Dear Ben,
Wow, I can't believe I'm actually sitting here writing you a letter like we are some cryptic pen-pals, but here I am! I just figured this may be a more detailed way to keep you updated with Riley and me, and also, hello, I can send you pictures now! Why didn't we think of this before?! Honestly Benny, for being a college kid you sure can be dumb sometimes, why didn't you suggest this?!
Anyways, sorry I've been a little MIA the last couple of weeks, I've just been dealing with some personal issues with my abilities and my health. Not my abilities as a father, for once, but my actual "human Ouija board" abilities - go figure. I'm not going to lie, Benny, it was bad. Really bad. I'll spare you the gory details, but just know that I'm okay now, and Riley is too. We are safe, and you shouldn't worry. I'd tell you if there was ever a reason to freak out, I promise.
Actually, I'll be honest, I was nervous to tell you this next part over the phone, so this may be what sparked this letter to actually come about in the first place. You're not going to believe it Ben, but I met someone. Turns out, Riley makes an amazing wing man! His name is Dave, and we met shortly after you left for school, in the baby food section of the grocery store, no less. I swear it's like it was destined to happen, bro. Riley was fussy, and I was having a minor panic attack, and Dave, well, he was just there and knew exactly what to do for both of us. He even offered to drive us home when it started to rain. I won't go too far into detail for sake of attempting to keep this letter short-ish and sweet, but I'll just say I know what you're thinking, Ben, but you're wrong. Dave is different. He's unlike any other man I've ever met. He's kind, sweet, and I don't know how, but he somehow finds it in his heart to care about me. Oh, and did I mention he adores Riley?! How could I not find him swoon worthy? He's the only reason I'm still standing right now, Ben. Seriously. Dave has been there for Riley and I through all of my recent downs, and I could not be any more grateful for him. I literally owe him my life. He's amazing, you'd love him Benny, I know you would. We've only been "official" for about two weeks, so I don't want to get too far ahead of myself, but I don't know, he is definitely something special.
Any-who, I'll stop boring you with this sappy update about me and cut to the chase to fill you in on the actual important portion of this letter:
I can't believe my sweet baby girl is one month old already! Well, 5 weeks old, and boy, has she already had an eventful first month of life! She loves eating her bottle, and makes the cutest little faces and suckling sounds like a piggie! However, she still hates sleeping unless she's held. Not that I'll ever complain. If I'm being honest, I don't much like sleeping unless I'm holding her, either. I guess we have that in common. Riley enjoys her daddy singing her to sleep as long as she's in my arms, and she weighs a whopping 9 lbs 12 oz and is 22 inches long. She's in the 55th percentile for height and 30th for weight. She grows every day, I swear. One day I'll blink and she will be a teenager and I'll be shooing her admirers off the porch with a broom!
All joking aside, I still can't believe I'm lucky enough to call her my own. She truly is perfect, bro. I can't wait for you to see her again, we love you and miss you.
Oh, I hope you enjoy the two pictures I've attached! The one of her in the violet onesie you got her was taken last weekend after our daily stroll around the neighborhood. Then you probably recognize the other photo, since it's the one you two took together the day you left for school, you know, when you two promised to never forget one another. She can't wait to see you Benny.
You can either write back or call. Or both! If you like the letter let me know, maybe we can make this a monthly thing, you know, to document all of Riley's progress in life! I'll talk to you soon, bro. We love you! Have fun in school!
Love, Klaus and Riley
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Benjamin!
I'm glad you enjoyed your last letter! I agree, I think this is a great idea! I love your suggestion of keeping them and framing them or adding them to her baby book. I knew I kept in contact with you for a reason! Kidding, kidding, you know I love you!
Hm, where do I begin? Well, things with Dave are still going great! I've got to say Benny, when you called me and demanded to speak to him I almost shat my pants. Then you went and surprised me and made me all giddy by just thanking him for being so good to me and Riley and getting to know him?! Have I told you lately that you're my favorite brother? Because you are. You have no idea how much that meant to me, bro. It made Dave happy, too. I told you that you two would hit it off! He adores you. It's pretty cute, I have to keep reminding him that hey, I'm the boyfriend! You're supposed to adore me! He's excited to meet you. Seriously, when can you visit? Riley and I miss you so much, and now Dave wants in on that action, too.
As for me, I'm doing pretty well. I'm still not at my full strength, but I improve every single day. I have a lot more energy, but I still get exhausted by the early afternoon and need to take daily naps to function. Dave is amazing, though. On my low energy days he takes care of Riley and still manages to fuss over me, tending to my every beckoning call. You know, two nights ago was one of the worst days I've had in awhile. Riley and I were crazy busy all day with doctors appointments for her, and grocery shopping. I hadn't slept well because of nightmares the night before, and didn't get to take my nap because of all of the errands. When we finally got home I was physically shaking. I was so exhausted. Would you believe that Dave drew me a bath, made me the most fantastic dinner, and then proceeded to give me a back massage until I fell asleep? Like, woah, really? I had to pinch myself to make sure I wasn't dreaming. He's seriously so amazing Ben. He takes such great care of Riley and me. I don't know how I went from being the unluckiest son of a bitch, to the absolute most lucky man in the world. It's crazy to me that my shameless promiscuity of my past wound up bringing something so positive into my life. Riley truly has changed my life for the better.
The ghosts haven't been a major issue since the incident. Thank god. Dave did get around to finishing hanging all of the crosses and rosaries around the house in every doorway. Thanks for being so cool about that. I know you said you were absolutely all for it, anything that would help keep us all safe, but you know me. I just feel bad we had to put so many holes in your walls. Sometimes I can still hear the faint murmur of them, but I swear it's like they're afraid of Dave. Whenever he's around they leave me be. It's only when I'm alone that I ever experience them at all. It's nothing like it was, though. I promise. Dave is like my own personal good luck charm. I really, really, really like him, Benny. He is so amazing with Riley, and she loves him so much. He's just…wow, he's perfect. I know our relationship is still pretty fresh, but fuck, I'm already falling hard for him. It's weird, I've never felt this way about anyone I've dated, ever. Dave truly is one of a kind. Every morning when I wake up I thank the world for bringing him into our lives. I'd be lost without him.
Riley is 2 months old now! According to her latest doctors appointment she now weighs 12 lbs 1 ounce and is 22.75 inches tall! Slow down baby girl! I keep telling her she's not allowed to get any bigger, but I don't think she'll listen. She is so strong and extremely spirited! Dave always calls her his little wiggling worm. I think she must like the nickname though, since it always makes her smile. She's just started noticing her surroundings more, and becoming more aware of everything that's going on around her, and she just loves to pretend she is walking! Her legs are powerful, though! I think she bruised one of my ribs, the little stinker. She may be tiny, but she sure is mighty! Her smile is contagious, and we just love it! I can't wait to see what her future holds!
Enjoy the new pictures! Yes, that's Dave in the photo giving her a bath. Aren't they both adorable? And look at those dimples on her cheeks when she smiles! As if she didn't already melt my heart every time I looked at her, she honestly could not be any more beautiful. My daughter is perfect, Benny. You should be so proud to call that little princess your niece. I'll write to you again next month! We love you, Benny! Take care, maybe send us some pictures back? Just no nudes, okay? I don't need Dave getting all googly eyed over you. He's my boyfriend, and I intend to keep it that way for as long as I can!
Love, Klaus and Riley
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Hey there, it's just me again!
I've got to say this may be my favorite update letter to date. First off, allow me to thank you once again for your wonderful suggestion of having Dave move in here with Riley and I. He stayed over pretty often anyways, but I don't know, since he "officially" moved in I just feel so much more comfortable and relaxed. I feel safer, you know what I mean? I don't know, maybe it's all in my head, but it's like what little shadow of insecurities and fear I still had completely vanished that very first night of him snuggling with me in our bed. Thank you, Benny. Really. I wouldn't have ever dreamed of asking you to do that, this is your house, after all. The last thing I'd ever want to do is overstep my boundaries. When you called and asked him to move in here with me, to "come home" to me and Riley, I just, I don't know, I really appreciate it. It's such a simple thing, but I truly feel such an immense difference already. Those tiny whispers from the dead that still lingered have completely gone, as have my nightmares, and I can honestly say, that I have never slept better in my entire life.
My health has improved a lot since my last update. I'm not nearly as tired anymore, and I finally am starting to feel more like myself again. Every now and then I still have a bad day here or there, but overall I feel amazing. Lucky for me, Dave really likes to cook, and might I add, he is fantastic at it. I swear it's like I live with my own personal chef. You'll be happy to know that Dave has made it his life mission to help me get to a healthy weight. Actually, he's been making me take better care of myself in general; reminding me to eat, to stay hydrated, and ensuring that I get plenty of rest. I swear he's trying to fatten me up, he calls it "operation doughboy", can you believe that?! Who knows, maybe the next time you see me you won't even recognize me. Hopefully you won't need a forklift to haul my ass out of this house one day. Oh god, could you imagine?!
Dave is seriously the best boyfriend I could ever ask for, Ben. The faucet in the kitchen broke last weekend, and I didn't even need to call a repairman. Dave is so handy, I swear he knows how to do everything. He fixed that, and he also fixed that squeaky cabinet door in the laundry room. Seriously, could he be any more perfect? He does repairs, he cooks, he cleans, he's amazing with Riley. He gives the best massages, and boy, is he a fantastic cuddler.
It got really cold here last week, dipped down into the low 20's, and it of course just so happened to be during one of my bad days. I was laying under the covers in bed trying so hard to sleep but I just couldn't, I couldn't get warm, I was so uncomfortable and exhausted. Dave got home from work late and curled up with me under the covers, and oh my god, I felt instant relief. His body is like a furnace and chased my chills away. He just held me, Benny. He held me, and ran his fingers through my hair, and kissed my forehead until I fell asleep. He treats me like I'm the most important person in his life. I've never had that before, ever. I can't remember a time before Dave when a man touched me without cruel intent. I just...I'm so happy, Ben.
Riley is 3 months old! She is really interested in trying to crawl, and roll from her back to her front. She can't do either just yet, but she sure tries really hard! With her starting to get more active, Dave and I baby proofed the house. We got all of those fancy outlet covers so she can't stick her little fingers in where they shouldn't be and electrocute herself. Dave had a brilliant idea, and he's actually doing it right now as I write this letter. Since the whole house is tile, he suggested we cover the floors in the living room with foam mats, that way when she starts really crawling and moving around she won't hurt her knees or her little hands. Added bonus if she falls, which, let's be serious, it's inevitable, all the padding will make it impossible for her to hurt herself. It's awesome Benny, I'll send you pictures once he's done installing it. The mats are gray and match the house, and Dave even bought an extra memory foam padded rug for added cushion. It's the same shade of blue as the couch! It matches so perfectly! Also, don't worry, none of it is permanent or glued down, it just locks into place, and Dave measured and fit it to the space so it all lays snugly and seamlessly. Leave it to Dave to be extra amazing and helpful and perfect, making sure my baby girl is safe. God, I adore him.
Riley is "talking" up a storm and as happy as ever! Of course, by talking I really mean babbling, but I can sense it, the words are coming soon! She loves to spend time with Dave, and we always say he's her second daddy. It's hilarious Ben, whenever we are all three out together people always ask us which one of us is her father. Since she has my hair and complexion, but she has dimples and blue eyes - just like Dave's! He loves her as much as I do, I swear. Her "daddy's" love her so much, and we know she cannot wait until she can finally "talk" to her favorite uncle, Benny!
I hope you like the new photos! They're a couple of pretty precious candids that I just had to share with you. It's funny that Dave and I both had the same idea; sneaking a photo of us each sleeping while cuddling Riley. Note how I look like a drooling mess and Riley looks perfect in our photo, while the tables have turned in her photo with Dave! Look at the puddle of drool on his shirt! They say a picture is worth a thousand words, and that the memories we make are priceless.
Talk to you soon, Benny! We love you!
Love, Klaus, Riley, and Dave
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How are you supposed to start a letter? I mean, really. "Dearest, Ben" sounds like the beginning of a corny romance novel!
Good-ness have we been busy here! I have been going back and forth to doctor appointments, shit, it feels like every single day for the last couple of weeks. Some for Riley, just to get her checked up on, you know, typical baby appointments, but honestly, most of them have been for me. Don't worry, I'm okay, I know that sounds ominous when it's written in a letter. Dave just suggested it since it's been nearly four months since "the incident which shall not be named" and my energy just still isn't quite back to normal. I'm worlds better, I didn't think it was necessary since my bad days are so few and far between, but you know Dave, he always has to make sure I'm okay.
Anyways, after a bunch of tests, it turns out I'm totally fine, it's just that my body is taking an unusually slow amount of time to "recover from its trauma". Of course, the doctor only knows about my past drug use, and homelessness, and how I struggled with my weight, since I can't exactly explain the whole "ghost thing", but regardless, I'm fine and will continue to get better, it will simply take some time. Honestly though, 99.99% of the time I feel great. It's just those few instances where I seem to struggle.
Oh, speaking of doctors appointments and my weight, guess what! According to their scale I've gained like nine pounds! Dave's doughboy plan is working! I keep teasing him and saying no wonder I have days where I have no energy, he's making me fat! Of course I'm only joking, and according to the doctor I still have a ways to go until I'm at a healthy BMI, but I'm happy to say that at least I'm finally heading in the right direction, and it's all thanks to Dave.
Speaking of Dave, he and I had our first fight the other day. I'm telling you Ben, it almost ended us. You won't believe what he did to Riley. He bought, get this, off brand baby food, can you believe that?! He tried to defend his actions, saying the "quality is just as good, it's just forty cents cheaper" as if you can put a price on my daughters overall well-being and satisfaction! Then he had the audacity to refuse to return it to the store! He's lucky he's cute and good for a whole lot of other things, because he is officially banned from grocery shopping for her alone ever again. You may think I'm joking, I can almost hear you snickering from here, but quit it. I'm dead serious.
On a more positive note for Dave, and perhaps the main thing that redeemed him after that fight...he told me that he loves me. Can you believe that? After I was yelling at him over something as ridiculous as the difference between Gerber and the generic store brand he just laughed in my face, pulled me into his arms, looked me straight in my eyes and told me that he loves me. Again, don't laugh, but I may have cried - only a little! I wasn't a blubbering mess or anything crazy, but I definitely teared up.
I know, I was embarrassed and emotional but I couldn't help myself Ben! I've never been told that by anyone except you before. You know the craziest part? I think he meant it. And what's even more wild than that, is I told him I loved him too, and I was serious. I know four months isn't a long time to be with someone or "fall in love" but Ben, I am absolutely head over heels in love with Dave. I'm in love with him, can you believe it? And he's in love with me. I've never been happier, Ben.
My life has changed so drastically in the past four months, what with the arrival of Riley, and now Dave. I'm actually loved for the first time in my life by someone who isn't my brother and I've got to say, it's a really lovely change, Benny. I can't wait to see where this journey in my life takes me in the next four months, or the four after that. I just hope my good luck doesn't run out and it continues to flourish, because I don't want these beautiful moments or feelings to ever end.
The four month update is coming incredibly late since Riley is actually 18 weeks old, but you already know why since I just explained it above. Before you know it I'll be sending out her five month update! Where does the time go?! Riley is 25.5 inches long and in the 58th percentile for height. She weighs 15 lbs 13 oz and is in the 53rd percentile for weight! She can finally roll from her back to her front, and is becoming increasingly curious about the world around her! And boy, can this kid LAUGH! I am constantly floored that this beautiful, bouncing baby girl is mine! Everyday I wake up with a smile on my face, knowing I have the most precious baby girl in the world. How did I ever get so incredibly lucky?
The pictures this week are to show you the mats on the floor in the living room, see how perfectly it matches? It's crazy isn't it? They'll definitely come in handy, I can't tell you how soft they are. The second picture is pretty cute, I don't know how it happened, but I was doing tummy time on the mats with Riley and I guess we both must've fallen asleep while holding hands. Dave is so good at capturing the best candid moments, look how precious she is. I can't believe how big she's getting Ben. Soon she will be crawling, and walking, and talking! I wish I could press pause and savor her at this size forever. I just adore my little girl so much. I'll talk to you soon, and of course be sure to keep an eye out for our next letter, we love you Benny!
Love, Klaus, Riley and Dave
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Dearest Bentacles, (ick, now it sounds like some B-Grade pornography!)
Anyways, and just like that the five month update is here! I'll start with the boring bits about Dave and I first, then fill you in on our favorite little pipsqueak.
First let me start off by letting you know that Dave just found out that he is up for a promotion at work. They're finally talking about transferring him to the FBI. This is huge, it's something he's been talking about since before we started dating, and he is extremely excited. It would be more income, which is great. The only part neither of us like is the change in hours. This is definitely not a nine-to-five career. Although the work is challenging and exciting, they assure him that supposedly he would still have the opportunity to spend plenty of quality time with us; his family. I certainly hope so anyway, because I've grown quite accustomed to us being together as often as possible. The idea of him suddenly not being there all the time anymore, well, it kind of scares me Ben. Don't tell Dave I said this though. He's so excited about it, I don't want to make him feel like he shouldn't accept it or feel guilty when he does, that wouldn't be fair of me. I love him and don't want my own selfish wishes to ruin his dreams. He has worked so hard for this Ben, and I am so happy for him, and so incredibly proud of him. Just, I know Riley and I will miss seeing him so often. As long as he's happy, and I still have him to cuddle up against at night, I'll be perfectly happy too.
As for me, there are no real changes going on. I've managed to gain another five pounds, which is great, I'm still heading in the right direction, but I still have a long way to go. I'm still not operating at 100%, but I know I will get there with more time. The last few days have been kind of bad for me. Nothing crazy, I promise, I've just been a little extra tired and napping a lot. Honestly, I think it's the stress over the promotion. Maybe it's my brain trying to force Dave to spend time with me, since I know soon we won't have unlimited cuddle fest's whenever I want anymore. Of course, you know Dave, since I've not been feeling my best recently, he's been tending to Riley whenever he isn't curled up beside me rubbing my back or just holding me. I don't know how I'll manage if I'm having a bad day and he's not there, Ben. Of course I'll do my fatherly duties and take care of my daughter, she will never suffer, I just...I'm really going to miss him. I'm okay though, really. Riley and I will both continue to be okay, and Dave will do great as an FBI agent. This just means I'll have to smother him more with my affection whenever he is home.
Speaking of Dave, and family, and stress, he's taking Riley and I to meet his sisters later this week, and I am so nervous, Ben. I don't get along with my own family (apart from you) how am I supposed to get along with his? I don't know them, and they don't know me. Family is required to love one another, and my own family hates me, who's to say his family won't, too? They have no obligations to me. I'm scared that if they hate me they'll try to convince Dave to leave me. What's even worse than them not liking me though, is what if they don't like Riley? Dave keeps saying I'm working myself up over nothing, and keeps trying to reassure me that they'll love Riley and me, but I can't help the fireball of fear that burns within my stomach at the thought.
Anyways, that's enough about me, let me give you the content you actually opened this letter to read:
Riley is five months old today! Not much has changed since her last update, but hey, I am perfectly okay with that! Maybe she's finally listening to her dear old dad and slowing down on growing up, I sure wish she would! Riley is amazed by simple daily tasks, like putting things in the refrigerator, or heating up a bottle. She is not a fan of going on walks in her stroller, but she LOVES going on her evening stroll in the boba wrap that Dave just bought her! She also loves cold and windy weather, which she did not get from me or Dave! Haha! We love this kid more and more each day, and find that with every new day brings us such a beautiful reward!
I'm sorry I didn't attach any new photos this week, I just haven't had a chance to go to the store to print them out. I promise to send you extra photos in my next letter! We love you Benny.
Love, Klaus, Riley and Dave
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"Dave!" Klaus called from the living room, the pitch in his voice was hitched and frantic, "Dave, hurry!"
Dave's ears perked at the sound of his boyfriend's distressed sounding call. He didn't know what was happening, but whatever it was, it sounded important. Dave stopped brushing his teeth to follow the sounds of his voice.
"Klaus, what is it, is everything okay?" He called as he ran towards the living room.
"Just hurry, come quick, you're going to miss it!"
When Dave skidded to a stop at the threshold of the living room his lips instantly curled into a wide toothy grin. Klaus was laying on his stomach on the floor with his arms outstretched towards Riley who was propped up on her hands and knees. She was wobbly, her little limbs still so new to holding the small weight of her tiny baby body upright. Klaus's own smile was beaming, as he watched his precious little ones first real attempts at trying to crawl. She teetered as she picked up one of her hands and tried to take a "step" forward before plopping back down onto her bum.
"Aw, come on princess, I know you can do it! Come on, come to daddy!" Riley's babbles and soft giggles filled the air of the living room, making Dave's heart overflow with warmth at the angelic sound of her voice. Riley adjusted herself so she was propped back up into her unsteady pose and she tried again, picking up one hand and waving it wildly around in the air before laying it down on the mat. "That's it, now the next hand, come to daddy baby girl!"
Dave exhaled a soft giggle at the adorable scene enfolding before him. He hurriedly fished his phone out of his pocket to take as many pictures as he could; he needed to document these precious memories for them to look back on as she got older. Besides, Benny would love to witness these moments, too.
Someone's ears must've been ringing, because Dave's phone started vibrating and when he looked at the caller ID he exhaled a soft gasp, "Oh, speak of the devil, what perfect timing, it's Ben!"
"Oh, answer it, tell him to FaceTime you! He's got to see this!" Klaus exclaimed as he made grabby hands at Riley, "come on baby girl, show off for your uncle Benny!" Dave quickly answered the phone.
"Hey, Ben! Can I FaceTime you? The little lady is trying her hand at crawling—" Dave laughed as he pulled the phone away from his ear. Klaus stifled a giggle when he could hear the shrill sound of Ben's loud shouts of excitement from his position on the floor, "of course we won't let you miss it! Now hang up, I'll FaceTime you!" Dave hung up the phone and instantly Ben was already initiating the FaceTime conversation. He laughed before answering the call, "wow, someone's excited—"
"Cut the chatter and face me towards my beautiful niece!" Ben exclaimed, as he excitedly peered through the phone ducking around to catch sight of Riley. Klaus laughed at his brother's reaction while Dave held up his hands in surrender before turning the phone so that Ben got the full view of Klaus and Riley on the floor. "Oh my god, look at her go! You can do it, Riles! We are all rooting for you!"
Riley rocked back and forth on her hands and knees, a loud squeal escaping her drooling lips as she attempted to crawl towards Klaus again. She lifted her other arm this time, lifting it into the air before setting it back onto the mat where she pinched and squeezed at the soft material of the padded rug, her attention thoroughly captured by the fluffy fabric.
"Uh-oh, we're losing her," Klaus began as he watched his daughter's eyes hyper focus on tightening her fingers against the rug before releasing; grab, release, repeat. "Come on, Riley, look at me! Come to daddy! Come to me princess!"
"Riley, go to your daddy! He's waiting patiently for you sweetie!" Ben called through the phone. Riley's head lifted and looked toward Ben and Dave. She smiled widely when she heard his voice. "Aww, oh my god, I love her so much. I just want to scoop her up and squeeze her." Ben held his hands over his heart as his smile widened, he couldn't help but swoon at the warmth that spread through his chest at the sight of her smiling face.
"Come home to visit and you could, Benny," Klaus teased his brother, "now, come on princess, please crawl for daddy, can you come to me baby girl?" Riley's focus returned to her daddy and her dimples cratered her perfect cherubic cheeks as she smiled. "That's it, daddy loves you princess, come on, come to daddy!"
Klaus made grabby hands at his baby girl, begging Riley to crawl to him. She readied herself, her tiny hand leaving the mat and inching forward. Everyone exclaimed their praise as she raised her other arm, expecting her to mimic her previous action, when instead she suddenly throttled herself forward into a lunge, effectively launching herself towards her father. Klaus darted forward to steady her so she wouldn't slam her face into the mats. He laughed as he scooped her into his loving arms, pinching her pudgy baby thighs delicately. She squealed, kicking her legs out as she reached her hands towards his face, exploring his features with her tiny fingers. Klaus smiled, pulling her hand into his own and kissing her open palm with a loud mwah!
"Well, at this rate I think she may learn how to fly before she crawls," Klaus laughed while he wrangled Riley's giggling and squirming body as she tried to escape from his grasp, "nope, sorry sweet pea, we can't play anymore, we've got to get you ready for the day, you're meeting your daddy Davey's sisters today."
"Ohhh, todays the day, huh?" Ben asked. Klaus's smile faded as he hugged Riley against his chest, his fingers delicately working at tucking her rampant curls behind her ear, "don't be nervous Klaus, they're going to love you. And who doesn't love Riley?"
"That's what I keep trying to tell him! They're already in love with them, and they haven't even met them yet," Dave walked over and sat behind Klaus on the rug, his legs flanking either side of him as he wrapped his arm around his chest pulling his boyfriend into himself, "They say all the time they feel like they do though because of how often I brag about you two," Dave peppered Klaus's shoulder with kisses before nuzzling his chin there, kissing his jaw and speaking softly into his ear, "trust me, darlin. What's not to like? They're going to love you and Riley, I promise."
The couple said their goodbyes to Ben before Dave helped Klaus get up off of the floor. He could sense Klaus's fear and anxiety; he knew his boyfriend well enough to know when he was uncomfortable or uneasy about a situation, but he needed to help put his mind at ease. Dave pulled them into his arms, enveloping the beautiful pair into a hug. He pulled away, leaving one hand on Klaus's waist as he gently stroked Riley's back, leaning in and kissing her temple before kissing her father's.
"They're going to love you both just as much as I do, darlin. I promise." Klaus's lips twitched into a subtle smile before fading. Deep down he knew that Dave and his brother were probably right, that he had nothing to worry about, but he couldn't shake the feeling that something would go horribly wrong. Klaus laced his fingers into the curls at the base of Dave's neck with a single bob of the head, "it's going to go perfectly, you'll see." Dave kissed his forehead, earning Klaus to lean into his touch, seeking his assurance.
"I know," he started as he retracted his hands, adjusting Riley on his hip and running his fingers in a circular pattern on her back. Riley smiled at Klaus, her pure love instantly warmed his soul, "I know you're right. It's just, I'm sorry. I just can't help but feel this way."
"You don't have to apologize, Klaus. I understand why you're worried. Just, trust me, I would never put you in a situation that could even slightly pose a risk for you or Riley. You're both going to be fine, and we don't have to stay long. Just pop in and say hello, that's it. If you still feel uncomfortable we can say we need to leave. Deal?" Klaus exhaled a sigh as he nodded in understanding. He felt bad that he felt this way, he felt guilty that he made Dave have to potentially cut time with his family short on his own selfish behalf, but Klaus's anxiety was at an all time high just thinking about today. He buried his face against Dave's neck, breathing in the comforting scent of his cologne and feeling his warmth against his skin. Dave smiled sadly as he hugged his love, planting a kiss into his curls.
After a few moments of Dave just holding Klaus, whispering words of reassurance into his ear, they parted ways to ready themselves for the day. Dave went into the bathroom to finish brushing his teeth, while Klaus brought Riley into his bedroom to get them both dressed. It took him much longer than he anticipated to decide on an outfit for Riley; while he knew she looked perfect in whatever she wore, he wanted to make sure the outfit would be perfect for Dave's family's first impression of his daughter. He eventually settled on an adorable romper; the top was frilly with black and white thin horizontal stripes, while the bottom was solid burgundy. It was an outfit that Dave bought her, and he had to admit, seeing it on her she looked absolutely adorable in it.
"Look at you, cutie! Daddy Dave has pretty darn good fashion sense. Who's my little model baby?" Klaus held Riley up and kissed her forehead as she giggled and sucked on her lower lip. A trail of drool began to dribble down her chin and Klaus was quick to wipe it away with his fingers before rubbing it on his own shirt. He smiled, kissing her chubby cheek before settling her back down into her crib. Klaus looked down at his own physique taking in his disheveled appearance. He had already showered and brushed his teeth for the day, but was still wearing his pajamas from the night before. He exhaled a sigh before turning his attention to his closet.
He quickly scrolled through his articles of clothing, fully dissatisfied with his selection: too bright, too dull, too fluffy, too gothy. He finally settled on a simple black scoop neck shirt he thought would be okay, but as he pulled the fabric over his head he realized it no longer fit him, it was simply too small. Klaus had gained nearly fifteen pounds in the last five months, which was excellent for his health, but terrible for his wardrobe. He groaned as he plopped himself onto his bed and buried his face into his palms. What the hell could he wear? His only "appropriate" clothes no longer fit him, he'd gained too much weight. Klaus curled up on the bed and draped his hand over his stomach as he pinched his eyes shut. He knew he wasn't, in fact, he still needed to gain a good amount of weight, but he suddenly felt bloated and fat. Klaus rolled onto his back, bending his knees up as he dug the heels of his palms into his eyes. He wanted to cry. He knew it was silly, and at any other time this wouldn't have even bothered him, but it just had to happen the one day he had something so important to him happening. He inhaled a sharp breath, his lips quivering as his anxiety got the best of him and he slowly started to break down.
"Klaus?" Dave opened the door, his eyebrows furrowing with concern as he took in the distraught appearance of his boyfriend, "what is it, what's wrong? Are you okay?" He took a seat on the bed and laid a hand on Klaus's shoulder. Klaus rolled over, burying his face in Dave's lap as his shoulders shook with a silent sob. Dave rubbed his back and cooed to him to calm him down, "darlin, what is it?"
"I—nothing fits," Klaus sniffled as he rolled back onto his side and looked at Dave with teary eyes, "my clothes don't fit, I don't have anything to wear." Dave smiled sadly at Klaus as he pulled him upright and into his arms.
"Oh, Klaus, it's okay," he kissed his forehead as he wiped the tears away from his cheeks, running his thumbs beneath his eyes before he cupped his face in his palms. Dave spoke softly, "is that all? All these tears? Darlin, that's okay. Don't worry about that. This is a good thing, you're getting so healthy, darlin. I'm so incredibly proud of you, and all of the progress you've made. Don't let this bother you. How about you wear one of my outfits, how does that sound?"
Klaus's lips wobbled as he inhaled a shaky breath. "Okay." He whispered softly.
"Aw, darlin, it's okay. Shh, you're going to be fine. Besides," Dave leaned in and spoke into Klaus's ear, the action causing goosebumps to prickle his skin, "I think you'll look damn sexy in that navy v-neck I just got."
"Really?" Klaus asked softly, wiping at his tears. Dave smiled, running his fingers through his hair with a broad smile.
"Absolutely, darlin. You look beautiful in anything. Now, come on, cheer up. Everything is going to be fine."
Dave helped Klaus pick out an ensemble from his clothing. They decided the blue v-neck was perfect; it fit him a little loosely, but the fabric was soft and smelled like Dave. He paired it with black jeans and his favorite boots. Klaus smiled when he looked at himself in the mirror. He started his day feeling so uneasy, so uncomfortable in his own skin; but with Dave's encouraging words of love and assurance, he finally started to feel the way Dave always told him he was: Beautiful.
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The little family was settled in Dave's truck on the way to meet his siblings and their children. It was a long drive, as they were meeting at one of his sisters' houses who lived about an hour outside of town. Klaus was staring out the window watching the scenery pass him by. He was tapping his foot anxiously as he fiddled with Dave's dog tags within his hands. He was still so nervous, he'd hoped his anxiety would have begun to fade away by now, but as the vehicle stretched past each mile he felt like it just continued to get worse. He closed his eyes for a moment, just taking a deep breath and trying to calm his own pin firing nerves.
"Remind me again, who is who?" Klaus asked to distract himself as he settled himself deeper into his seat.
"Sure, we are on our way to my sister Emily's house. Emily is the oldest of my two little sisters. She'll be easy to spot, she's the only other one with blonde curly hair like me. She's the mom of Carter, her little boy and his sister Brooke - they're both 18 months old; they're fraternal twins."
"Twins?" Klaus asked, "god, I couldn't imagine. My hands are plenty full with that hooligan." He gestured towards the backseat where Riley was peacefully asleep in her car seat. Dave chuckled as he nodded.
"Oh yeah, and they're a handful, trust me," he started before continuing, "then my other sister is Danielle, she hates her name though, and prefers that we call her Dani. She's my youngest sister, her little girl's name is Eliza. She's 9 months old, so a little bit closer to Riley's age." Klaus hummed in response before he closed his eyes again, tipping his head back against the headrest.
"Hmm they sound lovely." He voiced softly.
"Oh, they are. My sisters are great, they're going to adore you two, and the kids? Well, they're a lively group, but they're amazing, you'll love them—" Dave glanced at Klaus and realized his eyes were closed, he only hoped he was okay. He knew his energy still hadn't quite returned to normal just yet, and while overall he was doing so well, he still had his "bad days". Dave couldn't help but worry that today would be one since he was clearly suffering from his anxieties. He reached across the cabin, lacing his fingers within Klaus's and gave it a gentle squeeze, "you alright?"
"Hm, M'fine," Klaus opened his eyes and turned his attention towards Dave with a soft smile, "I'm just trying to relax; you know, calm my nerves."
"You tired?" Dave asked but Klaus shook his head.
"Nah, not really. I'm fine," Dave didn't look impressed. Klaus noticed this and was quick to reassure him, "I promise, I'm okay. You know me, I'm just weird. Everything is fine, I just gotta psych myself up."
"Are you sure?"
"I'm positive."
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Finally, after what should have only taken an hour but quickly morphed into closer to an hour and a half due to traffic, the little family pulled into the gravel driveway of Dave's sister's home. Dave parked the vehicle, giving Klaus's hand another quick squeeze before exiting the truck and making his way around the side to grab Riley out of the back seat. Klaus got out of the truck and stared up at the home.
He noted it was two stories, with a quaint little porch with two cute old fashioned rocking chairs. The whimsical sound of a wind chime caught his attention and helped to ease his racing thoughts. The home was cute, welcoming and looked like the perfect site to house a loving family. He only hoped that family would find it in their heart to love him and his daughter as well. Dave wrapped his arm around Klaus's waist effectively pulling him closely against his side and kissed his cheek.
"Ready?" He smiled, vividly displaying his excitement on his features. Klaus returned the smile with a nod, although both gestures were brimming with uncertainty.
"As ready as I'll ever be." Dave sent him a lopsided grin as he pressed their foreheads together, he moved his hand from his waist and his fingertips gently started massaging at the tense muscles at the back of Klaus's neck.
"They're going to love you both, you'll see."
The little family approached the front door; it was a deep navy blue with a bronze handle and a beautiful, intricately designed oval shaped window. Dave rang the doorbell and Klaus felt his palms begin to sweat, his heartbeat picking up as his anxiety raced to an all time high. Dave sensed his fear and wrapped his hand within his own, giving him a gentle squeeze and grounding him, reminding him that he wasn't alone, he had Dave and Riley, and that he would be okay. The two lovers exchanged a warm smile when the door unlocked and burst open.
"Davey!" A woman with locks of swirling blonde curls, bright blue eyes and a smile as broad as her lovely face opened the door, she had a brunette curly headed little boy attached at her hip. "Oh my goodness, it's so wonderful to see you, please! Please, won't you both come in!"
Dave carried Riley in her carrier in one hand and gently tugged Klaus through the entryway with the other. The woman threw her hands around Dave's neck and gave him a giant hug. He smiled, kissing her cheek before she pulled away and her gaze met Klaus's. He felt himself shrink back ever so slightly, unsure of what to expect.
"Are you the famous Klaus my brother won't shut up about?" She asked before wrapping her arms around him in a bone crushing embrace. "It is so wonderful to finally meet you! I can't tell you how happy you make my brother, he is so lucky to have met you!"
Lucky to have met me, Klaus thought; wasn't she aware that he was the lucky one? Not her brother.
"Oh, I assure you, it is me who is lucky to have met Dave." She smiled pulling away before cupping his shoulders in her palms as she looked him up and down.
"My, Davey you have great taste. He is a cutie!" She winked and Klaus's cheeks flushed at her notions with a nervous giggle. "Aw, no need to be nervous, we are all family here. That means you too, and—oh my goodness!" She released her hands from Klaus and turned her attention towards Riley, "oh my god, she is the cutest little lady! Riley, right? My, what a beautiful little girl!" Dave held up Riley's carrier so she could get a better view. Klaus's smile spread wide as he watched the interaction. Dave's sister stroked her cheek admiring her dimples and her curls before taking his daughter's tiny hand into her own.
"Isn't she perfect? She looks just like her daddy." Dave said as he shot a loving smile towards Klaus who was beaming as his anxieties quickly began to melt away.
"I don't know, Davey, she has your eyes and your dimples." Klaus winked and his sister laughed.
"She does! How perfect, it's like you two were meant to be! Sweet little Riley looks like the two of you!"
"Well, she is ours after all. I'm daddy #1 and Dave is daddy #2! She's our child together in our hearts." Klaus said softly, earning smiles from Dave and his sister. Dave grabbed ahold of Klaus's hand again, leaning in and kissing him on his forehead before kissing his lips.
"That's beautiful. What a beautiful little family, I'm so happy for you three! Welcome to the family." She smiled at Klaus hugging him again before shifting her son on her hip.
"Oh, how silly of me! Klaus, Riley, this is my son Carter. His sister Brookie is in the other room with her daddy. Come on, let's go and introduce you two to everyone and then we can all go outside. Dani's husband is grilling up some burgers on the grill. I hope you'll have time to stay and eat, Dave said you may not be able to stick around too long."
"Oh, I think we can make some time, this is a special evening, after all." Klaus said with a smile. Dave rubbed his back reassuringly, proud of the steps Klaus was making.
"Wonderful! Come on, I'll show you two around and introduce you to everyone!"
Emily showed Klaus around her home, making sure he knew the layout and where the bathrooms were since they agreed to stick around for a couple of hours before moving to introduce him to the rest of the family. First she introduced him to her husband, Joe and their daughter Brooke. Joe was a tall muscular guy, definitely was familiar with a gym with a bright smile and a goofy personality, while Brooke was a quiet reserved little lady; tucking her face into Joe's shoulder when she was shown Klaus and Riley.
"Aww, no need to be so shy pumpkin, they're our family," Joe cooed as he gently patted her back, "she's just shy at first, I tell you what, though, once she gets to know you two, good luck, she can be quite the handful!"
Next Klaus met Dani and her daughter Eliza. Dani was just as sweet and bubbly as Emily had been, and Eliza - wow, she was a giggly baby! Arms flinging all about as she wildly screamed and laughed in her mommy's arms. Her husband Robbie was a man of average height, but a little more stocky with more fluff on his bones. He was incredibly sweet and welcoming, quickly abandoning his post at the grill to come and swoon over how precious Riley was.
"Oh my god, look at those curls! May I hold her?" He asked excitedly. Klaus and Dave exchanged a look and Klaus smiled as he nodded, giving the man the okay. Dave unhooked Riley from her carrier and handed the little princess over to Robbie.
"Hey there gorgeous," he stated in a baby toned voice, "I'm your uncle Robbie! I've heard so much about you and your daddy! I'm so thrilled to finally meet you both!" He hugged her as she giggled and smiled, her fingers delicately fiddling with his beard. The man laughed, a deep sound earning a high pitched squeal from Riley. "I think she likes me!"
After introductions were complete, Robbie went back to the grill to finish cooking as Klaus and Dave sat around the cozy outdoor furniture on Emily's porch and talked with his sisters, catching up, getting to know each other better, and just laughing and enjoying one another's company. Klaus had to admit, Dave's family was wonderful. He felt silly, in retrospect for allowing his anxiety to take hold of him with such a vice like grip, making him dread over this encounter; worrying himself thin. He saw now that he worried himself over nothing. Dave was right, as he always was.
They all gathered around the dining room table to eat their meals. Klaus, while doing considerably better and able to eat larger portions, still couldn't eat too much. He had a burger and a small side salad with a glass of Dani's home made freshly squeezed lemonade. They all sat around the table, telling jokes and funny stories about their experiences with parenthood. Klaus shared a few silly moments, but overall he didn't say much, he was enjoying just listening to Dave and his family banter back and forth. He especially loved listening to Dave bragging about all of his wonderful memories and funny moments he's made with Riley. He felt his heart swell with love and his cheeks flush at seeing just how much Dave truly loved his daughter. He couldn't believe how lucky he was to have found someone like Dave to share his life and his daughters life with. He loved him so much, and knew that the feeling was mutual. Klaus only hoped he would be lucky enough to spend every day of his life creating beautiful memories like this with Dave by his side.
Everything was delicious, Klaus was sure to thank them all for their hospitality, and for the wonderful meal, as well as ask Dani for her lemonade recipe. After eating, everyone congregated in the living room to finally let the babies all get together to play. Klaus was beginning to get tired, his energy still not quite up to snuff after everything that happened all those months ago, and so he sat on the couch to relax, allowing Dave to take the reins so he could sit back and watch the magic happen.
Dave sat on the floor with Riley, his sisters to either side as they let the babies all sit in a circle in front of them. Their tiny faces all lit up with excitement and wonder. Carter crawled over to Riley immediately and took her hand within his own. Dave and his family all were certain to take plenty of pictures, documenting these precious moments. Klaus smiled as he watched the adorable interaction. Riley tried and failed a few times to crawl herself, watching as the other babies so easily were able to do-so, she tried to mimic their motions. She grew frustrated when she just couldn't do it and started to sniffle before Dave scooped her into his arms and cradled her to his chest.
"Aw, it's okay sweetheart, you'll get there soon enough!" He kissed her forehead as she snuggled herself against his neck.
After a while Dave's sister's all took turns holding Riley, bouncing her on their laps and making her smile and laugh. Klaus was resting his head on his hand as he sat on the couch while he watched with a smile on his face. He was just so happy that everyone loved her so much, and hearing his daughters angelic laughter made him so incredibly happy. He truly felt like they were already an integrated part of this family, and he couldn't help but think how he couldn't be any happier if he tried.
More time passed and Klaus's eyelids were growing heavy, he found himself struggling to stay conscious for much longer. His head would dip before he would right himself, his eyelashes fluttering as he adjusted so he could focus and stay awake. Brooke, Emily's daughter, had finally opened up and was starting to showcase her needy personality. She was tugging at his jeans trying to climb into his lap, but Klaus was just so exhausted he wasn't even able to acknowledge her presence. Dave's sister Dani noticed him struggling to stay awake, and quickly scooped her little niece Brooke into her arms so she wouldn't disturb Klaus before she brought his lack of energy to Dave's attention.
"Hey, Klaus is looking pretty tired, is he okay?" Dave peered at Klaus who's head bobbed again before he sat up on the couch, his eyes hooded and filled with fatigue. Dave smiled sadly before looking back at his sister.
"Yeah," he spoke softly, "he was pretty sick a few months ago, he still hasn't fully recovered all of his energy quite yet. He gets tired easily. I hate to cut this short, but he should rest, I think it's about time we all mosey on home."
"Aw, the poor thing. Would he want to lay down for a bit here? You know you're all welcome to stay as long as you'd like." She offered as she patted Dave's shoulder. He smiled, squeezing her hand in return.
"I know, we appreciate it, but I think we should go home. Thanks sis, we had a great time. It's always lovely to spend time with you all."
"Same goes for you, Klaus, and Riley too. Don't be strangers, okay?" They exchanged a smile as Dave leaned forward hugging her quickly.
"We wouldn't dream of it."
Dave pulled Riley into his arms and approached the couch, sitting beside Klaus who was already nearly asleep. He leaned forward, cupping Klaus's cheek in his hand and kissed his forehead. Klaus's eyes fluttered and he hummed as he smiled at Dave.
"You're beat, darlin. Let's get you home, yeah?" Klaus smiled tiredly as Dave wrapped his arm around his waist, helping Klaus stand. He held him for a moment to steady him. Klaus hated that he felt this way. He was having such a good time, of course, leave it to his own weakness to ruin a perfect evening. He was ready to have his energy back, to be himself again. He leaned into Dave's touch when he wrapped his arms around him in a hug. Klaus exhaled a tired sigh, he was happy his day turned out to be so wonderful as a whole, but more than anything, he was just so ready to go home and curl up in Dave's arms and fall asleep.
They said their goodbyes, Dave's sisters all hugged Klaus, thanking him for coming, and telling him how happy they were to have gotten the chance to finally meet him.
"We should do this more often! If it's easier, we could come to you guys next time. It's been such a pleasure spending time with you Klaus, and my goodness, Riley is just perfect!"
"Thank you, you're all too kind. This was lovely, really. I'd love that." He smiled as she hugged him again.
They finished saying their goodbyes and Dave led Klaus out to the truck, helping him climb into the passenger seat and buckling him in. He situated Riley's carrier in the back and the two men waved goodbye to Dave's family one more time as they pulled out of the driveway.
The sun was beginning to set, leaving a stunning golden afterglow that lit the tree line that flanked the road to either side as they started their journey towards their own home. The quiet sound of Riley suckling on her pacifier as she slept, and the soft music of the radio were the only noises filling the cabin of the truck. Klaus was exhausted, but he was filled with an overwhelming sensation of love and contentment, a smile tugging at his features. Dave intertwined his fingers with Klaus's, earning the tired man to glance at him. Dave's smile was warm, and full of adoration for Klaus.
"I had fun." Klaus admitted as he ran his thumb over the skin of Dave's thumb. Dave squeezed his hand as he spoke.
"I'm glad," Dave pulled his hand to his lips and kissed the delicate skin there before settling their hands back down against the seat, "see, what'd I tell you. You had nothing to worry about. They love you! And Riley!"
"I should have known I could trust you. You were right, I adore them all."
"And they adored you." The couple exchanged a loving smile before Dave returned his focus to the road and Klaus leaned his head against the headrest. The light jostling of the vehicle and the soothing ambient sounds were beginning to effectively lull him to sleep. Klaus closed his eyes, gently tightening his grip on Dave's hand.
"I love you, Dave." Klaus said firmly, his head shifting towards his boyfriend as he peeled his tired green eyes open into meager slits. Dave smiled at Klaus, squeezing his hand in return.
"I love you, too."
Klaus fell asleep with his beautiful baby girl sleeping soundly in the backseat, and his wonderful boyfriend stroking the skin of his hand. He was happy, knowing that he was finally a part of a family who truly cared about him. More than anything, he was happy because he now knew in his mind without a shadow of a doubt that he was finally, truly loved.
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