~Snowcrystal of Thunderclan~

I have matching shoes :P Two medical boots :P

I enjoyed the map too, it was awesome! :D :D

It's taking a million years to write XD I may actually have to write it all then split it in half and publish it as two books XD On top of that one I'm writing a Wilds Novella that's similar to the I Can't Reject Her, It'll kill her! With a slightly different plot and WAY different chacters :P That one's half done :D

~Silver-Rose Writes~

Yeah, I have two books in line to publish, one a full out Romance Thriller novel, the other is a Romance novella :D The surgery went well, I should be walking on it within a month :D Don't worry about it!

~Featherflight123~

I'm hoping it will be! :D I have a novella that will come out before it, and it's wilds :P

~Briarfeather4fun~

Yup I'm okay! :D Ouch, what's the surgery for? Mine was to anchor two bones in my foot and fix a torn ligament :P

Hmm... I haven't really decided if they are, but I think Jay's in there somewhere and I'm thinking that Bree helps them since she's probably a scientist :P

I'm so glad your excited! I'm hoping you guys (my readers) will read it when it's out! :D Although it's not warriors based, it's technically based off of Flashes Vs The Dark Blades and has some really interesting plot twists and stuff :D

Doveheart? Hmm... Okay! What about a story where Tigerheart (Tyler) is in charge of a small rebellion group and Dovewing (Diana) is saved by him and his group where she learns to love him and defends him against her sister Ivypool (Ivory), the leader of the main rebellion group? Ooh! What if Tyler has a bad past with Ivory like maybe back when he was a spy he was responsible for Breezepelt's (Braxton) paralysis and now Ivory's suspicious of him and doesn't want her sister to be involve with him even though he's changed since then? :D :D :D (I have way too much fun coming up with random chapter ideas XD)

Hey guys! So I'm not allowed to upload any chapters after today's chapters, there's a media thingy that my parents are taking too far so I can't upload anything till next week -_- but I did get this chapter out, and while it's relatively short I really liked where it ended and I'm half finished with one of my two be published stories so hooray! :D Plus I've been going crazy with chapters for The Runner And The Loner, The Athlete And The Jock (I really enjoy that world! :D) and have uploaded three chapters within the past week XD But no more excuses! I strive to have a few chapters finished and ready to upload by monday, even if they're random drabbles again! XD

Exhausted Reassurances

Exhausted, that was one of the words that described what Cynthia felt like all the time now. She felt physically exhausted and lethargic, hardly able to get up and do anything during the day. A week had passed just yet since Leon rejected her and Cynthia could hardly muster the energy to face anyone when even getting out of bed was a struggle. Mentally it was a different story, Cynthia felt like her mind, heart, and wild were all encased in ice, slowing down her mental processes to a crawl, making her heart ache beyond the regection, and her wild and heart felt like they were slowly dying in agony from an icy poison. But none of that mattered, today was Monday and she was expected to go back to school. Even though the female wild was still struggling to get over the rejection and could hardly stay awake for longer than a few hours.

"Cynthia, are you awake?"

Cynthia could heard her mother's voice from where she was curled up into the fetal position under all of the blankets on her bed and facing the rest of her room, but didn't want to open her eyes, preferring to stay in the warm safety of her blankets and try to build up enough energy to get past the regection that she likely never would get over. I don't want to wake up… Cynthia inwardly moaned and felt Cinder try to symbolically feebly attempt to shake the ice from around Cynthia's heart and Cinder's own self. Don't make me…

"Cynthia you have to go back to school, we've tried everything to make it easier for you."

That was true, Cynthia was going to be matching her friend Bree for a little while, wheelchair bound, unable to walk around the school with the amount of energy it would take. Her sisters and Holly were going to help her, pushing her around while she could hardly keep her eyes open and not flinch every few minutes from her mark stinging viciously. The mark was a constant reminder of what she had had for the breifest of moments, a partnership that she could never get back. The thought itself made Cynthia heart and lungs squeeze, causing her to wheeze and struggle to get any air in as the short and small amount of emotions from the memories hit her again full force and sent her reeling from things she would never have again.

Cynthia giggled, blue eyes twinkling brightly in the sunlight spilling into the room from the windows. "Okay Lio, I trust you," she purred and brushed her lips against the tip of his nose, "what's the new idea?"

"...breaths, try to calm down Cynthia," Cynthia could feel her mother's hand on her back as she was pulled into a sitting position and had a hand gently rub up and down her back, Cynthia's head resting on her shoulder. "Deep breaths, focus on me Cynthia."

Cynthia's head lolled to one side, her cheek pressed against her mother's shoulder as her breathing steadied and calmed as she listened to her mother and she and Cinder worked together to shove away the memories plaguing them both.

"Do you want me to call Holly?" Paige's voice helped force Cynthia back into the present despite that she was talking to their mother, "doesn't she have training in stuff like this?"

"She has to get ready too Paige," Sarah pointed out, her amber eyes focused on her only wild daughter who was slumped against her with her cheek on Sarah's shoulder, eyes closed, and hands curled into loose fists. "Cynthia will be fine, right Cynthia?"

Cynthia wanted to burst into tears and cry like a child while telling her she couldn't do this when she felt like she was dying over and over again. However, she instead reassured her and lied, "yeah," Cynthia's voice was rough and weaker than she wanted it to be to be reassuring, but it hurt like no other to speak. Still, she weakly cleared her throat and spoke again, with a better reassuring tone, "I'll be fine." Her blue eyes cracked open to gaze blurrily at her older sister before she managed to give a small smile that made her cheeks sting and other muscles sting as well. "I swear." She slowly pushed herself away from her mother's hold, sitting up by herself. "I have to get changed," she rasped quietly a few moments later, "and shower, can I be left alone?'

Sarah looked worriedly at her daughter but kissed the top of her head before she got up and stepped away from her, gently and breifly brushing her fingers through her daughter's messy hair, "we're right downstairs if you need help."

:(

Why're you promising that? Cinder asked softly as Cynthia slowly made her way toward the upstairs bathroom, we're not going to be okay Cynthia.

I know, Cynthia quietly told her wild, but they don't need to know that.

But we have to see him today Cynthia…

I know Cinder, believe me, I know, Cynthia sighed, feeling her heart clench and ache at the mentioning of having to see the wild that had rejected her and ruined her. But they need me to go, it's hard for them to take care of me while taking care of Lily and Luke.

But we got rejected! We lost everything Cynthia!

I know, Cynthia inwardly whimpered to her wild, I know we lost everything, I feel it in my body, my mind, and my heart. But I have to help my parents.

B-but Bracken didn't help us!

My father's not the aggressive type, Cynthia reasoned softly as she turned the door knob and quietly shuffled into the room, dropping what she was holding onto the counter before slowly sliding down the side of the counter next to the sink into a sitting position with her head in her knees, exhausted already. He did what he could.

Cynthia I can't face Lion, Cinder whimpered, not after that.

I know, Cynthia said, a phrase that was becoming painfully familiar, I don't want to face Leon either, I gave him everything too, I don't have anything left to give anyone just like you Cinder.

What else is there for us to give to someone else?

Nothing really. I have nothing else to give to anyone, I already gave up my mental space, my love, my privacy to my emotions and thoughts, my mind, my heart, everything. I am Leon's mate and always will be even after he rejected us.

What are we going to do? Cinder asked timidly, how are we supposed to go on?

We aren't, Cynthia replied softly, we're dying Cinder…

Cinder whimpered, I don't want to die yet… I wanted to have a family-

-With Leon I know, Cynthia murmured, me too Cinder, but it won't happen, not now. We can't have another mate, that's it, one chance only.

I know… But I still want it

Me too one day, but now that we've been rejected it can't happen. I… I already gave it to him, I can't take it back.

He's the first and only, Cinder sighed quietly, it's not fair…

Tears blurred Cynthia's vision and she squeezed her eyes shut, "You have no idea Cinder," she uttered quietly outloud, "you have no idea…"

:(

Leon watched the water droplets drip off of his chin and nose into the bathroom sink, the clear liquid pooling in the sink before sliding down the drain. It clung to his face, small droplets clinging to his skin without fail. His amber eyes were tired and particularly miserable, with his exhaustion visible by the semi visible bags beneath his eyes. He felt tired and worn out, rejecting Cynthia had taken a toll on him as well. Unlike for Cynthia, the effects on him would fade within the next week or two, but the blonde athlete still had an immense weight in his stomach, the guilt made him feel ill and occasionally nauseous. Like his wild felt sick for rejecting his first partner, something that would always linger in his mind, even if he one day got a new partner. The idea however, made his stomach churn. Cynthia was one of his best friends even outside of the whole partnership thing, she was an athlete just like him and could play rough without getting hurt. Not only that, but they had grown up together. They had been at each other's sides for thirteen years, defending each other and keeping each other out of trouble, accompanying each other through the things only fellow athletes would understand, and fulfilling an unspoken promise to protect each other's backs through everything. Yet Leon had broken that promise. The one moment in their lives when Cynthia had needed him without fail he had given into his father's demands and rejected her, effectively ruining the rest of her life.

A lump grew in Leon's throat as he stared unseeing at the mirror in front of him, his gaze spaced out as the blonde got lost in his thoughts. He had literally ruined Cynthia's future by rejecting her like that. His partner would never be able to have someone by her side for the rest of her life, trust another male wild like she had trusted him, and never have a family… The lump thickened and Leon struggled to swallow, his hands tightening into fists on the bathroom counter. Cynthia wanted a family so badly, he had seen exactly how strong her maternal instincts were time and time again and now… The soap dispenser on the counter tipped over when Leon slammed his fists down onto the counter, he had made it so that she couldn't ever have kids of her own.

Leon gazed flatly into the bathroom mirror, gazing at his reflection, a tired and frustrated fifteen-year-old boy with amber eyes so guilt ridden that they currently made him look much much older. "I did that to her," he said in a low and slightly croaky tone, "I ruined my friend's life."

Smash!

Leon didn't even blink as pain erupted in his right hand and the mirrow in front of him shattered and cracked, too angry at his own actions to think straight. He hit the mirror again, the sharp glass slicing through the skin of his knuckles and fingers and making his hand sting and throb with pain. Yet he didn't care, he felt like no amount of pain he could experience would ever get even close to the pain Cynthia would suffer under forever in a way. The female wild couldn't develop a new partner, she would have to suffer through watching him get older and unable to forget the feelings she felt toward him. Cynthia's feelings would just get stronger while she had to sit there and watch as maybe one day he developed a new partnership and possibly repaired their friendship.

Crack!

Another punch to the broken mirror, but with his other hand this time. He could vaguely feel Cynthia emotions through the partnership bond, which was currently unresponsive and was protecting Cynthia from him, sheltering her broken heart and wounded wild from him like a protective layer of ice. But in return for the protection it was forcing it's icy knives into her heart and wild. He could feel the rather numbed status from her that came from the ice along with the distress and agony that hadn't left her since he had rejected her, and it made him want to go back in time and challenge his father instead of complying to his wants.

Creak…

The mirror was now nothing but glass shards smeared with crimson blood from Leon's cut up hands after the three punches. Leon blinked and noticed the tears blurring his vision for the first time since he had zoned out along with his brother's hand on his right shoulder, his sister's delicate fingers gently grasping his left wrist, and another girls' hands on his right wrist. He looked over at the other mirror where he could see his siblings and Bree standing next to him, his two older siblings and childhood friend, the three people who would never leave him and always tried to be there for him no matter what. The lump in his throat grew even thicker, at a moment like this he wished more than anything that Cynthia was there too, her arms curled around him from behind like she used to when he got upset or angry like he was now.
"Leon," Holly's voice was soft and comforting, "it's alright," her green eyes glistened with a faint layer of tears of her own at how torn up her younger brother was at having to reject Cynthia. "We're right here, no matter what happens."

"She's in agony Holly," Leon responded in a croaky tone, his voice clogged with emotion, "I did that to her." His amber eyes glistened with rare tears and with a rare vulnerability.

"Your father made you," Bree spoke softly, her amber eyes gentle and empathic toward the blonde feline wild. "He made you reject her Leon, there wasn't anything else you could've done."

"I should've tried harder," Leon said brokenly, his words slightly slurring between the wilds language and normal English. "I should've refused…" He could stil vividly remember Cynthia's expression when she was half conscious after he had rejected her. She had given him a betrayed and heartbroken look. The look added ontop of the glistening tears in her eyes, and the agony and pain she had clearly been feeling, had been enough for him to return home and cry, yell, and howl while punching the punching bag in the basement till his knuckles were bloody and Holly had to quietly clean him up and comfort him that night.

"Then Brad would've flipped and ended up hurting both of you," Jay inputted, his voice rough from his own emotions getting to him at the entire situation. "If you had refused Brad would've hurt Cynthia to make you listen. Brad's wild is unstable at times like that Leon, he could've broken Cynthia's arm or worse to make you give in." At Leon's lack of response he continued after a few moments of silence, "Cynthia knows you didn't do it of your own free will, she still loves you."

Leon gave a heaving breath, fighting the urge to flat out cry now.

"Leon look at me," Holly spoke gently and waited till her younger brother looked at her before she spoke, "I will find a way to fix this, I won't sleep till I find a way to fix this okay?" Her green eyes softened some more at the vulnerability in her brother's eyes, "just trust me. Have I ever let you down in something this important?"

Leon breathed a shaky breath and shook his head, "no, I trust you Holly," he looked at his sister in a lost puppy sort of way, "you have to show me how to fix this, Cynthia's life is on the line." And he meant it, Cynthia's life really was on the line, if they couldn't fix it and Cynthia was already having issues adjusting to the rejection. If nothing changed Cynthia's wild would die within a year, leading to Cynthia's health going down like an avalanche.

"I know," Holly told him softly, "we all will work together to find a way to fix this, I promise."

Leon nodded thickly and couldn't help but try and push his current feelings of hope through the partnership bond. Moments later he vaguely felt Cynthia cling to the hope like it was her only lifeline.

Leon honestly felt his heart squeeze with pain when he saw Cynthia for the first time since the rejection. "StarClan above," He muttered under his breath, amber eyes locked on his rejected partner, body language stiff. Sunshine I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry… He murmured to himself as he fought with himself to go over and help her, feeling like running over, pulling her into a hug and telling her about how badly he wanted to take back everything he had said. She had been nervous about him rejecting her from the very beginning, she had told him and asked him to promise to not reject her a little while after he had marked her.

Leon's amber eyes twinkled and he nuzzled her neck above the mark, being careful not to touch the sensitive skin. "I'm back," he rumbled and slid his arms around her waist from behind, "sorry, my mom called me."

Cynthia twisted to look over at him and purred, the sound was joy filled and full to the brim with love. "Well you aren't home yet, she has every right to be worried right?" She pointed out with a rumble as she twisted completely in his hold to be facing him.

"Not really," Leon lightly shook his head and gave a cheeky grin, "cause I'm with you Sunshine."

Cynthia purred again and leaned forward as if to give him a light kiss but stopped abruptly and looked rather worried for half a second before she brushed it off and completed the action, leaning forward and softly brushing her lips against his in a light kiss. "Hmm," she pulled back with a soft smile and a gentle rumble, "you are way too much of a sweet talker Leo."

Leon noticed the worry right away and narrowed his eyes a hair in worry of his own. "What're you worried about?"

Cynthia hesitated, sitting back on her heels and looking down at the floor, "It's nothing."

Leon gently cupped the right side of her face and lifted her head so that she was looking at him, "Cyliani…"

Cynthia's breath hitched at the Wivano nickname and leaned into his touch, "I don't want this to end," she rumbled with a faint whimper, "I'm scared you'll reject me when you get bored of me Lio," she called him a nickname of her own, "I don't want to lose my mate," she half closed her eyes, "not when I need him at my side."

Leon's amber eyes were soft as he spoke in a gentle rumble, "this'll never end Cynthia," he cradled her face in his hands, "I love you, I really, really do. You'll never lose me."

Cynthia looked vulnerably at him, "promise?"

Leon smiled softly, "I promise."

"Leon, what're you doing?" Fin's voice snapped him from his memories, "woah, Cynthia looks terrible! What in the world happened?"

Leon blinked and swallowed the lump in his throat before responding, "I had to reject her, that's what happened," he said in a gruff voice.

Fin's usually mischievous green eyes were remarkably concerned as he looked at his friend, "StarClan above Leon, Cynthia's your partner?" He asked in a hushed voice, the racoon wild looking worriedly between his best friend and their mutual friend. "And your dad made you reject her?"

"Yeah," Leon said before he shouldered his backpack and walked toward Cynthia, where she was sitting exhaustively in a wheelchair and looking like she wanted to be at home and not here at school where Leon was. He ignored Fin telling him to leave her be and brushed off his hand when he tried to stop him, he wanted to talk to her, to tell her something, anything to make the pain in her eyes go away. He arrived in front of her within a few moments, but was blocked by Paige and Haliah, Cynthia's older sisters were both giving him death glares and they didn't look too happy that he was approaching their younger sister. "I just want to talk to her," he explained simply before he gently pushed them both aside and crouched down in front of Cynthia. "Hey," he spoke in a soft tone, amber eyes darting over her face and looking for her hidden emotions, "you okay?"

Cynthia leaned her head back against the headrest of the wheelchair and just looked at him, her blue eyes pained and exhausted. She didn't speak a word, unable to gather the energy to speak to the boy who had rejected her and ruined the rest of her life in many ways.

Leon leaned forward and gently brushed his fingers over one of her cheeks in a comforting fashion, "I'm so sorry," he told her in a hushed voice, "I never meant to hurt you like this."

Cynthia dropped her eyes to her lap to avoid looking him in the eye and her eyes turned rather misty, like she wanted to cry, but she did lean into Leon's touch a small amount. She looked like she wanted to cling to him and cry till the experience was over, but at the same time she knew that there was only a low chance that it would end well for her.

Leon turned his hand around and cupped one side of her face, gently stroking her cheek with his thumb to comfort her and as an attempt to help her fight off the ice threatening to pierce her heart and her wild. "Holly's trying to find a way to fix this," he told her softly, "I want us to be okay, together."

Cynthia leaned further into his touch and her blue eyes flickered up to his before they closed, silently drawing comfort and strength from Leon's touch and his words.

Leon could tell she wanted to speak, but both didn't know what to say and was flat out exhausted from everything. "Cia," he spoke softly, and he could hear Fin's footsteps as he approached them all, "I didn't mean anything I said in the rejection I swear, my feelings haven't changed at all."

Cynthia reopened her eyes, forcing them open so that she could look at him, and finally speak. "I know," she rasped in a hoarse tone before abruptly switching languages, "Yuliana, Leo." [I love you Leo.]

Leo's throat closed up and he nodded before he stood up and leaned over, brushing his lips against her forehead and speaking to her in the same language, "Yuliono Cyliani," [I love you Cyliani,] he murmured just loud enough for her to hear, "Yulionsu mius." [I love you so much.] He saw Cynthia close her eyes at the words and he could only hope she believed him.

I know this isn't as long as the previous part, but I felt like this was a perfect ending point for the chapter! I think there's going to be three to five parts from how everything is going so far, and I'm excited because you guys get to see a lot of the work I've put into the world! :D Plus I'm working on a new Wilds AU called Wildy Famous, and it's based off of a rp I did with LordOblivion that I've redone three times now :P