Aubrey never had any intention of sleeping with Stacie. But that didn't mean she didn't want to though.
Aubrey never believed in love at first sight but when she saw the tall brunette walking across the stage at auditions she felt something in the pit of her stomach. She was infatuated with the girl and wanted to get to know her more.
Slowly over the year the two had developed a friendship and had weekly study dates and movie nights. Slowly over time those feelings Aubrey had for Stacie began to grow from infatuation to a crush.
Eventually, it turned from a crush to something almost love but not quite there yet.
But Aubrey had every intention of keeping things platonic between the two of them. Sure she would have loved to have been Stacie girl but she told her that she didn't do relationships and wasn't looking to settle down while she was in college.
So Aubrey never made a move.
That was until the night of the ICCA's, after complaining about her dad to the younger girl they went inside and headed up to Stacie's room. Once inside something snapped in Aubrey and she just kissed the girl. A whole year of pining over her was just too much and she didn't want to graduate without kissing the girl.
She was shocked with herself, surprised she even did that but she wasn't complaining.
They slept together for the first time that night and Aubrey told herself she would control herself next time and that it wouldn't happen again.
Yet a week later she found herself in bed with Stacie again.
She didn't know why she kept letting it happen, the blonde knew all this was going to do was hurt her in the end.
Yet the last week was filled with rushed hookups in either Stacie's dorm or her apartment. Even though they were hooking up she never let herself or Stacie spend the night. She set a boundary and told herself she wasn't going to cross it.
She should have known better because there last night together she asked the brunette to spend the night with her. They slept in the same bed that night, cuddled together under the sheets. As Aubrey started to drift off she realized that what she felt for the younger girl was love.
But she couldn't tell Stacie. She was leaving to go home the following day and would be in her sophomore year the following fall while Aubrey was working at the Lodge.
It wouldn't work out she told herself. They wouldn't work out.
The next morning she gets up and walks Stacie to the Bellas house so she can get her things and leave.
"Have a safe drive home, let me know when you get there," She said to Stacie. But right before Stacie got into her car the blonde looked her in the eyes and pulled her close.
She could hear Stacie's breath hitch and in a moment of weakness, being pressed up against the girl she said "I'll miss you," and then she leaned in and pulls the taller girl in for a kiss.
It wasn't like their usual kisses, this was softer and filled with some other than lust. It wasn't a kiss leading up to sex it was a small 'I'll miss you' kiss.
Aubrey figured this would be the last time she would get to kiss her so she tried to convey her feelings into it.
When she pulled apart she could still feel her lips on hers.
Stacie got into her car and drove away while Aubrey just stood there watching the car drive off into the distance. As she did she felt a single tear fall down her face.
They kept in contact over the summer, Aubrey set on making sure they could still be friends. They talked every day and called each other often.
She talked to Stacie more than she talked to Chloe if she was being honest.
So when Chloe asked her to help move into the Bellas house Aubrey jumped at the chance knowing she would get to see Stacie again with her being Chloe's roommate and all.
Seeing Stacie after months of being apart was like finally getting a breath of fresh air. She had missed the girl deeply.
She could only wish Stacie felt the same way.
It took about another month before Aubrey got the courage to ask Stacie out to the lodge to spend the night. She came out on a Friday but didn't go home until that Sunday night.
They kept up this routine of Stacie spending the weekend with her for a few more months until suddenly Stacie couldn't make a weekend. Then she couldn't make the following thought it was strange and wondered if it was because the weekend prior they didn't have sex. Was it crossing a boundary for Stacie?
They were good friends before this so why couldn't they have a weekend of just hanging out?
She agreed to come to the following weekend and Aubrey figured they were okay. She honestly had no clue if they would have sex or not.
They did but it was different from their usual rushed hook up sex.
This was slower, more tender.
The blonde will never forget the way she kissed her that night, the feeling of Stacie's body pressed against hers, the feeling of Stacie going down on her. It was all too much and not enough for the blonde sat the same time.
She felt as if something changed between them, that maybe Stacie had similar feelings towards her.
The next day Stacie asked to talk to her and Aubrey's first thought was 'Finally!' she figured the younger girl was going to ask her out. She asked for a walk while they talked.
"So what did you want to talk about?" Aubrey said looking at Stacie.
Stacie took a deep breath before beginning, "I think we need to end things whatever this is between us."
Wait... What? This is so not where she thought this was going. "Oh... you do?"
Stacie looked away from her before saying, "Yeah, I just think you know we are better off being friends and this is just complicating things between us."
"It's not complicated though it's just sex," Aubrey said slightly lashing out because honestly she was hurt. It never was just sex to her, but Stacie didn't need to know that.
"I'm sorry I just-"
"Is there someone else? Is than why we have to end things?" Aubrey felt like she was going to vomit, she hoped there wasn't because that would make things worse.
"What no, I just like being your friend and I think we should just go back to that."
"Okay if that's what you think is best I'm fine with that." She definitely wasn't fine with it, but Stacie didn't need to see how much this hurt her.
"I think I should head out now, I got a lab later on today and I can't miss it." The brunette said before turning the other direction.
"Stacie wait... I-" Aubrey said stopping herself. Would telling Stacie how she feels change anything? Most likely not, so she decided against it. "Drive safe, let me know when you get back."
And with that Aubrey turned around and walked back to her cabin. When she got inside she ran into the bathroom and puked. This weekend had so not turned out the way she was expecting.
After Stacie broke it off with Aubrey she hadn't talk to the older girl once. No text, phone calls, or anything. She made it up in her mind that she was going to get over the older women.
There was no point in pining over someone who didn't want her the same way she did.
She made it three weeks without seeing Aubrey before Chloe announced that she would be coming over for a Bella night. Stacie figured it would happen eventually and Chloe had talked to her beforehand making sure it was okay and the brunette didn't want to say no.
After all, they were friends first.
It was a Friday night after Bellas rehearsals, they had just made it past regionals and were headed to the semi-finals. Aubrey came over around 7:30 that evening, they were starting the movie at 8.
She said her hello's and gave all then Bella's a hug, except one. Stacie had made sure she was up in her room finishing up her homework in naval engineering when Aubrey had arrived so it wouldn't have been so awkward between them. Or to raise suspicions something had to happen between them so the girls wouldn't find out.
By the time she started heading down the stairs, they were about to start the movie but she could hear the girls talking.
"So Aubrey are we gonna talk about the elephant in the room?"
Stacie froze hearing this and listen in before entering.
"What are you talking about?" Aubrey said slightly nervous.
"Oh you know that day Fat Amy and I were out to lunch and saw you and that boy out on a date." She heard Cynthia Rose say.
"Aubrey you had a date?" asked Chloe in shock.
"Oh Aubrey's getting laid!" shouted Fat Amy "And you should have seen this man, dark hair, tall, handsome exactly my type."
"What no you guys, Mark is just a business partner. We are looking for people to sponsor the lodge and his company offered. It was a lunch meeting, not a date." Aubrey explained.
"Well you guys looked a little more than friendly, I'm sure you didn't have trouble convincing him-" That was all Stacie heard before she turned around and walked out through the kitchen to sit on the back porch. She didn't want to hear any more about Aubrey and this boy named Mark.
She tried to convince herself that she didn't care whether he was a business partner, a friend, or more but she couldn't. She didn't want Aubrey with someone else.
25 minutes passed with Stacie just sitting outside before she heard then the door to the outside open. "Hey what are you doing out here you're missing the movie."
She stiffened up the moment she heard that voice. "What are you doing out here?"
"I went to get more popcorn and saw you sitting outside and figured I'd join you," Aubrey said before sitting down next to her.
She wasn't too close but close enough that Stacie couldn't concentrate. They sat in silence on the back porch of the Bellas house.
Stacie could see Aubrey look over at her through the corner of her eye but she forced herself to continue looking forward. She knew if they made eye contact she would kiss her, being this close to Aubrey wasn't helping her at all.
The blonde sighed and realized that sitting out here with Stacie wasn't going to accomplish anything if the younger girl wouldn't even look at her. "Well, I am gonna head back inside." She then stood up and turned to head inside.
Just as she reached the door she heard Stacie mumble. "Why so you can talk more about Mark?"
Aubrey stiffened. She slowly turned around to find Stacie's back still towards her. "Excuse me?"
Stacie didn't say anything. "What did you say?" Aubrey asked walking back towards her.
The brunette just looked at the ground, she honestly didn't mean for that to come out. She was just upset at the thought of Aubrey seeing someone, even if he was just a business partner Cynthia Rose and Fat Amy clearly thought otherwise.
"I-" But Stacie was cut off
"How do you know about Mark?" Aubrey asked.
Stacie got up so she was standing with Aubrey. "Why is there something I should know about Mark?"
Aubrey scoffed. "He's a friend and a business partner, not that it's any of your business."
"Just a friend or a friend like I was." Stacie challenged. She knew she was being ridiculous but she was too far in it to back out. It really wasn't any of her business like the older girl said.
"What's that supposed to mean?" Aubrey said looking slightly offended.
"I don't know-"
"You don't know?" Aubrey said crossing her arms.
"I don't know Aubrey! What do you want me to say?" Stacie asked throwing her arms in the air.
"What I want is to know is why you are acting so jealous right now?"
"Jealous? I'm not jealous."
"Well, you could have fooled me." Said Aubrey as she turned to head back inside. "I don't need this right now, I'm heading home."
Aubrey then walked inside and popped into the living room. "I'm leaving ladies it was a long day and I'm tired, thanks for inviting me Chlo." Then Aubrey headed out the front door leaving the rest of the Bellas confused.
Stacie quickly walked in behind Aubrey and saw her walk out the front door. She wasn't letting Aubrey just walk out of their conversation. As soon as she got outside she saw Aubrey about to get into her car.
"What if I was jealous?" Stacie called out from the Bellas doorstep.
Aubrey froze and just looked at Stacie. She didn't expect the girl to follow her. The younger girl got off the doorstep and walked over to Aubrey's car, till she was standing in front of her.
"Would that change anything?" asked Stacie.
The blonde looked at her. Could Stacie feel the same way? No, she couldn't she was the one who ended things between them. "Why would you be jealous? You ended things between us. You're the one who wanted to go back to being friends, not me."
"Because I didn't think of being with you as an option," Stacie said honestly. "I still don't know, but if I don't tell you how I feel then a part of me will always wonder what could have been."
"And how do you feel?" Aubrey asked this was all too good to be true.
Stacie took a deep breath if she wanted Aubrey she had to be honest. "I love you, Aubrey. I'm in love with you." She then took her hand and placed it on Aubrey's cheek. "I always have been."
Aubrey smiled and leaned into Stacie's hand. "I love you too."
They just stood there staring into each other's eyes until they heard Beca yell out. "Kiss her!"
They turned and saw all the Bellas watching them through the windows. Stacie smiled and pulled Aubrey in. The older girl happily complied and wrapped her arms around the taller girl's waste.
They still had a lot to talk about, they both knew that and they both knew a time would come for them to talk about things. But for right now they just stood there making out as if it were just them two.
Should I continue you this? Maybe another chapter?