A/N: Hi, yes, I'm alive and I'm sorry! I know it's been almost a year! Hopefully you guys still love me. I just really missed Kim/Jared and Paul of course and I kicked this chapter out based on that. Btw I changed the story to M… We all know what that means. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. I'll put a little star next to the part that some people might not want to read.

Knock, knock, knock.

My head shot up and I ran to the door in excitement. "Coming!" I called before I threw the door open. My excited grin fell flat. "Oh, it's you."

"Oh it's you." Paul mocked, stepping around me into the house. "I'm starving, what do you have to eat?"

Groaning, I followed him into the kitchen, smacking at his arms as he went through the fridge and, seemingly disappointed, started on the cupboards. "Leave my food alone. What the hell are you even doing here?" I grumbled. I was expecting Jared, who had been basically MIA for the last couple of days, even more so than the last few weeks.

"I'm hungry." He stated.

I rolled my eyes. "Do I look like Emily? Go over there. I'm sure she'll feed you."

Paul scrunched up his nose. "And see Leah or Jacob? Ugh, no thanks."

"Be nice. They're both going through a rough time. And besides, you're not exactly the most pleasant person to be around, Paul. Pot and kettle."

He put his hands over his chest and looked at me with a hurt expression. "When did you get so mean Kim?"

"Around the time I started hanging around you." I joked lightly, my bad mood starting to wash away. I never thought I would have said this six months ago, but spending time with Paul was one of my favorite things to do. "So are you not on patrol today?"

"Nah I'm free until later tonight, thank god. So we can hang out." He said cheerfully, wrapping an arm around my shoulder. "What do you want to do? I think Emily is having a barbecue tonight. Her sister and her kids are coming down for the weekend and she wants to do something fun. Want to head over early?"

I sighed, leaning into his embrace for a second before shrugging. "Obviously I have nothing better to do than hang out with you idiots."

"Deny it all you want, Kim. But you love us."

"Yeah, yeah," I waved my hand at him as we headed out the door. "You're a bunch of idiots but you're my idiots. All of you."

Emily squealed when I came in the house. She actually squealed like a little girl. "Kim! I'm so happy to see you!" She gushed, wrapping me up in a tight hug. "I haven't seen you around at all lately. You haven't been sulking have you? Heaven knows one sulker is enough." She eyed Jacob pointedly who was across the room.

I gave her a small smile. "I haven't been sulking…" I trailed off. "Much." I added honestly.

Paul rolled his eyes. "You know how they get when they're apart." He said to Emily, who had only half-heartedly acknowledged his presence. "And it's nice to see you too, Em."

"There are muffins in the kitchen, Paul. Try to be civil and not shove them all in your mouth at once, please. My sister, brother-in-law and my nieces are around here somewhere and I'm sure they would appreciate you acting like a normal human being." She emphasized the human. Paul kissed my head, a surprisingly familiar gesture and made his way through the house. "You, Jake and Embry are on relief in two hours!" She called after him.

I smiled, feeling completely at ease and wondering why it had taken me so long to come back over here. Finding room next to Jake, who was sitting in the corner alone wasn't hard because everyone was purposely steering clear. "Hey there buddy." I said softly.

He looked at me with a cloudy frown on his face. "She hasn't come to see me yet. She hasn't even tried. She sent me a bunch of stupid letters. Or what if she has tried and that stupid leech isn't letting her? God I hate that arrogant, filthy bloodsucker."

I sighed. Here we go. "If you want to see her so bad, why don't you just go over there and see her? No one's holding you captive."

"I can't. I can't let her know that this is affecting me and that he won. I have to stay cool." Despite myself, after he said that I let out a snort that I tried to muffle embarrassingly. "What?" He asked.

I put my hand on his arm gently. "Jake, the last thing that you're doing is staying cool. Everyone can tell, even if they couldn't read your mind already, that you're hurting. You need to go talk to her and get some closure."

He grunted. "I guess." And that was the extent of our conversation. We sat in a comfortable silence for a few minutes before a young girl came screaming down the hall, her dark brown pigtails flying behind her as she halted in front of us.

"Hi!" She piped up, brown eyes sparkling. "I Claire!"

I smiled at her. "Hi Claire, I'm Kim. How old are you?"

She held out five small, pudgy fingers and said, "Two!" Holding back a laugh, I smiled in amusement as she held out a Barbie doll. "Wanna play?"

"Sure, why not?" I said. It beats sulking around with Mr. Grumpy Pants.

She took me over to the corner of the room where all of her dolls were spread out, gave me a specific doll with a specific outfit and yelled at me every time I did or said something she didn't like. It took almost everything I had not to laugh, but I was scared of upsetting her so I just bit the inside of my lip and nodded along with her.

Emily checked in on us a few times, as did her mother Annie, to make sure that she wasn't being a bother but I assured them that I was quite content hanging out with her and her six year old sister Danni.

I wasn't even sure how much time had passed, but I couldn't contain my excitement when I heard the door open. Scrambling to my feet, I caught a glimpse of Jared coming through the door and I flung myself at him. His arms caught me without missing a beat, like he expected me, and he lifted me into his arms, pressing his nose against mine. "Hi there pretty girl." He murmured. "I've missed you."

I pressed a kiss to his lips before he set me on my feet. "You have no idea how happy I am to see you." I sighed happily and then as an afterthought, smacked him on the arm. "That's for leaving me with only Paul to hang out with these last few weeks. I can feel my IQ dropping."

"Hey!" Paul called, flicking the back of my head as he passed by me on his way to patrol. Jared gave him a deep glare, but I just shook my head and laughed, leaning into his embrace.

Suddenly, someone tapped my legs. "Don't you wanna play?" Claire asked me in a small voice.

Feeling guilty, I looked down at her softly. "I'll play with you in a little bit okay Claire? How about you ask one of them?" I pointed to the group of guys that were left in the house.

Determined, she grabbed one of her Barbie's and tugged on Quil's pant leg. He didn't notice her at first but she tugged harder. "Hello." She said, when he finally noticed her, and held out her doll. "Wanna play?"

When he didn't answer her, I went over and kicked him. "Don't be rude, Quil. She's only two." I whispered. After her didn't respond to me I peered at him and I realized he was staring at the little girl with wide eyes and an open mouth. I looked at Claire, standing in all of her innocence and then back to Quil. "Oh no…" I whispered.

Finally, he seemed to wake up and bent down to her level. "Hi honey, what's your name?" He asked softly, completely ignoring my presence.

She smiled proudly. "Claire!"

He smiled adoringly at her. "What a beautiful name. My name is Quil."

She grabbed his hand and tugged him with her. "Play with me Qwiw." She demanded. And without any hesitation, he followed.

After I got over my initial shock, I realized the seriousness of what had just happened. "Emily!" I called frantically.

The house had quieted down considerably at nine. Danni had gone to bed, the Clearwater's had gone home and Emily and Sam had taken Claire's parents outside to talk. I was sitting on the loveseat draped across Jared with my head resting on the arm of the couch. He was absentmindedly stroking my hair as he watched Quil silently.

The two year old had fallen asleep in his lap, plump pink lips in a circle and breathing deeply. Quil couldn't take his eyes off of her. "You alright buddy?" Jared asked him quietly.

"I feel…" He trailed off. "Brand new. I feel like I'm a whole new person now. This little girl, Claire, she defines me. I just want to keep her safe."

"Congrats bro, I'm really happy for you. And I mean it." Jared said sincerely.

The whole thing was kind of weird. Emily had freaked out and basically insinuated that Quil was some sort of child molester until Sam and Quil really and truly explained his feelings to her. The situation had proved Sam's previous theory that we imprint to mate completely wrong.

So not only was the pack baffled by this new development, Sam and Emily had to make the decision to tell Claire's parents about the imprint, rather than risk them accusing Quil of some pretty horrible things. And poor Quil had to deal with imprinting on a two year old.

Looking at him in this moment though, with the adoration that he had in his eyes for her, it didn't seem like he was going to have any trouble.

Emily peered into the living room. "I don't mean to kick you guys out but…" She trailed off, looking at Jared and I. We nodded in understanding and I kissed Quil's cheek and wished him luck before we headed out.

The nights were finally getting warmer now that it was April, but the rain was getting worse so we were lucky that we caught a night that it wasn't raining. "How about we walk?" Jared proposed, grabbing my hand. I agreed, happy that I had some time to spend with him and he tugged me close enough that he could wrap his big, warm arm around me. I appreciated not only the warmth that it gave me, but the smell that surrounded me. "God I've missed you." He muttered.

I smiled. "Of course the one night we get to see each other, something else has to happen." I said with laughter in my voice. "How is the hunt going for-"

"Don't." He quickly cut me off. "I don't want to talk about her or any other bloodsuckers tonight. I just want to spend some much needed time with my favorite girl in the world." He kissed the top of my head and I blushed in the dark, sighing happily. There was nothing I loved more than being with Jared.

We strolled together comfortably until we reached my house, immersed in darkness. "Alright well, this is me." I murmured.

"Isn't there anyone home tonight?" He asked with his eyebrows pinched together. I shook my head and Jared sighed heavily. "I don't like the idea of you being alone all night."

Without giving myself a chance to talk myself out of it, I blurted out, "Stay with me tonight."

Suddenly, I felt his lips on mine and my knees went weak. "I was hoping you would say that." He whispered. Without removing his forehead from mine, he reached over and unlocked the door. "Let's go inside."

I surveyed the house for a minute, satisfied with the way it looked and praying that I remembered to pick my dirty clothes up from this morning before I had left with Paul. "I have an extra toothbrush in the bathroom upstairs for you. Unfortunately I don't have any clothes in the house that would fit you. Are you okay to sleep in what you're wearing?" I asked.

He gave me an adorable smile. "I'm good Kim, just relax. What do you want to do before bed? We could pop some popcorn and watch a movie? It's still pretty early."

Red blush stained my cheeks and I looked down at the floor nervously. "I was actually um, hoping we could go to bed now."

He gave me a worried look and tucked a piece of hair behind my ear. "Sure baby, are you tired? Come on, let's go upstairs and get ready." I let him lead me upstairs, knowing that he didn't understand what I meant, but I kept silent.

While Jared brushed his teeth in the bathroom, I twiddled around the bedroom nervously, making sure that I was wearing my matching set of black lace panties under my tiny shorts and tank top. Sleeping with Jared always made me sweat so I always made sure to wear as little clothes as possible. I put on deodorant just in case, swept my hair up into a neat ponytail and gave myself a silent pep talk in the mirror before I went to join Jared in brushing my teeth.

When I was done, I made my way back into my room, closing and locking the door behind me just in case. He was sitting cross legged on top of the comforter, watching me and I gave him a timid smile before turning off the lights and hopping onto the bed next to him.

I sat nervously for a moment, trying to swallow away the butterflies in my stomach. "Kim?" Jared murmured. "Are you alright?"

***Without saying anything, I grabbed his face and kissed him. It wasn't our normal, gentle kiss. I shoved my tongue roughly in his mouth and swung my leg over so that I was straddling his lap. He kissed me back immediately, putting his hot hands underneath my shirt to grab my hips and grind me into the growing bulge in his lap. Without realizing it, I moaned into his mouth at the contact and he growled, flipping me so that I was on my back in a blink and then attacking my mouth again with his.

I hitched my leg over his waist and grabbed at his back, pressing him closer to my aching body. "Take off your shirt." I whispered.

In a heartbeat, he had whipped it off and hesitantly, I peeled mine off after, feeling exposed in just my bra. Jared's eyes darkened with lust and he started to kiss around my chest.

As he nipped at my skin, the only thing that I could think of was that his hands were so hot and they made my body tremble and before I knew it, I had taken off my shorts and Jared was staring at me with wide eyes. "Kim, what are you doing?" He asked in astonishment.

His hand was resting on my hip and I grabbed his wrist and slowly started to guide it inside my panties. The warmth of his large fingers at my core made me shiver and I pressed his hand harder into it. "It's okay." I said breathlessly. "I want to. It's okay."

"Are you sure?" He muttered. When I nodded, he pinned the hand that was guiding his above my head and started to work his fingers in and out of my core. "Fuck Kim, you're soaked. I fucking love it." He growled into my ear before he slowly bit my earlobe.

I gasped as his large thumb came up to rub circles around my clit and I found myself unconsciously groaning and bucking my hips upwards. "Oh my god." I cried in shock, unable to form a coherent thought about how good I was feeling.

If Jared was this good with his fingers…

The thought made me bite my lip and moan out again. His fingers were rubbing and moving faster and I could feel him rubbing his hard on against my leg as he continuously pumped his fingers inside of me and moaned with me. As he got faster, this feeling deep in my stomach started to grow and build and all of a sudden, it exploded all up my body and I found myself screaming out Jared's name.

Not moaning, not whispering, screaming.

"Fuck!" He hissed and as I came down from my high, he came down from his too. I realized what had just happened and I tried to catch my breath. Not only did I have my first orgasm, I made Jared come in his pants. We laid there for a minute before he sat up. "I need to clean off." He murmured, making his way to the bathroom. ***

After I finally got my thoughts in order, my cheeks flushed in embarrassment and I hid underneath my pillow. Oh my god, I'm an animal. I can't believe I just did that. Who am I?

After a minute, Jared came out and put a hand on my leg. "Kim? Are you okay?" When I didn't respond, he sighed. "Please don't be embarrassed…"

"Don't be embarrassed? I jumped you like a porn star." I muttered. "I don't know what got into me."

Jared smirked. "Other than my fingers?" I sat up and shot him a glare. "Sorry, kidding… Kim that was the hottest thing I had ever seen. You never have to be embarrassed around me okay? And trust me, that was definitely not anything close to a porn star..." When i glared at him, he held his hands up. "Not like I've ever watched it or anything. Besides, it's nice to know that you're not the same shy, bookworm that you usually are in bed. "

My eyes widened. "Shut up! That's so not funny!" I cried, but I found myself smiling along with him, as usual.

He kissed me softly. "I love you, Kimberly Spencer. Nothing will ever change my mind about that. Now come here." He snuggled under the blankets and lifted up his arm so that I could snuggle up against his chest. "I think that's enough excitement for one night. Get some sleep sweetheart."

I closed my eyes and sighed happily. "I love you too, Jared."