That Illegal Kiss Chapter 11: Get Back, a shugo chara! fanfic

That Illegal Kiss... – Chapter 11/Get Back... –

[Sup my people!? I just wanted to apologise for how short chapter 10 was ^^; I was planning on it being a lot longer so I am sorry if you were disappointed with that. In the last chapter Amu finally passed here exams and was about to tell Ikuto her decision of choosing him before he told her to leave to prevent her from becoming hurt because of her relationship with Ikuto. What will happen next? Keep reading to find out! Also thank you to everyone for the helpful criticism! Love you guys! Keep reading, reviewing, faving and following – I do not own Shugo Chara! or the characters, I only own the storyline.]

P.S - Sorry about being late with this update, I'm currently taking a break from the stress of home life and family to be with my boyfriend for a while. I still want to thank you all for the support you have all been giving me. I hope that you are all enjoying the story, please be honest in your reviews on if there are things that you don't like in the story. Thankies :3

Amu's POV

I ran home with tears threatening to leave my eyes, I kept it together until I got into my room and the reality finally hit me, I locked my door and fell to the floor scrunching my hair in my hands as I began to violently sob. My chest was killing me as my heart deflated and shattered, I had finally decided that he was the one for me...why did he have to throw it all back in my face? I barely even got the chance to tell him how I felt, my sobs got worse as images of his perfect face and eyes flashed across my memory.

'He probably wants nothing more to do with me...now that I am working for Easter...' I looked up at my window before hugging my knees to my chest and sobbing some more, my chest was feeling heavy as my body began to slow down.

I slowly dragged my body over to my bed as I lay there for what felt like hours, just staring up at my ceiling, all I could think of was him and the way I felt...I was finally accepting that there was no one but him that could take my heart. I turned to my side as I hugged myself as if it helped to take away the pain, but I was wrong. I wanted it to be his arms around me and I wanted to feel safe again, now I felt vulnerable and weak.

'I'm such an idiot...it never would have worked any way...he didn't even come after me...' I whispered to myself trying to force myself to get better, that's when I heard my phone begin to vibrate, I sat up and rubbed the tear stains off of my cheeks as I answered my phone.

'Hello?'

'Did you mean what you said?' I froze as I heard his voice. 'Amu, are you there?'

'It doesn't matter now Ikuto. Just leave me alone...' Tears threatened to leave my eyes once more as I moved my thumb to the disconnect button.

'WAIT! Please Amu! Just hear me out...' I felt the tears silently fall down my cheeks as I paused to await his reply. 'I don't want you near me because you will be more inclined to be hurt, that doesn't mean I don't want you around.' I mentally sighed. 'Please Amu...I don't want you out of my life for good! Just until I can find a way to save you.'

'You just don't understand...' I almost whispered, I heard his end go silent before continuing. 'I was about to pour my heart out to you Ikuto, I didn't expect you to tell me to leave...especially just because I took the trial contract with Easter...that really hurt...I'm honestly not sure if you feel all that serious about me...at least not to the extent you continued to say...' I paused to see if he was still there or if he had a response and sighed as I heard a muffled sob. I rolled my eyes and kept my thumb on the disconnect button. 'Just come and find me when you decide that we can be together.'

'No Amu ple-' I disconnected the call and dropped my phone to the bed as I felt another wave of depression wash over me. I didn't want to end the call, I wanted to sit there and talk to him for hours, but I knew I couldn't...at least not yet, not until he decided that me and him could be together, regardless of the situation.

Ikuto's POV

I stared at my phone with tears running down my face, she had hung up on me, I really didn't blame her, I knew she needed support right now, from me especially but I somehow couldn't bring myself to support her while working with them. I sighed as my arm fell down to my side, I felt defeated. Easter had more than likely planned the whole thing after seeing how close we were after her performance, I bit the inside of my mouth to try and contain my anger, although I failed.

All of my anger towards Easter began to boil over as I began throwing books across the room, punched the wall and tipped over the couch before feeling a firm hand on my shoulder. 'Ikuto, what are you doing?' I sighed deeply as I shrugged the hand from my shoulder and turned around to see both Kukai and Utau behind me.

'Brother why are you crying?' Utau walked over to me and embraced me, I didn't respond to her hug, I just stared at Kukai. 'You need to watch over her. Both of them...I clearly can't make any of the correct decisions...just make sure that they are both safe or I won't forgive you.' Utau looked up at me as I gently pushed her off of me, I walked past Kukai before feeling his hand on my shoulder once more, I turned to face him before feeling my back hit the wall behind me.

'Are you a fucking idiot or what?'My eyes widened as I heard the difference in Kukai's voice. 'She needs you right now...She was going to confess to you! What the hell have you done!? Why the fuck isn't she here anymore!?' He shouted as he stared at me with his full blown anger set in his eyes and carved onto his face.

'Utau, get back, or go upstairs. I don't want you to get hurt if this goes sour.' I said cautiously before seeing her take a step towards us. 'I mean it Utau. Get upstairs, right now.' I sighed in relief when she listened to me and ran upstairs. 'Souma...you don't understand, she has already accepted that trial contract...she was going to get hurt because of me...' I looked down before he threw me across the room, I stood up with a grunt as I held my shoulder that had once again been injured.

'You really are an idiot! Amu loves you! You won! And then you just threw her away because you are afraid of her getting hurt? Has it ever occurred to you that now you aren't with her that she will be more inclined to get hurt!?' I stared at him once more as the thought struck me, he was right, what if she was going to be hurt more than my sister because I'm not there to protect her? What if they were currently plotting stupid things against her to hurt me? I grit my teeth as I put a hand to my forehead, they had planned this out so well that I was falling into the trap. They were slowly taking everything away from me that I cared about, my father, my sister and now my girl...I stood slowly as I knew it was too late to go to Amu, I had to think up a plan first, I pushed my way past Kukai as I made my way to my staircase.

'Where the hell do you think you are going?' Souma grabbed my shoulder to stop me from moving. 'I'm doing something right for a change! Now get the hell off of me!' I shouted at him as I punched him, he let go of me as he stumbled back and Utau came running down the stairs. 'Utau! No! Get back upstairs!' I yelled before she jumped in front of Kukai and hugged him. His face instantly softened as he wrapped his arms around her in response to her hug.

'How'd I get here? What happened?' Kukai asked as Utau filled him in on his actions, I leaned against the wall going up to the first floor before he sheepishly scratched the back of his head. 'Sorry Tsukiyomi.' I shook my head as Utau looked up at me. 'I know that look brother...what scheme are planning now?' Utau asked as I slowly began to make my way upstairs. 'I'm going to bring them down, and you two are going to help me. I don't want Amu involved with them for any longer than needed. Just give me time to figure out my plan.' I smirked as she nodded, Kukai was grinning as I made my way up to my room.

2 MONTHS LATER

Amu's POV

I was sitting in the taxi me and Kukai had pick us up, I had been miserable since that night. He hadn't contacted me or come to see me. My heart was always hurting from the feeling of being betrayed. Kukai said that every time he had been over there Ikuto had been checking the internet for updates on my progress but nothing had been released yet, it wouldn't be released until me and Kukai signed the full contract. I was watching the world whizz by as my mind became a jumbled mess again, I gripped my hair in both my hands before feeling Kukai's hand grip onto mine gently, I looked over at him.

'When are you going to take those sunglasses off Amu? I know that you are feeling messed up inside but I need you to be strong. I know things have been difficult for you but please trust me.' He smiled sympathetically at me as I sighed and released my hair from my hands, he released his seat belt and moved one seat closer to me before putting the seat belt back on.

'I'm miserable Kukai. You know I can't just pick myself up and make everything seem ok because it isn't. He clearly doesn't want to be with me, he lied to me, do you know how much it hurts to have someone fill you with love then just drop out when it gets too difficult?!' I felt him tense up next to me before I heard him sigh and rip my sunglasses off to reveal my under eye circles and blood shot eyes.

'When was the last time you slept Amu?' I tried to grab my sunglasses back from him but he wouldn't give them. 'I have been sleeping, just not much. Now can I have them back!?' I snatched them from him and slipped them back on. 'You should be taking better care of yourself. I'm really disappointed in you Amu...' He had an angry look on his face as he looked out the window.

'Why are you disappointed Kukai?' I asked with slight annoyance, he kept moaning about how I wasn't acting the same and how I had become emotionally detached but it had nothing to do with him. 'Because you let them do whatever to you now! You have no self respect! You aren't the Amu I know and that pisses me right off!' I could tell his anger was growing as he tore his attention away from the window and straight at me, the fire in his eyes could have melted my sunglasses right off of my face.

'I just don't see the point anymore Kukai, at least I'm not sleeping with them!' I shouted back at him feeling my anger filling my body. 'But how long until you start sleeping with them?' His eyes had gone into small slants now and I felt a lump form in my throat, I knew what he was trying to say, when we first joined I kept telling the creeps to keep their hands off but after a while I just gave up, they were touching me and trying to kiss me at every chance they had, I bite the inside of my mouth and looked away.

Shortly afterwards we had pulled up to the studio, today was the day that I was finally recording my demo. I was feeling quite nauseas as I had chosen songs that were reflecting the way I was feeling. I felt betrayed and hurt but the love for Ikuto was still taking up most of my heart, it hurt so much to think about him and the small love that we had shared, I just wanted to feel his lips against mine once more, his arms embracing me and keeping the assholes away from me.

We made our way into the building and had our usual group of 'body guards' to take us upstairs. Me and Kukai referred to them as the 'babysitters' because we knew that they weren't there to keep us safe, due to the fact that we weren't known by the world yet, they were just there to make sure that we didn't run off, I hated the feeling of them keeping us trapped but I was putting up with it because it is my dream.

A FEW HOURS LATER

We had been in the recording studio for a good 3 hours going over what songs were going on the CD, Kukai was keeping me next to him at all times, he was trying to protect me although I was fearing for his safety, the other guys that joined us were furious when Kukai had said that he wasn't leaving my side today and that I 'wasn't feeling well'.

'Amu, time to record, get your ass in position so we can hurry up and finish.' I flinched as one of the babysitters grabbed my arm roughly and pushed me towards the sound proof room, locking me inside as I put my headphones on and stood in front of the mic. The music started up and I felt a lump form in my chest as I was swamped with thoughts of Ikuto, I began to sing my heart out to 'Get Back'.

As the music finished I got thumbs up from Kukai, I was forced to sing it 3 more times to ensure the pitch was perfect, afterwards I recorded 'The Only Exception' I had to sing that one 5 times followed by 'For The First Time' I was beginning to get frustrated after singing it 10 times with no water.

'Hey can I get a bottle of water or something!? My voice feels like somebody has been scratching it to shit!' I shouted down the mic before seeing one of the babysitters hand Kukai a bottle and push him inside with me, the door was once again locked as Kukai handed me the bottle. 'Thanks...' He slipped his headphones on as we looked through the lyrics for our next song. We recorded the song from our performance, 'Hush', I felt tears rushing up to my eyes as we finished the song. 'Well done, you finally sang a song correct first time. Just make sure the next one is that quick and we won't have any problems.' I gritted my teeth as Kukai looked over at me.

He wasn't allowed out of the room as I recorded my last song 'My Happy Ending' as I was singing I felt my emotions go into overload and began to cry, it wasn't noticeable until the end of the second verse where I couldn't continue. I felt my headphones come off and strong arms embrace me. 'You need to pull it together Amu. They don't look happy, you need to get it together and finish the song.' He whispered into my ear away from the mic, I nodded into his shoulder before feeling him ripped away from my body abruptly.

'Tsk tsk tsk Amu. We were doing so well, we're going to have to teach you what happens when you waste our time.' I flinched as I heard the evil spew out from my 'managers' mouth, I began kicking and punching against the babysitter that began dragging me out from the studio, the last thing I saw was Kukai struggling away from another babysitter.

Kukai's POV

Amu came back in about 20 minutes later with her sunglasses over her red stained cheeks, my heart dropped as I could see small bruise on her shoulder. She put her cropped leather jacket back on in attempt to hide it, but it was already too late. She shrugged off the babysitter as she stood behind the mic, I was made to sit on the couch to watch hopelessly as she struggled with the song.

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread (breakable thread)

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted (that I wanted)
We were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it (we lost it)
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say (they say)
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they (but so are they)
But they don't know me
Do they even know you (even know you)?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do (all the shit that you do)

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

He was everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You were everything, everything that I wanted (that I wanted)
We were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

As she finished I saw her body almost collapse to the floor, I stood up and waited for her to be allowed out of her tiny prison. She took my hand and held it tightly as we waited for to hear the verdict. 'That was a good session.' I breathed a sigh of relief as we both had a CD handed to us. 'Go home and listen to it, then when we are next in the studio we can tweak the flaws.' After he finished he snapped his fingers and we were being 'escorted' downstairs once more.

I grit my teeth as we got into the cab that was waiting outside for us. 'Amu...what did they do?' I asked carefully as she looked out the window, I put my hand on her bruised shoulder gently and she flinched. 'Nothing...' Her voice was weak and fragile, it sounded as if she didn't have a soul anymore. I took her sunglasses off carefully and she turned to face me, I gasped as I saw her face, her eyes had finally lost their sparkle. They had broken my best friend, after hearing from Ikuto how Amu was after the fight between us I could tell that this was worse than then. Her skin had lost its natural glow and looked too pale, I couldn't recognise this person. To be honest I was surprised she had lasted 2 months, I was dreading the day that this was going to happen.

'Amu, you need to talk to him...' I said carefully to ensure she heard each word I spoke before seeing her eyes tear up and he head shake slowly from side to side. 'I can't...' I felt my anger build up again as I gripped her arms gently and shook her gently. 'You're breaking right in front of me and I know that the only person that can fix you is him! As much as I hate to admit it, I know that it's what is best for you! You need to go and talk to him!' I spoke the words carefully once more as I gritted my teeth. She stared at me blankly and gave no response as we pulled up outside her house.

After she had her sunglasses back on the driver opened the door to let us out. As I got out after Amu I was somewhat pleased to see her waiting for me, we both had a hold of our CD copies as the driver left us in complete silence. I glanced down towards Ikuto's house to see him standing outside, Amu looked at me but didn't dare to follow my gaze, she knew who I was looking at and that finalised her decision to make her way inside her house.

'Amu hold up! You know you need to talk to him...' I said as Ikuto remained outside his house, I could see the shock on his face and the anger that had begun to build up inside of him. 'I'll be in touch...' I heard her whisper before she left me standing on the side walk, I sighed as I made my down to Ikuto.

Ikuto's POV

I saw Kukai making his way down to my house and so made my way back inside, leaving the door open, he followed me in and shut the door behind himself. 'She's getting worse...' I said as I clenched a fist. 'Yeah, she refuses to come down here to see you Tsukiyomi...but that is what she needs. I don't even recognise her now.' I heard Kukai speak as Utau joined us downstairs.

'We got copies of the CD today, they kept forcing her to sing without water...and I think they've begun beating her...' My attention turned to him, my eyes blazing with anger as I put a hand to his throat and pushed him against the wall. 'They're beating Amu?' my voice was laced with poison, Utau slapped me across the face snapping me out of my rage.

'What do you mean you think they've begun beating her Kukai?' She asked calmly as I retracted my hand and felt my now hot cheek. 'She began crying during one of the songs to the point where she couldn't continue singing anymore. I tried to calm her down but it didn't work...they dragged her away and kept me in the studio...when she came back she had lost her soul...her eyes don't sparkle anymore! I am running out of ideas to keep her sane!' Kukai turned his attention to me, his eyes full of desperation. 'I don't know what to do now Tsukiyomi! She needs you more than ever now!' I felt my breath catch in my throat as I walked over to the window.

'I know it's what she needs Souma. But I can't, not until she is out of Easter, but have you both been sticking to our plan?' I was staring out of the window, although there were other houses between our houses I was looking to try and get a feel for how Amu was feeling. 'I've been carrying around the hidden camera...but I don't know how we are supposed to help Amu with it...' Utau stood next to me and handed me two DVDs. 'I know that it might not help Amu but this is the best footage from my camera. Kukai we need yours, the press will be here soon for a meeting about exposing Easter.' Kukai hesitated but handed the camera over to Utau who put it on the table.

'I think you need to hear her CD Tsukiyomi.' I turned slowly to face Kukai who had the CD in between two of his fingers. 'I need you to realise how badly her voice has been affected by you not being there.' I took the CD from him with shaky hands. After hesitating I slipped the CD into my stereo and braised myself.

As her voice sung out from my speakers I felt my heart crumble away, it was definitely Amu, but the emotion was no longer there. I felt my cheeks dampen as we listened in silence to each and every song. I could hear a vast difference in 'My Happy Ending', I gripped onto my shirt as I stopped the CD. 'Utau, go and call the other companies...tell them that they need to get over here for the meeting with the press...we're letting them in on the scandal. I know that they are interested in taking Amu on and I need them to see the difference in her voice to really shine a light on what's happening at Easter.'

Utau nodded before she made her way up to her room, I sat down on the sofa with a hand over my mouth. 'She needs you Tsukiyomi. I know I keep saying it but it's because I am really worried about her. I don't want her doing something stupid.' I looked up at him in silence, my eyes feeling tired from the silent tears, I wiped my face as I took in a deep breath.

'I know Souma...you let me know if she shows any signs of self harming, if she does then I'll talk to her...I know it's difficult for you, it's more difficult for me because I know that they have begun touching her...Utau has seen it...but I need you to keep her strong for me...I will be with her again soon.' I replied as I sat back and ran a hand through my hair.

'Do you still love her?' I was surprised by the serious tone in Kukai's voice as I looked up at him. 'Of course I do Souma, it's taking all my effort to stay away from her. I know that she has people watching her and that's why I have to stay away or she will be in more trouble...' I sat up as I took my phone out to show Kukai a picture of Amu set as my wallpaper. 'She doesn't know I still have this set as my wallpaper...it's the only way I can remind myself that keeping my distance for now is the best decision.'

'I'm glad...' I slipped my phone back into my pocket and looked at him with a slight confused expression. 'I'm glad she fell for you instead of me...' He took a seat next to me as I continued watching him. 'I never would have been able to protect her the way you have...she is lucky to have someone like you looking out for her, even if she doesn't know about it.' I smiled slightly as I punched his arm gently. 'Just keep her safe for me. I'm coming to save her...'

[There we have it guys! I know that this one dragged on a little but it's going to be all worth it so I hope you don't hate me too much :/ - Also I want to take this opportunity to thank you all for your ongoing support! I know haven't said it much and I really should ^^; I'll try to meet all of your expectations with this story ^^ love you all! Peace out ;) xx]