even though I honestly didn't need the history. Ever since I got myself reacquainted with her, I took it upon myself to find out about her family secretly, and she came from good stock. Her father was a noble who owned several iron ore producing mines, her mother was a lady regularly seen in the court, working in the office of the queen, and her brother was away at the Scholar's Academy learning to become a scholar. By all rights and standards she came from a good well bred family.

At first, I could tell her father wasn't too happy to find out his daughter was associating with the big bad dragon prince. If I were in his shoes I would probably feel the same way, my reputation was pretty rambunctious at best when it came to women. However, I believed my actions over the last few weeks spoke for itself. Adlez wasn't just some girl for me to recreate with to pass the time, I was genuinely interested in her, and I wasn't going to lie, I was starting to care about her very much. However, there were some in the court who didn't believe that, and so to test my devotion in direct challenge to what I was doing, some maidens openly offered themselves to me, knowing that I was courting Adlez. In fact, one girl propositioned me sexually right in front of my favored maiden. Adlez was embarrassed at the flagrant behavior and initially opted to excuse herself while I made my decision. However, I stopped her immediately, as there was no need for any of that. I turned the woman down without question, and warned her never to be so rude or disrespectful to my guest again. Both she and Adlez looked at me shocked, then afterwards I grabbed Adlez by the hand and tugged her along her for a dragon ride. The whole time we flew over Dragon Roost she didn't say a word. It was the first time I rendered her speechless.

The wonders never ceased with that woman.

As for our current situation, we were relaxing in my chambers over some sherry, tea, and biscuits, and she was telling me about the state of affairs of her household. I thought it was interesting that she had such a working knowledge of what really went on in her family. She wasn't just a pretty face who stood idly by. Her father spoke with her equally and taught her about his business. He lectured her about invoices, management, and good ethics like a father would lecture a dutiful, ready-made son. Her mother was just as studious, keeping her abreast on all the gossip and fashion going on in Hyrule and Dragon Roost. Her brother was not without mention because he wrote to her on a weekly basis telling her about all the things he was learning, and also to complain about how much he loved and hated school. I could relate to that, I was an excellent student, but I preferred a more kinesthetic approach to my learning. Some would question my meaning, but I didn't care. I found the candor of her family quite refreshing. Admittedly, in the beginning, they were all nervous at first with me coming to dine with them and listen silently to their conversations. I wasn't sure if the expression on my face appeared bored, but that wasn't the case at all. I was far from bored, I wasn't looking that way to be rude, I just wanted to sit and listen. They were all such interesting people.

There was something authentic and real about their laughter and love. It actually made me think of Zelda's family when her parents were alive. King Daphnes II was such an attentive father, and Zelda was the apple of his eye. Queen Quistis too was a loving and caring woman, she in many ways was like my mother, it was no wonder the two of them were best friends. That word family was such a foreign term to me, as it could mean so many things. I wished my family was 'normal' like that. I wished my father loved my mother in the same fashion that the lord of Adlez's house loved his wife. I even wished I had a brother or sister to brag about or complain over. The dynamics were so different from what I was used to. However, I knew one thing was for certain, when I became a husband and father I was going to have plenty of children... plenty. I mean, why not? All it did was ensure that the bloodline would go on, and who didn't want a little part of their self to continue on? There was no question about it.

Adlez was pouring herself a cup of tea instead of sherry and continued speaking about her father's business.

"It seems like such a silly act of futility to reorganize an entire stockade of goods when they are just going to be loaded onto a boat," she was saying.

I shook my head in immediate disagreement.

She was failing to see the bigger picture.

"Your father is doing it so that when the cargo unloads at the next dock, the process will be more streamlined," I replied, "an organized stockade is easy to manage."

Adlez rolled her eyes.

"I had a feeling you were going to say that," she stated.

I smirked and sat back.

"And why is that?" I challenged.

She groaned.

"It's the same thing my father said," she said.

I saw her trying to shift.

"It's because you know he and I are right," I said, "that's why you have no counter to my statement my dear."

She grinned and shook her head, seeing no way out of this argument.

"Ugh... men," she muttered.

I laughed at her saying that, but was suddenly alerted by a knock at the door. Not expecting anyone, I turned and looked at it surprised.

Who in the world could that be? I wondered. And why are they bothering me now?

"Yes?" I called.

Without answering, the door opened and in stepped my servant Fortunado. He was carrying a gold tray that housed stationery messages.

"A letter has arrived for you from Hyrule my lord," he stated.

I raised a brow puzzled.

I wasn't expecting that at all.

"Hyrule?" I repeated.

He nodded.

"Yes my lord," he replied.

I took in a deep thoughtful breath and paused for a moment looking from the letter to my servant intrigued.

"Who's it from?" I inquired.

For some odd reason Fortunado looked from me to Adlez and hesitated for a second.

"You want me to reveal that to you... now sir?" he asked.

I looked at him taken aback, not understanding his caution.

What has gotten into him? I wondered.

"Yes," I said with a slight impatience, "who's it from?" I repeated.

Fortunado paused again, but then cleared his throat and answered anyway.

"Uh... the queen my lord," he replied finally, "the message is from her majesty, Queen Zelda."

Without realizing it, my eyes widen slightly and I felt my pulse dance. I hadn't corresponded with Zelda in weeks, so the fact that she was writing to me was intriguing in itself. I just hoped my reaction wasn't too alerting to Adlez, I was trying to keep it subdued. However, I don't believe I was successful in that, because from my peripheral field of vision I saw her stiffen a little at the queen's name. Her reaction told me I didn't do my job well at all. Suddenly, I understood Fortunado's initial hesitation. He was trying to avoid making my guest feel ill at ease. It looks like that caution was thrown to the wind.

I wasn't ignorant to Adlez's abrupt unease, I should have expected it with the way I reacted. It was no secret that everyone knew about Zelda's and my... 'complicated' relationship. The people had whispered and gossiped about it for years. The people knew I had once worshiped and adored the ground the queen walked on. The people knew that at one time if she ever called for me I would go to her without any questions asked. The people knew I used to tote publicly how head over heels in love with her I was. They knew how I bragged on how I thought that she was what I considered the epitome of perfection. However, the people also knew all the feelings regarding these matters were one sided.

Everyone was also aware of how I made a fool of myself at the ball. Everyone was aware of how she publicly rejected my marriage proposal. Everyone knew all of it. So, for her to be writing me now meant two things: one, trouble was brewing, or two, she was lonely. If it was the latter, I was not interested. Zelda had made her choice very clear to me when she chose that peasant over me. She claimed they were in love, if that was the case, she could leave me the hell out of it, because it was no longer my concern. They could love each other to death for all I cared. However, I wasn't going to pretend that I wasn't a little mystified with what she may have had to say. I wasn't deaf to all the rumors now circulating that Linux had recently fallen out of her majesty's favor for some unknown reason. Even still, that was none of my concern, but it was interesting to say the least. What had those two love birds argued about?

I would probably never know.

"Thank you," I replied finally, "please bring it here."

Fortunado bowed, then came over to the table and placed the letter in front of me. I recognized the queen's seal immediately. I then glanced over at Adlez who was looking down at the letter as well. I could tell from the look in her eyes that she wasn't happy. She looked up at me afterwards and sighed.

"Well?" she asked.

I knew exactly what she was going to say.

"Well what?" I replied anyway.

She rolled her eyes and looked back at me.

"Aren't you going to open it?" she asked. "Aren't you curious to know what it says?"

I took in another deep sigh. I wasn't going to lie, I was curious what Zelda had written. However, I picked up the letter and tossed it to the side of the table in an effort to show her that it wasn't a big deal to me.

"It can wait until later," I replied.

Adlez wasn't too reassured by that.

"I think you should read what it says now," she prompted, "it might be important."

I would have preferred to drop this subject altogether.

I had made my decision.

"I told you it can wait," I said.

However, she was still insistent.

"Your highness-" she tried.

"You heard what I said Addy, now drop it," I interrupted.

She clamped her mouth shut and looked back down at the table. I didn't mean to snap, but I was clear on what I wanted. She was worried, and I wanted to show her she didn't need to be. I was with her and I was no longer putting my life on pause for the queen of Hyrule. Those days were over. Like I stated before, Zelda had made her choice. Even still, my own sincere thoughts didn't dispel the fair amount of silence between us after that. I could tell the evening had just been ruined by that brief advertisement. The normal sparkle in Adlez's beautiful green eyes was gone, and her agreeable nature had been replaced with a sullen one. I hated how even the mention of the queen could impart such dire insecurities in a woman. Adlez was beautiful and gifted in her own right. However, I understood her concerns, the queen of Hyrule was the queen of Hyrule, and she was an impossible woman to be compared to.

I decided to break the silence.

"Addy I-" I tried.

She stood up from the table just then.

"Do you mind if I excuse myself your highness?" she interrupted surprisingly. "I suddenly remembered another engagement."

I looked up at her taken aback from my seated position, then narrowed my eyes and crossed my arms over my chest. Why was she doing this now? She knew damn well that that was a trite excuse for leaving and she had no previous engagement.

"Will you sit down please?" I asked her calmly. "You're getting yourself upset for nothing."

She didn't see it that way.

"I don't think so your highness," she said.

I stood up after hearing her say that. I walked around the other side of the table and tilted her chin up so she could look at me. She was still avoiding my eyes.

"Would you feel better if I read the letter in front of you?" I asked.

She didn't reply, but I knew that was what she wanted. I took hold of her shoulders and kissed her forehead tenderly.

"Please sit down," I whispered afterwards.

She finally looked into my eyes and sighed. She hesitated for a moment, probably rationalizing if she really wanted to hear what was said or not, but then followed my command and sat down. Fortunado who had been standing nearby to see all this, remained quiet, but then bowed and excused himself. I was certain he felt uncomfortable witnessing all this, and I appreciated his discernment for privacy. When he left, I went back over to my side of the table, sat back down, and opened the letter from Zelda. I skimmed it over briefly before reading it out loud. I wasn't going to read something to Adlez that was definitively for my eyes only. If Zelda were confessing something, or saying something harsh, I wasn't going to divulge that. However, the letter didn't read like that at all. In fact, I was a little surprised at it's contents.

I cleared my throat in preparation to speak.

It said:

"My Dearest Elbourne,

It has been quite awhile since we last spoke, right before the Dragon Gala I believe.

Anyway, I wanted to correspond with you and ask about your well being. I'm sure you're

in the best of health as you always take very good care of your physical disposition. Just be mindful

of your dragon flying, you tend to be a little footloose and fancy free when it comes to that.

The last thing I would want to hear about is something terrible happening to you because

you decided to grandstand for a pretty face. Pretty faces are a proper motivation, true,

however, I believe common sense and discretion should prevail above all. I'm done lecturing

you for now, but I can only imagine your face as you read this.

Also,

it's come to my attention that you are courting a lovely young maiden. I am so happy for you

Elbourne. I wanted to congratulate you personally on finding a lady that meshes well with you. I know how

picky you can be. From what I've heard, she comes from a good family and the two of you have been

inseparable since the gala. Is she that lovely girl that rode with you on your dragon that night?

Is she nice and caring? Do you both have a lot in common? Do you think she's the 'one'?

I hope you don't keep me in suspense. I really would like to know. Remember, that the invitation to visit me

is always open Elbourne. You don't even need to make an announcement. I hope to hear from you soon as I

do miss you my friend. Take care, and take this maiden seriously, you don't want to lose her if she is perfect

for you.

Always Your Friend and Ally

~Zelda, Queen of Hyrule~"

When I finished reading I was both surprised and indifferent to the news. On the one hand, I was grateful the queen was happy for me, it showed her grace and maturity. However, on the other hand, I wasn't going to pretend that that was the letter I was expecting from Zelda. Some how, deep down, I wanted to know that she still needed me in some way. I wanted to know I was still important to her... maybe I wasn't any longer. Maybe farm boy made her feel complete now. Whatever was going on, it certainly made the queen a changed woman. I should have been more happy with what was said, but I wasn't. It was a strange, unsettling feeling that I didn't completely understand myself.

With all this now out in the open, I needed to be mindful of my expression because Adlez was staring at me now. I was certain she was studying my face to see what my general affect was. Was I disappointed that the letter didn't say anything else? Yes, but I wasn't going to divulge that to her. It was imperative that I got her mind off this and reassured her that she was what I wanted.

"Are you alright?" she asked, breaking the silence.

I shrugged in a nonchalant manner and grinned.

"I'm fine," I replied, "did you not hear what was said? She's happy for me that I found you."

Adlez blushed, but then looked down at the table. She was quiet again before she spoke once more.

"Is that what that look on your face means?" she asked cynically. "That's what happiness looks like to you?"

I didn't reply right away because I knew I needed to tread carefully.

"Happiness has many faces," I replied, "that's a silly question Adlez."

She paused for a moment and studied the expression on my face.

"You're... you're still in love with her, aren't you?" she asked softly.

I didn't want to answer that question.

"Zelda and I have always only been friends," I replied.

She didn't believe me.

"You're avoiding my question," she said.

That was obvious.

"I don't think it's necessary," I replied.

She was getting bothered by my deflection.

"Your highness you don't have to pretend with me," she replied, "I can see it in your eyes."

I sighed, quickly getting bored of this. She needed to learn to take me at my word. When I said something I generally meant it.

"What you see is me looking at you," I replied. "What you see is you and I spending time together. That's all that matters."

Adlez shook her head.

"For how long Elbourne?" she asked honestly. "How long before you realize I'm not the queen, and you have to be content with what you have?"

I took in another deep sigh.

"Do you want to end it Adlez?" I demanded. "Is that what you're asking me?"

She paused again before she spoke. She bit on her lower lip and looked uneasy at my question. Afterwards, she stood up again from the table.

"I don't want to stop seeing you Elbourne, I think you're wonderful and charming," she said gently, "but I do think you need some time to ponder over what you really want before you delve into another relationship. Her majesty is an incredible woman, and, really, no one can outshine her in grace and beauty. I know I remind you of her in some ways, but Elbourne... I'm not her."

I felt like I was simmering for a second. This was not a conversation I wanted to have right now. I was getting over the queen. I was enjoying my time with Adlez. So what if she reminded me of Zelda, I would eventually get beyond that and learn to care for her for her own qualities. I already enjoyed her family and spending evenings with her. Why couldn't she be happy with just that for now? Why does everything have to be all or nothing? It really wasn't fair to me that she was putting me in this position. What did she want me to tell her? That I was no longer in love with Zelda? Did she want me to lie for the sake of our relationship? I couldn't do that because it would only hurt her more in the end.

"I'm aware of who you are Adlez," I said, "I'm also aware that you aren't the queen of Hyrule and you never will be."

I saw her face go from stoic to stunned. I did have a little venom in my undertone, and I wished I had used more self control than that. She took a step back from the table and clasped her hands together.

"I... I understand," she said and a rare set of tears came to her eyes before she immediately wiped them away, "thank you for being honest. Please excuse me your highness."

With that, she bowed and hurried to make her way to the door, but before she could get by me I grabbed her wrist. She stiffened but then tried to pull herself away from my grip. However, my hold was tight she wasn't going to get away.

"Your highness-" she tried.

"You're really just going to leave like that?" I demanded. "You're not even going to stay and fight?"

She looked at me defiantly.

"I'm not fighting over any man Elbourne!" she shot back. "If you care for me, then you care for me! I will not be your rebound mistress while you figure out if you want to be with me or not!"

I stood up at hearing her say that.

"I do want to be with you!" I replied. "That's why you're here! Zelda's always going to be a part of me. Yes, I still love her, but I haven't given her a second thought since I started spending time with you."

Her eyes refilled with tears.

"Is that supposed to make me feel better?" she demanded.

I rolled my eyes and groaned. Everyone claims to want the truth, but when the truth is given to them they get upset because it wasn't as seductive as a lie. In the end, everyone prefers a lie, everyone.

"If I wasn't serious about you, I wouldn't have let you meet my mother," I replied, "you're the only other person besides the queen of Hyrule that I brought before her! Don't you understand that?"

She looked at me surprised for a second, but it didn't last long.

"It doesn't-" she tried.

"Shut up!" I yelled in a heated moment of anger. "Stop making this all about you goddamn it! If I wanted to just play around with you I would have and never saw you again! I care about you you damned coward, and all you want to do is walk away! I'm not letting you walk out that door because you can't accept the reality of this situation! This is who I am Adlez! Accept it!"

Adlez's eyes widened to as wide as they could stretch and she was rendered speechless. I looked into her beautiful face for a just a moment longer then leaned over and kissed her impulsively. She immediately kissed me back, and suddenly all her fears regarding our relationship went right out the window. The next few hours were admittedly spent in bed, as neither one of us could contain ourselves any longer. It was crazy, out of this world type sex... I knew she would be a tigris in bed. However, even after all that, when the passion between us had finally settled, I began to wonder if I was cursed in some way. Why was I thinking that now? Because I couldn't stop thinking of Zelda's letter.

...I'm very happy for you... she had written, but was it true?

I turned my attention to Adlez sleeping peacefully next to me, and admired her raven hair looking so perfect in contrast to the white silken pillows she was resting on. She was so beautiful, but so were so many other maidens who had occupied that spot. I stroked my hand over her cheek tenderly and watched her smile in her sleep. I then sighed and sat up, wondering if I was ever going to get this thing called life right. I looked back over at the table where I left Zelda's letter and thought again about what she had written. There were no ledger lines to read in between, but it certainly felt like I was overlooking something. In a minute decision, I got out of bed, put on my robe and made my way back over to my table. I sat down and looked over the writings again. I found nothing different from when I read it the first time. However, as if in tandem with my thoughts, there was a quiet knock on my door. Surprised at the subtle intrusion, I looked over at my bed to see if Adlez was still sleep, fortunately she was. I then raised a brow and turned my attention to the door.

"Yes?" I called quietly.

Without answering, the door opened and in walked Fortunado. He looked a little taken aback when he saw the state of my dress.

"Should I come back in the morning my lord?" he asked.

I fanned off his concern.

"No it's fine," I replied, "my guest is sleep." I gave him a quick once over. "What are you doing here?"

Fortunado immediately produced the envelope he had hidden behind his back.

"Sir you have another letter from Hyrule," he revealed, "... it's from the queen."

I looked at him surprised.

"What?" I said.

He nodded.

"It's from her majesty your highness," he said, "two letters in one day must mean she is in serious trouble."

I sat back in my chair, a little dumbfounded at this news.

What's going on? I wondered.

"Bring it to me," I said with no hesitations.

Fortunado bowed and then came forth and set the stationery on the table. Afterwards, I dismissed him.

"Thank you," I said, "I'll call you if I need you."

He bowed again, then left the room. I waited for the door to close and then looked back over at Adlez still resting in my bed. I was grateful she was still sleep. Without wasting another moment, I verified the seal on the back of the letter, it was definitely the queen's. I then tore the letter head open and read it's contents. I was both shocked and puzzled at what it said.

What in Hylia's dear name? I wondered.

It simply read:

Elbourne... I...

That was it.

That was all it said.

I wish I were kidding.

I turned the letter around to make sure I didn't miss anything on the outside stationery, but I was pulling at invisible strings. There was simply nothing else written on the paper. I read the letter again:

Elbourne... I...

Why in the world would Zelda send me an incomplete letter? Why would she start writing her thoughts and not finish them?

Elbourne... I... what? I wondered. Am angry at you? Miss you? Wish you would come to see me? ...Love you? What is this woman trying to tell me? Why is she always so damn indecisive?

I took in a deep breath and groaned a little from what this could all mean. That little inkling that stayed dormant inside me for Zelda was starting to manifest itself again. Why did this always happen with her and me? Why did we always make declarations we never intended to keep? She said she loved and wanted to marry the farm boy. So why all of a sudden is she writing cryptic letters to me? I thought she made her stance and was going to stick to it. I knew one thing, I was tired of all this. It was never one settled decision with that woman when it came to our 'friendship', or whatever the hell we wanted to call it. However, I wasn't going to fool myself either, I also realized Zelda was the kind of woman I just couldn't let go of either. I cared for her way too much not to know or try and see what she was conveying. I had a feeling she sent that first letter with other intentions than the ones she had written, and now after seeing this second message I was almost certain she was trying to tell me something else. It felt like a guarantee to be quite honest.

I looked back over at the bed to Adlez resting so peacefully and felt a rare conjuring of guilt. Maybe I was wrong in giving her such a strong reaction to her wanting to leave earlier. Maybe I shouldn't have been so insistent that Zelda was no longer viable in my life.

Maybe Adlez was right...

Maybe she did have to worry...

I read the message again:

Elbourne... I...

I tapped the stationery several times on the table.

What are you trying to tell me Zelda? I thought. What's going on in that interesting mind of yours?

I knew one thing was for certain, the next few weeks promised to be interesting. They promised to be interesting indeed.